Date: Mon, 06 Nov 2006 20:31:11 +0000
From: Meghan Micheals <tears_of_the_damned@hotmail.com>
Subject: Speechlessely in Love 2

its been a week since kattie and i had our little exploration
and well so far no body else knows about it. We do however
sneek a kiss here and there and try to hang out just by
ourselves.Our favorite thing to do is to go to the pakrs in
around town and hold hands its like we are being public about
it but it just stops there. With all the tree's around us it
isnt like we are really in public but it feels nice to be
free.

Back to school i wish the march break would never end, we
promised each other that we would tell our friends the first
week back to school because it felt like the thing to do. I
dont think liz will be to mad but i think meghan will flip,
she turned really christian on us which isnt a bad thing to
be christian but she is kind of like a nun now becuase if the
bible doesnt like it she is not apart of it, and well
homosexualitly isnt in the bible unless basicly saying "stone
the gays" i my self am a christian person same with katie we
just dont think that god looks down on us becuase we are gay.

I dont think our friend Ashely will care either, i know
sleepovers will i dont think they will have many of those
since well they will feel awkward and think that we have a
crush on them or sumthing or that we want to play weird sex
games or sumthing, which no im not into just because im gay
doesnt mean that i love everybody that is the same sex as me
just my one and only angel katie

first monday at school, katie came to my house to catch hthe
bus with me that way if i deicded to tell some of my friends
at school about us on the bus i wouldnt have to do it alone.
it doesnt really matter though it will be hard no matter
what.

first class ive been texting her all class on my phone as to
when to do it we are both confused we thought of saying it in
a note then over msn then over the phone or just have them
catch us or sumthing.

break we took Liz to the bathroom with us just to maybe go
over we werent sure.

um liz we have something to tell you, said katie

what, asked liz in a happy tone

well i just hope that this doesnt ruin our friend ship, liz
we really like you, you are very deer to us both you have
been my friend since grade 7, then katie piped in and well
liz youve been my friend for ever but theres sumthing you
dont know and i would well we would like it if you didnt tell
anybody, we would like to tell everybody on our own but you
are the first, liz were gay.

the look on her face wasnt anger or happiness it was just
stuned, as soon as we went to ask her how she felt about it
RRRRIIIINNNGGG the bell rang.

I ran off to french while katie ran off to math, again we
couldnt stop with the text messaging i really wanted to know
how liz felt about it and same with katie we werent sure
becuase she didnt show us a face with emotion, gosh lunch is
going to be weird.

lunch time hit and liz wasnt sure how to act around us she
just kind of talked to us but wasnt meaning what she was
saying she just wanted to fill the box and remove all the
awkwardness. I felt really bad for she wanted to ask us but
wasnt sure how to bring it up and plus we were with out other
friends so it was hard to bring it up for her.

good thing that liz like always has to go to the bathroom at
lunch.

Liz um we just wanted to know how you felt about us? asked
kattie

well..um..its ok..i guess replied liz but the words took so
long to escape her mouth

Liz we want to know if its ok with you becuase, well if it
isnt then our relationship can not be becuase we really like
you, your a great friend to us.

with that kattie and i had tears in our eyes unsure of what
liz would say to us.

but i think liz understood how much this meant to us and how
serious we are about what we are doing and she just said well
love is good and if you guys are in love then go with im ok
with it. we gave her the biggest hug yet and liz in a joking
tone said this is your first official gay hug becuase before
you were just sneaking around it was really funny.

next on the list to tell was ashely, i was glad that we had
told liz becuase she could help us get threw this one and
help us on how to break the news

the next person we want to reach is ashely because well she
is a good friend of ours and she is very close to meghan and
can help break the news to her i hope meghan wont get mad at
us.

when we told liz that we were going to tell ashely she said
that ashely already knows, kattie and i looked at each other
oddly then liz broke the ice, well umm ashely saw you guys at
the movies. Kattie and i looked very surprized the kattie
said, thats weird angie and i went to the spanish movies so
nobody would see us.

well her mum wanted her to get in touch with the spanish in
her becuase her nan was coming down to see her next
spetember, said liz

all thats left is meghan, o gosh im so scared to tell her
said kattie.

well if we all go to her and tell her that you guys are gay
then maybe it will be better, said liz

wait we should pretend that we told her first and have her
talk to you guys about it and tell her to tell you guys, said
angie

wow thats a great idea angie, said kattie

LUNCH TIME AT SCHOOL

ummm meghan can we talk to you, i said as kattie and i were
walking down the hall towards her.

ya sure shoot said meghan

well umm we cant talk her said kattie in a nervous voice,
maybe we could talk in the gym

sure..ok, replied meghan

all three of us walk down to the gym together kattie and i
walking to our death .

meghan, there is no easy way to say this but, well you mean a
lot to us so we wanted you to be the first to know about this
and were wondering could u tell liz and ashely about it? i
asked

well i'll try replied meghan

ummm meghan were gay

im sorry what i think i heard you wrong said meghan truely
astonished

meghan were gay said kattie breaking into tears knowing that
this wouldnt be good

i heard you i was just hoping you were joking, thats when you
yell out april fools day said meghan kind of pissed off.

meghan were sorry

sorry doesnt cut it angie how could u be so fucking sick like
what the hell is wrong with out, i thought u guys were
christian, meghan dont bring out faith into this you know it
has nothing to do with this.

oh my fuck you two little dykes you two are sick as fuck.

with that kattie litterally broke down tears just gushed from
her eyes and she started to run, she was so scared.

meghan what the hell is you problem do you know how hard this
was for us to say, im not even sure why were friends i
thought i could trust you now i know i can only trust you to
let me down
i ran to catch up with kattie

kattie was still in tears so we walked home threw the woods
to get home quicker i held her hand like a mother guiding her
young, kattie its ok i think she might understand and plus
liz and ashley think that it is ok maybe if she tells them
and they say that they are ok with it, maybe she will change
her mind.

i hope so Angie because i really love you. i took my hands
and lightly wiped her tears and then kissed her, her face in
my hands. time stood still it was like it was just us sitting
in heaven all by our selves and nobody around to judge when
we stoped my hands were around her waist, her cute red eyes
still puffy but a smile a sad one but still a smile showed
apon her face, ok angie if you say so, but could we just go
to your house for the rest of the day, no prob kattie.

back at my house were just sitting on the couch katties legs
on top of mine laying down watching a movie, i think it was
harry potter but just the tail end.

then another movie popped on it was a scary movie i think it
was gothica, kattie do you want to watch this or do u want to
watch clock stoppers, kattie was a big fan of clock stoppers,
well i want a scary movie so we watched gothica. she's so
cute when she's scared everytime something scary would happen
she would grab my arm and move closer and closer to me, now
im glad i chose the scary movie and think this is why she
chose it too.

in the shower seen she got really scared and said "angie hold
me im scared" i still didnt do anything becuase she did this
before we were true lesbians that i wasnt sure if she was
joking, angie you know that if u listend to me say angie hold
me and actually did it maybe we would have been going out by
know i always meant it when i said it.

then it got quiet and i slowly turned to face her and gently
set her down on the couch and kissed her face soft and light.
when we stoped kattie said wow you kiss like an angel she
wispered, then i replied with something really corny but it
was from the heart, becuase im kissing one then she looked
into my eyes and she must have read them right becuase she
then started to slowly lift her top until it was over her
head then took her hands and slowly raised my top we were
just on the couch looking at each other her lying down and
mean leaning into her just a little bit, i gently pulled her
up to face me and just hugged her and cried she cried to
gently tears ran their way down my back i knew we were crying
for the same reason our relationship was risking a downfall
and we both cried for believing it. we just sat in each
other's arms trembling so scared but still felt so safe in
our own little world.

moments later we realized we have just been holding each
other for 2 hours with our shirts off and in tears kattie was
the first to make a move, everytime we touch we both feel
nervous becuase with one gentil touch you can easily drop and
lose everything. we looked at each other and then knew what
to do. kattie slowly started kissing my body moving down
further and further from my face to my chest then  to my
thighs her touch sent shivers down my spine kattie not
wanting to give up yet went back to my face i pleaded no
please go back, it must have been outloud becuase she said
soon enough she kissed me first soft and loving like an angel
then hard and lusting like the devil she wanted all i had to
offor and i felt bad becuase she had so much more to give to
me she then again moved slowly down to my chest then my
thighs again revisting where she left so much pleasure before
this time i was ready to blow she then slowly graced her
finger of my panties the cotten teasing my clit was making me
scream wanting more, always wanting more she then took her
mouth around the band of my panties slowly taking them down
with her mouth once they got past my cunt she said "ohh were
a wet one today" she laughed but the amount of teasing she
was giving me i was near crying i was begging wanting more
she then took her finger and encircled it around my clit i
was moaning now and moving my body trying to get her to touch
my clit but she would avoid it.

close your eyes angie she asked and i did as i was asked
hoping I would be rewarded i soon felt this hard object be
shoved into my cunt and i opend my eyes and scream she had a
strap on and was shoving the large dick in and out of me i
told her that it was to big she just said pain is pleasure i
soon found my self wanting it further and further inside me
and i moved my hips to match her rythmic movements we were
both painting and thats when i first noticed that she was
crying,

 kattie whats wrong, i asked,
 Angie your going to leave me for some guy, she cried
kattie i love you a lot, i jumped of the pleasure poll and
held her in my arms we were both naked and hot which made it
awkward to hold her when she was crying.
Angie you promise i dont want to lose you
I just held her as she cried brushing her hair out of her
eyes and telling her that i would love her forever.
read about us next time as our adventure continues

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should I write more