Date: Sat, 28 Oct 2006 23:33:11 -0400
From: REBECCA SNYE <rebby2005@verizon.net>
Subject: the dream love

	The crisp air hit me like a knife when I stepped on to the train As
I stepped on to the plate form that fall afternoon. I didn't know what to
expect as I did so or what was to come in the weeks ahead. All I knew was
whir I had been and whir I was going. I had grown up in a small New England
town in the state of New York. I had been raised by my mother and
grandparents. Who had died in a crash a car crash landing me here in
London? I was told a distant Friend of the family a Victoria Green would
take me on as a companion.
	I had no Idea in the sliest what that entailed but I knew this she
would feed and cloth me and that was all I was worried about besides it was
a free trip to London and what girl of eight teen wouldn't take
that. Little did I know it was going to be a trip that would change my
life?
	As I stood there on the plate form a man dressed like a driver came
over to me. "Ms. Selby Banks Miss Green has asked me to take you to black
lakes her manner." He said as he opened the door to the car. I got in
wondering what next I looked around the in side of the car there was a bar
and enough seating for fourteen people. I opened the bar good I thought
soda I took a diet coke and sipped it as I watched the streets of London go
by slowly. I watched a mother and a daughter go in a small market at the
red light. Then I picked up the phone so I can speak to the driver and
asked him how much longer until we get to the house or manner as he put
it. "Two hours" the driver had said.
	So I flipped on the TV and started to watch a few sitcoms I had no
clue what they were. I got lose in them so I suddenly realized that we were
in the country I mean real country kind of reminded me of those old
westerns I thought as I watched the fields go by. I turned the TV off as we
went through iron gates with words on them I could not make out. Then up a
circler drive to a hug building that remembered me of a mid evil mad house
or something. The door way suddenly caught my eye it was an English one but
with four Greek calums on the out side and steps leading to a heavy cherry
oak wooden door. I had never seen something so grand in all my life.
	As I stepped into the front hall the first thing I noticed was the
black and white tiled floor. Then the wooden winding stair cases fallowed
immeatly by the huge crsyle chandler which had four lights on it. As I was
admiring it I noticed a woman at the top of the stairs in a black Victorian
gowned with a matching black hate and gloves and white powdered face she
looked like a woman out of the Victorian age. I was soon to learn she was
far from it. She called to a servant to take my things to my room and
motioned me to come up the stairs.
	We walked in a small sitting room decorated in the Victorian style
was well I could not help but notice everything was in red right down from
the carpet to the curtains to the walls. There were small tables around the
room with books and one had a checkers board on it. She motioned me to sit
I sat in a wooden chair a crossed from a divan that she sat on.  I noticed
as I did so Victoria was a little older then she looked she looked about Id
say forty years in age. She was stairing at me looking me up and down
slowly as I sat there.
	"Well then I am Miss. Green but when we are alone call me
Victoria. I am sorry to hear about your parents. You may wonder why I
wanted you here well to do my odd earns you see I am an actress I do
Victorian plays hence the dress I just got off of work." She said as a
servant brought in tea and placed it on a small table in between them.  She
proceeds to pour me some. "I may ask you to do some odd things for me don't
tell any one these things. You see I have no children and I am lonely so I
need some one to well keep me company. Well you must be tired off to bed
you go." She said dismissing me.
	A maid met me out in the hall and lead me up to my room with
instructions if I needed anything to push a button by my bed it was only 12
noon so I unpacked and looked around the room my room was in blue my
favorite color. Wow this women did her research I thought as I looked
around there was a cherry wooden book case of all my favorite writers and
genera's and a small table and a desk with a computer and I started to open
the draws and there was a ton of lined paper and note books and art
supplies. And an entertainment center with a ps3 and a TV and a ton of
movies I loved and a full stocked closet and jewelry box as well.
	I checked out the computer and checked my email I found it to be a
Dell and I was happy. Then walking into the bathroom and went about my
business I noticed the bathroom was done in dolphins she must have done
some research about me I thought. As I walked out I noticed a mini bar next
to my entertainment center I never noticed I took a soda and drank it. Then
changed into my pjs and napped.
	I awoke to bright sunlight and bird's chirping and I looked at the
clock on my bed side table it was 5 am. I noticed that my room had been
picked up.  I went into the bathroom took of my close and ran a bath. I saw
a towel and wash cloth there was soap and shampoo as well. About 20 min
later I got out of the bath and walked a crossed thick carpet to my closet
door. Opened it and hand picked an outfit in which I knew Miss. Green had
bought me. When I did I noticed a door in the back of my closet like a
secret passage way from a dream I looked in it I couldn't believe it was
another bed room and it was decorated it red. I quickly shut the door
because I heard foot steps coming down the hall towards my room.
	"Now today Ms. Banks I need you to run a few earns for me." A voice
said behind me I jumped what seems like completely up into the air. Then
turned right around to face her there stood Miss. Green. Oddly enough in a
pretty Victorian dress.  "Yes ma am I said was I held the outfit in my
hand. "Of course dear you will want to dress first." I was going to say
something but she was gone in a flash of lightning.
	It turns out all her arrens were surprisingly easy and I was done
with them by lunch. I was shocked why she couldn't send one of the
servant's instand of me I thought as I sat at my computer in my
room. Eating the lunch one of the maids had brought me. Just as fast as I
thought this I got an instant message on yahoo I looked over it was my
online girl friend. I leaped to my desk feeling a rush of excitement flow
threw my body from head to toe. I suddenly looked over at the message it
read meet me at midnight in the other room you just found. Then she was
gone.
	 Feeling restless and alone I got walked out of my rooms down the
stairs and out into the gardens no one said I could so I walked them. I
found the rose garden my favorite because as for most woman of my up bring
roses meant everything roses meant love, sex and fewchture. I sat dreaming
of all the times I could have and did get flowers over the years.
	 As I sat looking out of the whole scene thinking back on the one
true love I had when I was so much younger as I sat and dream. She was
everything to me she was my world and yet I had dashed all my dreams for my
family and my world for my family. They were not willing to work with
me. Then she decided to move far away. She never told me whir she was going
and I have never gotten over the pain.
	After I spent a few hours in the garden walking the paths and
smelling the flowers and laying on the grass. I decided to go back to my
room so I slowly got up and walked how the path toward the house up the
main stair case down the long dark halls. Not noticing anything I passed
and opened my room door and grabbed a sandwich that was placed in the mini
bar and some chocolates and a small soda and ate and watched TV.
	Then walked slowly down to the dining hall for dinner and sat down
on the read chair and staired at the food on the cherry wooden table on a
gold rimmed plate. It was chicken alfadeio one of my favorite. In a crystal
whine glass next to it was soda of what kind I did not know Miss. Green sat
at the other side. "So how do you like it here so far?" she asked sipping
whine. I noticed she had an odd look on her face as she looked at me so. I
wondered then what that was about. "I like it fine thanks for everything
its all to my liking and the gardens are so pretty.
	"Good now come over here." Miss Green said from across the table I
slowly got up and a butler moved my chair and my drink then put a checker
board between us. I hadn't played checkers in years I was stunned. I youst
to play with my grandmother before she died. I made the first move and she
fallowed me after. There was a long silence between us before she spoke
again.
	"I have hired a teacher for you to continue your lesions. You are
to go in to town every day get things for me and have two hrs of class
starting the day after tomorrow." She said looking at me her eyes
sparkling.  "A girl your age needs a good education and even a college
degree how you think I got all this money yes some from my parents but most
threw acting." She said and stood up not finishing the game. I stood up
after her. "I have to go to the theater now you are good." She said then
was gone
	After she left me was quiet alone I went up to my room looked at
the time it was seven. God I thought how this night will go on forever. I
found money on my bed and a note that told me to go shopping and have fun
and buy school stuff and a list of books.
	So I had a maid call for the driver took the money ran down the
stairs and took the long drive into the next town and bought the books at
the stores listed on the paper and then went to the nearest mall and bought
some new cds I bought the whole now collection in fact.
	As I was standing in the music store it hit me no one else in the
world could do this. At least no one my age and that my online girl friend
had to be some one in that house. Then I remember the maid saying that the
next room over was Victoria's and I stopped cold. No she can't be the women
I have been talking to. However, if she was it would make since why she is
spending so much on me. I walked up to the counter and paid and met the
driver out side the store told him to take me home and got back into the
limo.
	I was listening to now four all the way home when we pulled up to
the manner I saw a girl around my age in the walk to the house. I was
shocked who was this girl why was she here and what was she waiting for? I
got out and the driver took my bags in. I walked towards her.
	"HI my name is Regina I live next door I saw you the other day and
wanted to know if you want to hang out some time?" she said her blues eyes
drilling into mind sparkling and her blond hair falling loosely about her
face from a pony tale. "Sure here is my number." I said and then she turned
and left as she put the number in her pocket. I walked into the house
handing John the butler my coat. When I got back to my room is it was
ten. God only two more hours I thought it was killing me. The books and cds
were on my desk I put the cds on my enterrainment center and flipped threw
the books science, math,writeing, speech, and history. Great I thought.
	I turned on the TV and watched Roseanne and not realizing it was
eleven I got into a night gown of white satin and fixed my hair so. Then I
sat at my computer and played on pogo for a little while I was playing
sweet tooth when I heard a clock some whir in the house chime 12
midnight. I checked my points I had 56.459. I shut down the computer fixed
my hair and walked threw my closet into the next room and to the bed.
	There was Miss. Greene smiling at me I took a step back in shock
then realized it was her that I had been talking to online that she was a
old friend of the family she had took me in but not as a earned girl. But
as a lover. I was to be her lover in exchange for school and board.  She
walked swiftly over to me and kissed me passionately my head in her
hands. I did nothing nor said nothing I liked Miss. Greene from the moment
I saw her any way. She moved away and I got on my knees and started to undo
her bottoms of her dress. Removing her ungarments I started to suckle her
nipples.
	Slowly moving her to the bed I started to feel her love juices flow
over my fingers that were inside her then she felt the heat of desire and I
lay there beside her. Wondering if she was to fill mine. "I take that you
do understand I am your girl friend your lover, care giver and your
mistress if you are good you will be rewarded if not you won't."  Victoria
said moving over my breast and suckling and playing with my nipples.
	I could feel the sweat roll off me and my citrus throbbing for her
to use it. She then moved her ever so soft hands over my body and deep
inside. Then I felt the heat and lay next to her. She moved her out
stretched arm so I could lay in it like a child and be held. She stroke my
hair until I fell asleep.
	I awoke the next morning to birds cherping and sun threw the
windows the room had been picked up and the curtains opened I looked at the
clock on her bed side table it was noone and there was a note near me.

	   My darling Shelby

	   Yes all the servants know ofcourse and you are not to run my
earns I have servants for that. You are to be my lover and to the out side
world my air and companion as you know you will be taken care of and not
tell any one a thing out side ring for the maids as soon you wake for food
and I have cancled your morning classes.

                                        Love,
				Victoria

	I ran to my room threw out the letter and rang for a maid to bring
me lunch
	And got on the computer. I was playing a game on pogo as always as
I ate when and im popped up it was Victoria. "Darling I am going to be gone
a few days I have to be on the stage. Why don't you go into the village
today and enjoy the air instead of sitting around love you so."  Then she
signed off.
	Thinking that she was right I grabbed some close and my cell and
had the car brought around her black limo and watched tv all the way in to
town and stopped at a store and bought my self some more cds and clothes 3
tops and laundry to be exact. As I was coming out of the store I noticed a
café with small metal black tables on the outside and. I told the driver I
was going across the street and walked in.
	There at the counter was a women about my age and wearing blue
jeans and a plain red sweat shirt her brown hair falling down around her
neck. I walked over to the counter and sat next to her. Then ordered a
coffee and a turkey wrap. "Hi I am Shelby you are?" I sat there and waited
thinking she was not going to answer me then in the lightest voice she said
"Becky" with out looking up she was so shy I noted.
	"Oh I just had a thought do you want to go to the park with me and
shoot some hoops." I sat back and waited for her to answer me. She nodded
her head and smiled. Paid my bill and we walked out in to the street and
walked along the side walk. Towards the nice green rich park I remembered
seeing when I came in to town for my classes.
	 Becky took a basket ball out of her back pack she been wearing on
our walk and threw it to me.  "You know Shelby its funny you wanted to play
because I already was going to but alone." She said suddenly looking
sad. We tossed the ball back and forth for about and hour and then I gave
her my number and told me to call if she wanted to hang and left for
home. Thinking the whole way how much more wonderful my life was now I was
living with victora and wondered how she would take to me having a friend.
	When I got back home and in my room about an hour and an half later
I found all my books laid out with instructions. There was math and history
and science. I started with the math I hated it I finished that with in a
half and hour. Then did the science on the body then moved to the history
my favorite subject. I sat in disbelief it was the history of my favorite
old queen. Queen Elizabeth I knowing all I needed to research I wrote the
answers down quickly and was about to go on the computer when the house
keeper knocked on my door.
	"A Ms. Regina for you Ms. Banks" she said clasping her hands. I
fallowed the maid threw the hall and she let me to the red salon and I saw
Regina sitting there in a pair of blue jeans her hair tied up the way she
had it the day I met her. "Hi" I said wondering what in the world did she
want. John brought in our drinks sodas I had coke and she Pepsi. "I just
thought you might me lonely and I was board" she said looking at me with
those pretty blue eyes.  "Do you want to play yahee?" I said. Thinking to
my self when was the last time I had played that game. I couldn't remember
I called in John and asked him if we had it he said yes and he was gone.
	We sat there for two hours talking about bands and playing yahoo
and monopoly until e got board then I thought lets order a pizza. I took
out my cell and ordered a peperi pizza and told John to tell cook not to
cook dinner. It was about midnight when she finally stood up and said
sadly. "I have to go my Mother needs me home." Regina and I walked slowly
towards the door and she disappeared in to the night air.
	I went up to my room thinking about victora and wishing for once
she was home with me. Remember everything about that night we had made
love. Missing her so and dreaming of her thinking the whole time. She loves
her work we need are space we need our own lives but that still didn't
comfort me any.
	I took off my clothes walked in to the bathroom took a bath feeling
the water over every inch or my body and dreaming of her touching me I
started to play with my heat between my legs.
	About twounity minutes later I was laying in my bed trying to
sleep. I heard this noise coming from Victoria's room I got up and walked
to the closet door and walked in to the room there she was standing there
with suite cases at her feet. I thought tomorrow was the third day what she
came home early. "Oh dear you should be in bed you must be tired after all
the company and school work." She slowly undressed and looked at me as she
did so. "I am so happy you are making friends." She said getting in to bed
with out a night shirt to wear. "So you don't mind." I said hoping I didn't
stutter my words I was so scared.
	" Mind of course not my dear you need friends and you need a life
besides me you are going to be here a long time so you might as well and
give your old friends your address we can have a party for you and them."
There she went playing Mommy I thought again. She motioned to me to get in
bed and I did like a dog I thought she has me under her spell. With that
wonderful body and that voice enough to send me melting. "
	Shelby I am going to have a huge party of my friends and I am going
to tell everyone that you are my companion. They will know everything I
want you to know then." She said grabbing my hands and looking into my
eyes.
	I was stunned so that I was speechless didn't know what to say just
sat there in aw wondering what would happen next and wondering whir I was
going from here.  We didn't make love that night just lay in bed talking
and cuddling until we fell asleep. I awoke at noon to her standing over me
smiling. "Good morning hurry up get dressed the party starts in two hours."
She said then left.
	I sat there studded found my clothes laid out I put it on ate real
fast in my room and waited. I was watching TV for thirty when the maid came
and got me and looked right into my eyes I was scared then at the moment my
hair stood on end. " Miss. Greene a waits you at the time of the stairs."
She said
	I got up and walked slowly down the hall scared out of my life and
there she was in a black dress black velvet dress and had on gray eye
shadow and dark red lip stick. What was she trying to go for the Goth look
I thought as I stood there in aw? She slitely motioned me then some one
announced are entrance and we walked down the stairs arm in arm.  All the
people were there and reports for the London times took our pichture that
was it I was scared now the whole wide world was going to know I was a
lesbian I was scared but in the same sense happy.
	The she stood before everyone and said "welcome to my home and I
would like to introduce you to my lover Shelby Banks." Oh god I thought as
Victoria smiled out at them all. Every one gasped and murmured I new about
me being so young and didn't say a word. We walked down the stairs into the
hall and into the ball room off of it and started to dance everyone
watching us. Then Victoria whispered "Don't worry they will get over it in
time." As she and I danced and whirled a crossed the floor.
	"Yes I know I have just shamed myself from the social rings but I
don't care I rather be me." She said. Then that is when I say Becky and
then Regina in the crowd. Great I thought even they will know and so will
there parents I may not be able to hang out with them.  Great I thought
just great.
             I left Victoria talking with her friends as I walked out into
the garden into the night air. It was cool and crisp. I sat on a bench and
wondered what my Mom and Pop thought when they made her care giver to me I
was stunned and I started to cry. Then I thought back on my childhood when
they were alive and well and happy. That didn't last long because my
thoughts were interrupted and there was Regina comeing up the path from the
house. "Hey she said and sat down beside me and she continued I don't care
that you are a lesbian nor that you are with Miss. Greene I still will be
your friend although there is a lot of grasp and Becky told me she was your
friend but she only wanted you for sex. She sighed and looked out into the
night.
               "Thanks." I said not knowing what else to say as I looked
over the feids I could smell the ocean in back. We sat there not speaking I
could hear the sound from the house of people laughing and talking then I
heard foot steps. There stood Victoria. "There you are!" she said her face
all flushed. "Hello Regina." She said calmly come on my muffin lets go I
want you to meet some one.
             I didn't say a word I just let her take me back into the house
into the hot fire she let me down a hall I never been before and I wondered
to myself why hadn't I explored the house more. Into another sitting room
this one was in purple and there was a woman that was in teal dress and
some what looked like Victoria. "This is my sister Katharine."  Victoria
said and sat down and I beside her on a purple couch Katherine in a chair
facing us. "So this is the famous Shelby I've heard a lot about you. My
sister normal does not percent her lovers to her friends she must really
love you." On that note I didn't know what to say I was in aw. Personally I
hate people that keep there sexuality hidden but I wasn't about to say that
at all.
          We must have chatted about everything from weather to government
to jokeing about me and Victoria getting married. For two hours married I
thought me and Victoria oh god do I? I sat not hearing any thing after that
I must have looked tired cause Victoria suddenly said to me. "Love why
don't you go up to bed my dearest." I said my good night.
         Then like a zombie climbed the stairs went to my room took off my
dress close threw them on my floor and didn't put pj's on or shower climbed
into bed. I and Victoria the thought went threw my head like a whirl
wind. The thought felt good and I could not help think that maybe that
would be the thing I would be set for life. But the other part said you are
young you need other woman in your world. I knew I didn't I had her but I
left it to my clit saying I needed other women. Then I felt Victoria climb
in beside me she smelled so good and wrap her loving arms around me.
       I jumped up to the bed empty of Victoria and a rose with a card on
her side of the bed saying I love you and will u merry me and a little case
I opened it there was a nice diamond ring that was at least five hundred
dollars in cash. Stunned I slipped it on my hand noticing it was a princess
cut. I thought to myself hold up this is all happening to fast and I need
time to think. However, I thought I am fine now finically set for life and
would be even more if I married her. However I don't want to marry for that
reason I want to merry for love.
      My mind was going like a whirl wind as I stood sat there in half
sleep state what to do what to do. So I got a peace of paper and said I
would think on it and handed it to a maid to hand to Victoria and left the
ring in my underwear draw. Took a shower ate some breakfast and walked out
into the cool crisp gardens some how they calmed me the smell of all the
flowers.
      I walked to a fountain and sat on the bench then I decided to walk
down to the beach and sat there for a while in the sand then lay on the
cool stand must have been mid day because the sun was directly over head as
I lay looking at the clouds. I felt the sand at my back and heard the ocean
in my ear ok it wasn't a ocean but a small man made lake I know reader I
lied just seeing if you are with me. I heard the water and the birds as I
lay on the beach then I saw a shadow and sat up there was Victoria.
      "I got your not I understand but I wish you would say yes." She said
looking at me. Then sat down and took my hand in hers. We sat there a while
not saying any thing then she got up and I got up with her and we walked
hand in hand back to the house. "Maybe this is a little fast but I love you
so and I am not young any more and worry about you and shit." She said in a
calm vague voice.
       I felt sorry for her then and we walked into the house and sat in
the nearest sitting room. On the floor in front of the fire and she told
John to bring us some hot coco. Then she started to kiss me and I kissed
her long and deep and passionately feeling I go warm and so child like. "I
wish I had a book to read." I heard myself say not knowing why.
     "Shelby that is right I never told you I have a Library." She got up
helped me up and motioned for me to fallow her we walked up the stairs to
bedroom past her bedroom to a room at the end of the hall she opened
it. There were marble floors in white and cherry books selves all over the
walls. From floor to ceiling. It was like something you see in one of those
old movies or English films and comfortable chairs next to the fire placed
on a red person rug.
      I noticed a table in the middle of the room with a library catalog on
it of all the books and was stunned. It was plain she kept it up and had a
Liberian had too to do all this work. I looked up a romance author found
her book and the call number and went to the self and that was that. "Wow
this is amazing!" I said to Victoria in shock.
       "I am glad you like it because you can have the whole library I
don't know time to read anymore." She said looking at me and rubbing her
hand threw my hair. I smiled at her with such joy. "Is there any thing else
I don't know you have that I maybe would like to know. Any thing else about
the house?" I asked.
       "Yes a matter a fact there is. I've got a basket ball court and in
door swimming poor and hot tub in my basement as well as work out room and
theater. I keep everything up myself including the library I don't hire any
one." She said I was stunned and in awe at the and really in amazement no
wonder she never had time for me she was doing all this. I thought then I
thought of the ring and the look in her eyes and I didn't realize I was
walking in my room I put the book down grabbed the ring not thinking and
handed it to her.  She began to put it on my finginer and we walked down to
the basement me in a daze she ordered campaign and stripped and got in the
hot tub.
           "Well aren't you going to get in my love?" she said. I took off
my clothes and climbed in thinking that this was strange. Not the fact I
was naked, the fact that I was in a hot tub with her just didn't feel
right. I was nervous about the maids and butler walking in on us.  She
moved closer to me and wrapped her arms around me as her other hand drifted
to my clit and started to play with it and I could feel her breath on my
ear as she did so. "Don't worry no one will disturb us I don't let them
down here when I am down here." She said
         I then couldn't help it I moaned in delight and let my body
toldally relax. For the first time sense I had been in that house. Then I
remember my entire stories about this manner my father youst to visit when
he was young why that memory came to me then I don't know but I stopped her
and looked in her eyes. "What is it? She said worried.
        "Are we related I mean I remember my father mentioning the Greene
manner when I was younger he said he youst to spend summers there with the
family." I said. There it was I thought. Oh god please say, no and explain
and quick or I may die.
         "We are I am your father's step sister, but only threw marriage
and not blood. I was the only one out of the two of us that wanted to keep
the house. So he let me for you when you were older and it was arranged
when your father knew you were a lesbian that you were to marry me when you
hit 18.Mean while I met you on the internet not knowing it was you until
your father died I was staying with you and went on your computer real fast
to see if you were on I realized it." She said in a calm voice.
            "So I sent for you and well you know what happened after, I am
sorry." Victoria said, suddenly looking so tired and old and he relaxed and
softened and looked in my eyes begging with the look of love. She really
only wanted to do what was best for me I thought and for herself and keep
the agreement as strange as it was with her brother. Because she wanted to
make sure I was loved and taken care of. Also shown how to manage the
manner to take care of it myself some day.

	    "Victoria?" I said
	    "Yes?"
	    "Continue I understand all" I said

      She stuck her fingers back inside me and thusted them in and out in
till I came holding me as she did so. I moved feeling the water all around
me swam the hot tub the thing was as big was a swimming pool. She came over
and I did the same to her and she relaxed and smiled. "Baby when do you
want to get married?" She asked
       "Any time you want under one condition you show me and tell me all
about this manor and my family." I said looking into her eyes. She nodded
her head and kissed me and then got out of the hot tub and died
off. Walking naked in to the other room and started to bounce a basket ball
slowly. I walked over and we played for an hour remembering my father
telling me how there father my grandfather built them a court and I
realized this was the court.
       Everything made sense now I was raise for this to me a later of the
manor then I remember that we were descendants of king Edward and we were
from his son that was out of wed lock he had given this manor to the sons
mother and everything in it as a shut up gift. I suddenly remember all the
details. I then stopped dead in my tracks.
       "What is it? Victoria asked as she tossed a ball over to the
wall. Slowly came over to me.
       "You look so white are you ok love?" she asked as I sat in the
middle of the court and cried. Then not knowing how to begin. "You remember
all the stories about this place don't you and how shameful your family is
that it?" she asked. I nodded and she took me in her arms and half carried
me up the stairs brought me right into the old fashion kitchen that was
updated like everything in this old house. The cook brought me a hot cup of
coffee. And I sat in shock.
            Victoria got on the phone to the family doctor and then to the
priest about weddings and set a date for five days away. Then turned back
to me and caressed my cheek and sighed. I knew when you saw all you would
take it hard. "John help her up to her room." John walked with me up the
stairs to my bedroom I didn't see nothing as I went I barely remember
it. Then I got in bed a maid changed me and took my clothes. I remember the
doctor giving me a sleeping pill and him talking with Victoria in the hall
about depression then I fell asleep.
         When I awoke and looked around I noticed the date was four days
later and I felt so weak and refreshed at the same time. Victoria was on my
computer and talking on my phone. "No John bring my work up here I want to
be here if she wakes." She got off the phone and continued to write out
bills and look at the screen and do some work for the latest play. I opened
my mouth to speak but nothing came out so I moaned.
          Victoria turned around and looked at me and sat on my bed felt my
head and took the blankets off me. And held a bowl of broth as I drank from
it. And I pointed at water and she had a cup brought for me and started to
explain how I have been in shock for the last four days and how the doctor
drugged me to sleep it was better that way she said.
	  She helped me sit up. Then she asked if I still wanted to get
married tomorrow I shook my head yes.
            I fell back to sleep when I woke again it was dark I looked at
the clock it said 4 Victoria was laying next to me in her night gowned I
moved she opened her eyes. I kissed her and she smiled. Then kissed me back
with out a word I knew she knew I was better and over the worse shock of my
life and over my parent's deaths and just experienced six months of morning
in four days. However, it was funny I didn't feel it besides tired and
drained and I realized I had been crying in my sleep really cry my cheeks
were sticky and she whipped them. I tried to speak and her name came
out. "Victoria." I said
         "I am here my love." She said and hugged me hard.  I don't
remember any thing else into ten the next morning when I was awoke to
pancakes and fresh maple syrup and coffee. I ate like I had never eaten
then a maid brought in a tux for me to wear it was light blue and had black
buttons with a black hanker ceif I knew Victoria picked it out to mach her
dress how she knew I would not wear a dress is beyond me.
            Everyone was at the wedding all my old friend and all my family
what was left of them the cousins and aunts and distant relations. The
press had a field day with it as we walked down the isle and married I
didn't care what any one thought or reputation she was the woman I wanted
the woman that had always cared about me the woman that took me in and took
care of me.
           The receptions had everything food dancing jokes games and
beautiful flowers we were so happy and I felt so at ease I had never felt
like I was home in my life intill that moment I forgot about my messed up
childhood and was thankful I had it now so I would no what good times are.
            As I stood with Victoria looking out over everything from her
top floor belchony I thought now I know what to expect and I am in control
of my life and happy as I can ever be. I guess spending time with her isn't
so bad after all I laughed to myself for thinking this as we walked into
her bedroom and I strippered her slowly.