Date: Mon, 25 Jul 2005 14:11:59 +0000
From: David A <lesbianobsession@hotmail.com>
Subject: Title: The Kiss (FF Romance?)

Title: The Kiss
Author: David
Em@il: lesbianobsession@hotmail.com

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About the story: Originally written in three parts, over a time period of
almost one year (!), I'm not the fastest writer on Earth obviously!
I decided to compile all the parts together into one story. Please excuse
me if my english fails, it's not my native language and I'm not that used
to write in it yet.

There's much much more romance in this story than sex, if you're the kind
of person looking around solely for graphical explicit descriptions you
won't find any here. Please read the story in its entirety, and I hope you
will find it both sexy, sweet and entertaining! Enjoy!



THE KISS.


"All girls welcome - join us and Kiss!"

Painted with pink capital letters on a big black streamer. I looked at it
from where I was
standing next to a black iron-fence. I estimated maybe 40-50 girls where
already gathered.
Mostly teenagers or a few year older girls, but also a couple of women maybe
in their 30s or 40s.
It was hard to tell from from this distance. Men, women, children..
observers. I was of course an
observer, just curious. Nothing else. Just here to see what the fuzz was all
about.
I looked around and I noticed two girls hugging and kissing each other,
there were several girls
holding other girls hands. It made me uncomfortable because I didn't know
where to look. What if
they saw me and thought I was staring on them? The sun was shining and it
was hot. Too hot.
And then my cellphone started buzzing.

-Yeah..?  Hi Jenny. Where I am..?
I looked around and thought to myself "I'm just out shopping".
-I am at the Willow. You know, the park.
I wanted to lie but I always go too nervous to actually pull it off. I am
such a coward.

-Yes.. what? Well.. some kind off demonstration I think, I don't know
really...
I was sweating like a pig. Couldn't she just change the subject?
-It's a... dyke demonstration.. kind off. Yeah. They are trying to set the
world record in
kissing. I.. was just curious what was going on you know..

I needed something to drink. Water.
-It's so damn hot, don't you think.. where are you.. yes, it's just for
girls! I don't know.. yeah...
you are so funny, you think I should right? Who should I kiss then.. a tree?
-No, me.
-Eh.. what..?

I turned around. My very first thought was something like "one of the
lesbian chicks nearby heard me
talking, so she  decided to go in and make a move". But it was just Jenny.

-I was in the neighbourhood, just had to run a little to get here faster.
She looked excited and gave me a big smile. Her cheeks were red and her eyes
sparkled. I knew what
that look meant before she opened her mouth again.
-Let's go Karen, we can't stand here all day.
"And she just arrived here 10 seconds ago.."

She grabbed my hand but I tried to struggle against her.
-No no.. I don't want to. Can't we just stand here and watch it?
-Come on, don't be such a chicken.
She pulled me gently towards her and I continued to act like a little
envious kid. But she was strong
and determined, so I ended up following her anyway. I didn't want this to
turn into a scene or anything.
That would be so embarassing.
-Jenny.. Jenny.. I like being a chicken. It's too many people here.

She stopped and looked at me with her intense blue eyes. Her blonde hair
reflected some of the sunrays
and almost seemed to glow out of itself.
-But you're not a chicken Karen, not really. You just think you are, so you
can get away from doing things
you are afraid of.
I blushed. She was right.

-I know you want too, I can see it in your eyes. Why would you be here
anyway?
I shook my head and my red face was getting hotter every second.
-I was here.. I mean I passed by and there was... I saw..
-Shut up silly. You can't lie.
She gave me a quick kiss on my lips and took my hand again.
-Besides, we have kissed each other before, right? No big deal.

I opened my mouth but I couldn't think of anything to say. I actually wanted
to make out with someone.
And Jenny was a great kisser. She was nice and soft and smelled good. So I
gave up. With a burning
hot blush in my face and a dry mouth.
-We would like to.. participate.

A cute girl with curly brown hair looked up at us and her entire face
cracked up in a big smile.
She had a notebook in one of her hands and a sign with "Kissing couples
please report here"
in the other.
-Great! We definitely need more girls.. so can I take your names?
She looked at me but I was to shy to face it more than a few seconds. I
stared at my feet instead.
I guess she thought we were a couple. I was going to say that we're not, but
that was probably not
the best of ideas. But I really wanted to say "I'm not lesbian, I don't even
know why I'm here..!"

-Jenny Wright.. with a W, W-r-i-g-h-t.
-Right, said the brunette and smiled when she discovered she said something
funny.
Jenny pressed my hand a little harder so I would pay attention. I felt like
a retard.
-Karen, I stuttered. K-karen.. Alden.
-Jenny and Karen, great. Alright, no rules but try to kiss for at least one
minute. You can go over there,
where the other girls are standing..

She pointed out the direction with her pen, then she smiled towards us
again.
-You guys must be one of the cutest couples I've seen here, not that looks
matters but you know..

I wanted to scream "I'm not a lesbian!" but I just swallowed and kept my
mouth shut.
I was beginning to feel more and more uncomfortable with this situation for
every second.
-Thanks, said Jenny and giggled. We get that alot..
She placed one arm around me and kissed me on the cheek. I liked the way she
smelled, no argue
with that. She always had much better taste about parfumes than me.
-Yeah, well.. we will announce the start and then all you have to do is kiss
like crazy!

We walked slowly towards the growing gathering of girls. Jenny arm around my
waist. Her hip next to mine.
Jesus christ, what was I doing? What if any of our friends was here? And now
I was on a "dyke-list".
Did the brunette wrote us together, Jenny Wright with girlfriend Karen
Alden..? I immediately felt stupid
for thinking out dumb things like that. The notebook was just for counting,
they were after all doing this
to set a world record..
Neither Jenny or me will end up in anything ridiculous like a "lesbian
register" or other silly stuff I was
thinking about. Silly me.

-Are you nervous?
-Yeah.. I am. My voice was shaking. Are you?
-Yes, a little actually. But that's fine, I love the thrill. And it's just
for fun, right?
I nodded to agree.
-Sure, just for fun.. we have kissed before. On parties and one time at your
place...
-Yeah...  Jenny smiled even more.
-I almost forgot that Karen.. that time we kissed and dared each other to go
on and on..
that was really cool.
-It was awesome.. or you know what I mean.. it was cool...

What was I talking about? I just kept moving my lips so I didn't have to
think. I felt like I was standing
next to myself, everything was unreal in some way. I couldn't control what
was happening, it just happened
and there was nothing I could do about it. Well, I could just run away from
this place.. but I knew that would
never happen. It was too late to turn back now. Too late for second
thoughts.
But why was I so damn nervous? Really? Why couldn't I be more like Jenny..?

Finally we ended up near two girls that didn't even notice us. One of them
was wearing armyclothes and had short
hair, her girlfriend's hair was red and long, she was dressed up like a
schoolgirl. It looked really weird.
Apparently they didn't care about the world record or about anything else,
they were just kissing kissing and kissing
each other like this was their last moments together. Maybe it was. I
couldn't stop staring at them.

I thought to myself, not for the first time, what the hell was I doing here?
A heterosexual girl (200 % straight,
not even the tiniest tendencies for bisexuality.. no no and no, not here.
Nope.) among a bunch of lesbians.
If they found out I like boys and nothing else but boys, I would probably be
dead meat. They would sink their teeths
into me and eat me alive. "Karen Alder - the enemy! The biggest hypocrite of
the year!"

Shut up! Shut up! How could my twisted mind come up with this crap? Relax,
relax Karen.
You are taking this way too seriously.

Jenny grabbed my waist with both her hands and moved me so I was standing in
front of her.
She looked into my eyes but I avoided her. I didn't know where to look, so I
ended up on her
stomach. What if she thought I was checking her out between her legs..!
Higher.. no, not her breasts..!

-Karen.. Karen.
She pulled me closer to her, too close.
-Look at me.
I looked at her. I was easier this time. She was calm and that made me feel
less hysterical.

-Jenny, just one minute.. please. No more. We can go and get something to
eat or whatever..
-Sure, one minute and then out of here.
-When..

-Listen upp girls!
A megaphone scratched and made some noise. It was the same brunette we
talked to earlier.
She was standing on a small platform with another girl at her side.
-Thank you for coming here this hot hot summerday, we are really happy to
see all of you!
I hope you are up to some hugging and kissing, because today we are going to
set a world record!

Some girls cheered and there was a short applause.
-Come on! You can do better than that!
Jenny laughed and we both applauded this time. I smiled.
The brunette with her curly beautiful hair seemed more pleased with our
feedback this time.
-Thank you very much! Thats more like it... okey, now place yourself in
front of your partner..
She turned around and faced the girl standing next to her, they embraced and
she gave her a kiss.
-This is my girlfriend Maria by the way.. I love her and all this couldn't
be possible without her!
More cheering, shouting and applaudes.

Jenny moved even closer to me, so close her bare stomach almost touched my
bare stomach.
I carefully placed my hands on the sides of her waist, but I was to afraid
to touch the naked skin with
the whole palms so I kept them closed. Tight. Jenny suprised me by tickling
my belly with her long nails.

-No.. stop...
-Don't be afraid. Just put your arms around me. Like this.

Her arms were suddenly around my neck and now I felt her naked skin pressing
against mine.
She was shorter than me, so her breasts ended up just beneath mine, but I
could feel the softness and warmth
of her through the top. I tried hard to visualize a cold shower or a boring
baseball game on tv.

-Look deep in each others eyes.. (the megaphone)
I wrapped my arms around her waist and pressed my hands against her back.
She was warm.
No, she was hot. And I was burning up.

-.. lean in a little closer..
Jenny's mouth was so close I could have reached out with my tounge to touch
her lips.
She kept looking at me and smiling.

-.. closer...
I wondered if I should close my eyes now or after I started kissing her.. I
have never thought about it before.
Did I kiss with my eyes closed or not... I couldn't really remember.

-.. just close enough to..
I swallowed and licked my lips.
-... kiss!

The next second Jennys lips were pressed against mine and I pulled my head
back as a pure reflex.
-Come on Karen, she whispered loud enough for just me to hear it.

All the other girls were already making out, and the brunette was really
going for it with her girlfriend Maria.

-If we are going to kiss, we have to do it for real. Close your eyes and let
me..

I closed my eyes. We kissed a couple of times and soon her tounge was poking
in through my lips. We started
to getting into it more and more. Her soft lips so close to mine and her wet
tounge in my mouth..
I started relaxing and slowly releasing the tension in my muscles. Right now
and right here it felt really good.
No, not just good. Great. Wonderful. I almost forgot about the other girls
around us.

Jenny caressed my neck with a hand light as a feather. It made me shiver and
I got goosebumps on my arms.
When the kiss faded out I had no idea how long we had been kissing. One
second? One minute?
I opened my eyes and saw that we were the only couple not busy at this
moment. So the time wasn't up yet.
Or was it? I didn't really care, I just wanted to do it again.

-Now it's your turn to kiss me.
-Okey.

I didn't exactly need any persuasion this time. We just started off were we
left and I was drifting further
and further into a more uninhibited state of mind. The world flipped under
my feet when Jenny pulled me as close
to her as possible.

I heard a voice in my head shouting "Stop stop now! You can still change
your mind and stop what you are doing.
She will think you are weird!". But the complaining voice quickly drowned in
the much more appealing
"Good soft wonderful gentle warm wet so nice"..

I just kept going and I didn't want to stop. I wanted this kiss to last
forever. And I was so completely lost in the
emotional orgasm that went through every part of my body, all the way from
my mouth down to my legs, feet, toes.
Running in my arms, hands, my fingers. Through my face, down my neck and
spine. Stomach. Nipples. Crotch.
I wasn't thinking anymore, I was feeling. Jenny's lips, tounge, warm breath
and her hands on my neck and
in my hair was everything I could understand. Everything that mattered.

When I felt her hand crawling up along my stomach to press itself in between
our bodies I did let it happen.
She gently squeezed one of my tits and I loved it. It was great. I wanted
her to do it. Everything happened
just the way things are supposed to happen. It felt so right and there were
no wrongs anymore. No wrongs.

Jenny broke the magic moment. She breathed heavily but didn't move away from
me.
Her warm body was still so close I could feel her heart beating (or was it
just my own
hearbeat?). I opened my eyes slowly and we looked at each other.

-Oh my god.. I'm sorry Karen.. I don't know why, I didn't mean.. to..

I didn't want to let go off her body. I was afraid my own legs wasn't
enought to hold me up right now.
I felt a strong urge to comfort Jenny, seeing her suffer because she
followed a crazy impulse was killing me..
but I didn't know what to say.

A big part of me wanted to grab her and kiss her again. And maybe touch..
her breasts..
so she wouldn't feel so guilty. But everything was too much right now, my
head was full of thoughts
and feelings. My body was a big chaos.
Fucking damn holy shit! She touched me and I liked it! Does that mean that
I.. that we are...

I couldn't finish the question even in my own mind. I didn't dare to.
But I wanted to get away from this place. Away from all people. To a quiet
place where we could sit down.

Jenny grabbed my hand and led me away from the crowd. The brunette was
talking in her megaphone again,
but I wasn't listening. Applause. Whistling and shouting girls. But I don't
think anyone noticed
two blushing girls sneaking away hand in hand.




~ PART 2 ~


We walked fast, Jenny held my hand and I squeezed it desperately, at this
moment she felt like
the only connection I had with reality. Or maybe she was pulling me away
from it.. To a new
level or maybe something like, another dimension..? In this dimension I was
apparently lesbian
or at least bisexual and I was still turned on by the kiss we just shared.
Yes, turned on!
I wanted to stop and ask Jenny if we could kiss again (the sooner the
better), but she kept
dragging me on.

-Where.. are we going?
Jenny giggled. She looked at me with her amazing blue eyes, and said out
loud:
-Karen.. I love you!
I stopped but didn't let go of her. I heard my heart beating very loud and
fast in my ears.
-You do?
I felt like everything went over my head, I tried to understand what she
just said but I
couldn't. Maybe she didn't mean it like that, she loves my as a friend, but
she's not IN
love with me. She can't be.
-Yes, I do.

She walked up close to me, looked into my eyes, she wanted reactions and of
course she was
reading me like an open book. She knew more about what was going through my
head than I did.
I kept fighting against myself, did everything I could to block away
thoughts about me and
Jenny. "Kissing, lips, her skin, her hands, breasts, nude skin, soft flesh,
sexy, warm.."
-There's.. I need to sit down, I said. There's too many people.

We sat down on a bench, secluded with two bushes and a small tree that gave
some wonderful
coolness away from the sun. We were sitting pretty close but we had no
contact, I felt a
strong urge to touch her, or maybe slip my hand into hers just to feel her.
The desire was
so strong I could have started to cry anytime. What's happening to me!?
-Are you okay?
-Yes.. no, I am.. I don't know!
I raised my voice in the end and looked away. I wanted her to comfort me so
bad, maybe put
her arm around my shoulder, press her warm body against mine and kiss me. I
just couldn't
fight the emotional mayhem anymore, I started to cry. Warm burning tears
poured from my eyes
and down my cheeks, I covered my face with my hands. I felt so embarrased,
so confused.
-Karen.. don't cry. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.. I shouldn't have..
I could feel she wanted to hold me, but she didn't move closer to me. Was
she afraid of me,
did I make her feel uncomfortable? Like a big pathetic crying baby? Did she
hate me know?
I felt her fingernails carefully touch my arm, but this time it had the
opposite effect on
me; isn't the world a strange place?
-Don't.. touch me Jenny. Please.. just stay away. Go.
-Why.. are you angry?
-No.
She didn't say anything, I was staring at a house on the other side of the
road. I wiped the
tears away from my face and kept staring. Fucking house.
-Karen..
I sighed when she laid her hand on my arm, she caressed it but I didn't look
at her.
-Please tell me.
-What? Tell you what?
-What happened? Why did you cry?
-I don't know (that was true). I.. don't.. I was pathetic.
-You are everything but pathetic, sweetie, I..
-Don't call me sweetie Jenny!
I faced her, I had to tell her the truth. I had no idea what it was but I
had to say it, if I
didn't I would probably explode.

-Look, Jenny, I'm not gay.. lesbian. I would be the worst girlfriend ever,
I'm a neurotic
fucking mess, just look at me! Stop flirting with me, stop touching me, stop
looking at me
like that.. I thought we were friends but no, you have a crush on me! How
long have you been
planning this?

-What..?
The anger came rushing into my stupid little head like a noisy train.
-How long have you planned to do this? Seduce me?
-No, I didn't plan to do anything. It just happened, Karen.
-Things just don't happen.. without a reason. You planned the whole thing,
the telephone call,
the "I was just nearby and I ran her to meet you", you know exactly what
buttons you need to
push to make me do things against my will..
I was starting to make her angry, I could see it coming. If I continued
along this track, I
would soon hurt her and turn her love into disgust for me. I knew exactly
what was going on,
I had been here before, but I couldn't stop.
-That's not true and you know it.
-I don't know shit! I thought I knew you!
-You do know me Karen.
-I thought you were my friend but you apparently just want to get into my
panties, fucking.. dyke.
Way to go Karen, well done.

-Fuck you, she was upset and I couldn't really blame her.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We didn't talk or meet again for 2 days and six hours. In that time I
realized how much she
really meant to me, it actually didn't take more than a couple of hours
after the fight, but
I needed some more time for it to really sink in. I missed her. I missed her
smile, her hair,
her smell, her voice and giggling. I have to admit, it's not easy for me to
make this kind of
confession even to myself, but I did have fantasies about her. I have known
her for maybe 5 or
6 years (we met on a bus and started talking about fruit, actually, it's a
long story..) so
that felt strange for me. It sounds so corny, but I've never thought about
women in a sexual
way before. It wasn't something that interested me or had anything to do
with me at all, I
didn't want to be involved in it and it felt better to just ignore and don't
think about it.

Beep-beep.

The cellphone I was holding in my hand called for my attention. The display
revealed "Jenny".
Oh no! What should I tell her? What if she asks why I haven't called her,
because that fight
was my fault and I should've called her first. Maybe she doesn't want to see
me ever again,
and wanted to call to say goodbye first? A thought went through my head, I
didn't HAVE to
answer the call. Maybe I was busy. I could call her back later when I was
more prepared to
talk. But.. she can see right through me. Even through the fucking phone.
And I was a terrible liar.

-Yeah?
A few short seconds of silence, then her voice. It sounded happy but
nervous.
-When will you learn to answer the phone like a normal person?
-Hi Jenny..
-Hi Karen. I.. it's good to hear your voice.
I swallowed, I knew what I wanted to tell her but I didn't knew how.
-I missed you.
-You did?
-Yes.. and I'm so so sorry for what I said to you. I know I'm incredibly
stupid sometimes and
I can be a real asshole and..
-Go on.
-I understand if you can't forgive me or don't want to see me again, it's
just that it was
too much emotions at the same time for me, first.. when we kissed and then
you told me about,
you know.. I didn't mean what I said, about you planning everything and.. I
should probably
shut up now before I make it even worse, I thought to myself.

-Karen.. honey. You were right, not about everything but about some. I have
been.. interested
in you for, maybe 1 or 2 years now.
My jaw fell down to the floor.
-What?
-I'm not sure about why, where or when but I'm sure about my feelings. For
you.
I tried to speak, but my mouth was out of order.
-I thought I scared you away when you started acting strange, I didn't mean
to tell it to you
straight out and spontaneus like that. I was just so happy, you looked happy
and I wanted to
let you know so bad. I was like a bubble ready to burst, you know?

She was silent for a few seconds, I held my breath.
-Well.. so, I heard about this kissing demonstration, or read about it. I
was curious and
walked to the Willow, when I saw you standing at that fence. I called you,
and started jogging
to work up my breath, and then.. we met.
-But.. why didn't you tell me you saw me there first?
-Because.. I obviously planned to seduce you.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~ Evening, the following day ~

-You look great Karen. Come in.
-Thanks. I blushed heavily when she gave me a quick kiss on my cheek.
This wasn't the first time I visited her house, but it felt a little strange
when I entered the
familiar hallway. Like the atmosphere was slightly different than before,
more tense and..
-Would you like something to drink?
-Yeah.. sure.
She looked at me and smiled. I probably looked silly. I hope not.
-What..?
-What?
We both laughed, but it feelt awkward.
-I mean, what would you like.. to drink?
-I don't know.. it doesn't matter.
We walked into the kitchen and Jenny opened the fridge.
-I will make you something I know you'll like..
-Oh, okay. Fine.

I wished I had some place to put my hands, like pockets or something. The
black dress I was
wearing didn't have anything like that, of course, but I would have loved to
be in a couple
of jeans instead right now. Why o why did I let her talk me into this?
-Sit down silly.
-Yeah.. I was just.. you know.
I quickly grabbed a chair and sat down. I watched her finish the drinks and
bring them as
she sat down on the opposite side of the kitchen table. She gave me the
glass with red liquid,
her drink looked almost like Sprite but it was a little darker. There was a
strawberry in mine.
-I made you a Jenny.
-A Jenny?
-Something I came up with, it's really good. I always thought it would be
cool to have a drink
with my own name, you know?
-I know.
It smelled good, and I know she was skilled. Two years ago she worked as a
bartender in Spain.
I took a sip.
-So.. how did I taste?
She couldn't hide her smile, I'm sure she had been waiting for an
opportunity to ask that.
-Sweet, I like it. I smiled too, couldn't help it.

We sat in her kitchen and talked about this and that, but avoided everything
concerning our
kiss or the phone conversation we had last night. She looked amazing, her
eyes - no her whole
face - was shining towards me. Sometimes it felt like she dazzled me, maybe
I should have
brought a pair of sunglasses. Haha. I felt much more comfortable and relaxed
when the glass
was empty, so in a silent moment I leaned over the table and kissed her on
the mouth. The last
few days I have been fantasizing about the next kiss (if there would be one,
of course).
I usually pictured us sharing a wild passionate frenchkiss with lots of
toungeplay or a slow
and romantic kiss with her hands genly touching my neck, but when I finally
worked up the
courage I didn't dare to give her more than a quick lipkiss.
I sat down and we looked at each other.

Beep-beep.

-Sorry, I..
-You better take it, it's probably your brother.

Jenny was right, it was Dan. He told me he was coming to pick us up in 5
minutes. But when he
said 5 minutes he really meant 1, or sooner. I didn't like going with him
because he drived
so fast, but Jenny always told me to relax and enjoy the ride. I kind of
suspected she had
a crush on him for a while, but now I guess I was wrong about that, right?
-Can I use the bathroom? He's coming here anytime.
-Sure. You want a beer? For the ride?
-Yeah. Thanks.

When I got out Jenny stood in the hallway and strapped on her high heel
shoes. I grabbed my
shoes and one of the beer bottles next to her leg.
-We will get plenty to drink when we're there, don't worry.
-Yeah, I'm not worried about that. I don't feel much like drinking tonight.
-Good, me neither.

We were going to a bachelorette party (Jenny's sisters friend was the lucky
girl). My first one.
Jenny asked me when we talked last night, and I couldn't turn her down, she
said she only
knew a couple of people there and none of them well (except her sister of
course).
"They are just a bunch of boring intellectuals, most of them anyway.. Come
on, we'll dress up,
sit alone at a table and make up jokes about people, it'll be fun.
Please..?"
I was hesitating, not because I didn't want to be with her, but all the
other things. What to
wear, no people to talk to, how to get there (I didn't have a driver license
and Jenny lost
hers when she had an accident last year - only minor injuries, but her car
was all smashed up)..
Anyway, she convinced me to come and it actually turned out to be a pretty
cool party.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~ Next day ~

-Hi Karen, how are we feeling today?
-Not too good. I just slept a couple of hours and I feel sick.
-I know, it sucks. But it was fun, right? Last night?
-Yeah, it was. It was cool.
-I'm glad you were there with me Karen.
I wanted to ask her if she remembered our kiss, not the one at her kitchen
table but the one
where we sneaked out at the backside and made out with her pressing me
against the wall.
I started to doubt it really happened myself, it felt almost like a very
real and intense
dream, but I wanted to hear her confirm it. What if she had regrets? Was she
still in love
with me? I had so many questions but so little courage.

-Jenny?
-Yes?
-I called to ask.. I.. what are you doing today? Tonight? Or, you know, some
day.. soon..?
-Today? Tomorrow? Friday? Next year?
I could hear the smile in her voice, she liked to tease but she was never
mean.
-I.. just wanted to ask if you wanted to do something, like go see a movie
or whatever.
When you can.. or want to?
-Well, I have this wedding I probably should attend to. You know, Cindy is
getting married
today.
-Oh, okay, yeah.. I forgot about that.
I felt so embarrassed. How many times have I heard that the wedding is going
to be today..?
I completely forgot about it, it didn't even cross my mind when I dialed
Jenny's number.

-You want to come with me?
-What? To the wedding?
-Yes.
-I.. I don't know Jenny, I'd love to, but I have to fix my dress.. I-I don't
even know where
it's.. I have to..
-Don't worry sweetheart, I was only kidding. You can't get ready for a
wedding with just 2
hours notice, that's impossible.
-I.. I can't stop thinking about you.
I can't believe I said that! It just slipped out, before I had a chance to
stop it.
After a few seconds of very intense silence (could she hear my heart pound
through the phone?).
-I think about you.. honey all the time, my heart says yes.. I think about
you..
-Deep inside I love you best, we both finished off.
None of us said anything. Karen and I didn't get along very well about music
but we both loved
Guns N Roses and we agreed their first album was definitely the best. She
just quoted the
chorus from "Think about you", the song - I told this to Karen a long time
ago - that made me
fall in love with Axl Rose when I was young. She giggled when I told her,
and revealed to me
she had a similar episode with the handsome Mr Bongiovi, the lead singer in
Bon Jovi.

-Meet me at the Willow. Four o'clock. Okay?
-Yes. I'll be there.
-Sorry, I have to go, it's all chaos here..
-Is your sister there? I heard.. someone laughing.
-Yep, she is here with her boyfriend. I love you honey got to go bye.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~ Almost 5 hours later ~

-Hi.
-Hi Karen. So we meet here.. again.
We hugged. Her hair smelled nice, she probably took a shower before she got
here.
-So, how was the wedding?
-Boring.
-Why?
-You weren't there. Come, let's go and grab something to eat.

We found a cosy place, pretty cheap because none of us could afford anything
more luxurious
at the time. We sat there, maybe 2 or 3 hours, talking about everything
we've been through
lately (a couple of beers helped out a lot, at least for me). When I asked
her about the
last kiss we shared, she said "if it didn't happen, we have been sharing the
same dream..".
We kissed on the lips a couple of times during the stay, just because it
felt so damn
good doing it and I couldn't get enough. She asked me if I was afraid, and I
said yes.

One thing lead to another (like things usually do), the evening went on when
we walked around
and talked, kissed and kissed some more - I once grabbed her breast through
her shirt, I was
just so curious, and she covered my hand with hers. A car drove by when we
stood there,
intoxicated with each other, but we barely heard their screaming and
cheering. And, after all,
they were decent enough to keep driving and leave us alone. I don't want to
think about what
could've happened if they stopped the car, but I think Jenny should be able
to handle them.
-My sister and her boyfriend is crashing in my apartment, but I was
thinking..
-What? I whispered. I felt a hard lump in my stomach.
-Can we go to your place? She doesn't know about us, and I want to be alone
with you.
She leaned in and kissed me.
-And.. (another kiss).. I can't get enough.. (kiss).. of your sweet lips..




~ PART 3 ~

-Wait, Karen.. Oh, I love this song!
I heard music coming from an open window, it was on the second floor of the
house we just
walked by, and it sounded like The Beach Boys or something. Jenny laughed
and pulled me into
her arms. We ended up against the wall, the merry voices from above was
mixed up with a
feel-good-song, something that would be just right for a barbecue party at
the beach.

I kissed her and she responded to it by embracing me with all her warmth,
her soft body
seeking mine, and her bare legs against my bare legs. I felt dizzy, almost
like I was
just about to faint.

-I love this part, it's the best, wait..
I tried to kiss her again, but she interrupted me with her index finger on
my lips,
like she was telling me to be quiet.
-Close my eyes.. She's somehow closer now..
Jenny sang with her mellow voice, while looking straight into my eyes.
-Softly smile, I know she must be kind...
Her fingers ran through my hair and gave me shivers on my neck. My heart
pounded like
the hammer of a crazy blacksmith.
-When I look in her eyes.. in Karen's beautiful eyes... please kiss me
baby..
When the chorus started again (And Jenny was certainly giving me those good
vibrations),
I joined my lips with hers and we kept on going until the song faded out and
drowned
in the loud voices and laughing above us.

And there we were, outside my apartment door. My shaky hands went furiously
through my
purse, I couldn't find the keys!
-I know I had them here.. where the hell are these damn... no. No no.
-What?
-I think I know where they are Jenny.
I looked at her and pointed at the door.
-Where..? No! You left them in your apartment!
-Yes! I'm afraid so.
-Shut up, don't say you left them in your freakin apartment Karen!
She was like a giggling bubble, ready to burst any second. But it seemed
like
she could restrain herself from laughing, for now. Apparently I forgot to
bring
the keys when I went out, the door locked itself unfortunately, and the only
thing that could open it was laying somewhere on the other side.
Unreachable.
Jenny made a snorting sound, she obviously tried to prevent a laughter from
breaking out and she failed miserably.
-God, I'm so sorry Karen, she said when the attack calmed down.
I gave her a soft punch on her upper arm, not that I was mad at her for
laughing.
Then I opened my arms and we hugged each other. Tight. I buried my face in
her hair.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


-Hey kids, are you the absent-minded girl who woke me up from my
beautysleep?
I shook his hand, but even if his greeting was a bit straight forward, he
smiled towards
us. The janitor looked like a nice friendly guy, not grumpy like the voice
that answered
when I called the number the landlord gave me for this type of
"emergencies".
-I'm really sorry about this..
-No, don't worry, I'm on the phone duty so it's nothing but my job. It can
happen to
the best of human beings. Don't think about it.
-Thanks anyway.
-Yeah, thanks alot, Jenny mumbled. She looked very tired, and she rested her
head on
my shoulder. When we waited for the guy with the keys to arrive, I sat on
the stairs
with her head in my lap, and while I stroked her hair gently I think I made
her fall
asleep. I felt pretty tired myself.

The janitor locked up the door, said goodbye and left us with a "goodbye
ladies".
I turned on the light and we took of our shoes, I had to help Jenny with her
left one.
-Are you sleepy? I smiled.
-Mhmm, she said. I'm sorry...
-Sorry for what?
-We can.. do something if you want to. Like play cards. Or have a tequila. I
just need
a cold shower.. or you know.
-No, Jenny, we are both going to bed.
-Sounds like a.. great way to end the evening.

Jenny was clumsy, but she managed to get out of her clothes without any
help. When she
unstrapped her bra I looked away, I felt very shy but wanted nothing else
than to look
at her. I had seen her topless before, but felt like I had missed something
those other
times.
-You don't have to turn away, she said and I heard the smile in her voice.
It's just I
don't like sleeping with it on me. Are you coming?
-There's plenty of room here, it's fine. I meant the sofa, but actually it
was too
short for me. I hated sleeping in it, and the white fluffy bed was very
tempting.

-Don't be silly, come sleep with me. I mean, it's your bed and all.
-I can sleep here, the bed is too small for both of us. I blushed heavily.
Jenny looked at me, she didn't say anything for a few seconds and it looked
like she
was thinking about something. Apparently she decided fast, because she
pulled her black
panties down her legs and stepped out of them. I stared at them, lying there
on my floor,
and then I raised my eyes higher up. Her crotch was skin coloured, no hair.

She then walked up to me, gave me a kiss on my cheek and let one of her
naked breasts
quickly brush against my arm. It was almost too much for me, too much of
everything.
-If you change your mind, don't be afraid to wake me up. I won't bite you.

I tried to swallow, but couldn't. I just watched her walk back and get into
my bed,
crawl under my blanket and rest her head on my pillow. Wearing nothing.. at
all.
I just stood there for a couple of minutes and looked at her face while she
drifted
away to a rendezvous with the sandman. Her breathing became heavier fast and
she started
snoring silently.

I walked up to the window and looked out. The city was alive, cars were
driving by, people
were shouting and I heard some music I couldn't identify from far away. It
all felt very
distant. I was with my Jenny, I had her here in my apartment. She was
sleeping like a baby
in my bed, and I couldn't, I just couldn't wake her up again. I was in love
with her, there
was no denial of it anymore. I was so happy it was her, my best friend. The
most kind
and generous person I have ever known.

I fetched a thin blanket from the closet and laid myself to sleep on the
couch.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Morning came. I felt hungry and when I stood up from the couch my head was
spinning.
I felt sick but, thank God, no headache. Jenny was still sleeping in my bed,
I walked
over to it and caressed her forehead with a feather light touch, just to
make sure she
really was there and I wasn't dreaming.

-Karen..
Jenny turned her head and giggled, still with her eyes closed. She was
dreaming! Or
was she just playing with me? I stepped back and looked at her. It looked
like she was
still asleep. Why did she say my name..?  Was she dreaming about me? What..
was she
dreaming?
-Mmmmm....
I kept staring at her. Was she moving under the blanket?

That was enough, I just couldn't stay and watch her go on, even though I
really really
wanted to. What I needed was to drink some water, pee and then have a long
hot shower.
But my legs wouldn't move. It felt very strange, it seemed like I had lost
my control
over them. What was happening to me?

-It feels so good..
Jenny was definitely moving. Her whole body was in motion under my fluffy
white blanket.
Then suddenly she opened her eyes, my heart skipped a beat, but I still
couldn't move.
Jenny brought up something from under the blanket, it was a red dildo. It
looked moist,
like she just had been using it. Where the hell did she get that from?
She reached it towards me, and I looked at it. I can't touch that!
-Fuck me Karen. Fuck me.

Drifting back..

I woke up, my forehead was sweaty and the blanket was a mess, tangled
between my legs.
Jenny sat next to me, dressed and judging from her hair and the smell, she
took a shower
not too long ago. She placed one of her hands on my forehead and smiled to
me, like she
was the morning rays of the sun.
-You were dreaming sweetie..
I stared at her. The big red dildo was still visible in my mind.
-I was?
-Yeah, did you have a nightmare or what..? You looked scared.
-I.. it was just so strange.. I don't remember.
-You're fine now, you're awake and I'm here with you baby.

Jenny's voice was so comforting, I felt better just listening to it. And I
wasn't lying
about not remembering the dream, because it was almost gone now. All it left
behind was
a feeling I couldn't shake off.
-I'll make you some breakfast, Karen. What do you want?
-Anything. I'm hungry.
-Anything it is then.
She stood up and started to walk to the kitchen, but I stopped her.
-Wait.
-What?
-Kiss me.
Her face cracked up in a big smile, it was a wonderful sight to witness.
-You don't have to ask me twice about that..


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


During the following weeks, our relationship progressed as we spent more and
more time
together. She practically lived in my apartment, because her sister needed a
place to stay
for a while longer, and Jenny didn't want her to know about us. We started
sleeping
together in my bed after a few uncomfortable nights on the couch, and one
late evening when we
laid there and snuggled, Jenny told me why she was so afraid to let her big
sister know
she was in love with a girl. Allie, or Alison, was a big homophobe and there
seemed to
be other unsettled issues between them, things that reached longer back in
time. Jenny
said she would tell her eventually, but not yet. I asked if anyone knew she
was a lesbian,
and it made her giggle. She asked the same question back to me. I couldn't
answer, not
that anyone knew about me lying here with Jenny, but the word scared me. Am
I a lesbian
now? How long will this last? Am I dreaming, because this feels so unreal,
and when will
I wake up?

We kissed. Often. On the couch watching a movie, in the kitchen, a few times
lying
in bed (one time we even wore underwear while making out, and she laid on
top of me) and
in the bathroom - this morning we tried to kiss while having the toothpaste
still in our
mouths and it just made us both giggle and drool it all over each other. She
even took
a picture of me with her digital cam when I tried to wipe it of me, so I had
to chase
her around the apartment screaming "erase it", but she refused and finally,
after a
violent tickle fight, she won.

We kissed on the bus, in the rain outside McDonalds, her tounge was twirling
all around
mine when we stood close, so close, to eachother in the Willow Park. We even
found the
same spot where we kissed the first time, the first time that mattered. It
brought
back memories of hot sunlight, cheering girls and colorful outfits. When we
hugged and
danced a slow dance together, I thought "what if Jenny never had come here
to convince
me I should kiss her?". Then I remembered her other words..

"I have been.. interested in you for, maybe 1 or 2 years now.."

"I obviously planned to seduce you.."

"Karen? I love you!"

-Jenny?
-Mmm.
-I love you. So much.
-I love you too Karen. I love you too.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


After two months since the night Jenny - without a single thread on her body
- invited
me to bed, we still haven't had sex. I could tell Jenny wanted it, badly,
and in a way
I wanted it as much as her. But there was still that other part of me, the
restrained
and hibited coward that wouldn't let me go. How I hated that bitch. Because
of her,
maybe Jenny wouldn't want me anymore. Who wants a girlfriend that doesn't
want to be
touched, or touch you back? We never talked about it, except when we
exchanged thoughts
through eye to eye telepathy. She made moves, small and subtle but still
moves, and
I wouldn't let her carry on with them.

The furthest we have went this far, was when we laid in bed one night,
endlessly kissing
like we usually do before we go to sleep. But this specific time it was more
intense than
other times, Jenny was getting really into it and that affected me as well.

When she started to unstrap my bra I didn't stop her, I just went along with
flow we had.
It felt so right. Soon my breasts were out in the open, naked and squeezed
up against
the soft fabric and the warmth of her bust. Her hands were all over me, but
they had a
goal, we both knew it. It was bound to happen. My breasts seeked the
attention of her
moist palms, we were both sweating like crazy and the blanket was lying
somewhere on the
floor by now. Her hands on my tits. I helped her get them in between our
bodies, I
encouraged her to touch them. She rubbed, squeezed, pressed, kneaded,
pinched...

It turned me on like nothing else had done before, but I didn't let her move
on. When
one of her hands suddenly slipped in between my legs and I felt her hand rub
me through
my panties - I don't know if even Jenny knew she was doing it - I pulled
back.

-Sorry sorry, I heard her call while I ran of into the bathroom and locked
the door.
I stayed there for almost an hour, at first I masturbated and when I came I
was crying
at the same time. When I worked up the guts to walk out, with a read swollen
face and
still wearing nothing but my small sized white panties, Jenny wasn't there.
I slept alone for the first night in a long time.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


My phone buzzed the next day, the display told me it was Jenny.

-Where are you?
She didn't answer for a few seconds and a horrible suspicion took a grip on
me. No, please
god no, here
it comes, I thought. She will say something like "we need to talk" and then
break up with
me. Maybe spice it up with "I slept with another girl tonight, if you don't
want me I'll
find someone else that will"..
-I'm home. My sister leaved today.
-I.. I'm so sorry about last night.
-You're sorry? You just stole my line Karen. I was just about to say the
exact same words.
-You were?
I couldn't help but smile.

-Yes! Of course. I went to far and I'm so sorry I did. But I'm even more
sorry I left
you alone like that. I regret it so much.
-For a moment I almost thought you called to break up with me.., I tried
hard to hold back
the tears but it was hopeless.
-No, I wouldn't do that..! Why are you saying something like that.. my sweet
sweet girl.
Are you crying?
-Yes! I guess, I mean yes I am. Crying.
-What the hell am I doing here. I'm coming over Karen... don't go anywhere!
I heard a thumb, then a loud crash followed by Jenny screaming "fuck".
-What happened?
-Shit, I just destroyed my hall mirror. Fuck it. I'm coming.
-Just don't... step in the glass, I added when she had already hung up the
phone.

Ten minutes later she banged on my door, I opened and catched her in my
arms. We both
cried for a moment, then we just stood there enjoying the warm embrace.
-Don't let me go, I mumbled into her hair.
-I won't. I won't.

That day we talked about everything, and I mean litterally everything. When
the dusk
filled the rooms with a gloomy darkness we ended up in the couch, leaning
towards each
other in silence. I listened to her breath and our entwined hands chained us
together,
us against the world. Right before I fell asleep next to her I had a moment
of clarity.
I knew it was meant to be us. We belonged together and I wanted to spend the
rest of
my life together with this tender and wonderful girl. I felt a strong
anticipation of
what was to come, I realized we had so much time left to explore each other
but I also
knew.. more now than ever before in my life..

Time is such a sad thing to waste.


THE END. REALLY.