Date: Thu, 28 Jun 2007 18:39:50 -0400
From: Amanda Plogger <love4fun4life@hotmail.com>
Subject: upside_umop_insideout 2

(love4fun)(upside_umop_insideout)(part 2) (ff)

Okay This story contains love and eventually sexual acts between two
females.  If this offends you then don't read it. If you are not 18 or
whatever the age maybe where your from, don't read it. If you just don't
like the idea of love between two ladies, go somewhere else. Don't read
it. The characters are not real.  Any similarities are just that. This
story is fiction and none of the events ever took place. Now that I'm not
going to be sued... hehe.

I still have many, many chapters to go. Let me know what you think so far.
Good or bad.  I love to write so you will have a lot of reading if you check
back in. As always, enjoy.

Amanda


				upside_umop_insideout

					Part 2

				    The Beginning



After everyone was set Alex sat down next to Emily, the closest she had
ever sat to her in the younger ones presence. It was as if a weight had
been lifted from her shoulders. As much as she wanted to stay like this
forever, she knew the pain that she would have to relive in telling her
story, their story. It was time.

"You can do this, Em." Alex said softly.

"It's okay, mom. Just talk to us." Piper's voice reached her, quietly
encouraging her.

Emily took Alexis's hand in her own, taking a deep breath she fixed her
eyes on the world outside their kitchen window, she did just that. The
world that passed by unknowing, never knowing the pain that filled her
voice as she began to talk.  She never took her eyes from that window as
she slipped back into the past.



Emily's stomach filled with butterflies as she walked into her class. She
had finally decided to go back and this first year, while it had been hard,
had fulfilled her.  Emily missed her kids with work and school cutting into
her time with them, but she needed this. It brought back so many dreams she
had had when she was younger. It also brought back something else. A primal
sexual desire for women. A desire that she had put from her mind for so
many years, trying to deny it.  As she walked to her seat, she saw the one
who reminded her of who she really was.

Alexis's dark hair hung to her shoulders, where it curled ever so slightly.
Her beautiful smile reached her eyes, making them twinkle, as Emily neared.

"Hey, sit by me today?" She asked, pointing to the seat next to her.

Emily felt herself flush. She hated that her face showed everything she
felt.  Emily nodded and tucking a piece of stray hair behind her ear,
walked around Alexis to take a seat.

"You look stunning today." Alexis said turning to her, ever the flirt. "But
then again, you always do."

The heat in her checks intensified. "Thank you." Emily said quietly. Taking
a steadying breath she looked into Alexis's piercing eyes. "Your lying but
thank you anyway."

"Oh, sweetie, that is something that I don't lie about." Alexis's voice
grew husky.  "You are beautiful. Whoever it is that is telling you any
different is the one who is lying."

Emily turned her eyes from Alexis's, hoping the class would start soon. It
was becoming hard for her to breath.  Alexis and Emily had became fast
friends at the beginning of Emily's freshman year, and just as fast Emily
had became attracted to her.  Alexis was always involved in some new fling,
whether it be a girl or a guy she didn't care.  Alexis knew Emily was
straight but never turned away from a chance to flirt with Emily or find a
way to `casually' touch her.

"How are the kiddies?" Alexis asked casually as she flipped through her
notes.

"They are good. Brant is getting so big. I swear he's the tallest three
year old I know and he just turned three a few months back. Piper, she's a
handful. I am dreading the day she becomes a teen." Emily sighed as she
leaned back.

It was true, she had her hands full with those two. She was just glad their
dad was supportive of her going back to school, if only he knew that an
education wasn't the only reason she was going. There relationship was
shaky way before she had started school, before she met this coy little
beauty that sat next to her. Things had been even more strained since she
had started, but her husband swore it was nothing to do with her going to
school. She knew that even if it was he would never tell her. For years he
had practically begged her to go back. It had been a dream of hers, before
kids, before a husband, and a house and all that goes with it.

"You look like you've had a hard week." Alexis said, looking at her. "That
bad?"

"Mark and I had another fight. He stormed out. I swear I don't even know
what we were fighting about. The smallest thing sets one of us off. I'm
glad he at least waited till the kids where asleep. I never want to fight
in front of them. God, when is this class going to start." She asked,
looking at her watch. Emily knew that her blatant change of subject
wouldn't work, but she had at least tried.

"If he's such an ass, why do you stay with him?" She asked, looking over at
her friend.  "For once I would love to hear you say, `Mark actually took me
out and we had a blast.  Then we came home and made hot, passionate love.'
That would be something worth saving."

Emily gasped and looked around to see if anyone else had heard her vulgar
comment, but noticed everyone was getting tired of waiting for the class to
begin also.  "You, you are just crude." Emily said pointing to Alexis, but
a smile pulled at the corners of her mouth.

Grabbing her finger, smiling Alex lowered her voice.  "I can take you home
with me and show you just how crude I can be."

Emily felt liquid fire shoot through her veins from her fingertips to her
very center.  Why was it that the smallest touch from Alexis seemed to
throw her into a frenzy? The smallest touch and she was wet. Pulling back
her finger, Emily turned to her notes, pretending to ignore Alex's
comment. "If you only knew how much I would love that." She thought to
herself.

"So anyway, Emily..." Alex said but was cut off by the PA that had stood up
at the front of the class.

"Well, folks, hate to tell you, but Teach won't be here today. Had some
emergency. I would take over for him but he also has all the notes for
today's lecture.  So, you are all off the hook." Cheers went up around the
room, as everyone started to pack up their things.

"Well, that leaves me with two and a half hours to do absolutely nothing."
Emily smiled as she placed her books in her bag.

"Well, you could always take me up on my offer." Alex joked, looking over
at Emily. Emily looked up into those beautiful eyes and froze. She knew it
was just a joke, but how she longed to take Alexis up on it. Emily finally
pulled her eyes away, knowing she had held that look longer than she should
have.

"Emily?" Alexis called to her as Emily stood up, snatching up the last of
her things.

"I have to go." Emily felt like she was blushing from head to toe and
wanted to get away from Alexis as fast as possible.

"No, you don't." Alexis said grabbing her wrist. "You just said you had two
hours free."  She insisted. Emily tugged her wrist back, pulling it from
Alex's grip.

"I, I have to go." Emily said, practically running down the stairs for the
door. She was sadly mistaken if she thought that Alex would leave it at
that. She prayed she would.  Emily rounded the corner of the building,
quickly walking around people.

"Emily, please stop." Alexis voice trailed over the crowd to her. Emily
began to move faster as she made her way outside. "Emily. STOP." Alexis's
voice was right behind her and she suddenly felt her whole body being flung
around. "What the hell is wrong with you girl?" Alexis looked pissed.

"I told you I have to go." Emily insisted.

"No, you told me that you where free and only after I joked with you, you
decided you had to leave. We always joke. I didn't mean to offend you."
Alexis sighed.

"You didn't offend me, Alexis." Emily said quietly, staring at her
feet. She couldn't look in Alexis's eyes, wouldn't dare. She knew she'd
lose control if she did.

"Then why are you running from me?" She waited, her hands still on Emily's
shoulders, she slowly circled her thumbs on the delicate pail skin benieth
them. Tried as she might, she longed for Emily. She would take any touch
she could get.

"I'm not running from you." Emily sighed softly.

"Then what, Emily? Look at me." Alexis raised her hand to Emily's chin and
making Emily look her in the eyes. "What?" She studied Emily's beautiful
green eyes, taking in the way the sun hit the small flecks of gold that
filled them. As she looked it hit her and she dropped her hand from Emily's
chin in shock. "Oh god, I didn't see it before. You want to.  I see it in
your eyes." Emily raised her chin and took a deep breath, never taking her
gaze from Alexis's. They stood staring at each other, the sexual tension
building between them.  Alexis caressed Emily's cheek with the back of her
hand and sighed. Emily leaned into her hand and let her eyes fall shut.

"I have to be dreaming." She sighed.

"No, you are very much awake." Alexis's voice sounded like music in her
ears, but brought her back to herself at the same time.

"I can't do this, Lexie." She said opening her eyes slowly. It felt so good
to stand this close to her. She wanted to kiss the soft lips and every
other part of Alexis's body, but she held back.

Alexis sighed and drew her hand back. "You can, but you won't. You want
this, I can see it in your eyes."

"I won't deny that. I've wanted you for so very long. But I have kids and I
have Mark..."

"Fuck him. Has he done anything but piss you off for the last, how long
have I known you, the last 5 months?" Alexis spewed.

"Don't say th..." Emily's words where cut short as Alexis brought her hands
to the sides of Emily face and kissed her. It was short and so soft and
tender. It was just what Emily needed.  Alexis leaned back to look at
her. She had been in love with Emily for almost as long as she had known
her. It took her breath away how strong and how fast it had been.  As much
as she had tried, as many people as she had tried it with, she couldn't get
Emily out of her mind.  She pulled back just far enough to look into
Emily's eyes and waited, silently, watching Emily for any reaction.  As
Emily searched her face, Alexis saw the hunger flash in her eyes.

"More." Emily sighed, stepping into Alexis. She wanted this more than she
would ever admit.  Alexis pulled Emily close, her lips hovering over
Emily's.

"Are you sure?" Alexis whispered, her breath tickling the lips before her.
Emily replied by pressing her lips against Alexis's. She was lost in the
moment, unaware of the people passing by, unaware of the looks they were
receiving. All she knew was the feeling of Alexis, her kisses soft and
sweet. Emily's lips parted and Alexis took the invitation, her tongue
diving into Emily's waiting mouth.  The sound of her own moan brought Emily
back to reality.

"We shouldn't be doing this. Not here. Not now." Emily said breathlessly,
pressing her forehead against Alexis's.

"You want this as much as me. I feel it in the way you kiss me." Alexis's
breath was ragged.

"I'm done denying that. I want you, Alexis." Emily sighed, and as she
leaned back, Alexis dropped her hands away from Emily's face, wrapping them
around her waist.

"Come home with me, Emily." Alexis plead softly.

Emily turned from Alexis and walked shakily across the court yard and
lowered herself onto a bench.  She didn't trust her legs to hold her much
longer. She'd never felt a kiss like that, one that left her weak in the
knees. Alexis stood staring at her from her spot a few feet away, confused.

She knew all that came with Emily. She knew she had a family and didn't
want to take her from that. Alexis also knew that neither of them could
deny their feelings anymore. Emily looked over at her, beckoning her with
her eyes.

"What does this mean, Alexis?" Emily asked quietly as Alexis sat next to
her. Emily laid her head against Alexis's shoulder.

"This means for the first time in a long time, you have someone on your
side, someone whose willing to love you."

"You love me?" She asked, not waiting for an answer, she continued. "Cause
I felt that for you for a long time. I just... I guess I have been to afraid
to act on it."

"I think I have loved you since the first time I saw you smile, Emily. I
don't want you to give up your life for me, but I know I want you in mine."

Emily nodded, not answering for a while.  When she continued Alexis
strained to hear her, even with her head inches from her ear. "There's not
much of a life to give up. I only have my kids. Mark.  Mark and I are
through. After last night, I am sure of it." Alexis sat quietly, letting
her say what she needed. "I have a lot I have to figure out. The one thing
I know for sure is I want to be in your life, whatever that means. Whatever
comes with that." Emily sat up and turned to Alexis, taking her hands.
Emily took a deep breath and squared her shoulders, bringing her chin
up. "I want to come home with you. And yes, I am sure." Emily added at the
questioning look on Alexis's face.