From: "The Professor" <professorw@hotmail.com>


As usual, this tale is about PG-13, but it is written for adults. 
Permission, as usual, is granted to any and all to archive. I hope you 
enjoy it.

Ovid VI - The Developer
By The Professor


	It was a perfect Saturday morning in Ovid. The sun was shining with the 
promise of a warm - but not hot - spring day. The humidity was 
relatively low for late May, and there was a light breeze from the north 
which meant I could open up the house and smell the aromas of spring. 

	Jerry was at the store, but he promised me he'd be home by three. My 
parents were due in by five to take the kids out to the farm for the 
rest of the weekend. That left Jerry and me free to go out to Winston's 
for a nice meal and then home to try out the goodies I had bought in the 
lingerie department at March's the day before. I felt a pleasant tingle 
between my legs that brought a smile to my face. How could I ever 
imagined this time a year ago that I, Matt O'Hara  - All-American Boy, 
would become Cindy Patton, the mother of two darling children and a 
loving wife who couldn't wait to drag her handsome husband into bed for 
a marathon night of sex. 

	I sighed happily, leaning back in a kitchen chair to take another sip 
of my favorite coffee.

	"Mommmm!"

	I sighed again, this time not so happily. "What is it, Michelle?" I 
called.

	Suddenly, my six year old daughter came rushing into the kitchen, 
followed by Belinda Daniels, one of her little friends from school. 
"Mike just said a naughty word!" Michelle announced.

	I smiled in spite of myself. When Mike and Michelle had been
two of my fraternity brothers along with Jerry, we had all used a
number of naughty words. Well, Jerry and I still used a few, but not
in front of the children. Of course, of my entire family, I was the
only one who realized we had all been changed into the idyllic Patton
family.

	"Mike," I said sternly, not bothering to rise from the kitchen
chair.

	A small boy, the twin of my daughter, reluctantly appeared in
the doorway. He looked so cute it was all I could do to keep from
getting up and hugging him.

	"Now, what did you say to your sister and her friend?"

	He mumbled, "I called them dorks."

	I frowned slightly. "Well, I wouldn't call that a particularly
naughty word, but it still isn't very nice."

	"But they're dorky girls," he replied, a little relieved that
"dork" was apparently a milder term than he had imagined.

	"Girls, yes," I agreed, "but not dorks. Someday, my little
lad, you'll be doing everything in your power to impress girls - not
annoy them.  They won't want to date you if you call them names."

	"Date!" he repeated. "Yuck!"

	I had to laugh. "Go on, you guys, time to play."

	Mike and Michelle bolted for the den, each trying to be the
first to take control of the TV, but Belinda stayed behind. "Can I
have a drink of water?" she asked politely. Of all Michelle's friends,
she always seemed to be the most polite and the most mature. She had
been a shade until recently, and as childish as anyone else her
age. Now, though, she was real and had had several weeks to get used
to her new identity.

	"Of course, dear," I replied, rising to get her a glass of
water. When I handed it to her, she thanked me and took a sip. She
looked as if she wanted to say something, so I asked, "Is there
something you want to talk about, Belinda?"

	She nodded. "Yes, ma'am. Uh, Mrs. Patton, do you remember who
you... I mean, were you ever..."

	I had heard others stumble over the question as Belinda was
now. "Are you trying to ask me if I remember who I used to be?"

	Her face brightened in relief. "Yes! Oh, yes! You do
remember. I thought you did." I thought for a moment, she would
actually break into tears, but she managed to hold them back.

	I reached over and gave her a motherly hug. "So, of course,
you remember who you were, too, don't you?"

	She nodded her pretty head. "Uh-huh."

	"Let me guess," I said softly. "You weren't a little girl
before."

	"No," she agreed slowly. "I don't like being a little girl
either." At that, she did burst into tears.

	"Belinda!" Michelle yelled from the den.

	"She'll be out there in a minute, honey," I called to her,
grabbing a napkin to wipe her liquid blue eyes.

	"Th- thank you," she sniffed, practically cradled in my arm.

	"Now," I said, sitting her down next to me when she had
stopped, "why don't you tell me all about it?"

	Of course, I knew all about it. I had been in the courtroom,
doing my job as assistant to the Judge, who was, of course, the god
Jupiter. I had watched as Belinda and her two friends, all male at the
time, had swaggered into the courtroom, their black leather jackets
emblazoned with the patch of the Screaming Eagles, a biker gang out of
Houston.  Within a few minutes, each of the tough, bewhiskered bikers
had been changed into a little girl, the oldest of whom was only
ten. The other two girls didn't remember who they had been, which was
the more common situation in Ovid. Belinda remembered, though.

	I knew it was hard for her - probably harder than for
most. When I was changed, I had been a college student. Although I had
been masculine enough, I wasn't a rough and tumble sort of guy. I had
adapted quite well to being female - better than most, I was sure. The
same was true for some of my friends, like Susan Jager, a promising
young attorney in Ovid.

	For transformees like Belinda, though, things were
particularly tough.  She had been Screech McCracken, a tough biker who
had been notorious for his antics in small towns all over the
southwest. The Judge had taken special pleasure in changing Screech
into a very pretty and very feminine little girl. Like everyone in
Ovid, Belinda began to slowly adapt to her new role, but it had been
very hard for her. A prison sentence would have probably been a milder
punishment.

	"I don't want to talk about it," she replied softly. "I just
can't. I- Mrs. Patton, I need to know. Were you a boy before?"

	"Well, that's a very personal question, sweetheart," I
answered. I intentionally used the word "sweetheart" to reaffirm her
sex and status.  I had no intention of making things too easy for
her. Screech McCraken had been a nasty customer and was now getting
what he so richly deserved. Still, I had found myself liking the
little girl he had become. I would have to tread softly. I wanted to
help her, but making things easy for her might not be the best help. I
was starting to understand the difficult task the gods had given
themselves. They strove to make our lives whole, but not necessarily
easy.

	"Okay," she said, accepting that I was not going to tell her
about myself. "I understand, I think. It's hard to think straight any
more."

	Yes, it was. One of the great difficulties in changing adults
into small children was that they had lost the innocence of
childhood. If they were to succeed in becoming whole, it was something
they had to regain on their own. Belinda was slowly but surely
returning to childhood. I knew that she had reluctantly agreed to play
with Michelle that morning, but it was an important step for her in
realizing who she had to become.

	"You'll do fine," I assured her. "The hard part is really
already over."

	"The hard part?"

	I smiled. "You learned how to cry."

	She gave me a tiny hint of a smile. "Thank you, Mrs. Patton."

	"Any time, Belinda," I said, returning her smile. "Now, go
play with Michelle."

	"Yes, ma'am."

	It was almost a little girl who went scurrying off to the den.

	I returned to my coffee, another crisis solved - partially at
least. I had taken just one more sip of the now lukewarm brew when
there was a "pop" in the den, followed by the screaming of three small
children. In horror, I jumped to my feet. Then, the screams turned to
laughter.  "Xena!" I heard Michelle squeal.

	An Amazon marched into my room, followed by three adoring
children. She did, in fact, look something like Xena. She was tall -
at least six feet - and had raven tresses flowing down her well-tanned
back. She wore a leather tunic and high leather boots, both studded
with gleaming silver.  Of course, I knew at once who it was.

	"A little early for Halloween, isn't it, Diana? I drawled.

	"Are you Xena?" Mike asked with awe in his little voice.

	Diana, as in the goddess Diana, smiled at him. "No, little
guy, but I'm sort of like her. I am Di-an, Warrior Princess. Now, go
play and let me talk to your mom." She made a slight motion with her
hand, and all three children wandered out of the room. I was sure she
had made them already forget what they had just seen.

	Facing me, she mad another gesture, and suddenly, she was
wearing shorts, a T-shirt, and sandals just like me. Well, better than
me, actually. I was attractive, but Diana in any of her avatars was
absolutely breathtaking. She poured herself a cup of coffee and sat
down at the kitchen table with me. "Boy, it's good to get out of my
working clothes," she said with a sigh.

	"Have I just seen the real Diana?" I asked.

	She frowned. "Oh, that stuff? No, those are just my working
clothes. My brother, Apollo, is co-producing a movie. It's some sword
and sorcery epic being filmed in Mexico. Lots of T and A in it. It's a
little on the cheap and sexy side, so they'll probably release it
directly to cable. I took a role in it just to make him happy. I'm
getting too old for this sort of work, though."

	This from a woman who never looked over thirty.

	"Then why did you do it?" I asked, taking another sip of
coffee.

	"Well," she explained, "it's been a little dull around here
lately.  Since we had the spies at Vulman a few weeks ago, the Judge
seems to be slowing down his case load."

	Actually, that was true. Spies had slipped in, and until the
other gods figured out how it had happened, the recruiting of new Ovid
residents had been slowed to a crawl. Most of the recent additions to
the population had been new shades, working at Vulman Industries on
the new military contract.

	"I understand he did nail a big fish this month, though," she
said with a sly grin.

	"That he did," I agreed. "I suppose you want to see the whole
thing."  That was part of my job, of course. Recorded deep in my
memory were the details of every Ovid case. When a god or goddess
wanted to review them, I had to make myself available. Most of the
gods chose to forgo the presentation, but Diana was always looking for
a good story.

	"Whenever you're ready," she said with a smile.

	I took one more sip of coffee and began to fall into a trance.

				***

	I was staring directly into the blue eyes of Martin
R. Brubaker. The eyes were usually cold and empty, animated only when
excited by the rush of success. Then, they took on a cruel gleam which
meant the person he had been looking at had been beaten. They were
eyes that had shown no emotion when his wife had killed herself,
presumably because she had been beaten down by him over the years. Not
physically beaten, of course. That would be too crude for the God of
Real Estate, as the Wall Street Journal had dubbed him. No, he had
beaten her down mentally, his cold eyes mirroring the contempt he felt
for her.

	Now, though, those eyes showed something else. I had a
difficult time identifying what those eyes were conveying that night,
but at last I knew. Martin R. Brubaker, the God of Real Estate, was
frightened.

	He had good reason to be frightened, I realized. He was a
passenger in a private jet which was threatening to shake apart
somewhere over Oklahoma as storm clouds swirled just outside with
strong winds buffeting the plane violently. We were all frightened. We
had good reason to be. There was a definite possibility that we would
not survive our flight. As much as I wanted to live, though, I had to
admit to myself that even dying might be worth it just to see the God
of Real Estate crap in his pants.

	It couldn't happen to a nicer guy, I thought sarcastically. I
had worked for him for ten years, and in that ten years, I had learned
to hate him more than I had ever thought possible. I had watched him
treat everyone who had helped him to the top as if they were dirt
under his feet. He had belittled and degraded enemies and allies
alike, and he had treated me no differently. After all, I was only
Martin R. Brubaker, Junior.

	I looked around at Miss Simon. She was the only other
passenger in the plane, and she was as frightened as the rest of us -
I could see it in her deep blue eyes. She was my father's
secretary. She was an attractive blonde a few years younger than my
twenty eight years. She looked both professional and sexy in her
tailored navy blue suit with a short slit skirt. I had entertained a
number of fantasies about her since my father had hired her only a few
months before, but those fantasies were never to be realized. My
father had strict rules about relations with the hired help, and Miss
Simon was beneath me in status. Besides, my father had already picked
out a wife for me.

	Lucinda Watson was the only daughter of Malcolm Watson the
Third, president and principal stockholder of one of the largest
insurance companies in the country. His company had a real estate
portfolio that was second to none. A merger of our two families
through my marriage would mean my father would have an investment
partner who would be able to finance many of his new projects. I
sighed. At least marrying Lucinda would give me some useful function
in the company. In spite of a Harvard MBA, I was reduced to a role not
much greater than Miss Simon. What was I saying? She could at least
type a letter. That was probably beyond my authority.

	I was the laughing stock of the company. I knew it, of
course. Sure, I had the title of Vice President, but I wasn't vice
president of anything. What I was was an errand boy for my
father. Ever see Fierce Creatures? I was like Kevin Kline in that
movie. I hoped I didn't act as stupid as he did, but I certainly was
like him when it came to job authority.

	"Miss Simon!" he barked over the roar of the jet engines. "I
want you to go forward right now and find out what that lunatic in the
cockpit thinks he's doing with my airplane."

	Miss Simon looked frightened, and I couldn't blame her. The
plane was being buffeted by heavy winds which made it rise and fall
wildly without warning. Flashes of lightning were adding noticeably to
the brightly lit cabin of the plane. Standing went beyond stupid. It
was downright dangerous.

	"Father, I'll do it," I offered, starting to unbuckle my
seatbelt..  Damn that streak of chivalry, I thought. It had made me
stupid, and as Forrest Gump would say, stupid is as stupid does.

	"If I wanted you to do it, I would have told you to do it!" he
snapped.  "Stay exactly where you are. Miss Simon can handle it."

	In a perfect world, I would have looked directly into Miss
Simon's deep blue eyes. I would have gained the strength from them I
required to defy my father. To his shock and amazement, I would demand
to be the one to go to the cockpit. Miss Simon would fall instantly in
love with me, and my father would develop a sudden deep respect for
me. But it wasn't a perfect world. Sinking back down in my seat, I did
as I had been told. I couldn't bring myself to look into Miss Simon's
eyes.

	Dutifully, she unbuckled her belt, grabbing on to the side of
her seat to avoid being smashed into the bulkhead. She made her way
carefully to the cockpit, her lovely body twisting unnaturally as she
clung from seat to seat. I felt her arm brush against my shoulder as
she grasped my seat, and I felt deeply ashamed.

	"That's your biggest problem," my father began to lecture me,
ignoring Miss Simon's travails. "You can never be an effective
executive until you learn that menial tasks are to be performed by
menial employees. Is that what you want to be - a menial?"

	"No, sir," I muttered just loud enough to be heard over the
straining engines. There was no sense in arguing with him. Storm or no
storm, he was back in his true form. He seemed to actually gain
strength from browbeating me. It had taken his mind off our peril.

	It was his fault, though. It was my father who had given the
order to the pilot to fly in spite of the gathering storm. We had been
in Branson, Missouri, trying to determine what was required to turn a
sleepy little town into a country music center second only to
Nashville.  If we could determine how to duplicate Branson's success
in some underdeveloped community, Martin Brubaker would once again
perform another godlike miracle like the ones he had already performed
in seven different states on projects too numerous to mention.

	We were going to check out several potential communities in
Oklahoma.  My father had already met with the governor and gotten the
political backing he needed. Healthy donations to the campaigns of
several key legislators had ensured that whatever community we chose
to be the next Branson would have millions of dollars poured into it
for new roads and community services. The state would bear the expense
and my father would garner the profits. That was why he was the God of
Real Estate.

	We had appointments set in several small towns on the edges of
the Ozarks, and our schedule was tight. Although our pilot had
recommended that we delay our flight, my father wouldn't hear of
it. "If you can't fly us there, I'll find myself another pilot - one
with the balls to fly me where I need to go," he told the pilot.

	Our pilot, Rusty Stoker, had flown fighters in the Gulf
War. He had balls the size of watermelons, and he wasn't used to be
talked to like that. His face red with anger, he had replied coldly,
"It's your party."

	"Yes it is," my father had responded impassively, "and don't
you forget it."

	So here we were, flying into the heart of a Midwestern
thunderstorm.  Storms over states like Oklahoma produced some of the
most intense weather imaginable, from hail and straight line winds to
torrential rain to tornadoes with winds so intense they could drive a
stalk of wheat right through a wooden telephone pole. I had never been
so afraid in my life.

	Miss Simon disappeared into the cockpit just as the plane
shuddered.  Through the cabin window, I could see a bright flash
followed only a couple of seconds later by the crash of thunder
roaring over the sounds of our jet engines. There was again a moment
of fright in my father's eyes. As terrified as I was, I took some
pleasure in seeing that the great man was actually concerned about his
own mortality. That the man who had been instrumental in wrecking so
many other lives could be concerned for his own was gratifying.

	He recovered quickly, though. After all, he still had me to
kick around. "Do you have those files on the towns we have to visit?"
he asked gruffly.

	"Yes, sir," I replied, pulling five folders from the pocket in
the side of my seat. With my father, I was expected to call him "sir"
at all times. I don't remember ever calling him "dad."

	"Let me see them," he snapped, grabbing them from my hands as
the plane shuddered again.

	What was it like outside, I wondered, staring into the dark
night. The clouds were boiling masses of gray and near-black. Rain was
swirling through them, I knew. The winds were whipping it back and
forth on its long trip to the ground. Only the power of our two jet
engines kept us from being tossed on those winds, mixed with the rain
through the dark Oklahoma skies. How much longer would we be in the
storm? It couldn't go on forever.

	"This town has promise," he said, holding up a folder. I
couldn't see the name on the folder, but it didn't really matter. He
wasn't really talking to me anyway. Besides, whichever town he picked
would be altered beyond all recognition in a few years anyway. He
would go in, making everyone in some little town think they were going
to be rich. Greed would get him whatever he wanted out of local city
councils, banks, even schools. Everyone would be following him around
as if he were Professor Harold Hill in the Music Man. Then eventually,
they would all find out that the only person who was going to get rich
from the new venture would be Martin R. Brubaker.


The cockpit door opened again. Miss. Simon's husky alto called out,
"Rusty says we'll - "

	Whatever she was about to say would be lost forever. There was
a bright flash just outside the plane, filling the cabin with white
light. There was a loud rumble outside the plane which translated into
a violent shaking of the entire aircraft. Suddenly, I felt my stomach
twist and turn as the plane dropped precipitously, my seat belt
practically cutting through my abdomen.

	I watched in horror as Miss Simon seemed to fly through the
cabin, striking her head on the overhead with a sickening thud. Rusty
apparently got control back, for I felt the plane level off and
continue normal flight, if it could be said that turbulent shudders
constituted normal flight.

	I unstrapped my seat belt and rushed to Miss Simon's side. She
was unconscious but seemed to be breathing normally.

	"Get back in your seat, you goddamned idiot!" my father
commanded.

	"She's hurt!" I protested. I wanted to help, but I didn't know
what to do.

	"You will be, too, if you don't belt in!" my father
warned. "Leave her where she is until we land."

	It was actually good advice. Somewhere in the back of my mind,
I knew I was in danger. Just because we had survived so far didn't
mean we were out of the woods. Still, I couldn't leave her there,
sprawled on the cabin floor. Another bout of turbulence like the last
one and she might be hurt more - even killed.

	As I held her gently in my arms, I realized it was the first
time I had ever touched her. Her skin was soft and warm as I had
imagined it would be, and I found myself wishing that I had never
heard of Lucinda Watson.

	The plane shook once again. I looked out of a cabin window in
time to see another flash of lightning. For a moment, I was actually
able to see the clouds. They looked like a human face. I could almost
see the face of a man, perhaps middle aged, in glasses. Maybe it was
the face of God, I thought. Did that mean God was nearsighted? I had
to stifle an hysterical giggle at the thought.

	"If you're going to play the hero, get her up in her seat and
strap back in!" my father demanded. I had no illusions about him
really caring what might happen to me. No, if I were injured along
with Miss Simon, my father would have no one to fetch things for
him. He would have to perform menial tasks for himself.

	Still, it was good advice. Clumsily, I managed to lift her
limp body back into her chair and belt her in. Her head slumped to one
side, and for a terrible moment, I wondered if her neck was broken.

	I made a quick decision and ran for the cockpit over my
father's protests. We needed to get help for Miss Simon at once.

	Rusty was fighting the controls. I was shocked to see his face
was as pale as I suspected my own face was. His hands gripped the
wheel so tightly that the knuckles appeared twice their normal
size. He turned for a second and yelled, "Get back in your seat, you
idiot!"

	Rusty and I got along great, but he had no more respect for me
than any of my father's other employees did. I jumped into the
copilot's seat and buckled in. Looking out of the windshield, I could
see nothing but a river of rain, sparkling like a Christmas tree in
the dim cockpit lights.

	"We need to land!" I yelled over the noise of the storm.

	"You're telling me?" he yelled back.

	"Is there anything I can do?" I asked.

	 "Not unless you can conjure up a landing field," he told
me. "This plane was never meant to take this kind of stress. If we
don't find someplace to land quickly, we're all toast."

	"Can I put out a Mayday?" I asked, reaching for the
microphone. "Maybe I can get somebody to light up a field." There are
a large number of small airports all over the country which have
lights, but only turn them on as needed.

	Rusty shook his head. "Forget it. That last bolt of lightening
fried the radio."

	"I thought that wasn't supposed to happen."

	"So sue the manufacturer!" he snapped.

	I looked out the windshield again. "What's that over there?" I
asked.

	"Where? Oh, wait. It looks like an airport."

	It did, indeed, look like an airport. Through the sheets of
rain, we could both see two strips of parallel lights below us in the
distance.  There were even lines of approach lights.

	"Damned if it doesn't look like a big airport," Rusty muttered
over a now abating storm.

	"Could we be off course?" I asked. "It might be Tulsa."

	"You don't get off course with GPS," Rusty explained. "No,
we're out in the middle of Nowhere, Oklahoma. Even Muskogee doesn't
have a strip that modern, and we're at least fifty miles from
there. That airport's five miles at the most."

	"I don't care if it's Twilight Zone International," I
laughed. "Let's just get this plane on the ground." I probably
wouldn't have been so anxious if I had known how close to the truth my
little joke was.

	Rusty's landing was flawless. Of course, he was helped by the
fact that by the time we landed, the wind and the rain had all but
stopped. It was as if the area around the airport had some sort of
shield which kept the worst of the storm away. I looked around as we
came in, trying to find some landmark that might tell me where we
were. There seemed to be the lights of a small town a couple of miles
away, but there was no development around the airport. Apparently it
wasn't as big as we had thought. I couldn't even see a terminal - just
a couple of small, dimly lit metal hangars. There seemed to be a
collection of vehicles around one of them, so Rusty taxied over to
them.

	I rushed back into the cabin without waiting for the plane to
stop taxiing. Miss Simon was still unconscious.  I rushed to her side.

	"Where are we?" my father demanded to know. "Why have we
landed? The storm's over."

	"We have to get her to a hospital!" I snapped at him with
uncharacteristic courage.

	He snorted, "She'll be alright. It's probably just a bump on
the head.  We have a schedule to keep."

	I bit my tongue rather than tell him what I thought he could
do with his precious schedule. Instead, I brushed the hair out of Miss
Simon's face, regretting that I had never gotten to know her
better. She was the kind of woman I really wanted to know.

	I didn't even hear the hatch open. Before I knew, it, two
white men and a black woman in medical greens were pushing me away
from Miss Simon as they began to check her out.

	"It's a concussion," one of the men proclaimed. I looked at
him through tired eyes. What was wrong with him? It was almost as if I
could see through him. Not really, but almost. I chalked it up to
exhaustion.

	"Will she be alright?" I managed to ask.

	The black woman answered, "She'll be fine. We'll get her to
the hospital right away."

	I looked at the woman. She appeared to be somewhat transparent
as well.  I knew it had to be exhaustion. What other explanation was
there?

	The woman led us from the plane. Rusty and I were pretty shaky
as we made our way down the ladder, but my father had, unfortunately,
regained his composure. He was his usual overbearing self. He pushed
away a man at the bottom of the ladder who tried to help him down and
blustered, "Get this plane back into the air! We're not supposed to be
here. For that matter, just what is this place anyway?"

	"You're in Ovid, sir," came a voice from out of the
darkness. Then, as he stepped into the light, I could see that the
speaker was a police officer. He was tall and slender, with a handsome
face and impeccable uniform. He moved with incredible grace as he
faced my father. "Ovid, Oklahoma."

	"Well, I'm not supposed to be in Ovid, Oklahoma," my father
growled. "I don't even know where Ovid, Oklahoma is!"

	"It's right here," the officer said, not intimidated in the
slightest.  Did I detect a thin smile at the corner of his mouth?

	"Obviously it's right here," my father conceded, "but I'm not
supposed to be. We need to leave at once."

	"I'm afraid that won't be possible, sir," the officer said,
pointing to the tail of our plane. There was a large black scar on the
tail, and if I looked closely enough, I could see that at the center
of the scar, there was a small hole, maybe six inches in diameter.

	"You were struck by lightening," the officer continued. "You
were very lucky just to get the plane down. It won't be flying again
for some time."

	"But I have a schedule to keep!" my father insisted.

	"Sir," the officer said politely, "if you'll provide me with a
list of your scheduled appointments, we'll make certain that you
aren't missed."

	My father thought about it for a moment. I could see the
wheels in his head turning. There was nothing to be done now except
cooperate with the Ovid police officer. "All right," he said at
last. "My son can give you the names of the people you need to
contact. We need to arrange transportation to get to our next
destination. Where can I rent a car?"

	The officer shook his head. "The car dealers all rent cars,
but there's nothing open this late."

	"Then call Tulsa," my father ordered. "They'll send a car from
Hertz.  My son can give you our authorization number."

	I was still fumbling through my attaché case for our
agenda. Now I had to try to find our Hertz number as well? The officer
saved me the trouble, though.

	"It wouldn't do any good," he explained. There are flash
floods between here and Tulsa. You'll just have to wait until
morning."

	My father sighed. He didn't get to be the God of Real Estate
by running into brick walls. Like it or not, we were stuck in Ovid for
the night.  Tomorrow, we could get a car and be on our way, but not
tonight. I handed the officer a copy of our agenda.

	The officer smiled. "Now that that's settled, you'll need a
place to stay. I'll take you both to the Ovid Inn. They have rooms for
you."

	"Wait," I said looking around for Rusty. "Our pilot will need
a room, too."

	"He's been taken to the hospital for observation," the officer
told me.

	Observation? There had been nothing wrong with him when we
landed.  Rusty was an ex fighter pilot. He wasn't hurt during the
landing, and he was too much of a John Wayne type to complain about
nervous exhaustion or the like.

	"Maybe I'd better go see how they're doing at the hospital," I
ventured.

	The officer shook his head. "The nurse said they would be
fine. As soon as you get in your rooms, you can call and find out what
their condition is. Now, if you'll come with me, I do need to get you
to your rooms.

	We followed him to his police car without further protest. My
father was uncharacteristically quiet as we drove into town. Then I
realized I had seen the mood before. He was sizing up Ovid. Perhaps
this would be the town he was looking for.

	As we drove into town, the two lane road became four lanes,
and we were treated to the usual display of gas stations and fast food
restaurants that graces the main highway strip of every small town in
America. I noticed no national franchises - no McDonald's or Burger
Kings. The most prominent fast food joint on the strip was called
Rusty's Burger Barn.  In fact, it was the only place still open. I
checked my watch. It was only ten thirty. Apparently, the sidewalks
rolled up early in Ovid.

	The Ovid Inn looked like a small town version of Best
Western. It was neat and clean, the white stucco front recently
repainted. It was an L-shaped building two stories high with all rooms
opening to the outside.  In front, across the parking lot was the
typical motel swimming pool. It was about the size of the hot tub at
my father's home.  Scattered around the pool was the usual collection
of cheap plastic lawn chairs. I doubted if the Ovid Inn had a place in
the Mobil Travel Guide.

	"Here are your keys," the officer said after we had
parked. "Your luggage is already in the rooms. Good night."

	Tired, we both muttered good night and got out of the
car. After we had shambled half way to our rooms, I stopped as a
thought struck me.

	"What's wrong?" my father asked.

	"How did that officer maker all these arrangements? I didn't
see anyone get our luggage out of the plane. And how did he get these
room keys? We were with him all the time."

	My father shrugged. "I don't know and I'm too tired to find
out. I'm sure there's a good explanation for it. Just let it go. We
have a long day ahead of us tomorrow."

	He was right about that, I realized, so I went to my room. It
was a pleasant room - nothing fancy - with cable TV and a comfortable
bed. As promised, my bag was already in the room. I got ready for bed,
relieved to still be alive after our harrowing flight. I could have
used a drink, but I was too tired to get dressed again and find a
bar. I settled for channel flipping.

	As I half watched TV, my suspicions rose again. It wasn't just
the police officer's actions that had me wondering. I also began to
wonder how during an emergency landing at a seemingly closed airport,
there was already an ambulance and a police car waiting to meet
us. And why had they taken Rusty away? He had seemed fine to me.

	For that matter, where was Ovid, Oklahoma? I pulled a map out
of my case. I had been charged with setting up our travel
arrangements, and I had never heard of an Ovid, Oklahoma. It appeared
to be a large enough town to have captured our interest, but I didn't
remember discussing it or ever seeing it on the map. I checked the map
index. No Ovid, Oklahoma was even mentioned. I scoured the map, just
in case there was a mistake in the index. Maybe that was why we hadn't
considered it. But no - I looked from Muskogee to Tulsa west to
Oklahoma City and east to the Arkansas line and found no town called
Ovid.

	But the town obviously existed. We were in it. Towns didn't
just crop up over night, I thought as I lay back on the bed. Did they?

	I must have been more tired than I realized. I had fallen
asleep wondering about Ovid, and suddenly, it was morning. Someone was
pounding on my door. "Open up, Junior!" my father's voice was yelling.

	Damn, I hated being called "Junior" I thought as I ambled to
the door.  My father was framed in the bright morning light. There was
a look of utter excitement on his face.

	"Look at this," he said, thrusting a phone book in my
hand. "And why aren't you dressed? We have a busy day today. Get some
clothes on."

	I could have used a shower, but I knew from his voice that he
meant I was to get dressed that very minute. I set the phone book down
on the nightstand and staggered to my suitcase for some clean
underwear.

	"You didn't even look at the phone book," he noted, sitting in
the only comfortable chair in the room.

	"So what's in the phone book?" I asked, my voice still clogged
with sleep.

	"Just the background sketch of Ovid," he said. "This town is
perfect.  It has a population of about fifteen thousand, so there's
already an infrastructure here. It looks like just a farming town with
a little light industry, so it's clean and folksy. There are lakes and
hills all over the area. It's perfect for our new Branson."

	"It would be," I agreed, "except for one small detail."

	He frowned. "What's that?"

	"It doesn't seem to exist."

	"What in hell are you talking about?"

	"This town - Ovid." I threw him the map. "It's not on the
map."

	He threw the map back at me. "So? Some dipshit cartographer
screwed up.  Maybe they should get together here in Ovid and sue Rand
fucking McNally."

	I silently cursed myself. My father's usual foul mood had been
replaced by childish glee and I had ruined it. I had to open my big
mouth and tell him that there wasn't any Santa Claus. Now he would
revert to form and be an overbearing bastard all day.

	"Okay," I agreed, trying to recover. "You have to be right. It
has to be an oversight on the part of the mapmakers. Obviously, the
town is here."

	"Of course it is," he agreed, somewhat mollified.

	"Just let me call the hospital," I said, picking up the
receiver and opened the phone book to look up a number. "Then we can
discuss the situation at breakfast."

	"Why are you calling the hospital?"

	"To check on Rusty and Miss Simon," I told him. It would never
have occurred to the self-centered bastard to call himself.

	"Well, make it quick," he ordered. "We have a lot to talk
over."

	A receptionist answered almost at once. "Ovid Memorial
Hospital."

	"Yes," I said. "I'd like to check on the condition of a Rusty
Stoker."

	"One moment, please." I was treated to thirty seconds of
elevator music when she came back on the line. "I'm sorry, sir but I
don't show a Rusty Stoker here."

	Maybe they had treated and released him. He might even be here
at the Ovid Inn. "Then how about a Miss Simon?" I asked.

	"Do you have a first name?"

	I was suddenly surprised to realize I had no idea what her
first name was. Dad required his staff to be Mr. This and
Mrs. That. Since he made sure I never got too familiar with her, I had
never asked her for her first name. "No, I'm sorry but I don't." No
way was I going to ask my father and receive another caustic reply.

	"Just a moment, please."

	The elevator music in the background came on again. This time,
it sounded like a lethargic version of the old Helen Reddy song, "I Am
Woman."

	"Hurry up!" my father prodded.

	"Just a minute," I told him.

	"Sir?"

	"Yes?"

	"There is no Miss Simon listed here at the hospital."

	That just wasn't possible. She had been out cold when they
took her off the plane. No doctor in his right mind would have
released her in that condition. "Then is there another hospital in
Ovid?"

	"No, sir. We're the only one."

	"But - "

	"Have a nice day, sir." The line was dead.

	"They're not there," I told my father as I hung up the phone.

	"Not where?" he asked.

	"At the hospital," I said. "They acted as if they had never
heard of them. Yet that's the only hospital in town. What's going on
around here?"


"Never mind," my father said, grabbing my arm and pulling me toward
the door. "We have a lot of work to do today. We need to talk to the
mayor - get him in on the action for a small percentage - then we need
to check into land prices. We can probably even get the local bank to
help us and - "

	"You don't care, do you?" I asked, stopping at the door. "You
don't care what happens to Rusty or Miss Simon as long as you have
your land deal."

	My father's enthusiasm took a back seat to his anger. "Listen,
you ingrate, they are employees. No matter what happens to them, I can
always get a new pilot and a new secretary. I'm trying to tell you
that this town is a potential gold mine. We can buy up half the town
before they even know what happened, and you're worried about two
employees whose combined annual earnings probably couldn't pay to have
my suits cleaned."

	"I'm talking about two human beings," I told him, my voice
rising.

	His eyes narrowed. "Fine, you worry about them and I'll worry
about business. I gave you a good education. I thought it would teach
you what you need to do to succeed. Apparently it was all too
theoretical. You haven't got an entrepreneurial bone in your
body. When we get back to New York, you're fired. You can go see what
your fancy degrees will get you out in the real world."

	"That's fine with me!" I snapped.

	I don't know what we would have said to each other next. I had
never stood up to my father so vehemently before. I have to admit,
though, that I would have probably backed down and ended up begging
for his forgiveness. Such was his power over me. We were both
glowering at each other, fists clenched, when there was a knock on the
door. "Mr.  Brubaker?" a familiar voice said pleasantly.

	I opened the door. The same police officer who had taken us to
our rooms the night before was standing there in the morning light.

	"Good morning, officer," I said pleasantly, wondering if he
had come by to bring us news of our pilot and secretary.

	My father made a different assumption, more in keeping with
his character. "Good. I'm glad you're here.  I want to see your mayor
as soon as possible. I have a proposition for him that I know he will
appreciate. Let's go."

	The officer continued to stand in the doorway. "I'm sorry,
sir. I'm not here to escort you to the mayor. The Judge has issued a
warrant for your arrest. Now, if you will come with me..."

	My father's face reddened at once. "What are you blabbering
about? My proposition is more important than some trumped up charge
from some tank town Judge. You'd better give me the name of that Judge
so I can have him reprimanded."

	"What is the charge, officer?" I asked as politely as I
could. I had heard stories about how small town justice worked. Often,
it was a matter of quietly paying a small fine and moving on. I knew
my father's attitude was bound to raise the ante.

	"Unsafe operation of an aircraft," he replied seriously.

	My father exploded, "What the hell are you talking about? We
weren't operating the aircraft. Our pilot was. Haul him in on your dip
shit charges and let us go about our business."

	I think he would have been furious under any conditions, but
our argument had meant that he was starting from a higher level of
irritation. We would be lucky if the officer didn't pull his gun and
shoot us for resisting arrest the way my father was carrying on. I
finally laid my hand on his arm and said softly, "Come on, sir. We can
get this taken care of quickly. I'm sure Officer..."

	"Mercer, sir."

	"Yes. Officer Mercer will be happy to take us to see the mayor
after we've taken care of this in court, won't you, Officer?"

	Without changing his expression, Officer Mercer replied, "If
you still want to see the mayor after the Judge has dealt with you, I
will be happy to escort you to see the mayor."

	"There, you see, sir?" I said calmly. "We don't have to be
concerned.

	"Very well," he huffed at last. "But this had better not take
long or my lawyers will be all over your little kangaroo court. Is
that clear, Officer?"

	"Very clear, sir."

	As we rode to see the Judge, I began to see what my father had
meant about Ovid. It was a typical Midwestern community in many ways,
but there was a difference, too. Everything looked clean. Not new,
necessarily, but clean. There was no trash lying in the gutters, no
graffiti on the buildings, and all the lawns were neatly trimmed and
sidewalks clean. It was almost a Hollywood version of small town
America, showing all of its virtues and none of its faults.

	Then, I was the first thing which disturbed me. As we stopped
at a stoplight, I saw what appeared to be a daycare attendant ushering
her charges into a nearby playground. As we drove past, I got a good
look at the ten or so children she was supervising. All but two of
them had that same strange transparent look I had noticed at the
airport. There, I had chalked it up to fatigue, but I was now
operating on a full night's sleep. Even the attendant looked a little
transparent. Strangely enough, the two normal children didn't seem to
notice anything out of the ordinary. The light changed and we were on
our way before I could comment on my observation.

	When I was a boy, I used to watch old reruns of the Twilight
Zone. Ovid was starting to remind me of that show. Why? Because it was
too normal.  It was like those Heaven on Earth fantasies where someone
from the big city finds relief from his troubles in the small, nearly
perfect town of his youth. Well, sorry, Ovid, I thought. I was born
and raised in the city, and while I might not have enjoyed growing up
under my father's thumb, I certainly didn't want to settle down in
Ovid. In fact, I wasn't too sure I even wanted my father investing in
Ovid. Something wasn't right in this perfect little town, I realized.

	Officer Mercer pulled into the parking lot of a building that
I assumed was what passed for a municipal building in Ovid. It wasn't
an unattractive building, but why the city fathers had decided to
place Doric columns in front of a fairly modern building was beyond
me.

	There was none of the activity of large city courts in Ovid. I
had attended many court hearings, and I had observed dozens of lawyers
rushing from room to room, conferencing with clients, and on the
phone.  There was none of this in Ovid. The halls were deserted.

	Officer Mercer led us into a fairly impressive
courtroom. There was only one person in the spectator's gallery - an
attractive blonde who seemed to be watching our ordeal with mild
amusement. Another woman, a fairly attractive brunette, was seated at
one of the attorney's tables.  She appeared to be fresh out of law
school. She was stylishly dressed in a beige business suit and was
intently reading a document she held over her open brief case. She
seemed to be having a little trouble reading it.

	"Damn contacts," she muttered as we approached. Looking at
Officer Mercer, she said, "Tell the Judge that right after this case,
I need to go get my glasses. These contacts aren't quite right."

	"He said that's fine," Officer Mercer said. It sounded like an
odd thing to say. How could he say it was fine when he hadn't heard
her problem or been in the room to reply to her? The bad feeling I was
getting about Ovid was getting worse.

	Turning to us, the woman said, "I'm Susan Jager. I'm your
attorney for today's trial."

	"No you're not," my father said belligerently. "I'm not about
to be represented by some little cheerleader fresh out of some podunk
law school. I'd rather represent myself."

	She nodded at me. "Does that go for you, too?"

	"It goes for him, too," my father replied.

	She looked at us with what almost looked like pity. Then, with
a sigh, she closed her briefcase and said, "Suit yourselves."

	"All rise," Officer Mercer suddenly intoned. "The city court
for the City of Ovid is now in session, the Honorable Judge
presiding."

	A rather distinguished looking man of middle age stepped out
of chambers and assumed his post at the bench. I couldn't help but
think he looked a little like that face I had seen in the clouds. He
looked down at us over the top of gold rimmed glasses and said with a
soft accent, "You may be seated. Next case?"

	"The case of Martin R. Brubaker and Martin R. Brubaker,
Junior," the officer said formally.

	"You are charged with unsafe operation of an airport. Counsel,
how do your clients plead?'

	The young woman rose to her feet. "Your honor, the defendants
have refused to accept me as counsel."

	The Judge looked at my father and me with utter disdain. "Let
it be noted that the defendants have declined counsel."

	"Your Honor!" my father said leaping to his feet. "This is a
travesty of justice. My son and -"

	"Are you an attorney, sir?" the Judge asked in a cultured
Southern voice.

	"No, but - "

	"Then I will thank you to be silent in my courtroom until you
are addressed. Is that clear?"

	In my entire life, I had never seen my father back down from
anyone, but he backed down from this strange magistrate. The Judge's
frown was almost a personification of the expression "if looks could
kill." The Judge's look at us seemed almost lethal. My father
self-consciously sat back down.

	"Now that we have that matter settled," the Judge said, "let's
continue with the trial. How do the two of you plead?"

	My father rose with as much dignity as he could still
muster. "Your Honor, my son and I plead not guilty."

	The Judge shifted in his seat. "Very well. Officer Mercer?"

	"Yes, Your Honor?"

	"Did you see these two men disembark from an airplane which
had just been observed operating unsafely over the city of Ovid?"

	"I did, Your Honor," the officer replied formally.

	Turning to us, the Judge asked, "Did you disembark from the
plane in question?"

	If it hadn't been such a serious situation, I would have
laughed. It was if the Judge was intentionally making a travesty of
the trial.  Surely he must have realized that the results of the trial
would be overturned as soon as my father got to his attorneys.

	"Of course we did!" my father snapped.

	"And who owns the aircraft in question?"

	"I do, Your Honor," my father admitted.

	"The it seems obvious to me that you are responsible for the
unsafe operation of the aircraft," the Judge said.

	My father was practically sputtering. "But I wasn't flying the
airplane. That was my pilot's job. If you want to accuse someone of
unsafe flying, charge him!"

	"I've already dispensed Judgement on your pilot," the Judge
replied to our surprise. "I must say he accepted his fate much more
civilly than you are. I must also point out that while he flew the
plane, you were the one in charge of it, Mr. Brubaker. No pilot would
have made the decision to fly into that storm. Only a fool like you
would have put so many lives at risk."

	"You can't talk to me that way!" my father shouted. Then, to
my astonishment, the Judge made a sudden motion with his hand and my
father stopped speaking. He didn't close his mouth. In fact, his mouth
was still open, and he was trying to yell at the Judge, but nothing
was coming out. In shock, he reached for his throat, trying to
determine what had gone wrong.

	The Judge smiled. "That's more like it, Mr. Brubaker. Don't
worry. Your condition isn't permanent. You'll be able to speak in a
few minutes, but not in the voice you are expecting to hear. I must
say, Mr. Brubaker, I don't like you. Many men have faced my Judgement,
and I have dealt with them fairly to the best of my ability. I shall
do so with you as well - with pleasure.

	"I don't need to hear what you were about to say. I know it
from your mind. You were about to threaten me by telling me that you
know the governor."

	One look at my father's widening eyes told me that that was
exactly what he had been about to tell the Judge.

	"Well, I know him, too," the Judge went on. "In fact, I play
golf with him this afternoon. I would give him your regards, but by
tee time, he won't have the slightest idea who you are.

	"I also know about your little scheme to turn Ovid into the
next Branson. Well, let me tell you something, Mr. Brubaker, Ovid is
far too valuable to be turned into the tourist trap you propose. You
will not have the opportunity to disrupt the lives of the people in
our community, or any other community for that matter. Now, as to the
matter of Judgement."

	My father lurched around and walked awkwardly to face the
Judge at the foot of his bench. Then, I felt invisible hands grab me
and pull me to his side. It was if I had lost complete control of
every part of my body. In moments, both of us were facing the Judge.

	"Mr. Martin Brubaker, Senior," the Judge intoned, much as I
suspected God would do when my father was called to his last
judgement, "you have controlled and manipulated people all of your
adult life. I think it is time you learned how the other half lives."

	Then, he began to speak in a language I had never heard before
- at least not the way he spoke it. It sounded vaguely like Latin, but
not the Latin you hear in high schools or from the lips of
priests. This Latin was a living language, fluid and robust, and the
words seemed to have a power I could feel. I watched my father
actually cringe under the force of the words. I don't know what I had
been expecting, but it wasn't this. My father had changed from
indignant to frightened, and I was beginning to become frightened
myself.

	Then, the Judge was silent. In fact, the entire courtroom was
silent.  My father just stood there with a tired, defeated look on his
face.

	"And now for you, Mr. Martin Brubaker, Junior," I felt my
blood suddenly run cold. "You have not had a chance to follow your
father's path to selfishness and vanity. There may, in fact, be hope
for you. My sentence of you carries with it a chance for happiness and
contentment, if you are intelligent enough to find it. Good-bye to
you, Mr.  Brubaker."

	With that, the Latin chanting began again, but the words were
different. I never took Latin, so I had no idea what he was saying,
but I began to feel the power of the words much as my father must have
felt them. I felt an odd tingling sensation which seemed to come
simultaneously from every part of my body. Then, as suddenly as it
began, the sensation stopped. The sudden silence was finally broken by
the sound of a gavel.

	"Case dismissed. Next case," the Judge said, a note of
satisfaction in his voice.

	Case dismissed? Why was he letting my father and I go with
just an odd speech in Latin? That didn't seem likely at all.

	"Come on, let's go," my father said. Or at least the words
came from my father's mouth. There was something odd about the way he
said it. His voice had developed a slight twang, not unlike a milder
version of the twang that seemed to be endemic to everyone who lived
in Oklahoma.

	My father began to stride from the courtroom, and there was
nothing, I realized, that I could do except to follow at his heels
like the obedient puppy I had been most of my life.

	We were silent as we walked from the courtroom, but there was
something odd about my father. In addition to the twang in his voice,
he seemed a little shorter. His suit didn't fit him quite right. I was
so busy trying to figure out what the problem was that I nearly
tripped on my own pants leg. I looked down. My pants seemed too long
suddenly, and they felt as if they didn't fit properly.

	"I swear, it gets harder and harder to get your driver's
license renewed every time," my father muttered.

	"What did you say?" I asked. I had a sudden feeling of
panic. What my father had said made no sense whatsoever. I was
beginning to wonder if the anger he had exhibited in the courtroom had
brought on a mild stroke. I had heard of such things happening.

	"Weren't you listening?" he said. "I was talking about
driver's licenses. Why, when I was your age, it didn't take no time at
all to get a new one. Now, you got to wait in a line that looks like
the line in front of St Peter on Judgement Day."

	My father used a double negative, I realized. I had never
heard him do that in my entire life. He was a Harvard graduate in his
own right. I didn't think he knew how to be grammatically
incorrect. And what was this muttering about a driver's license?

	As I pondered these issues, I felt a sudden tingle run through
my body.  It was as if I had suddenly been moved almost imperceptibly
from one point in the universe to another. Something was rubbing on my
chest.  Something else was tickling my neck. It felt almost as if my
entire body were suddenly encased in thin spider silk, shifting in the
breeze as I walked.

	My father made his way to an aging Ford F-150 pickup truck,
white except for the innumerable rust spots. He opened the door with a
key that seemed to suddenly appear in his hand. Unlocking the other
door from inside, he called, "Well, what are you waiting for? Your
daddy will be expecting us home for dinner. You know how he gets when
it ain't on the table on time. Now get in."

	What was he talking about? Shaken, I did get in - not because
I felt I had to, but because I was just too stunned to do anything
else. I felt almost as if I was an observer in my own body. My actions
seemed to be independent of my thought.

	My father methodically put the truck in gear without
difficulty. I had never seen him drive a manual transmission in my
life, yet he handled it effortlessly. I looked at him closely. There
was something different about him, but I couldn't quite determine what
it was. Then, I realized what had happened. He was no longer wearing
his suit coat, yet it wasn't on the seat beside him. He had been
wearing it when he got in the truck, yet now it was gone. That suit
cost more than most people made in a month, yet he didn't seem upset
that the jacket was missing.

	I continued to stare at him, only to realize that whatever was
happening was ongoing. His body seemed to lose focus, almost like an
image on an aging TV. It blurred around the edges and seemed to be
changing as I watched. My father had been balding, but now, he sported
a full head of hair, long and pulled back in a bun. It was mostly a
dull brown, but here and there were streaks of gray. His sallow,
unhealthy pallor had become much pinker, almost rosy, and the wrinkles
in his skin seemed to be disappearing. If I hadn't known his actual
age, I would have mistaken him for someone in their late thirties -
early forties at the most instead of the fifty-five I knew him to be.

	As we drove along the Ovid streets, even his clothing was
beginning to change. His white dress shirt had already turned to a
faded denim blue and seemed to be cascading over his body like a
waterfall until it had formed a long, shapeless garment which I
realized in shock to be a dress. The sleeves had shortened, revealing
slender, nearly hairless arms. I caught my breath as I watched two
shapes begin to rise from his chest.

	"My father - if the person seated next to me could even be
called my father - stared at me as we came to a stop at a traffic
light. "What's wrong, honey?" The voice was a full octave higher than
my father's voice. Equally as odd was that there was genuine concern
in his - her? - voice.

	"Nothing..." I managed to say, uncertain as to what I should
say. Was I supposed to tell my father that he was swiftly becoming
what appeared to be a woman? What would he think of that? Or worse
yet, would he think anything of it at all?


Then, I realized I had been so mesmerized watching my father's
transformation that I had paid no attention to what was happening to
my own form. My voice, I suddenly realized, had also changed pitch,
becoming higher like my father's. Also, there was a little of the
twang I had noticed in the voices of Oklahoma natives.

	I looked down, not entirely surprised to see that I no longer
wore a suit. The top button of my now plaid short sleeved shirt popped
open of its own accord, and I was greeted with the sight of two
substantial mounds of my own. My arms were smooth and hairless, my
hands small and delicate. I was wearing jeans as well, but they fit
oddly, contracting at the waist while pooling around my hips. I felt a
sudden length of hair down the back of my neck and seemed to know
instinctively that it had arranged itself into a long ponytail.

	There was no question as to what I was becoming. The only
question was how. Even in my stupor, I realized that this was the
sentence the Judge had spoken of. I was to be a girl, as was my
father. But what possible force of law or nature could do what had
been done to us? I wasn't a religious individual, but to my knowledge,
even God Himself had never doled out justice of this sort.

	"You look a little faint, Donna Mae," she - for I knew it was
now she - said to me.

	"Just a little hot," I managed to respond, trying to be as
nonchalant about the changes as possible. It was apparent to me that
whatever had happened to my father had affected his mind as well as
his body. She seemed to notice nothing out of the ordinary, as if she
had been whoever she now was all of her life. Would that also happen
to me? My transformation seemed to be a few minutes behind my
father's. Perhaps I would slowly lose the knowledge of who I had been,
suddenly believing myself to have always been this Donna Mae she
thought I was. I shuddered at the thought. I wanted to be me. I wanted
to remember who I had been and become that person again. To be changed
in body was bad enough. To be changed in body and mind was like a
death sentence.

	She laughed, "Honey, it ain't hot yet. It ain't even June
yet. This is as nice a day as you'll ever see."

	Actually, I was hot. The truck lacked air conditioning, and
the air blowing in from the partially opened windows was warm and
humid, a harbinger of an Oklahoma summer yet to come. I suspected,
though, that my profuse perspiring was due more to the shock of what
was happening to me than to the heat.

	"Soon as we get home," she continued, "I want you to go out
and get me a dozen fresh eggs. I'm gonna devil 'em for your daddy. You
know how he likes 'em. Make sure you just have a couple and leave most
of 'em for him."

	"There's a supermarket," I said spying a place called Duggan's
IGA."

	"What do we want with a supermarket?" she asked, puzzled.

	"Eggs," I reminded her.

	"Since when do we need a supermarket for eggs?" she
asked. "Something wrong with the chickens?"

	What chickens?

	We drove right on past the market, off past the edge of
town. There was nothing but cropland ahead, as far as the eye could
see. She seemed to know where she was going. I let her drive and tried
to concentrate on what had happened to me. Looking into the side
mirror, I saw the face of a young woman, perhaps sixteen or so. She
had nondescript brown hair and eyes to match. Her skin was lightly
tanned with a few freckles on her cheeks and nose. She was not
unattractive, but the apparent absence of any makeup gave her a
girlish rather than a womanly look. I looked down at my hands. I was
relieved to find that my nails were cut short and manish.

	After about two miles or so, we pulled into a graveled
driveway. There was a mailbox attached to a post, and she drove as
close to it as she could.

	"Well, aren't you going to get the mail?"

	"Huh?" I responded.

	She sighed, "I swear, girl, you are addled. Now get that mail
or you'll have to run back out here on foot to get it."

	I climbed out of the truck, feeling for the first time the odd
shift of weight in my body. I seemed to be projecting outward both in
the front and the rear, and the ponytail running down my back flopped
up gently from side to side. I was shorter, too, I realized than I had
been when I got in the truck.

	The mailbox had the name Potter printed in neat white letters
on the side. I reached in the box and pulled out several letters and
advertising circulars, dutifully taking them back to the truck. On top
of the stack, now resting in my lap, was an advertisement inviting
Donna Mae Potter to check out careers in today's Army. So that's who I
was. I had become a Donna Mae Potter. Sitting next to me, presumably,
was a Mrs. Potter - my mother. What was going on?

	"So the Army wants you," she commented, slipping the truck
back into gear. "I don't know what they'd want with girls. It just
don't seem right."

	It didn't seem right - that was for certain, and I didn't mean
the fact that the Army wanted girls.

	"A girl like you needs to settle down and have a family now
that your school is over."

	School was over? That made me more like eighteen. It had to be
the absence of makeup that made me look so much younger. That was fine
with me, though. I had no interest in wearing makeup. I didn't care if
I looked like I was ten years old. No way would I wear makeup. Not now
- not ever.

	As for the settling down and having a family line, it sounded
very ominous. I didn't know what I was going to do, but I certainly
didn't plan on having a family. I planned on finding out why I had
been changed into a girl and what I could do about changing back. In
the mean time, a little voice told me I should act the part I had been
given until I could determine what could be done to return me and my
father to our normal states. I hoped I could pull it off. I didn't
have the slightest notion how to be a teenage girl.

	Not far from the road was an aging farmhouse. It was neat and
had a fresh coat of white paint on its clapboard siding, but it was
old, showing obvious signs of wear. It was nestled in a grove of trees
which had obviously been planted many years ago to shield the house
from the hot Oklahoma sun. Not far away was a barn with a tractor and
several items of farm equipment whose functions I could only guess at
parked haphazardly.

	As we approached the house, I could see a man in overalls
stand up next to the tractor. He had apparently been working on the
machine, for he was wiping his oily hands on a white towel which was
becoming blacker by the minute. He was tall, perhaps six three,
although with my reduced height, I might have overestimated that. He
was lean with a dark skin tanned from continual exposure to the sun. A
shock of dark hair, thinning at the front, blew in the light spring
breeze. But his most striking feature was that he was
transparent. Again, by transparent, I mean that if I tried very hard,
I could almost see through him, just like the children on the
playground and the people at the airport.

	"'Bout time you got back," he said calmly in the ever-present
Oklahoma drawl. "Thought you must'a done some shoppin' while you were
in town."

	"Haven't got nothin' worth shoppin for," she said, getting out
of the truck. "I know how you hate for me to spend money on frills."

	"Ain't enough money in farming for frills," he drawled. "I
ain't had no dinner, though. You'd better get me somethin' real
quick."

	I didn't like the way he said that to her. I supposed she was
my mother now and he was supposed to be my father, whatever he really
was. He was overbearing, though, acting as if she were the hired help
instead of his wife. Could I have guessed wrong about their
relationship? I didn't think so.

	After she had descended from the truck, I got my first good
look at the woman my father had become. She was short - even shorter
than I. I guessed her to be no more than five-two or three. She may
have had a pleasant figure at one time, but now she was a little on
the pudgy side, walking with a bit more of a waddle than a sway.

	"I'll have dinner ready in a jiffy," she told him, unperturbed
at the way he had talked to her. She turned to me. "Donna Mae, you go
get them eggs like I told you."

	I looked around. Where were the chickens? I knew nothing about
farms. I had never been on one in my life. I was strictly a city kid.

	"What are you waitin' for?" the man growled. "I gotta show you
where the hen house is or something?"

	Actually, that would have been helpful. I was saved asking
that question when I heard the sudden squawk of a chicken from
somewhere behind the house. I rushed to the back of the house in
search of eggs.

	Of course, I had never been in a hen house before. The smell
that assaulted my new nose was a strong one of chicken feed, feathers,
and waste. Several chickens were nesting - or whatever chickens do -
in the poorly lit and ventilated space. There was a basket on a small
shelf next to the chickens. I picked it up, trying to determine how I
would find the eggs. Did I have to lift the chickens? No, I
realized. The eggs rolled down a little chute, collecting in front of
the chickens.  Apparently my first chore was going to be an easy
one. Quickly, I filled the basket with eggs and made my way back to
the house.

	I assumed correctly that the kitchen was toward the back of
the house.  My new mother was already preparing food with a couple of
mixing bowls on the counter while three steaks popped and sizzled in
an open skillet.  Pan fried steak, I realized. She was making a meal
that would harden the arteries of the heartiest individual. I had
always tried to be care what I ate, and this food was deadly. I knew,
though, that I would have no choice but to eat it. The thought of
eating so much unhealthy food was almost as unsettling as becoming a
girl - almost, but not quite.

	"Well, girl, set the table and make the drinks," she
ordered. "I still got to make these devilled eggs for supper."

	Set the table with what? Make what drinks? My shoulders
slumped in resignation. There was no way in the world I could pull off
this impersonation. I didn't even know where the glasses were. Then a
strange thing began to happen. On a whim, I simply cleared my mind. I
was, after all, suffering from a mental overload, probably not too
dissimilar from what people experience during a nervous breakdown. My
body just seemed to respond to knowledge I lacked on a conscious
level. As I walked forward toward the kitchen cabinets, my hands
reached instinctively upward into one of them, opening it to expose a
collection of tumblers.  I removed three of them without thinking.

	Now, what to put in them? Again, my body froze. I had no
conscious idea what drinks to make. I willed myself back into the
near-alpha state again, and my body walked to the refrigerator, filled
the glasses with ice, and withdrew a large cold pitcher of lemonade
from one of the shelves. I set the glasses on the table and allowed my
body to find knives and forks. When I took full control again, lunch
was ready.

	As relieved that I was that I had been able to perform a few
simple functions without giving away the fact that I was an imposter,
I was also unsettled at the thought that I could so easily surrender
control of myself to some unknown force which required me to act like
Donna Mae Potter. How pervasive was this force? If I surrendered to it
entirely, would I become like my father had become? Perhaps that was
what he had done. Perhaps the shock of his transformation had caused
him to slip into a mental fugue, now held prisoner in his own
transformed body while another personality ruled his very
existence. It was not a pleasant thought. I would have to be careful
how I used the autonomic state.

	"George," my new mother called out, "dinner's ready."

	Dinner? Then I remembered. In many rural areas, lunch was
called dinner. Supper was the evening meal.

	My "father" ambled into the room, carrying a thin newspaper
which declared itself to be the Ovid Clarion. He plopped down
wordlessly at the head of the table, buried his face in the newspaper,
and waited to be served. The effrontery of this clod, I thought! He
began to shovel food into his mouth boorishly, offering no
acknowledgement as to if it was good, bad, or indifferent. It was as
if we weren't even there. I had seen this type of behavior before when
I was younger. My father - that is to say, my real father - often
treated my mother in a similar fashion. As much as I was disgusted by
my new father's behavior, it was poetic justice to watch my father -
now apparently my mother - suffer the fate he had dealt out before.

	As for my new mother, she watched him take the first few bites
with a nervous expression. Then, once he had chewed and swallowed
without criticism, she relaxed and began to dish up food for herself
and for me.

	The food was actually quite tasty, but there was far too much
of it. I noticed my "mother" was just a little pudgy, and the diet was
obviously part of the reason. My "father" was slimmer, and I assumed
it was the hard work of farming that kept him that way. As for my new
body, it was slim, but hardly model slim. I realized if I became stuck
in Ovid for the rest of my life, I would have to learn to eat
sparingly or I would begin to resemble my mother.

	Another point about the food - it was all bad for us. There
was obviously too much fat in the diet, and the fried steak,
accompanied with fried potatoes, was probably hardening even my young
arteries rapidly. There was at least a helping of corn on my plate. I
resolved to eat it and leave as much of the potatoes and steak as I
could.

	"Honey, you're hardly eating," she commented. "Do you feel
okay? It isn't that time of the month for you, is it?"

	Time of the month? Holy shit! I had that to look forward to
also. What else could go wrong? "No - mom - I'm just not hungry."

	She smiled a motherly smile. Was my father still in there at
all?  "You're probably just excited about graduating and all. Is
Charlene still coming by to pick you up to get your gown?"

	I hoped she meant a graduation gown. I was now eligible to
wear the other kind as well. "Yes," I replied, although I didn't have
the slightest idea who Charlene was or if she was coming by for me.

	She nodded. "Then you'd better go get ready. She'll probably
be here any minute."

	As if on cue, there was the sound of a car coming to a halt on
the gravel driveway. A horn honked twice. Apparently, my ride had
arrived. I started to run out the door. Anything to get away from this
madhouse.

	"Don't forget your purse!" 'mother' called out to me. Where
was it? As if reading my mind, she said, "I saw it on the couch in the
living room this morning."

	I grabbed the worn brown purse that was lying on the couch and
slung it over my shoulder in what I hoped was a normal fashion.

	"Now be careful," my new mother said, scurrying to fill my
"father's" now-empty plate again. With any luck, maybe the son of a
bitch would have a coronary before I got back. I had a feeling I was
in for treatment no better than my mother. He was a misogynist if ever
I had seen one. Just because I was his daughter, I could not expect
decent treatment from him. After all, I was only a girl. I flushed in
anger at the thought. I hadn't asked to be a girl. Of course, when I
thought about it, girls that are born that way didn't ask to be girls
either.

	Charlene proved to be a girl about my size and build, although
there the resemblance ended. She had long red hair, flowing freely
down her back and wore flattering makeup on her pretty face. As I got
into her car, I saw she was wearing a tank top and shorts. She was a
real person, too - not one of those oddly transparent people. She gave
me a broad smile.

	"So what do you think?" she asked.

	"About what?" I returned.

	"The car, silly," she said as if I was the fool of the
day. "My mother's car - she let me take it today. Isn't that great?'

	"Yeah," I responded, not having the slightest idea what she
was talking about. "That's terrific."

	I was living in hell, I thought as we retraced the route into
Ovid that my "mother" and I had taken earlier that day. This morning,
I was a young man with a bright future. I was heir to one of the
largest real estate fortunes in the country, in my twenties, due to
marry a girl with all the right connections, and an MBA from a
prestige school. Now, I was fresh off the farm waiting to pick up my
high school diploma which would probably qualify me to waitress in
that burger joint I saw last night.  And of course, I was a girl. I
didn't have the foggiest notion how to be a girl, and I didn't want to
learn.

	Here I was, in a car with a girl I presumed was supposed to be
my best friend. I had no idea who she was, other than her first
name. I supposed it could have been worse. The person who picked me up
for a ride into Ovid could have been a large hulking lineman from the
high school football team with an IQ slightly lower than the car he
drove, and he could have called me "Babe" all the way into town, his
meaty arm draped over my tiny shoulders. I shuddered again. Shuddering
was starting to be what I did best in this body.

	"After we get our gowns, let's go to Personnel at March's,"
Charlene said brightly.

	"March's?" I had no idea what she was talking about.

	"Yeah," she said. "I want to put in an application there. I
hear they pay sales associates pretty well - for Ovid, at least."

	"Oh." Whatever March's was.

	"You know, you should apply, too," she said. "That nonsense
your dad is always spouting about how girls should be raising families
instead of working is really a pile of crap. I mean, Jeez, it's almost
the twenty-first century. That barefoot and pregnant horse shit went
out with high button shoes and celluloid collars."

	Not on the Potter farm, I realized. What had I gotten myself
into?  Whatever it was, it didn't look good.

	I had been on the fringes of Ovid's business district when I
had been driven to my trial, but this was my first opportunity to see
it close up and personal. It was really Small Town America, but most
certainly a prosperous version of it. My father and I had traveled all
over the region in search of the next Branson and had been greeted
with decaying business districts and declining populations wherever we
went. Small towns were dying, unless they were close to cities, and
there they grew as bedroom communities, slowly losing their identities
until they were connected to the cities they served by a never ending
string of fast food restaurants and discount stores. Ovid, though,
showed no signs of decay, and it certainly wasn't close to any large
city, I imagined. In fact, I wasn't even sure Ovid was on the planet
Earth. It was as if it existed... somewhere else.

	There wasn't a boarded up store or vacant lot to be seen in
the downtown area. Even the offices over the retail shops appeared
occupied by a variety of professionals. Storefronts were clean with up
to date window displays and inviting entrances. The residents of Ovid
were dressed casually but prosperously, and everyone seemed to be
happy. I felt like I had been suddenly thrust into the movie Truman,
complete with smiling, happy citizens and clean streets. Of course,
there was one important difference. Many of the residents of Ovid were
semi-transparent.

	We parked on the street about half a block from a three story
building which had the name March's prominently displayed on the front
and side in large red letters. It wasn't exactly Bloomingdale's, but
it would have to do. For a small town, it actually looked like a
fairly impressive store.

	Fortunately, Charlene knew just where to go. I followed her up
to the third floor where the Special Services department had our
graduation gowns and mortarboards. We were each issued one by a
smiling clerk. The gowns were gold with black trim while the
mortarboards were black with a gold tassel. Charlene was excited when
she tried hers on. Graduation from high school was the biggest event
in her life. I wonder what she would have thought if she had known
that the last time I wore an outfit like the one I now had on was to
receive my MBA at Harvard.

	Our gowns on hangars wrapped in plastic, Charlene said,
"Personnel is on this floor. Let's go fill out job applications."

	"Charlene," I began, "I don't think I want to... well, I
mean..."  Suddenly, I realized I didn't have a single good reason not
to fill one out. What was I going to do with myself after I got my
high school diploma? There was no wealthy father waiting in the wings
to send me off to the best schools. Living and working on the farm
would be a true version of hell. It would only be a matter of time
until my new father decided it was time to marry me off to some other
farmer. Of course, I didn't want to stay in this form in the first
place, but something told me that I was probably doomed to be Donna
Mae Potter for the rest of my life.

	"Okay," I said at last. "Let's fill out those applications."

	Charlene squealed with excitement and practically ran to
Personnel.


We sat together at a table in the break room with our applications.
Charlene was working diligently on hers, but I had paused on mine. I
suddenly realized I didn't know most of the information required on
the form. I dug into my purse, pulling out a worn wallet and sorted
through the cards that were there. No credit cards, I noticed, but
there was a Social Security card, a driver's license, and a high
school ID there. I managed to get most of the information filled in
from them. Of course, I had no idea how to answer the work history
questions, but I suspected Donna Mae had always had to work on the
farm after school. I wrote that down on the application.

	As I finished the application, I happened to think that
working at March's might be a good thing after all. It would get me
off the farm and provide me with a reasonable income. I wasn't sure I
wanted to spend the rest of my new life clerking in a department
store, but it was a start. Anything would be better than living on the
farm.

	A clerk took our finished forms and with a smile said, "If we
have any openings, we'll be giving you a call in the next few days."

	We thanked her and turned to leave. Maybe it was because I was
still sleepwalking into my new life, or maybe it was because I wasn't
used to the balance of my new body, but when I swung around to leave,
I swung too wide, colliding with someone in the process.

	"I'm so sorry!" I apologized to the woman I had run into. Then
I took a good look at her. She was without a doubt the most beautiful
woman I had ever seen in my entire life. She had hair the color of
spun gold, literally gleaming in the overhead lights, and every strand
of it was long, full, and absolutely in place. Her body was incredibly
beautiful and in absolutely perfect proportion. Her face was flawless
and almost angelic, but with a hint of mischief which made her look
both complex and intelligent. She was dressed in a gray suit with a
lavender silk blouse underneath. It made her look both professional
and feminine at the same time. As much as I wanted my masculine form
back, I found myself experiencing feelings of awe and envy - awe
because of her great beauty and envy because as a new woman, I had
none of it.

	She smiled, and it was as if soft music played when she
spoke. "That's quite all right. You're new here, aren't you?"

	"New?" I asked.

	"To Ovid, I mean."

	I looked around. Charlene was out of earshot, talking with
someone who looked to be about our age. I realized she must have met
one of our school chums. "Yes... yes I am," I admitted. "I didn't know
anyone else knew about me."

	She laughed gently. "Most people will not know. Well, if you
will excuse me, it was nice running into you, Donna Mae." With that,
she was gone, her body swaying gracefully.

	"Wow!" Charlene said, moving to my side. "That should help you
get a job here."

	"Why?" I asked, puzzled.

	"Are you kidding?" she laughed. "That was Vera March."

	"As in March's Department Store?" I asked with a gasp.

	"None other."

	My spirits fell. For the few minutes I had spent filling out
the application, I had visions of a life independent of an overbearing
father and passive mother. No more farm life for me. I would move into
town and work at someplace like March's. At least I would have my own
life - not just the one the Judge had assigned me to. Now, I realized
that I didn't have a chance. Vera March would want women working in
her store who had at least some style and grace. I was fresh off the
farm in my new body. Had I actually been a girl, I might have had a
chance. At least I would know the fundamentals of clothing and
makeup. But I knew none of that. Maybe I could get a job in the local
feed and seed store.

	Then on the way out of the store, a thought struck me. Vera
March had asked if I was new, and yet she called me by name. How
strange...

	Charlene dropped me off at the farm. It was about four, but
already the smells of cooking food were wafting through the house. My
new mother came bustling out of the kitchen when she heard me come in.

	"Thank god you got home early!" she gushed. "You've got to go
get all dressed up. Your daddy invited over that nice Mr. Spencer from
down the road."

	I was missing something here. Why did this mean I had to get
"all dressed up?"

	"Mr. Spencer?" I repeated. I seemed to be doing a lot of that
lately.

	"You know, the young man who inherited his family's farm last
year.  He's a nice looking fella, and he's single, Donna Mae."

	Oh my god. The significance finally got through to me. My new
mother and father's little comments about the role I would be expected
to play in life were making sense now. They intended to introduce me
to an eligible bachelor and get me married off as soon as
possible. But they couldn't do that, could they? I mean, this was the
United States. Things like arranged marriages just didn't happen here,
did they? Apparently they did, and if I didn't think fast, I would be
part of one.

	For now, though, there was nothing to do but go along. If I
refused, I might be thrown out of the house on my ear. My new father
seemed perfectly capable of doing that if I defied his will. I would
have to cooperate until I had an alternative.

	"What do you want me to wear?" I asked with a sigh.

	Was it my imagination, or did "mom" suddenly look relieved? I
wondered if she thought I would balk at her request.

	"Wear that nice little blue dress you got for your birthday,"
she suggested.

	"Could you help me, mom?" I asked. I had no idea what dress
she was talking about. "Maybe you could show me what to wear with it."

	She was silent for a moment, as if debating whether to desert
her kitchen to help me or not. At last, she decided it was such a rare
treat to have a teenage daughter ask about apparel and accessories
that she couldn't resist. I think I really realized at that moment
that either my real father was completely gone or embedded so far in
the person he had become that he might as well be gone. Then a thought
struck me as we made our way upstairs. What if my father was still in
her somewhere, observing everything, yet unable to act, or at least
unable to act out of character? If that were so, it was the most
diabolical prison ever created. I found myself hoping for my father's
sake that it wasn't so.

	So for the first time in my life and embarrassed practically
to tears, I slipped on a dress.  The dress she had suggested for me
looked like something out of a bad movie. I didn't know much about
women's fashions, but I knew a rather turquoise blue dress with plain
short sleeves, a skirt that came down to my knees, and buttons up the
front was anything but the height of fashion. Add to them a pair of
white flats with no stockings and all I was lacking was a straw hat
with the price tag still on it.

	"Here, let's let your hair free," mom said, pulling off the
scrunchie that had kept my hair in a ponytail. I had to admit, it
looked better loose. I was still rather plain, but I could imagine
something could be done with that hair... What was I thinking? The
only thing I really wanted was to cut all that hair off - to try to
look male again. Not much chance of that, though, I realized, looking
at my breasts sticking out from the cheap, unstylish dress.

	"There, now you're all ready," she told me with a motherly
smile. I kept thinking, if my father was still conscious inside this
parody of a farm mother, he would be silently screaming by now. At
least she hadn't made me wear any makeup.

	Ready at last, it now became my job to set the table and start
making drinks. Right at six, our guest arrived. I supposed farm
families ate dinner - excuse me, supper - early so they could get to
bed early and get out and tend the fields and milk the cows early the
next day. My mother shooed me into the hallway to greet our guest.

	"And you remember Donna Mae here," my new father said,
feigning pride in me as I walked into the hall.

	Mr. Spencer was nearly my father's age, I realized. He was a
pleasant enough looking man, but hardly handsome. His sandy hair was
thinning, almost lost against his farm-tanned skin. His eyes were his
best feature, sparkling blue in color. He had a slender build, but
solid muscles from heavy farm work. He didn't appear to be one of the
transparent people. He held a large-boned hand out to me shyly. "Yes,
I do remember Donna Mae," he said in a tone of voice that made me want
to run for cover.

	I bit the bullet and stuck out my own tiny hand, which was
immediately covered by his. "Mr. Spencer," I managed to say, trying
not to show the pain of his unintentionally powerful grip.

	"Just call me Jess," he said with a pleasant smile.

	Dinner was hell. It was obvious my new parents had made it
their mission in life to marry me off to Jess Spencer. They kept
steering the conversation to my domestic prowess. Maybe the Donna Mae
who had existed before I was thrust in that role had such abilities,
but I had none. I scarcely knew how to boil water, yet my new father
busied himself making remarks like, "If you think this chicken is
good, you should see what my little Donna Mae can do with a bird."

	Yes, I would have liked to have flipped one at my "father,"
but I wasn't sure what would happen if I incurred his wrath. Something
told me the results would not be pleasant.

	"Well," Jess drawled, "if she can fry up a chicken better than
this, she sure would be a fine cook, 'cause Mrs. Potter, this here
chicken is about the finest I ever tasted."

	My "mother" smiled with pride. "I'm glad you like it,
Mr. Spencer." She had limited her conversation, deferring to my
"father" most of the time.  It was a woman's place. I'm sure that's
what she thought, anyway.

	The kitchen table was small to begin with, but they had
arranged it so I was sitting uncomfortably close to Mr. Spencer. He
had made no attempt to disguise his gazes at me, taking me in as if I
were the reigning Miss America. It took all my willpower to keep from
running from the table as fast as my new legs could carry me.

	At last, dessert was finished and coffee drunk. The evening
was coming to an end, I thought. I could hardly wait to bid
Mr. Spencer good night.  It wasn't to happen so quickly, though, I
realized with a sinking feeling in my stomach, for my father said,
"Lucille, why don't you and I clean up and let these young folks get
to know each other a little better."

	It was done with such a heavy hand that had I been a casual
observer, I might have laughed. But for me, in the sudden role of
Donna Mae Potter, it was no laughing matter. Mr. Spencer was being
given an opportunity to examine the merchandise. What would I do if
he... if he... I didn't even want to finish that thought.

	He ushered me out onto the front porch, where the setting sun
had left the sky a brilliant orange. He guided me to a waiting porch
swing and sat down beside me.

	"Your folks are fine people," he said by way of an opening
gambit.  That's right. That's how to get to a girl's heart, I
thought. Tell her how wonderful her family was. Well, this girl had
been a girl for less than a day, and as to her family, they could
roast in hell for all I cared.

	Of course, I voiced none of this. I merely smiled and mumbled
a demure "Thank you."

	"Y'know, I lost my folks early," he went on. "Dad, he died
when I was just sixteen. Never sick a day in his life, but a tractor
turned over on him one day. Mom and me ran the farm after that, but it
wore her out.  She got sickly and had to be taken care of for the last
six years."

	Where was he going with all of this?

	"After she died last year, running the farm just got to be a
full time job. I never had much time to do any courting."

	Courting? Is that what this was? But I didn't want to be
courted!

	"So I was wondering," he began shyly. "Do you suppose we could
see each other again? I mean just the two of us. I'd like to get to
know you better, Donna Mae."

	Only a day before, how would I have answered a question like
that?  Well, it would have been a question about a business proposal
and not a relationship, so I would have said something to the effect
of "I'll be happy to consider your proposal." I didn't think that
answer would fit here. Should I tell him no? I wanted to, but I wasn't
sure what the ramifications of that response would be. I certainly
didn't want to lead him on. An affirmative response might have found
me crushed in his arms while he babbled about setting a date for the
wedding.

	"I'll think about it, Mr. Spencer," I said with a bland smile.

	"Call me Jess," he said softly.

	"Jess, then."

	He stood up. "Then I'll take that as reason to call again," he
said formally. "You tell your folks again thanks for dinner. I'll be
calling you real soon."

	That was it. There was no good night kiss, no pawing me on the
porch swing. He ambled down the porch steps, got into a new Dodge
pickup, and drove away, leaving one relieved new girl in his wake.

	My parents were still doing the dishes when I went into the
kitchen.

	"So is he gonna call again?" my father said hopefully.

	"He said he would," I replied.

	He grunted and put down the dishtowel he had been
half-heartedly using.  "Then I'll leave this to you two." With that,
he strode off to the living room where I heard the rustle of a
newspaper.

	With a sigh, I picked up the dishtowel and began to wipe the
dishes as my mother washed them. I was able by now to figure out which
shelves to place them on.

	Mom smiled at me. "He really just wants what's best for you,"
she said, noting how distracted I was.

	"By setting me up with someone his own age?"

	"Nonsense!" she scoffed. It was odd how I was accepting this
person who had once been my father as my new mother. "Your daddy is
forty one. Mr.  Spencer is a good ten years younger."

	"That still makes him - what - thirteen years older than me,"
I pointed out.

	"You don't want some young pup," she argued. "What's a young
pup good for except in bed?"

	My face flushed. I didn't want any pup, young or
old. Underneath this farm girl exterior beat the heart of a
red-blooded man, and to have my new mother think all I was interested
in was somebody my age for better sex was almost enough to make me run
screaming from the room.

	"It isn't that," I replied honestly as I nearly dropped a
dish.

	"Of course it is," she insisted. "I'm not that old, you
know. I still remember what it was like to be a young girl like you."

	You only think you do, I thought to myself. When you think you
were a young girl, you were already grinding competitors into the dirt
while you became one of the wealthiest developers in America. Deep
down, do you remember any of that?

	"Why, when I was in high school, I had the boys just flocking
around me."

	It was so hard to believe that even if she had existed in some
form that long ago, the boys would be flocking around her. She looked
like Ma Kent for god's sake.

	"Anyhow, Jess Spencer would make you a fine husband. He could
provide for you and make you happy if you let him. I saw the way he
looked at you at dinner. He's definitely interested in you. I wouldn't
be surprised to see him pop the question to you on your first date."

	My god! What a terrible thought!

	"But what if I don't... want him?" I managed to ask. "What if
I don't want to get married?'

	"All girls want to get married," she replied, adding, "At
least all normal girls."

	Well, I wasn't exactly a normal girl.

	"Dad" had gone to bed early, as was apparently his habit. I
suppose that was fairly normal on a farm. After all, where else could
the expression "up with the chickens" have come from. This gave me
some time to spend with "mom," just talking about inconsequential
things - girl talk, if you will. She told me about her own girlhood,
growing up the daughter of a tenant farmer in Oklahoma (that is, one
where the farmer didn't actually own the farm, but rather rented it
for a share of the crop). I could detect nothing about her that would
indicate that she had any memory of her previous life. Here she was,
formerly one of the most powerful real estate barons in the country,
reduced to a few hundred acres of Oklahoma farmland, and I would have
bet her name wasn't even on the deed.

	It was, I supposed, a fitting punishment, although the woman
she had become would not have considered it a punishment, I was
sure. She was limited to her high school education, had gotten
pregnant unexpectedly and subsequently married in her senior year. In
fact, she hadn't even graduated. In those days, she had told me,
pregnant girls weren't welcome in school. My "father" had been the
only man she had ever known - sexually, that is.

	It explained a bit about him, too. As the only son of a
farmer, he had hoped to marry well, possibly the daughter of another
farmer. Then, two small farms could be merged into one large one. It
hadn't happened that way, though, and now he was a bitter man who
worked hard but never seemed to really get ahead.

	That apparently was where I came in. As his "daughter," I was
expected to improve the family fortunes by marrying well. Jess
Spencer's land bordered on ours, and together, we could have a large
farm - run, of course, under the benevolent hand of my father.

	I was forced to appreciate the cosmic justice the Judge was
capable of dispensing. I had a pretty good idea who he was. In
college, I had been forced to read Ovid, so I knew his writings of the
gods. The Judge either was a god in the old Roman sense, or he had
enough powers from wherever to think of himself as one. I suspected he
really was one.  Which one? Well, Judge and Jupiter both started with
the same two letters. He certainly seemed to have Jovian powers. I
wondered if Ovid was an existing town he had co-opted or if he had
created it out of whole cloth. Whichever was true, he was probably one
of the most powerful beings to ever walk the planet.

	And he had a sense of humor, too. That much was clear. After
all, he had "punished" both my father and me in most creative ways. My
father had browbeaten every woman he had ever known. I don't know
exactly why.  Maybe he had a domineering mother and he was just
getting even. I hadn't known my grandmother, so I couldn't say for
sure. Or maybe he was just a misogynistic son of a bitch. Whatever the
correct answer, he was paying now, I realized as I headed off to
bed. He would spend - presumably - the rest of his new life taking
guff from a man who would have been a poor man's version of his soul
brother in his original life. He would be one of the people he hated
most - a woman.

	And what of me? Was justice done in my case? I had never hated
women, so was it justice for me to become one? Perhaps, I thought, as
I pulled a cotton nightie out of a drawer after a futile search for
something less feminine, being female was somewhat incidental to my
case. What was it that the Judge had said to me? He said that my
sentence carried with it a chance for happiness and contentment, if I
was smart enough to find it.

	Happiness? Contentment? How was I supposed to be happy as some
eighteen year old freckle faced farm girl with an Oklahoma twang in
her voice and all the fashion sense of a rock? Was that what Jess
Spencer was all about? Was he supposed to make me happy? Yeah, right.


I stripped off my dress, really taking the time to look at my new body
for the first time. Well, I was a freckle faced farm girl all right,
but not a bad looking one. My face was smooth and soft, in spite of
some obvious time working on the farm in the hot Oklahoma sun. The
rest of my skin was more pink, and I had practically no hair on my
body, except on my head and a tiny thin patch at my crotch. My breasts
were full, although not overly large. I checked my bra. I was a C cup,
but not a particularly large one. The breasts did look a little
larger, though, on my slender frame. Waist and hips were undeniably
feminine, and my legs were about as nice as a girl's pair of legs
could be.

	Now what was I supposed to do with this body to gain that
happiness and contentment the Judge spoke of? Did I have to marry Jess
and be a dutiful farm wife, milking cows and raising children? Maybe
that was the Judge's idea of happiness and contentment, but it didn't
sound right to me.

	But what other choices were available to me? I wondered as I
slipped on the nightie and crawled into bed. College was out. I lacked
the money, and I was sure that my new father would see no value in
that for me. As for work, that was fine, but with no special skills in
a small town, there didn't seem much opportunity there. Perhaps the
morning would bring answers instead of questions, I thought, as I
slowly drifted off to sleep.

					***

	"Come on, you lazy girl!" a deep voice barked in the half
light.  "There's no call to be sleepin' in. The chickens gotta be
fed."

	Girl? Chickens? I groaned, surprised to hear the high pitch of
my voice. What was going on? I began to awaken slowly, realizing in
tiny fragments where I was, and more importantly, who I was. As I lay
on my back only semiconscious, I became aware of the weight of my new
breasts, the tickle of my long hair, and most insistently, an urgent
need to pee.  That was the strangest feeling of all. Rather than
manifesting itself in a semi-erection of my now absent penis, the
feeling seemed to be coming from inside my body. Of course, I
realized, where else would it come from? There was nothing sticking
out any more.

	With a sigh, I got out of bed, feeling the soft nightie swirl
about my legs and trundled off to the bathroom. I had had nearly a day
to get used to voiding in this fashion, I thought as I squatted on the
toilet.  Leaning slightly forward to allow for what little aim I could
manage.  Still, I couldn't get used to the feeling. Somehow, taking a
leak wasn't as satisfying any more. With resignation, I wiped myself
and began to prepare for a new day as a girl.

	I suddenly realized I didn't have the foggiest notion what to
do next.  I supposed a shower should be the first order of the
day. Girls were supposed to smell nice, and I was smelling a little
pungent. With a tired sigh, I turned on the water in the shower and
let it turn warm while I stripped out of my nightie. I stepped into
the shower, relaxing as the warm water cascaded over my newly softened
skin.

	Most women I knew preferred the luxury of a bath over the
utility of a shower. I might be female now, but I realized in that
moment that I was always going to be a shower person. The only
problem, I noted was keeping my newly long hair from getting wet and
not allowing the water to strike directly on my sensitive nipples.

	It felt odd to wash this new body, though. My male body had
been hard and angular. This new flesh of mine was soft and gave way
when I sponged it off. Also, the curves made it a series of different
motions.  Reluctantly, I realized this new flesh was much more
sensitive than my male flesh. Washing it could almost become a sensual
act. Its smooth, delicate feel was akin to lying on silk sheets,
smooth and cool to the touch. I found myself closing my eyes and
sponging my soft breasts, then reaching for -

	A loud bang on the door almost caused me to wet myself. "Girl,
are you gonna be in there all day?" My father's growl interrupted my
reverie. In shock, I looked down at where my hand had been about to go
of its own accord. Embarrassed, I rinsed quickly and got dressed in my
farm girl outfit of jeans and plaid shirt. I wasn't sure what else to
do to get ready. Thankfully, I had been wearing no makeup when I was
changed, so I assumed I needed none now. I again gathered my long hair
into a rough ponytail and applied the scrunchie I had used the day
before. A look in the mirror told me that I looked about right.

	Feeding the chickens was a simple enough chore. There weren't
many of them to feed for one thing. This wasn't a chicken farm, so the
only birds we had were apparently for our own use, the way
suburbanites plant small gardens to satisfy their own needs. I had no
idea what the primary crop was. It was probably wheat or corn, but I
wasn't sure and didn't want to know. The chicken feed was in a bag on
a shelf in the hen house.  I took the large tin cup resting at the top
of the bag and poured it into the wooden trough in front of the
chicken's roost. Then, I threw some more in the small exercise yard in
front of the hen house. Several birds rushed over and began pecking at
once. The chore done, I walked back to the house.

	"Well, where are the eggs?" my mother asked, looking over her
shoulder from the frying pan filled with sizzling bacon.

	"Eggs?"

	She sighed, "Honestly, Donna Mae, you can't seem to keep your
mind on anything these days. You're not going to make much of a farm
wife if you can't keep your head on straight."

	"Sorry," I mumbled, backing out of the house and heading back
to the hen house.

	I took a basket off the shelf and filled it with eggs. At
least I had performed that chore before, so I knew what I was supposed
to be doing.  I hurried them back to my mother and began the task of
setting the table and making drinks without being asked.

	Breakfast was eaten in relative silence. My new father wolfed
down a full plate of bacon and eggs, washed down with cold milk and
coffee.  >From the look of him, he had already been working for some
time and was getting ready to work again. I was beginning to realize
that life on a farm was not as idyllic as I had once imagined. Like
most city boys, I had imagined farming to be more technologically
oriented as we neared the twenty-first century. No such luck - at
least on the Potter farm.  Farming here was hard work. I could almost
understand why he seemed to resent me. If I had been a son instead of
a daughter, I would have been more helpful to him in running the
farm. As it was, I was a weak girl, fit only for cooking and light
farm duties, and of course, for being married off to a farmer.

	I certainly wished I was his son instead of his daughter. I
had no interest in being a girl. Maybe I could see the Judge and ask
him to change me again. Being the son of... gee, I suddenly realized I
didn't even know his first name... But being Farmer Potter's son
instead of his daughter would be better for everyone. My "father"
would have someone to help him on the farm, and I would have my male
identity back again. It wouldn't be the same as being scion of the God
of Real Estate, but it would be better than wearing dresses and having
periods - or worse yet - missing periods.

	My father looked at his watch. "Eight o'clock," he
pronounced. "Time to go to work."

	"Get the dishes, dear," my mother told me sweetly.

	As I rose to do my next chore, the phone rang. My mother
answered, listening for a moment before handing the phone to me. "It
sounds like Charlene," she told me.

	Charlene was gushing pure excitement. "She called me!"

	"Who called you?" I asked.

	"Vera March." When I said nothing, she explained. "You know,
from March's Department Store. They want to interview me for a sales
job."

	"That's great," I replied, trying to sound cheery. When we had
filled out the applications, I had been ambivalent about the idea of
being a sales clerk in a small town department store. Sure, it sounded
better than being a farm girl, but it was still a long fall from the
life I was accustomed to. Now, though, I found myself more than a
little envious.  Charlene would be off the farm, building a modest
career. Me? I would be stuck on the farm, trying desperately to avoid
the clumsy advances of Jess Spencer.

	"Listen, have you heard from them?" she asked.

	"Not a word," I admitted, chagrinned. I guess freckle-faced
farm girls weren't in high demand, even at small town department
stores.

	"Well, I'm going in at ten for an interview. I'll let you know
how it goes."

	I found myself actually depressed as I hung up the phone. Here
I was, mentally an MBA from the Harvard Business School, and yet I
couldn't get a job clerking in a store. Try as I might to stop them,
there were actually a few of my tears mixed into the soapy dishwater
that morning.

	Then, at eight thirty, my life changed.

	The phone rang again. "It's for you again," my mother said,
exasperated at becoming my answering service.

	It was probably Charlene again, I thought, grabbing the
phone. I really didn't want to talk to her again, so I was probably a
little gruff when I mumbled, "Yes?"

	"Donna Mae?" I recognized the voice. There was only one like
it in the world, I was sure. It was Vera March.

	"Uh... yes," I replied, chagrinned.

	"I've been reviewing your application," she said smoothly. "I
think you have some potential. I'd like to discuss your goals with
you. Is there a time we could meet this morning?"

	"Uh..." I stammered, trying to think of a reply. I had no car,
and I was pretty sure I wouldn't be given the use of the family truck
when there were plenty of chores to be done. I would have to catch a
ride with Charlene. What time was her interview? Ten? "Would ten
thirty do?"

	"That would be fine, dear," she said cheerfully. "I'll see you
then."

	As she hung up, I realized how important the interview might
be to my future.

	"Oh god!" I cried out.

	My "mother" put her arm around me. "What's wrong, dear?"

	"I have a job interview," I told her, so flustered, I didn't
know which way to turn. "I need to call Charlene to get a ride. I need
to get changed."

	"Mother" frowned. "A job interview?"

	"Yes," I confirmed. "Charlene and I applied at March's. Vera
March wants to see me at ten thirty."

	"I'm not too sure I like that woman," my mother said in
measured tones.  "Besides, we need you here on the farm."

	"But I can't stay here on the farm forever," I told her as I
dialed Charlene. There it was again - that ability to act as Donna Mae
when I let my subconscious take over. I had dialed her number without
having the slightest notion what it was. "Charlene... I got an
interview, too!  Can you pick me up? Nine thirty? Great!"

	"I know you can't stay here forever, dear," mother agreed,
"but if you and that nice Mr. Spencer were to get married, we could
run the farms together."

	The cat was out of the bag. The "M" word had been used for the
first time. Apparently my new parents had it all figured out. I was to
marry Jess Spencer whether I wanted to or not. What a nice, simple
arrangement! The two farms were right next to each other. We could run
them as one. I wondered if "that nice Mr. Spencer" had any idea that
the farms would have to be run according to my father's wishes and not
his own. I was to be used like some medieval princess, married off to
the neighboring baron for an alliance.

	Or like Martin R. Brubaker Junior being forced to marry
Lucinda Watson, I thought grimly. Yes, I had been willing to do
that. I felt I had no choice. My father had decreed it for the good of
the company, and I had agreed to it. Did I love Lucinda Watson? Of
course I didn't. She was slightly overweight, had a strident voice,
and looked down her nose at everyone who hadn't appeared in the
society pages in the last three months. Yet I had been willing to
marry her.

	Was it any worse to be asked to marry Jess Spencer? Jess was a
nice guy, pleasant looking if not handsome. He would make a good
husband and a good father. Yet I just wasn't attracted to him any more
than I had been attracted to Lucinda Watson. Why should that make such
a difference to me now? Oh, sure, I was now a girl, and I had to admit
that the thought of sex as a girl wasn't the most pleasant thought I
had ever experienced. As Martin, I could have forced myself to go to a
loveless bed with Lucinda, have sex with her, and then go on with my
life, maybe with a mistress on the side. But as Donna Mae, could I
slide beneath the covers with a man I didn't love? Was it that
different as a woman?

	"I just don't want you to go," my mother said suddenly,
breaking my train of thought.

	"But I've already said I would," I argued.

	She folded her arms. "Then I forbid it."

	"Mother, I'm eighteen," I said, bluffing. I wasn't sure if I
was eighteen or not. "I'm an adult. I'm going in for that interview."

	She was obviously shocked at my resistance. "Then wait until
your father finds out about this," she called to me as I hurried to my
room.

	I suddenly realized there was sometimes truth to the old
woman's lament of "I haven't got a thing to wear." There was nothing
in my somewhat Spartan closet which would look right for the interview
with Vera March.  I finally decided upon a drab brown suit and plain
white blouse, as well as a pair of brown flats. I realized it wasn't a
very stylish outfit, but the Potters weren't a very stylish
family. Besides, even if I had found nylons and heels, I wasn't sure I
could handle them. I would just have to let my charming personality do
the work for me. I wished I could ditch the Oklahoma twang in my
voice, but realized everyone else had it, too, so it wasn't out of
place.

	There were no good-byes from my mother as I hurried out to
join Charlene. Mother sat in the living room, pretending to be
engrossed in the morning paper as I hurried out the door.

	Charlene put me to shame. She wore a linen suit, peach
colored, with a silky white blouse. She had stylish gold jewelry and
attractive makeup.  Her two inch heels and nylons gave her legs a very
sophisticated look.  It was all enough to make me cringe. I looked
like something that had just wandered in out of the depths of the
Ozarks. Charlene noticed my alarm. "Oh, don't worry, Donna Mae. You
look just fine."

	Sure I did. I looked like a man pretending to be a woman. I
had no makeup, no heels, no nylons, and a suit the color of cow
shit. I had about as much chance of impressing Vera March as I did of
winning a Miss America pageant.

	We got to March's with a few minutes to spare. Charlene led
the way confidently while I lagged behind, looking over the store to
see if there was any role I could take on there. I saw a rather dumpy
woman - not one of the transparent people - with a mop cleaning up a
mess made by a spilled coffee. Maybe I could do that, I thought. Maybe
I was qualified to be a custodian.

	The next sensation I felt was running into an immovable
object.  Tottering and nearly falling, I felt a strong arm pull me
back to my feet. I was suddenly looking into the most gorgeous pair of
blue eyes I had ever seen. Then, shocked, I realized they were the
eyes of a young man.

	"Are you all right?" he asked releasing me.

	Dumbly, I nodded. I had been a man only a day before, yet I
found myself practically awestruck gazing into the eyes of this
man. He was not terribly tall - only about six feet, although that
towered over my new five-five height. He had brown hair and the
aforementioned blue eyes, and strong, handsome features.

	"Okay," he said softly, turning back to the counter of sport
shirts he had been looking at when I had bumped into him.

	That was it. There had been nothing about me to cause him to
give me a second look. I was just some clumsy farm girl who had run
into him. I was on my own again.

	"Hurry up, Donna Mae," Charlene called to me. As if in a
trance, I followed her to the office.

	I waited nervously outside Vera March's office as Charlene
went in for her interview. Here was my best chance to get away from
the farm and I had blown it. I almost envied my "mother." She didn't
realize how far she had fallen - from real estate baron to farm
wife. I knew, though.  Oh, did I know.

	At last, the door opened. Charlene and Vera March were both
smiling happily.

	"Then you'll start at nine o'clock tomorrow at the cosmetics
counter," Vera was saying. "I think you'll do a marvelous job for
us. I'm so happy to have you on board."

	I was happy for Charlene, but in the center of my being, I was
also hopelessly jealous. She had done it! She was going to move into
town and be somebody, even if it was as a clerk at the cosmetics
counter. I wouldn't even be able to do that.

	"Well, it looks as if you're next," she said to me. Today, she
wore a double-breasted silk suit in a tasteful plum color with dark
hose and matching shoes. Of course, she could have been wearing a
gunny sack and would have still looked incredible. I felt so terribly
inadequate that it was all I could do to keep from running for the
exit.

	When I was seated in her office, she looked over the
application I had filled out the day before. Then, she asked me a most
unexpected question. "Well, are you settling into being Donna Mae? I'm
sure it's quite a change for you."

	I nearly fell out of the chair. "You... you know who I was?"

	"Oh, yes," she laughed.

	"Are you... one of them?" I asked.

	"One of what?" she asked patiently.

	"A... god?"

	Just for a moment, she lost her composure. "You know who we
are?"

	"I think I do," I answered carefully. "I read a lot of Ovid in
college.  Since he was Roman, I'm assuming this has something to do
with Roman gods."

	"That's something of a leap of logic," she commented with a
smile.

	I shrugged. "Maybe. But it makes sense. To do what the Judge
did to me and my father would take magical powers. If you had asked me
a couple of days ago if magic existed, I would have said no, but now,
it's obvious it does. I didn't become a girl by any non-magical
power."

	She looked at me carefully. "Perhaps the Judge was right about
you.  There's more to you than I would have first imagined. Let's see
how much there really is to you. Who is the Judge?"

	"Jupiter," I said quickly. I wasn't entirely sure of my
answer, but it seemed to make sense.

	"And who am I?"

	If Judge and Jupiter had the same first two letters, what
would match Vera or March? Mars? Mars was male - it couldn't be
that. V... e...  "Venus!" I said confidently.

	She shook her head. "I don't think anyone else has ever put
that together as quickly as you. The disorientation of a new identity
keeps most people off balance for some time." She looked at me quietly
for moment. "Do you know what I had planned to do with you this
morning?"

	"No," I said honestly.

	"I had planned to interview you and turn you down," she
explained.  "When I first heard about you and your father, I decided
it would be a fitting life for you two to be stuck out there as simple
farm wives for the rest of your lives. Now, I'm not so sure. There is
more to you than I would have imagined. You might make an interesting
project after all."

	"Project?"

	"There is more to Ovid than you could ever imagine," she told
me. "It is populated by gods such as the Judge and me, people like you
who remember who they were, and people like your father who don't
remember.  Of course, most of the population we call 'shades.' They
are not entirely real, but are needed for our little town to
work. People like you are our true projects. More, I cannot say, but I
am offering you a job."

	My heart skipped. "Thank you!"

	"Don't thank me yet," she said. "I see very difficult times
ahead for you. First, I don't hire uncultured farm girls for my
lingerie department."

	Lingerie?


"You will have to learn to fit in as a woman," she told me. "You start
tomorrow at nine."

	"What should I wear?" I asked, realizing I should probably be
asking salary questions, but somehow, this seemed more important.

	"It doesn't really matter," she said. "We'll be changing your
outfit here. I think you're in for an interesting day tomorrow,
Donna."

	I couldn't believe my good fortune as I left Vera's office.

	Charlene read the look on my face. "You, too?" she practically
yelled.  With only a grin and a nod, I answered her question. She
hugged me so tightly I thought my new breasts would be squashed flat
against hers.  "That's terrific!"

	We talked together on the drive back like two
schoolgirls. Then, I realized with a little private smile that that
was exactly what we were.  I wondered who Charlene had been before she
was transformed. It was difficult to imagine that she had ever been
anyone other than this cheery redhead. Had she been male like me? It
was certainly possible, but she seemed to have no memories of anything
but her life in Ovid. I was actually happy with that. It forced me to
conform to my new life, and the sooner I conformed, the more I would
be able to control who I had become.

	"See you at graduation tonight!" Charlene called out to me as
she spun out of our driveway, spraying gravel. I had forgotten all
about graduation. It was a little hard for me to see it as a
significant event in my life when I had never even attended the
school. I wasn't even sure what time the ceremony would be.

	My new mother knew, though. "It's about time you got home,"
she grumped. It was only eleven thirty. I didn't know what she was so
upset about. "Help me with these mashed potatoes and I'll get the
rest. It's going to be a busy afternoon if we're going to get you in
for graduation at five."

	"Mom," I said happily as I did my best to mash the potatoes,
"I got the job."

	She shook her head. "Your father isn't going to like that."

	"But I'm an adult... now," I argued. "I need to make my own
way."  Translate that as I need to get off this hellish farm as
quickly as my newly-shaved legs can carry me.

	"We've gone all over that," she said. "I just hope you're
ready to take the consequences."

	Consequences? What consequences?

	Before I could ask, my new father opened the door. "I don't
have much time to eat," he announced. "There's a problem down in the
south field.  Looks like it could be blight."

	That didn't sound good, and it had put him in a foul mood. I
resolved to not mention the new job to him just yet. I hoped my mother
had the good sense to remain silent as well. He sat down without
ceremony and gulped down a glass of iced tea while wiping the sweat
off his forehead with the back of his hand. Silently, my mother placed
a pair of pork chops and a mountain of mashed potatoes in front of
him. We all ate in silence.

	"What time's graduation?" he finally asked, wolfing down the
last of his foot.

	"We need to get Donna Mae in for rehearsal at five," mother
told him.  "You and me should be there at six thirty."

	He shook his head. "Can't make it by then. Too much to do. You
take her."

	Although I hadn't actually attended the high school in Ovid, I
found myself flushing in anger. Here was a man who was supposed to be
my own father, and yet he couldn't be bothered to attend my
graduation. Of course, when I thought about it, my real father hadn't
attended mine. He had been closing a multi-million dollar land deal in
New Zealand at the time. I suspected, though, that my new father chose
not to go because it simply wasn't an important event. Education
obviously wasn't very important to him, and the education of a girl
ranked particularly low on his scale.

	Mother actually frowned. "But it's her graduation."

	Good for you, mom! You couldn't be bothered when you were my
dad, but now that you had a sudden helping of maternal instinct, you
were right there to help your little... girl.

	My father frowned back. "Damn it, woman, I told you I was too
busy. Now don't make me tell you again!"

	He made no motion to physically strike her, but she flinched
nonetheless. It was like a trip back in time when my real father had
similarly treated my real mother to verbal abuse. The Judge's justice
could be quite poetic, I was beginning to realize.

	"All right," she sighed, giving way to his unquestioned
authority.  "Donna Mae, you go start the wash. I'll clean up down
here."

	"Yes, ma'am," I replied, anxious to be out of the room as
quickly as possible.

	He wasn't a violent man, I realized as I gathered the washing
as best I could. Rather, he was a cruel man. Yet I was certain if
someone had confronted him with that fact, he would have denied it. He
would contend that he was just being sensible. I could only imagine
what his "sensible" reaction to my new job would be. He wouldn't
strike me - I was pretty sure of that. But he would forbid me to work
at March's - I was equally sure of that. I had to keep my new job a
secret until I had actually begun work. Otherwise, he would forbid me,
and my mother would not be able to help. I only hoped she didn't say
anything to him.

	She didn't. She told me so as we made our way into town for
graduation.  "No telling what the man would have done if I'd told
him," she muttered to me as we drove past the first buildings of
Ovid. "He's riled enough at you as it is."

	"At me?" I asked innocently, trying not to feel like a fool in
my gold and black graduation gown.

	She nodded, looking solemn in her dark blue suit which I
suspected was normally reserved for church. I didn't know much about
women's fashions, but it looked somewhat unstylish. "I want you to go
into that that Mrs.  March tomorrow and tell her you don't want the
job. Better yet, you can call her."

	"I'm not going to do that," I replied stubbornly. If I was to
make my own way, I had to have that job - no matter what.

	"Then it'll be on your head," she said.

	She dropped me off in front of the high school stadium. I
gathered my robe and mortarboard, thankful as I got out of the truck
that I had opted for a comfortable cotton blouse, shorts, and sandals
to wear under the robe. It was going to be a warm evening.  The sight
that awaited me was the strangest I had seen yet in Ovid. It was
strange for its normalcy, for students - some real but most
transparent - gathered in little groups laughing and talking as if
nothing was wrong. I counted - what? - twenty or so "real" people,
including Charlene and myself. No one seemed to notice the strangeness
of the scene, or if they did, they kept it to themselves.

	"Well, here we are!" Charlene said happily as she gave me a
hug. "Come on, let's talk to Alice."

	Alice was a young girl, dark skin and black hair hinting of
Indian heritage, who was talking to a young boy of similar blood near
the edge of the crowd. Both she and the boy were - what was the
expression Vera had used? - shades. Yet as we approached, I realized
they appeared perfectly normal in their actions. Alice happily hugged
Charlene, then me, and I was surprised to realize that shades were
completely solid.

	"This is so cool!" Alice laughed. "Charlene told me you guys
would be working at March's. Then we'll still get to see each other
while Charlie and I are at Capta."

	I had no idea what Capta was, but I wasn't about to ask. The
four of us walked in to the rehearsal together.

	"Say, Donna Mae," the boy, Charlie asked as we waited to be
arranged for the ceremony. "Are you going with anyone right now?"

	Only Mr. Spencer, I though to myself grimly. I hesitantly
answered, "No... not right now."

	"Well, I was talking to Danny Grady yesterday. He said you
were pretty cute for a farm girl."

	Charlene and Alice snickered.

	"So he doesn't think Alice and I are cute - for farm girls?"
Charlene asked sweetly.

	"Nope," he responded. "I almost decked him for you. What an
ass!"

	Pretty cute for a farm girl, eh? I thought as we were sorted
into our proper chairs. I had gone to an expensive private high
school. There weren't any farm kids there. If they had been, they
would have had very rich parents, just like the rest of my fellow
students. I had never realized before that in small towns, there were
farm kids and town kids.  They were reasonably civil to each other,
but they moved in different circles. I had been turned into a farm
kid. That apparently made me some sort of yokel in the eyes of many of
the townies. Well, so be it.

	It did make one thing harder, though. I had been thinking that
I would move to town as quickly as I could, assuming that I had a high
school "friend" I could room with. If my close "friends" were all farm
kids, my options for moving to town might be more limited.

	The ceremony went off without any problems. I tried to act
just like all the other kids as I marched up to receive my diploma
from a line of people I assumed were school dignitaries and
administrators. They each smiled, called me by name, and warmly shook
my hand as they congratulated me. I realized they all knew me and
meant their congratulations. I simply mumbled my thanks and moved on
back to my seat.

	"Time to party now," Charlene announced as the ceremony
ended. Alice, Charlie, and several others agreed. "Come on, Donna
Mae."

	"Thanks, but I can't," I replied, seeing my mother waiting
patiently for me.

	Charlene groaned, "Oh, come on! We only graduate once. We're
all going down to the lake for a party."

	"We've got to go to work tomorrow," I explained. "I need you
to pick me up. We have to be there by nine."

	"No problem," she laughed, giving me a hug. "I'll pick you
up. Now let's party."

	I hugged her back. "I can't. I'm sorry."

	She smiled. "Party pooper."

	I smiled back. "See you tomorrow."

	When we got home, my father was already in bed, for which I
was thankful. That meant I didn't have to tell him about my new job,
and mother couldn't either.

	In bed at last, I had a few quiet moments to reflect on my
first full day as a girl. I thought it had gone fairly well. I had a
job, had graduated from high school, and made a couple of new
friends. It had been a real eye opener to find that there was a rift
between town kids and farm kids. All evening, I had seen evidence that
the girls from town considered themselves to be much more
sophisticated than their country cousins. I smiled, thinking what
girls their age I knew back in New York would think of their
"sophistication." For that matter, I wondered what they would think if
they knew that through my father, I had met a number of their TV and
movie idols. What would they think of their "farm girl" if they knew I
had met Matt Dillon, for example?

	Come to think of it, I still had Matt's private phone number
twirling around in my head someplace. He and I had met at a party in
LA that had ended up as a private party back at his place with a few
friends - mostly female. Maybe I'd give him a call, I thought smiling
at what that would be like. I mean, it would be interesting to meet
him this way, wouldn't it? What would we do? I could imagine having a
drink with him now, his arm slipping around m.. - wait a minute!

	I shot bolt upright in bed. With a shock, I could feel a
strange tingling in places I had been trying to ignore. I hadn't
planned on thinking of Matt that way. I had just been thinking about
what every girl in Ovid would say if they knew that I knew him. Why
had I suddenly started thinking of him... that way? There was more at
work with my transformation than I had realized before. Maybe my mind
wasn't so unaffected after all. I would have to be careful, I
realized, as I drifted off to sleep.

	I awoke the next morning with no prodding. My father was still
in the shower, and I could already smell bacon frying in the
kitchen. I hurried into the kitchen in a white cotton robe. I was
afraid my mother had actually said something about the job to my
father. Mother was setting the table when I entered the kitchen.

	"Have you told him?" I asked, nervous with anticipation.

	She shook her head. "No. He woke up in a bad mood. I told him
you were going to be helping Charlene today, so he doesn't know."

	I breathed a sigh of relief. If his schedule held true, he
would be out in the field most of the day. He wouldn't notice when I
left or when I returned. It wasn't going to be a satisfactory long
term solution, but once I had actually started the job and learned my
way around Ovid, it would be harder for him to stop me.

	Thankfully, I had no fear of physical abuse. He wasn't a
hitter for all his other faults. He was just a man with no respect for
the worth of women. He probably never thought to hit a woman - not
because he felt it was wrong - because women weren't worth the
trouble. Of course, that didn't mean he would never hit a woman. It
just meant he hadn't yet.

	I dressed quickly if not well. Vera had said it didn't matter
what I wore since she would take care of that when I got to work. I
assumed there was some sort of uniform I was to wear, although I had
noticed no uniforms in the store before. Taking her at her word, I
dressed in a pair of tan slacks and a white polo shirt and flat
sandals. With my hair still tied in the ever-present ponytail, I
didn't think I looked too bad. I certainly didn't look like a boy, for
my curves were obviously feminine, but I looked boyish. I smiled at
myself. It was the look I had hoped for. I ate quickly and rushed out
to meet Charlene as soon as she pulled up.

	Charlene looked as if she were dressed for a party. Her hair
was stylishly curled and her makeup gave her a somewhat sophisticated
appearance. She wore a Kelly green dress that made her red hair look
like living flames as it curled over her shoulders. Matching two inch
heels and tan hose displayed long, lovely legs, and gold earrings and
jewelry gave an almost regal air to her appearance. She looked like an
Irish princess. If I had still been male, I would have been instantly
in love.

	"Wow!" I said, almost without meaning to as I got in the
car. "Look at you."

	She smiled. "I'm glad you like it. I'm starting out in dresses
today.  You're awfully casual, though. Where had she got you
starting?"

	"Lingerie," I replied with an involuntary blush.

	She looked at me quizzically as we pulled away from the house.
"Lingerie? Dressed like that?"

	"What's wrong with this?" I asked, embarrassed in spite of
myself.

	"Well," she explained, "it might be a suitable look for
sportswear or something, but it's a little casual for lingerie."

	"Vera said it didn't matter," I told her. "She said something
about my changing when I got there."

	"Oh."

	We didn't speak of it again while driving in, but I did start
to feel a little uncomfortable. Here was Charlene, all dressed up, and
here I was, still the country bumpkin. Had I misunderstood Vera's
instructions to me? Maybe she would take one look at me and decide she
had made a mistake in hiring me. My stomach churned. If that happened,
I would be back to square one.

	March's opened at nine thirty during the week and it was -
what? - Wednesday. It was odd, but without my Daytimer, I had lost all
sense of time. Had it only been two days since I had been transformed?
It seemed as if it were a lifetime ago. We reported in at Vera's
office at five until nine.

	Vera was dressed in a pastel green suit with a soft silk
blouse. She had a cheerful smile on her face as she inspected
Charlene. "Just right," she said. "Go ahead and report to Cosmetics on
the second floor.  Ms Jensen will get you started."

	As Charlene walked out of the office with a happy smile,
Vera's attention was turned to me. She didn't exactly frown, but there
was a look of concern bordering on pity when she inspected me.

	"Well, Donna Mae, I think we'll have our work cut out for us,
don't you?"

	I didn't answer, unsure of what to say.

	She motioned to a chair. "Sit down for a moment."

	Silently, I sat.

	She folded her hands and leaned forward with catlike
grace. "Donna, if we are going to succeed in making a silk purse out
of a sow's ear..."

	Is that what I was? A sow's ear?

	"...then we will have to work hard at it. Tell me, what do you
think about being a woman?"

	A woman? Is that what I was? Believe it or not, I hadn't
really thought of myself as one. I mean, I knew I was female. That was
obvious every time I had to pee, or every time I felt the sway of my
new breasts or heard the soft soprano voice I now owned. But what did
it mean to be a woman?

	"I'm not sure," I replied honestly, realizing it for the first
time.

	"Then let me explain it to you," she said kindly. "Being a
woman is more difficult than being a man. Men can do whatever they
want without fear of becoming an object. Do you understand that?"

	"I... No, I guess I don't."

	"When you were a man, you could be dressed in a thousand
dollar suit and it might define what sort of a man you were - wealthy,
professional, cultured - but it wouldn't define you as an object. You
were still a man. You were important because you were a man, whether
you wore the thousand dollar suit or the work shirt and jeans your new
father wears.  But when you are a woman, you must constantly assert
that importance.  It's not automatically granted to you. In fact, how
you dress and conduct yourself may detract from your importance. Dress
correctly or incorrectly and a man is still a man. When a woman
dresses, she may become a twat or a cunt if she's not careful. Do you
see what I mean?"

	"But a man can be a dick," I argued.

	She nodded. "Yes, but it doesn't mean the same thing. When you
call a man a dick, it's as if you were calling him a moron. You aren't
reducing him to an object - a sexual one in particular. But when a
woman is reduced to a cunt, she becomes an object."

	"Then why was this done to me?" I asked. "Why was I changed
into a woman?"

	"You would have to ask the Judge for a specific answer," she
told me, "and I doubt if he would give it to you. I can speculate,
though. My guess is that he saw in you qualities which would be
strengthened if you were to be given the opportunity - and that is
what it is - to be a woman."

	"What qualities? I'm not attracted to men - or at least I
wasn't before. I've never been anxious to dress in women's clothing. I
was happy being who I was."

	"Were you?"

	"Of course," I replied, although I had to admit, without much
conviction. Had I been happy being Martin Brubaker Junior? Sure, I was
wealthy, or at least, my father was, but I had no authority over
anything, including my own life.

	"You see it, don't you, Donna?" she said softly. "Your life
was empty.  You had no true identity. You were forced to go through
your life being what your father expected you to be - him. Like him,
you would have followed your father down a path that would lead to a
career whose only satisfaction was to participate in the destruction
of others. That's what your father was all about, wasn't he?"

	It was, of course. He had followed his own father into the
real estate business. I didn't remember much about my grandfather - he
had died when I was ten. But I never remembered him hugging me or
smiling at me. I remember him being formal, gruff, and distant, like
my own father. He was like the robber barons, playing the game of real
estate to win, and he had taught my father well.



"It was too late for your father," she went on. "Too many years of
bitterness and a loveless marriage left him without enough potential
to be offered another chance. You would have been just like him before
you knew it."

	"I would never have been like him!" I protested, surprised at
my own vehemence.

	She shook her head sadly. "Yes, you would. Already, your life
was more empty than that of our own shades. They at least have in many
cases the appearance of a happy life, but they are empty. They live
lives that are dictated for them, as did you. Now, though, all of that
must change."

	Her voice was becoming calm and soothing. I felt myself almost
drifting into a quiet reverie. Thoughts of my former life seemed to
drift away with a mental tide, replaced by a yearning I couldn't begin
to understand. Oh, I still remembered my former life. It was just it
seemed so insignificant. What was the old quote in the Bible about
gaining the world while losing your immortal soul? For me, just the
opposite seemed to be happening.

	While I was still in this reverie, listening not hearing the
words that Vera spoke to me, but still absorbing their meaning, I
suddenly rose to my feet. Vera smiled at me and led me into another
world.


	"Well, what do you think?"

	It had taken nearly three hours, but a new person stood in
Vera's office, gazing unbelievingly into a full-length mirror. I
wasn't sure what to think. The person who looked back at me from the
mirror was almost more of a stranger than the person who looked back
at me right after my transformation.

	First, Vera had taken me to the beauty shop in the
store. There, as I relaxed in what had to be a magical trance, my
mousy brown hair was transformed. First, it was washed, then cut,
curled and set in a style that was full and loose, but kept its shape
whenever I turned my head.  In the mirror, I saw that the rinse they
had used had given it an almost reddish highlight.

	Next, Vera had me put on a bra and panties which were silky to
the feel and trimmed in scalloped lace. I was surprised at how good
they felt against my skin, unlike the cotton bra and panties I had
used before.  She showed me how to put on panty hose, having selected
a very sheer pair in a smoky shade. Next came a conservative but
stylish gray dress with trim in a deeper shade of gray. It was nothing
like the dress I had worn to dinner my first night as a girl. It
seemed custom tailored to my new shape, with the skirt coming well
above the knee and the tailored top giving just a glimpse of my new
cleavage without being unduly provocative. As I was admiring myself in
the mirror, Vera held up a two inch pair of heels in black leather.

	I shook my head. "Oh, no. I can't wear heels. I don't know how
to walk in them."

	She smiled. "Surely you must know you can. There's nothing any
other girl can do that you can't."  Reluctantly, I took the shoes from
her and slipped them on. Then, I took my first steps, wobbling
unsteadily.

	"Oh, Donna," Vera sighed. "You're trying too hard. Just
relax. Relax and walk to me."

	Her voice was once more mildly hypnotic, and I found that I
could suddenly walk in the heels as if I had worn them all my life. I
felt the odd shift and sway of my rear as I walked, realizing for the
first time in this form how provocative my walk must look. I turned
back to the mirror and watched myself as I glided with ease and grace
across the office floor. I turned naturally and smiled at Vera.

	She smiled back. "Now, for the finishing touches."

	The first finishing touch was jewelry. Before I knew it, my
ears had been pierced and I wore small delicate gold hoops on my
ears. A small gold necklace and matching bracelets for my right wrist
were next, followed by a small feminine watch, also in gold.

	I suddenly had a terrible thought as I admired the watch. "Oh,
Vera, all of this is so expensive. I don't have any money."

	"Most of it, we'll take over time from your paycheck. You
won't miss it," she assured me. "As to the watch, though, consider
that my gift to you."

	I smiled.

	Last was a trip to the cosmetics counter. In some ways, my
introduction to the world of cosmetics was the oddest part of my
transformation. I had to learn about foundations (which I had
previously thought of only as what is at the bottom of a
building). Then there were blushes, eye shadow, mascara, eyebrow
pencils, nail polish, and eyeliners. Had I left anything out? Oh, of
course - lipstick. How did women ever get used to the odd, greasy
feeling on their lips, impregnated with a perfume that changed both my
sense of smell and taste?

	Back in Vera's office again in front of the mirror, I now
knew, though, how Cinderella must have felt when her fairy godmother
was finished with her. I don't know that I was ready to try out for
the Miss Oklahoma contest, but I had been transformed into a very,
very attractive woman.  Slowly, I approached the mirror, seeing for
myself the gentle sway of my hips and the graceful sweep of my
legs. Looking down at my fingers, I saw frosted pink color on newly
shaped but not particularly long nails.  Tossing my head, I felt the
gentle wave of my styled hair, moving with the grace of wheat in the
soft summer breeze.

	Turning to Vera, I said, "You've enhanced me with your magic,
haven't you?"

	"No, dear," she laughed merrily. "What you see is all
you. I'll admit, I gave your movements a little boost at first, like
training wheels on a bike, but that wore off an hour ago. You're now
the Donna Potter who will represent March's."

	"Not Donna Mae Potter?" I asked.

	In response, she pinned a gold name tag with the March's logo
on it.  Beneath it was the simple word "Donna."

	"I think Donna Mae sounds a bit farmish, don't you?" she said.

	I smiled and nodded.

	I felt like an actor - or rather actress - ready to deliver
her first lines before an audience as I walked into the lingerie
department with Vera. A sign on the wall said "Intimate Apparel" while
displays of women posing in bras and nightgowns made the place look
vaguely like the pages of a Victoria's Secret catalogue. As a man, I
had never been able to really look at such a department. If I had, I
would have risked being accused of voyeurism or cross dressing.. Now
though, this was my temple, and I was one of the Vestal Virgins
responsible for its success. An appropriate analogy, I thought,
considering my employer.

	There was no manager for the department per se. Instead, I
reported to Nora Garcia, a very nice woman, about forty, with a
pleasant smile and an honest desire to help young sales associates
like me. She was also a shade - the first one I was to have an
opportunity to get to know well.  Within fifteen minutes, I was
thinking of her as a real person. I wondered where the shades came
from. Except for the little transparency problem, she seemed as real
as me. Once she taught me the fundamentals, she left the department
for Accessories, which was her main responsibility.

	The noon hour was a busy time in the store, so most of us had
lunch hours after one. I found myself getting a little hollow as noon
approached. It was probably just as well, I told myself. Farm food
could get to be habit forming, and it seemed as if it was always heavy
and filled with calories. I resolved to start eating salad for lunch.

	Customer traffic started to get heavy around eleven, as people
took early lunch hours. It was a difficult time for me, for I was
expected to recognize some of the customers. After all, Ovid was a
small town. Also, I was expected to know a little about the products I
sold, partially from experience. Of course, since I had only been
wearing bras and panties for a couple of days, I was hardly an
expert. Still, I managed, and soon was talking about cup fit and
giggling with the customers as we speculated on what their husbands
would think of them in the sexy teddies on one of the racks.

	Just a little after noon, two girls about my age came into the
department. They both called out to me by name, but of course, I had
no idea who they were. One was a very well endowed blonde who the
other one called Myra. In my previous life, I would have probably left
a trail of saliva down on the floor as I followed her around. She was
very well endowed, which her pink knit blouse did nothing to hide, and
her legs, covered only by the shortest of white skirts, were nothing
short of perfect. She had on open toed sandals with a small heel and
wore no stockings. To be honest, she didn't need them. I was about to
write her off as a bimbo until she began to speak.

	"Look at this, Sam," she called to the other girl, holding a
particularly sexy nightie up to herself. She was teasing her
friend. "Do you think it's me?" she said in an obvious parody of the
bimbo I had assumed her to be.

	Her friend, a very attractive girl in her own right, laughed
tossing her head back as auburn hair bobbled in amusement. "Oh, of
course," she said, holding up a hot number over her own body. "And how
about this for me?"

	Both girls laughed, and I found myself smiling.

	Then, Sam looked at me, as if really seeing me for the first
time.  "Myra, could I have a minute with Donna?"

	"Sure," Myra agreed. "I'll be over looking at swim suits."

	When she was gone, Sam turned to face me. She was dressed in a
peach T-top and denim cutoffs, and she made them look good. She
grinned. "You remember who you were, don't you?"

	My mouth fell open. I hadn't suspected. "Are you a go - g - "
I couldn't see to get the word out.

	"Like the Judge?" she said in a low voice. "No, I'm just like
you."

	"Then how did you know I was... someone else?" I asked
carefully, not wanting to choke on the words again.

	"All newcomers seem to have a look about them," she
explained. "When you've been here as long as I have, you start to
recognize that look.  Now, don't get all flustered. Most people would
never notice. Even some of the ones who do notice wouldn't guess that
you used to be male."

	My face must have turned fire engine red from the feeling of
heat in my cheeks. I felt like I was in drag.

	Sam put a hand on my arm. "Don't get embarrassed. I used to be
a guy, too. In fact, I was even a college football player. Can't you
see me out on the field now?" she laughed.

	I actually felt relieved by then. Although Vera had told me
there were others like me who remembered who they had been, this was
my first experience talking with one.  "No more than I can see myself
in a business suit," I replied with a little laugh of my own. "I
assume your friend doesn't know?"

	"Myra? Oh, she knows. I'll let her tell you her story some
other time.  Some people are sort of private about who they used to
be, but Myra will tell you. It's just that the rules don't allow more
than two of us to discuss this together."

	"Rules?"

	"Oh, you'll learn all about the rules," Sam told me. She got a
slip of paper from the counter and wrote something down. When she
handed it to me, I saw it was her full name - Samantha Wallace - and
her phone number. "Give me a call some time and we'll discuss all
this. Sometimes it helps to have someone explain the ropes to you. I'd
do it now, but Myra and I are both working over at Rusty's Burger Barn
this afternoon.  You know, summer jobs. Bye."

	"Wait!" I called. She turned. "Why is all this happening?"

	She gave me a wistful smile. "We've all been asking ourselves
that question. None of us knows. And the... ones who know aren't
telling."

	I was still pondering that as I was leaving the store for
lunch. Why would the Roman gods go to all the trouble of creating a
small town in Oklahoma? I suppose we all flattered ourselves that
there was some cosmic purpose to it. In fact, maybe we were just the
god's version of an ant farm. They'd watch us closely every day as we
built our little society, and we'd chug happily along, not knowing
that it was all just a game.

	"Oof!"

	I practically had the wind knocked out of me. I was so
preoccupied that I ran into someone, nearly knocking myself down in
the process. Damned heels! A strong arm swept around me, pulling me
upright.

	"Are you okay?"

	Oh lord, there they were again - those incredible blue
eyes. What were the odds against running into the same guy two days in
a row. I felt like such a klutz. Then, I realized he didn't seem to
recognize me. Of course, I looked a lot different than I had the day
before. Yesterday I was just little ole Fanny Farm Girl. Today, I was
a sophisticated sales associate at Ovid's largest (and only)
department store.

	"I'm... I'm fine," I managed. "I'm sorry, I wasn't looking
where I was going."

	"The fault's at least half mine," he said gallantly. "I'm
afraid I wasn't paying attention either. You look like you're in a
hurry."

	"Oh," I replied stupidly. Why was I so tongue-tied around this
guy? "I was... I was just going to lunch."

	He smiled. "Well, I haven't eaten either. Why don't you let me
buy you lunch to make up for this?"

	I blushed. "Oh, you don't need to do that. I mean..."

	"But I want to," he interrupted as he broke into a disarming
smile.  "Please say yes."

	"Well... yes."

	Why had I done that? What was there about this guy? Maybe I
just wanted a chance to prove to him over lunch that I wasn't a
blithering idiot.

	He grinned. "Great. Let's walk over to the Greenhouse."

	I wouldn't have agreed to walk if I had known that the
Greenhouse was two blocks away. No, it isn't that I was in bad shape
in my new body, but I found out quickly why so many women taken
athletic shoes with them to walk around at noon. Even on Ovid's smooth
sidewalks, my feet were aching within a block. My toes seemed to be
squished into the front part of the shoe while my heels hurt with
every step. How did women walk in these things? Maybe it was how I was
doing it. Although I handled the shoes fairly well, I still wasn't
that experienced walking in them.

	"I'm Scott Gorman, by the way," he told me as we walked.

	Gorman was a familiar name, I thought, as I told him, "I'm
Donna M - Donna Potter."

	"Are you a student at Capra?"

	There was that name again. And speaking of names, why was the
name Gorman so familiar?

	"No," I replied. "I just graduated from high school."

	"You're kidding!" he remarked.

	I smiled at him as we walked. "Why? I don't look old enough to
have graduated?"

	He laughed. "No, just the opposite. I'm twenty. I thought you
were my age. You look a lot more... sophisticated than a recent high
school graduate. But you look so familiar. Have we met before?"

	Happily, I realized that he didn't realize I was the same
little hayseed he had run into the day before. "I don't think so." I
wouldn't have exactly called the previous day's encounter "meeting."

	The Greenhouse was a nice little café. It would have hardly
turned eyes in New York, but for Ovid, it was nice. There were lots of
hanging plants and cozy little booths. Most of the lunch crowd had
already left or was getting ready to leave. I even noticed the blonde
from the courtroom, gathering up her purse and walking out. The woman
lawyer was with her. They both gave me pleasant smiles as they walked
past. Then, I heard one of them giggle. What was so funny? I wondered.

	Scott showed me to a booth, and we each ordered an iced tea
while looking at the menus. True to the promise I had made to myself,
I ordered a small salad. After all of the meat and potatoes on the
farm, I found myself really looking forward to as simple a fare as a
salad.

	Scott ordered the club. With the waitress gone, he leaned over
and said to me, "You know, I'm really glad we bumped into each
other. My social life was getting a little dull."

	"Oh really?" I said, playing along. In spite of myself, I
found I liked Scott. I'm not sure why. I've never really understood
what attracts one person to another. Oh yes, I've heard of pheromones,
but I've always been a bit of a romantic at heart. I've always thought
attraction goes right down to the soul, whatever it is. Sure, I had
only been a girl for a couple of days, but I was realistic enough to
realize that if I was going to be a girl, I would develop a normal
interest in guys. In fact, I had already realized from my little
reveries that my attraction to men was growing steadily. I didn't plan
to over-stimulate it, but I was realistic enough to know it as
probably inevitable.

	"Yes, really. You don't seem to believe me."

	I grinned. "Well, a good looking guy like you has to be pretty
popular."

	"Too much time studying," he explained. "Here, I've dropped
right into the middle of finals."

	"Dropped into?"

	He lost his composure for a moment, coughing, "I mean, I
wasn't exactly ready for them this semester."

	"So what's your major?" I asked.

	"Business," he replied, taking a sip of tea.

	I envied him. Whoever he had been before, for he was real,
here he had the opportunity to attend college, for that's what Capra
had to be. And he was a business major as I had been. He had a life
that I could have enjoyed. Why hadn't the Judge made me into someone
like Scott instead of a farm girl with limited options? What had I
done to piss him off?

	"I've always been interested in business," I told him
truthfully.

	"Then maybe you should go to college and major in it," he
suggested.

	"Sorry, no money," I sighed. "I'm afraid I'll just be like
that line in Evita about being behind the jewelry counter - not in
front."

	"I remember that line," he laughed. "Was it in the movie,
too?"

	"I never saw the movie," I told him. "I saw it in Lon - I saw
it on stage."

	He looked at me, his eyes narrowing. "You were going to say in
London, weren't you?"

	My answer was delayed as our waitress delivered our
lunches. When she was gone, I said, "Okay, you got me. I saw it in
London in a previous life."

	"Well, that's great," he said. "I remember my old life,
too. You're only the second person I've met who remembers."

	"Apparently there aren't a lot of us," I commented.

	He shook his head. "Not a lot."

	We just stared at each other for a few moments. Finally, I got
up the courage to ask, "Were you... male before?"

	"It's not polite to ask," he admonished me with a smile.



He was right, I thought, turning red. Why did I care anyway? He was
male now. Besides, I would be obliged to respond in kind. Did I really
want him to know I had been a man? No, I answered myself honestly, I
didn't.  What I wasn't sure of was exactly why I didn't want him to
know.

	"Sorry," I said.

	"Don't worry about it. I understand it's a common question,"
he told me. "I've just decided the less said about my previous life,
the better.  I've been given the chance to correct some old mistakes,
so as far as I'm concerned, my previous life is a closed book."

	"Fair enough," I agreed with a smile. "Mine, too."

	Sitting there, looking at Scott, I meant it, too. I was never
going to be Martin Brubaker, Jr. again, so there was no sense in
discussing it. I needed to concentrate on what I was going to do as
Donna Potter. And right now, for some reason I couldn't quite put my
finger on, all I really wanted to do was to impress
Scott. Fortunately, I seemed to be succeeding.

	"So what do you think about this place?" he asked.

	"It's a nice little café," I answered.

	"No," he laughed. "I mean what do you think about Ovid?"

	"I don't know what to think," I told him honestly. "I mean,
none of this should be happening. With the g - I mean, with the powers
that be like the Judge in charge, it's hard to imagine what their
purpose is."

	"You started to say something else," he noted. "Do you know
who the Judge is?"

	"Yes, do you?"

	He shook his head. "I'm not sure. Can you tell me?"

	"Nope," I said. "That seems to be one of the biggest taboos
around here. If I try to tell you, I'll start gagging and won't be
able to speak."

	"Strange."

	"That pretty well describes the whole town," I laughed.

	"Well, I guess I'll get to know it well. I'm signed up for
summer school," he told me.

	That was great, I thought. He'd be here all summer and... I
was getting very interested in him, wasn't I? The thought of being
interested in a man was extremely alien to me. Maybe we'd just be
friends, I thought.  Yes, that was it. We would be friends. It
wouldn't be a boy-girl thing.  I wasn't ready for that yet.

	"So have you been in Ovid long?" I asked. "Or is that another
one of those impolite questions?"

	"I've been here a few days," he replied vaguely. "And you?"

	"Just two days," I admitted. If Scott had been here longer
than me, and it appeared that he had been, I was surprised that he
hadn't realized the nature of the gods. Of course, Vera had said I had
been unusually quick to discover that aspect of Ovid.

	We talked and laughed through lunch. Then, sadly, I realized I
had to go back to work. He walked me back to March's, and I found
myself leaning on him a little to avoid putting too much weight on my
sore feet.

	"Sorry," I told him after we had walked a block. "These shoes
are a little tight."

	"Well, why didn't you say something?" he asked. Before I could
respond, he had picked me up, and to the astonished stares of Ovid's
pedestrians, carried me the last block to March's front door.

	"Thanks for lunch," I said with a smile before he let me down.

	He pulled me closer to him and gently kissed my lips. To my
astonishment, I felt relieved. I kissed him back. "Any time," he said,
setting me down gently.

	I thought that was it. I turned to go back to work.

	"Say," he called out. "How about dinner and a movie tonight to
celebrate your new job?"

	Why not? I thought. There was nothing holding me
back. Besides, it would be a lot more pleasant to spend my evening
with Scott than with my "father." I smiled and nodded.

	I gave him directions to our farm, finding myself a little
embarrassed to admit that I was a farm girl. He didn't seem to mind,
though. I was two inches off the ground when I reported back to work.

	"Who is he?" Charlene asked during afternoon break. We were
seated together at a small table in the break room.

	"Who is who?" I asked innocently over my Diet Pepsi.

	"Don't be coy," she admonished me. "He is a hunk."

	Yes, I supposed he was. I told her about Scott.

	"This is great!" Charlene giggled. "I was starting to get
worried about you. You never seemed to be very interested in dating."

	That was an interesting piece of information. I wondered why
Donna Mae didn't date much. Maybe she hadn't been that interested in
the farm boys, and maybe the town boys hadn't been very interested in
her. If they saw her - me - now, I was sure they would have changed
their minds.  I had gone from hick to babe in just a few
hours. Somehow, I didn't seem to mind being a babe.

	I was tired when Charlene dropped me off. It had been a long
day, and I was looking forward to a bath and getting out of my
heels. I was glad Scott and I had agreed to go casual that
night. Shorts and sandals would cool me off.

	My mother was waiting at the door when I came in. "What have
you done to yourself?" she asked me.

	I had almost forgotten that I had been transformed into a
sophisticated sales associate during the day. "This is how I need to
look on my job," I explained.

	She tsked at me. "Well, you look like some sort of a
floozy. You get out of those clothes and wash your face. Mr. Spencer
is coming over for dinner."

	"I won't be here for dinner," I said with a more casual manner
than I felt. I could see a crisis was about to occur. "I have a date."

	The color drained from her face. "A date?"

	"Yes," I said, setting down the sacks containing my old
clothes, more new clothes, and my new cosmetics.

	"You'll need to break it," she told me.

	"I won't."

	She was silent. "Your father won't like this at all."

	I was thankful Scott was picking me up early. With any luck, I
would be gone before he came in from the fields. I looked at my
watch. Scott was supposed to pick me up in an hour. It would be one of
the longest hours of my life, I realized.

	I risked a bath. I was hot a sweaty after a day at work. Even
under air conditioning, Oklahoma starts to get warm in May. It felt
good to ease down into the tub, especially my poor sore feet. At least
I would be in a lot better shape for my... date, thanks to the bath. I
dressed quickly in khaki shorts and a cream colored T-shirt. I slipped
the most comfortable pair of sandals I could find on my feet. I was
actually happy to note that the combination of instruction I had been
given at the store and the auto pilot I had been given allowed me to
put in earrings and do my hair and makeup about as fast as I would
have been able to had I been a girl all my life.

	Then, it was a waiting game. I wanted to be gone before my
father found out about my date - or my job for that matter. I kept
looking out the window of my room, listening anxiously and hoping not
to hear the sound of his tractor coming in from the fields. My luck
didn't hold, though.  The deep rumble of the tractor engine could be
heard approaching the house a good fifteen minutes before Scott was
due. What would happen now? I wondered. Whatever it was, it wouldn't
be good.

	I heard the kitchen door slam, and faintly through the walls,
I heard him talking to mother. At least he wasn't yelling. In fact, he
seemed pretty calm. Then, I heard the door slam again and saw him
heading out toward the equipment shed. I rushed into the kitchen.

	"What happened?" I asked my mother as she busied herself at
the sink.

	"I told him you had to go back to the department store for a
meeting," she told me calmly as she pared the skin off a carrot.

	"He knows about my job?" I asked cautiously.

	"Of course he knows. I told him at noon when he came in for
dinner. You weren't here and I had to tell him something."

	I felt like an idiot. I had been thinking like a townie again,
or more specifically, like a city dweller. The concept of going home
for lunch - or dinner, as farmers called it - was alien to me. Of
course he had come in at noon for his meal and asked where I was. I
should have realized.

	"And my job - that was okay with him?"

	"No, it's not okay," my mother told me. It was funny, but I
was really starting to think of her as my mother now. "He just doesn't
know what to do about it - yet."

	"He doesn't want me to quit, does he?"

	She shook her head. "No. To be honest, we can probably use the
money.  Crop prices haven't been that good lately, and expenses are
high. That's why I got him to go along with the job - for now."

	I was actually proud of her. She might not be the God of Real
Estate anymore, but she could still sell the customer when it
counted. "Thanks, mom."

	"Don't be thanking me yet," she warned. "He has his eye on
that Jess Spencer as a son-in-law. You'd better not get too interested
in some other fella. If he thinks that job of your is interfering with
that, he'll more as likely make you quit."

	I don't know what bothered me more - the effrontery of my
father, presuming that he could make such a decision for me, or my
mother, assuming that I was really interested in Scott. I mean,
interested in Scott in that way. "Mother," I said deliberately, "Scott
is just a friend."

	"He's a friend right now," she told me. "But you just wait
until he has his hand inside your blouse. Then you tell me he's just a
friend. You got hormones, girl. They don't always know who your
friends are."

	Before I could answer, I heard a car pull up in front of the
house. I was going to rush out to meet Scott, but before I could,
there was a knock on the door. I silently cursed him for being so
polite. If my father suddenly came in from the equipment shed and
talked to him, mother's story of a business meeting would be exposed.

	Scott was neatly dressed in a polo shirt and a pair of shorts
not unlike my own. He wore loafers with no socks and looked very
preppy. As my mother opened the door to him, he smiled broadly and
introduced himself. It was a good move, I had to admit. I could see my
mother liked him at once.

	"Hi, Scott," I said brightly. "Let's go." I wanted him out of
there before my father came in and all hell broke loose. He seemed a
little surprised at my haste, but thankfully, he didn't argue.

	When we were safely away from the house in his little silver
BMW Z-3, he asked, "Was your father home? I'm sorry I didn't get a
chance to meet him."

	"Well, maybe next time," I replied, hoping I could postpone
that meeting for as long as possible.

	It was a special evening, the first I could honestly say I had
enjoyed in a long time. It was ironic that I had to become a girl to
have a good time, though. I really did consider Scott a friend. We had
a quick dinner at Rusty's Burger Barn. I had to say, it was one of the
best burgers I had ever eaten, and the waitress was the attractive
blonde, Myra, who had been in my department earlier in the day. We
even acted like old friends, in spite of the fact that we both knew we
had known each other only a few hours.

	I got a reminder of what Sam had told me, though, about only
being able to talk about our old lives in twos. I tried to say
something about all three of us remembering our former lives, but when
I tried, my voice just sort of trailed off into nothing. Myra and
Scott both gave me an amused look. They knew what had gone wrong.

	"Sorry," I said meekly.

	Myra put her arm around me. "Don't worry. It happens to all of
us at one time or another."

	As she hurried off to take care of a new customer, I decided I
really liked her and resolved to get to know her better. I looked at
Scott.  "This is all kind of hard to get used to," I told him.

	"You're doing fine," he said with encouragement. "Just relax
and be yourself - the self you are now, anyway."

	That was good advice, and I took it. We talked about lots of
things, but never who we had been. When we spoke of our lives, we
spoke of our current ones, as if they had been the only ones we had
ever known.

	I found out why Scott's name was so familiar. His father was
in real estate - or had been until his death. Scott was really Scott
R. Gorman the Third, and his father had been an important figure in
real estate along the Eastern seaboard. I remembered the name because
he had been an actual person. To my knowledge, he didn't have a son,
so my Scott was a creation of the Judge. I wondered why he had done
that? I suppose the local college needed a few well-to-do out of state
students to meet expenses. Why not just create a few? I asked Scott
about that, and he agreed.

	"That's what I figure, too," he said between bites of
burger. "In any case, it's made me the principle heir to a pretty
hefty fortune."

	That explained the Z-3.

	"It sounds like you made out a lot better than many of the
transformees," I commented.

	He looked at me seriously. "Including you?"

	I flushed. "I thought we agreed not to discuss our old lives."

	"I'm not," he pointed out. "I'm discussing your new life. I
mean, it seems to me you didn't do too badly. When I was in court, I
saw another defendant turned into an eight year old black girl. She
didn't look like she was going to have an easy time of it."

	"Did she remember who she had been?" I asked, curious. I
supposed misery loves company.

	He shook his head. "I don't think so. She walked out of the
courtroom with her new mother as if she had been the little girl her
entire life."

	As we walked out together to head for the movie, I was
thinking about the other information I knew about Scott's father. In
my reality, he had made some serious mistakes. He had backed the wrong
horse, so to speak.  Scott's father had thrown in with a guy named
Donald Trump, a real estate baron who thought he could topple my
father from his pinnacle. It hadn't worked. Trump had been ruined, and
men like Gorman who had backed him were ruined with him. I seemed to
remember that Scott's father had killed himself over the entire
affair. His father was dead in this reality as well, but I was sure it
wasn't from the same cause.

	"What did your 'father' die of?" I asked as we drove downtown
to the theater.

	"Heart attack," he replied. "Apparently, the success was too
much for him as nearly as I can tell. I only know that because I
talked with his - my now - lawyer about it right after I was changed."

	So even though reality had shifted, the dead were still
dead. I actually felt a little better knowing that my father's actions
had apparently not shortened Scott's father's life. Of course, maybe
they did. It was just possible that not even the gods could bring
someone back from the dead. Something else to ponder, I realized. If I
remembered my mythology right, people came back from Hades on
occasion.  Come to think of it, the residents of Hades were often
known as shades.  Did that mean most of the residents of Ovid were
dead? They didn't seem dead.

	In small towns, movies are often delayed by weeks or months
compared to their runs in cities. Ovid had only one theater, an older
building that had been remodeled into a twin screen. I doubted if the
town would have even had two screens, except for the fact that there
was a college in town. Titanic was just finishing up its week-long
run. I got the idea that it was the second time around for the film in
Ovid, but it was still doing a brisk business. I supposed with school
out, audiences got bigger.

	Of course, like most people, I had already seen Titanic. From
the conversations I heard in the lobby, most of the patrons had seen
it before as well, either on its initial run in Ovid or someplace
else, like Tulsa. Most people, though, probably didn't have the added
experience that I had had seeing it for the second time. The first
time, I had seen it through male eyes. I had been dazzled by the
special effects and enthralled with the Herculean effort of the crew
to evacuate the sinking ship. Now, though, I was seeing the film
through different eyes. My mind seemed focused on the ill-fated
romance of the two leads.  The ship was just the setting for the
romance. I found myself identifying with Kate Winslet's character, and
during the romantic scenes, I found I had unconsciously snuggled up
next to Scott.

	The love scene had a particularly odd effect on me. When I had
seen it as a man, I had thought it was a rather mild scene. As a
woman, though, I found my body actually tingling with delight as she
made love to him.  Then, in the scenes in the water, as her lover was
dying, I found there were tears in my eyes. I couldn't help it. The
more I tried to hold back, the worse it got.

	"Are you okay?" Scott whispered to me as we walked out of the
movie.

	I snuggled up tighter against him. "Uh-uh," I sniffed. He held
me a little tighter and I felt better.

	"What's wrong?" he asked me as we walked together back to his
car. His arm was gently around my waist.

	"I just feel like such a wimp," I told him. "I mean, crying in
a movie like that."

	"You weren't the only one," he pointed out.

	"I know," I agreed. I had heard other girls sniffing as well,
and the number of red eyes coming our of the theater made it look like
the passengers of an overnight flight from LA to New York. How could I
explain it to him? He didn't know I had been a man before. When he
found out, he probably wouldn't want anything to do with me - unless
he had been a woman. I doubted that, though. He was just too good at
being a man to have ever been a woman. "It's just that... I don't
usually blubber like that in movies."

	He turned me to face him, his arms around me. "Well, I'm glad
you did," he said, bending down to kiss me.

	So that's where I got my second kiss as a woman - right there
on the sidewalk in front of the Rivoli Twin Theater. I didn't want to
like it, but I did. I liked it very much. Hesitantly, I broke away.

	"What do you want to do now?" he asked.

	It was an important question. When I had asked it as a man, I
had always hoped the response would involve someone's bed. Not this
time, though. I wasn't ready for anything like that, although I was
realistic enough to realize I would have to come to terms with sex as
a woman eventually. "I have to work tomorrow," I said softly. "I'd
better go home."

	I knew he was disappointed, but he didn't show it. He bent
over, giving me another kiss, this time less passionate, and said,
"Okay."

	So there I was, on the front porch of my little farmhouse,
watching as Scott drove away. We had kissed again parked in front of
the house, but it had gone no further. My internal thermostat seemed
to have raised my temperature by a couple of degrees. I knew it didn't
really, but it had felt like it. Here I was, mentally a normal male,
but my body was telling me something different. It was telling me I
was a female with all the normal female drives. And it was telling me
strongly enough that I knew it was only a matter of time until I had
to give in to my body's needs.



"So how was your date last night?" Charlene asked me as I hopped into
her car the next morning..

	It was the first time I had had to answer that question. My
parents had been asleep when I got home, and my father was already in
the fields when I came down for breakfast. My mother had said
nothing. I think she was curious, but I supposed that the less she
knew, the less she would have to hide from my father.

	"It was fun," I said, trying to sound noncommittal.

	"And how much fun was it?" she asked with a grin.

	"None of your business," I answered with a grin of my own.

	She laughed.

	Vera March was on the floor, I suspect to see how well I had
learned my lessons in femininity. She looked over my makeup carefully,
nodding with approval. "The earrings are a little plain for that
outfit," she told me. They were just a pair of cheap one I had bought
in the store that morning, since I had forgotten to put earrings in
that morning. I was finding that getting ready for anything as a girl
was a lot more work than I had imagined. There was so much to remember
- like earrings.

	"The blouse is fine," she commented. It should be, I
thought. It was a light gray with enough ruffles to look feminine. I
had bought it there in the store the day before.

	"Where did you get the skirt?" she asked.

	The skirt was a plum colored pleated skirt, coming down almost
but not quite to my knees.

	"It was in my closet," I replied. "I haven't had time to build
up my wardrobe yet."

	She smiled. "The skirt will do just fine. I hadn't realized
there was anything stylish in that closet of yours. It looks good on
you. I approve of the hose, too. They're just the right shade to go
with that skirt. And the shoe - they're black and that's fine, but
there's no heel."

	"I thought flats would be okay," I told her. I cringed at the
thought of walking the floor in heels again.

	She shook her head. "I'm afraid not, dear. They make you look
a little too girlish. A nice sling back with a two - no, make that
three - inch heel will add a degree of sophistication to that
outfit. Go over to the shoe department and get some. Just put them on
your tab."

	"Yes, ma'am." At this rate, there wouldn't be any paycheck at
the end of my week. I owed my soul to the company store, as the old
song went.

	"Oh, and Donna?"

	I turned. "Yes, Ms March?"

	"How was your date last night?"

	I gasped. Was nothing private from these... these... gods?

	"It was fine," I managed to say with a gulp, turning again for
the shoe department.

	As expected, by noon, my feet were killing me. I had bought a
pair of dark gray sling backs and decided to live dangerously - they
had a three inch heel. I had to admit, the shoes did improve the look
of my outfit.  On more than one occasion, I sneaked a look at myself
in one of the mirrors. My legs were really quite pretty. I imagined as
a farm girl, I would have had a fair amount of exercise, and my legs
showed it. They were long and firm, and the higher heel made them look
their best. The slightly gray shade of hose I wore made my legs part
of an overall symphony in plum and gray. The gold of my jewelry,
rather than conflicting, actually complemented the look. I was amazed
at what I had learned about dressing as a woman in only a couple of
days.

	Another more troubling thought crossed my mind as I helped a
customer.  A very attractive shade woman was looking for just the
right outfit for her anniversary, and I had been helping her. She
chose a very daring number. It was what I had come to know in my new
job as a merry widow.  It was in black, with demi underwire cups and
removable garters. It was designed to show off maximum cleavage and
make men stiffen at the sight of a girl dressed in it. The disturbing
thought was that as the woman held the outfit up to herself and said
"What do you think?", I found myself thinking not of how attractive
she would be in it, but rather what I might look like in it. I had the
right color hose at home. Of course, mine were panty hose and I would
need stockings for the outfit.  My new shoes would look great in it. I
would make Scott - I meant any man - hot for -

	"I said, what do you think?"

	"Oh!" I said, jerking myself out of the fantasy. "I think it's
just...  darling. You'll look great in that."

	"Do you think my Stan will like it?" she asked with a giggle.

	"Oh, I'm sure he'll love it," I replied with a little giggle
of my own.

	As she walked away with her purchase, I couldn't help but envy
her. She might just be a shade - whatever they were - but she was
comfortable with her femininity. I wondered if I would ever be that
comfortable. I wondered if someday, it would be me looking at that
rack of sexy nighties and slinky underwear. I touched one of the silky
nighties, sighing gently to myself.
	
"It's very pretty," a male voice said behind me.

	Embarrassed, I dropped my hand from the nightie and
turned. "Scott!  What are you doing here?"

	He grinned. "Just passing by. I thought you might be free for
lunch again."

	I looked at my watch. "It's only twelve. I don't get off until
one."

	"Oh, go ahead," Vera's voice called out to me from the
aisle. Had she been watching me as well as I caressed the nightie. Oh,
god! What must they both think of me?

	"But - " I began.

	"We're not very busy today," Vera explained. "I'll watch your
department for a little while. Why don't you go have lunch with the
young man?"

	It was a suggestion, but from the Goddess of Love, it somehow
had the ring of a command. Yes, I wanted to be with Scott, but I could
feel that need to be with him being amplified and widened in my
heart. Scott offered me his arm. I took it with a smile, turning to
Vera. "Thanks Ms March."

	"Happy to help," she laughed. I turned from her and looked
only at Scott as we walked to lunch.

	"It's not as good as the Greenhouse," Scott explained as we
walked into Moore's Café, "but since it's only a few doors from
March's, I thought you'd appreciate not having to walk too far in
heels."

	I smiled in appreciation. If I was going to keep walking, I
would have to bring a pair of sneakers to work to walk to lunch in. I
was indeed grateful for the opportunity to have lunch without the long
walk. Safely at a booth, I kicked off the heels and rubbed my nylon
clad feet together, sighing in relief.

	"You don't know how good it feels to get those off," I told
him with a sigh as the menus were delivered.

	"I can imagine," he said. Could he? I wondered if he was just
being polite. Obviously, Scott had been someone else before he came to
Ovid.  Maybe that someone had been a woman. I didn't think so,
though. He didn't act as if he had ever been a woman. He seemed
content with being who he was. Of course, I was sure he had had at
least a couple of weeks to adjust.

	"I'd stick with the simple fare here," he told me. "I hear the
sandwiches aren't bad, but there's no good salads or anything like
down at the Greenhouse."

	Ovid was lucky to have the Greenhouse, I thought. Moore's was
more like cafes I had experienced in smaller towns. The tables and
booths were dark wood, the chairs a little uncomfortable, and a slight
smell of grease wafting out of the kitchen. It was strictly old
fashioned Midwestern cuisine. Go ahead and order the hot beef sandwich
with lots of mashed potatoes, but don't look for an Oriental chicken
salad because it won't be on the menu. I settled on a club sandwich,
which appeared to be one of the entrees least likely to stop my heart
in mid bite. Scott was more daring, ordering a burger and fries. I
sighed to myself. If I were still male, I might have risked that, too,
but I remembered the old saying - a moment on the lips and a lifetime
on the hips.

	"At least let me buy today," I offered. "You've bought almost
all of my food for the past two days."

	He grinned. "Nope. I'll pay. It's the price I have to pay to
eat all my meals with a lovely lady. In fact, how about dinner
tonight?"

	"I shouldn't," I said reluctantly. "I really need to see my
parents. I haven't talked to my father in two days." I needed to see
what he thought of my job. Also, it would be a little hard to play the
meeting at work card again.

	"Then how about dessert?" he suggested. "I can pick you up
about eight.  We can go get an ice cream. There's a little place over
by the college that serves a great double dip."

	"Oh, all right!" I laughed, unconsciously laying my hand on
the back of his. "But just for a little while. I'm a working girl
now."

	He bought my lunch in spite of my protests and had me back at
work by one.

	"Did you have a good time?" Vera asked pleasantly.

	"Yes," I admitted. Then, after a moment, "Vera?"

	"Yes, Donna?"

	I had a question, but I didn't know how to phrase it. I was
very new at being a girl. By all rights, I should have been railing
against my fate, but I wasn't. I seemed actually almost comfortable
being a girl.  In spite of the restrictions placed upon me by my
strict father, I felt I had more freedom as Donna Mae Potter than I
had ever had in my previous life. Vera was a goddess. I needed to know
why all of this was happening to me. Why was I a girl? What was I
supposed to be doing?

	"Those are interesting questions," she commented with a smile.

	"But I didn't say anything," I said.

	She smiled at me. "Donna, you may never know why you're a girl
or why you're here, or even what you should be doing. You are here to
live your life as best you can, just as you were before Ovid. You are
a girl now because you are, just as you were male before because you
were. Don't try to put too much meaning into these events. Just live
your life as you think it should be lived."

	"You mean if I decide I can't take the idea of making love to
a man, I can be a lesbian?"

	"I'm afraid not!" she laughed. "That's frowned upon
here. We're a little too small town Midwestern for that. Besides,
would you really want to be a lesbian?"

	"I might," I replied, more for the sake of argument than
anything else.  The truth of the matter was that the idea of having
sex in this body with another woman had very little appeal to me. The
problem was the better men - or specifically Scott - looked to me, the
more frightened I became. As much as the void between my legs seemed
to want to be filled, my mind argued that it wasn't normal to have a
man stick anything there.

	"But it's very natural," Vera argued.

	"Will you stop getting into my thoughts?" I said with
exasperation, turning away from her.

	"I wouldn't be there if you didn't want me to," she
explained. "Let me help you, Donna."

	Before I could reply, I felt a sudden sense of well being. It
was as if the aching void between my legs had somehow been
filled. There was nothing physically inside me; I knew that. But there
was a feeling. I felt... accomplished. I felt whole. I looked at her
as the wave ebbed inside me. "Is that what it's like?" I asked in a
whisper.

	"No," she replied. "When it's done correctly, it's much
better."

	"But - " I turned to face her, but she was gone.

	When Charlene dropped me off that evening after work, my
father was waiting for me in the living room. He put down the paper he
had been reading and inspected me critically. I had not felt
uncomfortable when Vera had inspected me, but my father's scrutiny was
most unpleasant. He just stared at me with his brow furrowed. "Is this
the sort of thing you have to wear to work in town?" he asked at
last. He made it sound as if "working in town" was somehow immoral.

	"Ms March likes us to dress this way," I said in my own
defense.

	"Like a whore?"

	I flushed. "I'm not dressed like a whore."

	He put his thumb and forefinger on my chin and examined my
face. "Look at you! You're wearing too much makeup."

	I pulled away from him as he continued, "And that skirt. It's
so short men will see your privates."

	Thank god he hadn't seen my skirt the day before. It was even
shorter.

	"I want you to go into that bitch Miz March's office tomorrow
and tell her you don't want that job."

	"But I need a job," I protested. "I have to earn a living."

	"No you don't," he told me harshly. "I talked just today to
Jess Spencer. He's gonna ask you to marry him."

	"Marry him?" I asked. "I barely know him!"

	"You'll get to know him," my father replied. It wasn't a
prediction; it was a pronouncement.

	"I won't!" I practically yelled, storming out of the room and
up to my room. I slammed the door behind me and threw myself on the
bed, unbidden tears streaming from my eyes. What was going on here?
Why was I being treated like this? If the Judge had to turn me into a
girl, why couldn't it have been someone more in charge of her life?
Why did it have to be someone ruled by an overbearing father...

	I sat up on the side of the bed feeling very sorry for
myself. I had always been ruled by an overbearing father, I suddenly
realized. When I had been a man, I had been told where to go to
school, what to major in, who I would marry, what job I would do. Oh
yes, I had led a privileged life. Many would have envied me. But my
life had never been my own if I were truly honest with myself. My life
wasn't my own as Martin Brubaker Junior and it wasn't my own as Donna
Mae Potter. I would never be Martin Brubaker again, I was sure of that
by now. But as Donna Mae Potter, I had to become my own person.

	But how? I had not been able to break away when I had been
male, well educated, and well off in my own right from trust funds and
savings. How was I to do it in the body of an eighteen year old,
barely a grown woman, with no money, only a high school education, and
a father who, although he had not physically hurt me, seemed capable
of physically enforcing his will.

	There was a gentle knock at my door. "Donna Mae, are you all
right?" my mother's voice asked.

	"I'm okay," I called out with a quaver in my voice.

	The door opened. She stood there with a look of motherly
concern on her face. How ironic, I thought, that my real father whose
only concerns in all the years I had known him had been money was
suddenly given the role of a concerned mother. If there was anything
of the old man left in there, he must have been ready to blow a
gasket.

	"You know," she began, "your father only wants what's best for
you."

	"He only wants me to marry the farmer next door so he can
operate a bigger farm," I grumbled.

	She sat down beside me and put her arm tenderly around me. "I
know it must seem like that, but Jess Spencer is a fine man. You'll
not find a better one, dear."

	She might be right, I thought, but that didn't change the fact
that I wasn't the least bit interested in marrying Jess Spencer - or
any other man for that matter. I supposed I might have to consider
marriage sometime in the future. I knew my perspective was changing. I
was starting to notice men. Worse yet, I was starting to wonder what
it would be like to... be with a man. There would come a time when I'd
have to surrender to my new body. But not yet, and certainly not in
marriage.

	Could I love a man? It was an odd question, I knew. I was a
woman in every way that it counted, and I supposed I could, but Jess
would never be the one. And how about Scott? Yes, I could, I
realized. That's not to say that I did love him. We were just
friends. But the potential was there. Of course, I really didn't know
much about him, but that didn't matter - yet. Maybe someday. Maybe
not.

	I followed my mother downstairs, carefully avoiding my father
who was busy sulking in the living room. I helped her fix dinner -
excuse me, supper - then joined them in a mostly silent meal.

	One thing I had learned about my new father was that when he
was angry at me or my mother, he tended to sulk quietly. It was as if
he was trying to tell us that we weren't worth talking to. He thought
he was being strong. I thought he was being an ass. At least, I was
grateful for the quiet. I really didn't want to talk to him.

	Mother and I got dished put away just before I heard the sound
of a car pulling up in front. I had almost forgotten that Scott was
planning to take me out for ice cream. I hurried to the door, only to
be stopped by my father's voice.

	"And where do you think you're going?" he challenged me.

	"Just out with a friend - for ice cream," I replied
honestly. I heard Scott's footsteps on the porch. He knocked on the
door.

	My father opened the door and just stared at a startled
Scott. "Is this your friend?"

	"Yes," I replied.

	He turned to Scott and said, "You'd better go on, boy. She
can't go out with you tonight." His voice was harsh and the tone
final.

	Scott looked at me as if for guidance. "You'd better go," I
told him.  "I'll talk to you tomorrow."

	He looked at my father and me, obviously trying to decide if
he should stay or go.

	"Go on, Scott," I urged him. "I'll be fine. Just go."

	"If you need me, give me a call," Scott said, leaving
reluctantly.

	My new father and I stared at each other like two savage
animals until the sound of Scott's car faded into the night.

	"You had no right to do that," I told him through clenched
teeth. I was so frustrated in this body. I doubled my fists, longing
to have the power to hit him and knock some sense into him. I knew I
could do no damage, though. I was too weak - too much of a girl to be
able to force my will on him physically. In that moment, even consumed
by anger, I knew fear - the fear all women have when confronted with
overwhelming physical force. I was too weak to hurt him, but he could
hurt me in a heartbeat. Just because he hadn't physically abused me
before didn't mean he couldn't do it whenever he chose.

	"I have every right!" he boomed. "I'm your father. Now,
tomorrow, you're gonna quit tour job and you're gonna tell that fella
that you don't want to see him again - ever. Do you hear me?"

	I said nothing, so he came closer to me, raising his meaty
fist and yelling, "I said do you hear me?"

	I gulped. "I hear you."

	"Good. Then you get up to your room, and you get that whore
paint off your face and get to bed. You've got a busy morning ahead of
you."



I obeyed. I wanted nothing at that moment but to be out of his
reach. I practically ran to my room. I obediently removed my makeup,
not sure if he would come up to check or not. I was frightened - truly
frightened. I had never been so afraid in my entire life as either
sex. I knew deep down that I had pushed him too far. If he sensed for
a minute that the threats weren't enough, he would hurt me.

	"Donna Mae?" It was my mother's soft voice at the door. She
opened the door timidly and entered as I was getting on my
nightie. "Are you all right, sweetheart?"

	"No," I said, trembling. "He's a... a... monster!"

	She rushed over to me. "Now you be quiet," she said just above
a whisper. "He's still up and he's still mad. You don't want to rile
him."

	"Tell me something," I asked her. "Has he ever hit you?"

	The question stunned her. "I've never given him any cause to
hit me," she replied at last. "He's the man of the house. I wouldn't
be a fit wife if I gave him cause to hit me, now would I?"

	I looked at her dumbstruck. Was that really my father inside
this mousy little farm wife? Was it really the man who had stared down
governors who was wearing that frumpy print dress and apron, afraid to
disobey some ignorant farmer who barely made a decent living on a
small Oklahoma farm?

	"But it's not right!" I told her. "He may have figured out how
to run you life, but he's not going to run mine."

	"Now you listen to me, Donna Mae Potter," she said
seriously. "He's your father and you're going to do just what he tells
you. You're going to quit your job, forget that town boy, and settle
down to be Jess Spencer's bride and raise lots of farm babies. It's
what your father wants."

	"But what about what I want?"

	"You're a grown woman now," she said primly. "You're not some
little girl. What you want doesn't matter."

	Oh yes it did, I thought after she had left. That creature
calling itself my father hadn't won yet, I thought as I gripped my
pillow in the dark, tears welling up in my tired eyes. What I wanted
was going to matter. I had a plan.

	I got up early the next morning - even earlier than usual. For
the first time, since my transformation, I was happy to have to carry
a purse. I selected the largest one I could find - not a new stylish
one that I had purchased at March's, but an old ratty one, large
enough to carry whatever I needed. I dumped as many of my new
cosmetics as I could in the purse. I looked at my face, fighting back
the urge to apply something to my face. No, I thought. I would
probably have to stand inspection from my father. If I wore cosmetics,
he would order me to wash off my face. I had no desire to confront
him. If I did, he might decide to inspect closer.

	Next, I got dressed. I put on the outfit that I had gotten my
first day at Marches, thankful that the skirt was shorter than
anything else I had in my closet. It would make the next step
easier. I next selected one of my "farm girl" dresses - knee length
and drab tan in color, with long sleeves which were loose enough to
fit over the sleeves of my good dress. I slipped on a pair of worn
black flats, stuffing panty hose and my new two inch heels in the
oversized purse. Jewelry to go with the outfit went into the purse,
too. I hoped my father didn't find it suspicious that my purse was so
full. I had to depend upon the fact that the contents of a woman's
purse would always remain a mystery no man really wished to solve.

	I drew my hair back into a flat, boring ponytail. I looked
awful, I thought, without a trace of the male I used to be in that
rumination.  But at least I looked like the farm girl my father
expected me to be.

	I rushed through my morning chores, thankful that my father
hadn't interrupted his own tasks to examine me. With any luck, his
inspection of me would be a short one as I walked out the door. My
mother, too, was too busy to question me, but I thought as I hurried
through the kitchen, setting the table as I went, that she wanted
desperately to talk to me.

	I wolfed down a bite of breakfast on the run so I wouldn't
have to stand close inspection at the table. I used the excuse that
Charlene had said she might be early that morning. I was sitting alone
in the living room, hoping with all my might that she would actually
be a little early when my father walked in.

	He looked at me carefully, and I began to perspire, frightened
that somehow, he would see through my disguise. How did all the comic
book superheroes run around all day wearing two sets of clothes? Even
early in the morning, it seemed too warm. At least I hoped it was the
heat that was making me perspire. I hoped my father didn't notice.

	"Well, now you look like a proper farm girl," he finally
allowed, almost affectionately. "I'm glad you've given up this
nonsense of trying to be something you're not."

	Trying to be something I wasn't? I had to stifle a
giggle. Here I was, trying to be a girl when my mind still told me I
was a man. If that wasn't trying to be something I wasn't, I didn't
know what was.

	Before I had to answer him, I heard Charlene pull up in
front. "Gotta go," I muttered, picking up a purse that must have
weighed as much as an army backpack. To my relief, my father did
nothing to stop me.

	"What happened to you?" Charlene asked with a gasp as I slid
into the car.

	"My father wants me to quit and marry Farmer John down the
road," I explained. Charlene knew all about Jess; we had talked about
the problem on breaks.

	"So what are you going to do?" she asked, concerned.

	"I'm not sure," I admitted. "Look, Charlene, could I spend a
few days at your house?"

	She looked uncomfortable as she drove. "I'm sorry, honey," she
said at last. "I'd like to help you, but things aren't so rosy at my
house either. My dad doesn't think much of my working at
March's. Besides, he and your dad are good friends. He wouldn't allow
it."

	My heart sank. Charlene was my best hope. The solution was
going to be more difficult now, but there had to be an answer that
didn't involve my becoming Mrs. Jessie Spencer.

	Vera March saw me enter the store. There was no misreading the
disappointed look on her face. "Is something wrong, Donna?" she asked
me. "It doesn't look like you're dressed for work this morning."

	"Oh, Vera," I said, tears forming. "I've got to talk to you."

	In her office, I was able to tell her the whole story. She sat
quietly, listening to every word. "And that's it," I said,
finishing. "My work clothes are on underneath this dress. It will take
me a few minutes to get ready, but I want this job, Vera. I want to be
independent. I'm not going back to that farm, even if I have to sleep
in the streets."

	She gave me a motherly smile. "I don't think it will come to
that," she assured me.

	"Then... then you can help me?" I asked hopefully.

	Her eyes were a little sad. "Oh, Donna, I wish I could. I'd
love to take you home with me and help you through this, but it's
against the rules."

	"The rules?" I echoed.

	She nodded. "Yes, there are rules, even for us. Only the Judge
can interfere so directly, and he usually doesn't."

	"But he could? Could he change me back - or at least change me
into a man?"

	"He could," she admitted, "but he won't. Besides, do you
really want to be a man again?"

	There was the question I had not dared to ask myself. Every
hour I was in this female body made me more of a woman. If someone had
asked me a week before what I would do if I were suddenly changed into
a woman, I think I would have told them that I would roll myself up
into a big ball and stay there until I either changed back or died. I
would never in my wildest dreams imagine that I would learn to dress
and act as a fashionable woman, and then risk my own personal safety
for the right to go on dressing and acting in that fashion. Being
Donna Mae Potter was becoming natural to me in ways I could never have
imagined before.

	"Well, do you?" she asked again.

	"I... I don't know," I answered truthfully. "I guess no one
gets to go back to their old life once they're changed, do they?"

	She shook her head with a faint smile. "It hasn't happened
yet, at least."

	"Then if I have to be someone else, I think I like being who I
am now," I finally admitted - both to Vera and to myself. "When I was
a man, I never had the... courage."  I snickered to myself. I had
almost said "the balls instead of "courage." Vera smiled, too. I think
she knew what I had almost said. "I just never had the courage to
fight to be myself.  I guess this is why the Judge did this to me. I
guess he thought if I was not willing to fight to be my own person, I
might as well be a little farm girl who did what her father told her
to do - even if that meant marrying a man she didn't love."

	"The Judge doesn't always explain why he does what he does,"
Vera told me, "but I suspect you're correct. It would fit the pattern
of his sentences."

	"So what can I do?" I asked, the tears coming again. I don't
think I had cried more than twice since I reached puberty. Now, it
seemed as if almost anything could turn on the water works.

	"Well," Vera began slowly, "your job is secure. According to
Nora, you're doing an excellent job." She grinned. "I think so, too,
especially for someone who never wore women's clothing before this
week."

	I smiled in spite of myself. "I like my job," I told her. When
I stopped and thought about it, it was really the first time in my
life that I could say that.

	"Then go ahead and get changed," she told me. "And just have
faith, Donna. This will all work out eventually. It usually does here
in Ovid."

	I hurriedly made myself presentable, feeling almost as if I
was stripping off a disguise as I did. I suppose I was when I thought
about it. Because of my past life, I was much more of a town person
than a country person, but to escape my father, I had had to wear a
disguise.

	I managed to get out on the floor only fifteen minutes
late. Nora had covered for me. It hadn't been a problem. There were
very few early morning shoppers in Ovid. I settled into what was
becoming a comfortable pattern for me, helping customers and
straightening up the merchandise.  Nora had even taught me a little
about displays that would sell, so I even had a chance to experiment
with that.

	I never dreamed I would feel happiest working in the lingerie
department of a small town department store. It seemed about the most
unlikely fate I could ever experience. I realized that no matter what
happened, I had made the right choice. I never wanted to see the farm
again.

	"Good morning."

	I had been woolgathering - a common activity on a slow morning
in retail. I hadn't even hear him come up behind me.

	"Scott!" I cried, turning to hug him. He returned my
affection. I was so glad to see him. "I was afraid my father scared
you off for good."

	"No such luck," he said, kissing me gently on the lips. "I'm
afraid you're stuck with me. What happened last night?"

	I quickly told him the story of my fight with my father.

	"So are you quitting?" he asked.

	"Does it look like I'm quitting?" I laughed.

	He shook his head and smiled. "I guess not. What about the
other part?"

	"The other part?" I asked.

	"About me," he said.

	"Oh Scott," I said seriously taking his hand. He looked like a
hurt puppy dog. "You're my friend. I couldn't change that even if I
wanted to."

	"Well," he said, "if I'm going to be your friend, what can I
do to help?"

	I thought about it for a moment. "Well, do you know of anybody
I can stay with for a few days. I don't think I want to chance going
back to the farm, and I need someplace here in town until I sort
things out."

	He smiled. "That's a simple request. You can just stay with me
until you find a place."

	I must have looked shocked, for he added quickly, "Look, it's
nothing like that. It's a pretty good sized apartment. You can have
the bedroom and I'll take the couch in the living room. No hanky
panky. Scout's honor and all that."

	I wondered what the good residents of Ovid would say about my
staying with Scott. I suspected this town, like most small towns, was
a little blue nosed. I didn't want to be branded as the town
harlot. But I realized I had little choice. All I had been to scrape
up in cash was forty dollars, and even with my paycheck, that wouldn't
be enough to stay at a hotel, even in Ovid. Charlene had turned me
down, and I really didn't have many friends in Ovid - certainly none
who I knew well enough to ask for help. If I didn't stay with Scott, I
would have to go back home, and that meant I would be a slave to my
father's wishes for the rest of my life.

	"Thanks, Scott," I replied sincerely. "It'll be just until I
can get on my feet."

	"Stay as long as you like," he said, looking around at two
women who were examining some foundation garments. "It looks like you
have customers. What time do you get off?"

	"Five."

	He smiled and gave me a gentle hug. "I'll pick you up."

	The rest of the day went by quickly. Our department was busy,
and I had little time to think about what I was about to do. Finally,
it was five o'clock, and I saw Scott walking toward me. It was time to
set my plan into action.

	I picked up the phone and called home. My mother answered the
phone.  Thank god, I thought. I didn't wasn't to talk to my father.

	"Have you quit yet?" she asked me without preamble. "I thought
you might just quit this morning and come on home."

	"Mother, I'm not going to quit," I told her. "I'm not coming
home, either. I've made arrangements to stay in town. I'll be moving
into town, too."

	"Oh my god!" she exclaimed. "Donna Mae, you don't know what
you're saying. Your father - "

	"My father is a good part of the reason I'm doing this," I
interrupted.  "I'm not going to let him run my life this way."

	"He won't give up," she warned me. "He won't rest until you
quit and marry Jess Spencer. You know how bullheaded your father can
be."

	No, but I was starting to have a pretty good idea.

	"Donna Mae, don't ruin your life like this. You go tell that
March woman you're going to quit and get back out here. I'll come pick
you up."

	"I'm sorry, mother," I replied as Scott walked up to me. "I'll
call you tomorrow."

	"But where will you be?" she asked tearfully.

	"I let you know later," I told her, hanging up. Thank god we
had never discussed Scott in detail. Even if they figured out who I
was staying with, they had no idea who Scott was or where he lived.

	There. I had done it. The die was cast. I had no way of
knowing what the cost would be, but I was determined to be my own
person, and not the person my father wanted me to be. It was funny. If
I had developed such resolve as Martin, I might not be in this
position now, I noted. As Martin, I had made the mistake of letting my
father run my life. I wouldn't make the same mistake twice.

	"Are you ready to go?" Scott asked softly. He could see in my
eyes what I was going through.

	"Yes," I replied, equally softly.

	His apartment wasn't much, but by Ovid standards, it wasn't
bad. This was a small town, after all, and there weren't large modern
apartment complexes. It consisted of a living room, kitchen, bedroom,
and a single bath. It was fairly Spartan in furnishings as well, but
the couch looked comfortable, and good to his word, there was a
blanket on it for later.

	"Ovid could really use more apartments," he told me. "Vulman
Industries apparently has picked up a major military contract. They're
hiring like crazy and a lot of new people will be moving in."

	"Real ones?" I asked as I looked around his apartment. There
was evidence he had spent a good part of the day just getting the
place shaped up. I couldn't help but think it was sweet of him.

	He shrugged. "Your guess is as good as mine. Apparently all
sorts of people wander into Ovid for all sorts of reasons. The Judge
doesn't seem to be short of raw material, although apparently there
was an incident here not too long ago that has slowed down the
process."

	"Where did you learn all this?" I asked, impressed.

	"Oh, around campus. Some of the other students remember who
they were.  They all talk back and forth, spreading information. Did
you know, though, that only two people can talk like this at a time?
If someone else were to join us, we couldn't discuss the magical
aspects of Ovid."  Then he stopped, remembering our little
conversation with Myra, I was cure.

	"So I've noticed," I replied wryly, dropping my stuff off at
the end of the couch. "Look, Scott, I really appreciate your doing
this for me. I don't know what I would have done if you hadn't offered
me a place to stay."

	He smiled. "Don't mention it. Look, let's keep it light. I'm a
pretty decent cook. Let's make up a salad, some spaghetti, have a
little wine, and celebrate your freedom."

	It sounds like a plan," I replied with a smile of my own.

	He was, indeed, a pretty decent cook. In fact, I had expected
a little Ragu out of a jar, but Scott made the sauce from scratch. I
started wondering as we made dinner together, then ate, just who Scott
had been before. By mutual consent, we hadn't discussed our previous
lives. I had assumed, thought, that Scott had been in Ovid for a few
weeks. He was very much at ease with who he was, He must have been
male before, I thought. Yet he handled himself in the kitchen like
many women I had known. Yes, I know there are men who are excellent
cooks; I hadn't been bad at it myself. But there were some more
feminine mannerisms that came into play when he was in the
kitchen. First, there was the way he cut things. Men tend to cut
toward themselves while women cut away. Then, there was his
neatness. Men are notorious for making a mess in the kitchen,
expecting someone else to clean up, or just not caring. Scott was the
neatest male I had ever seen in the kitchen.

	There was nothing effeminate about him, though. In fact, he
was comfortably masculine. Of course, I was beginning to realize that
it was easier to be a man than a woman. Oh, sure, men were expected to
carry themselves in a certain way - to be strong, as it were. But
women had to be correct in so many more ways. We had to dress
properly, making sure everything was coordinated. We had to
practically be artists just to get our hair and faces right. We had to
be graceful as we teetered on heels and demure in our relations with
others. And of course, many men - such as my new father (and the old
one when he was male for that matter) - expected us to always defer to
them.

	"More spaghetti?"

	Scott's voice brought me back to where I was. "Oh. No
thanks. It was great, but I have to watch what I eat." Another problem
being a woman, I thought to myself.

	"Well," he said, "then go ahead and finish off your wine and
I'll clean up."

	"No, I'll help," I told him. "Besides, I think I've had enough
wine."

	I had, too, I reflected as we cleaned up. I had drunk three
glasses of Chianti. As Martin, that wouldn't have fazed me. As Donna,
though, I was feeling a warm buzz from the stuff. To make it worse, as
we finished, Scott put a snifter of brandy in front of me."

	"Are you trying to get me drunk?" I asked suspiciously.

	"Nope," he grinned. "You have to be a real lush to get drunk
on brandy.  You're supposed to sip this stuff. I figure one shot of
this should last about an hour."

	It did, too. We sat together on the couch - close together -
and watched a movie together. He had rented When Harry Met Sally. I
know, it had been around a hundred times, but it was one of those
enduring movies most people enjoy over and over. Of course, I found
myself unconsciously identifying with Meg Ryan's character instead of
being desperately in love with her as my male self had been. I had
never thought much about Billy Crystal as a handsome guy, and as a
girl, I still didn't, but I found there were other things which made
him endearing.



I don't know exactly when it happened. I think it was about the scene
where Meg Ryan finds out her former lover is getting married and is
busily crying her eyes out. Scott had had his arm around me at first,
then I was snuggled up against him. Then, suddenly, I turned, right
next to his face. We just sort of blended together in a long kiss. I
was used to the sudden swelling between the legs when kissing someone
I was attracted to. Not this time, though. Instead, there was this
warm feeling between my legs - a sensation of yielding and softening,
unlike anything I had ever felt before. Then, of course, there were
the nipples. How odd, I thought in an almost clinical way. It was as
if instead of one big erection, there were little ones in my nipples
and my crotch.

	Then, I stopped thinking and started reacting. We didn't say a
word to each other. Instead, we gently but insistently began to
undress each other. I was starting to understand how important
foreplay was for a woman. There was a desire building inside me, and
the more it built, the more I wanted it to increase. I was nearly
ready the moment Scott carried my now-nude body to the bed.

	How to describe it? I had made love many times as a man. I had
enjoyed it immensely. But I had never enjoyed it like that first time
with Scott. As a man, I had felt the sudden explosion, concentrated
between my legs. Oh sure, there had been a sense of well being, but
there was also an almost immediate sense of loss, as if the pleasure
had somehow flowed out of my body with the orgasmic burst. As a woman,
though, the pleasure was more like a wave, commencing when he exploded
into me and rushing through my body. In a word, it was incredible.

	He held me tenderly afterwards, and I began to realize why
that was important, too. It was almost as if in some small way, it
allowed me to share the wave of pleasure with my lover. By holding me,
it seemed to make the ebbing sensations last a little longer. Of
course, it also gave me time to think about what I had just done and
why as Scott slept gently beside me.

	I hadn't intended it to happen. There had been no nagging
question in my mind as to what sex was like for a woman. I had planned
on being entirely platonic with Scott, and I think he really had meant
his promises to me to keep it that way. Maybe it was the fact that I
had just broken away from my family, as artificial as they might
be. Maybe I just needed someone, and Scott was the closest thing I had
to a friend in Ovid. Maybe Billy Crystal was right in When Harry Met
Sally. Maybe men and women couldn't be friends. How do they explain it
at the end of the film? First, we became friends. Then, we became
lovers. And then, we got... married?

	Oh god! Was that going to be next? Was this a one-night stand,
or were we lovers? Would I become Mrs. Scott Gorman? I shuddered. I
wasn't sure I was ready for that. But it might be necessary, I
realized suddenly.  Neither of us had considered protection. Oh good
lord, could I be pregnant? What was in me now, swimming merrily
upstream into a part of my anatomy that I could never have imagined
having only a few days before?

	As I drifted slowly off to sleep, I began to realize the next
day could bring an entirely new set of problems.

	I woke early. Being a farm girl had done that for me. So
imagine my surprise when I saw Scott sitting naked on the side of the
bed looking at me. I started to throw back the covers when I suddenly
realized that I, too, was equally nude. I had a momentary pang of
modesty before realizing that I had nothing that I hadn't already
shown Scott the night before.

	"You're up early," I said, trying desperately to sound
cheerful.

	"I couldn't sleep," he admitted.

	"Bad dreams?"

	He shook his head. "Conscience."

	I said nothing. I simply looked at him, confused.

	"Look, Donna, I know who you are - were, rather."

	My mouth fell open. "But how...?"

	"Look, it's confession time," he told me. "I'm Margo Simon, or
at least that's the name you knew me by."

	Now I was really shocked. Scott was Miss Simon, my father's
secretary.  I mean, I knew she and Rusty, our pilot, had probably met
as odd a fate as we had, but I never would have imaged her being
change into Scott.  Scott had seemed so comfortable with Ovid. I had
just assumed that he had been around for a few weeks. His comment
about finals threw me off.  Most colleges would have been finished
with finals by now, so I assumed he had meant that he had come to Ovid
a week or two before me. Then there was the way he carried himself in
his role as the young, wealthy heir. I could have kicked myself for
not seeing through all of that.

	"But are you saying your weren't really Margo Simon?" I
ventured.

	"No. My real name was Samantha Gorman."

	"But wait," I said. "Your last name is Gorman now."

	"That's true," he said with a sigh. "Look, do you know what
your father did to my father?"

	"Wait," I begged. "I'm confused. Are you telling me that
you... your father was Scott Gorman Junior even before you came to
Ovid.

	He nodded. "Strange, isn't it? I was his only child. I always
used to think that if I had been born male instead of female, I could
have been more help to him. Be careful what you wish for, though. Now,
I'm male, and yet it didn't seem to make any difference. Now, do you
remember what happened to my father?"

	"Roughly," I admitted carefully. "I know he was ruined along
with a guy named Trump when my father outmaneuvered them."

	"Outmaneuvered!" he snorted. "That's a polite way of saying
it. He arranged for loans for my father and Trump. What they didn't
know is that he controlled the institutions that made the loans. He
waited until my father and Trump were way out on a financial
limb. Then, he made sure the loans were called in early. He ruined
them both. That's when my father suffered a stroke and died. I blamed
your father for it. I was going to college at Sarah Lawrence when he
died. I couldn't help but think that if I had been at my father's side
- and male - I could have helped him. But dad never thought a woman
had any place as a real estate developer.

	"So after he died, I vowed revenge against your father. I
dropped out of school. I had a friend in college whose father ran a
large private investigation firm - J. L. Rickett and Associates."

	"I know them," I told her. "My father used them for background
checks on key employees."

	Scott smiled. "That's right. I used that contact to get my
name in front of your father as a personal secretary. I planned to get
the job and gather evidence against him. I could expose him to any
number of government agencies who would have joyfully tacked his hide
to the wall."

	"But you might have gone down with him," I pointed
out. "Everyone in his company signed non-disclosures."

	He put his hand on mine and looked into my eyes. "Don't you
understand, Donna? I didn't care. My father was my only family, and I
loved him very much. I would have done anything to get even with your
father for what he did. I would have even killed him if I had to."

	I withdrew my hand and looked away. "Then this was all part of
your revenge," I murmured softly.

	"At first, yes," he admitted. "The Judge changed Rusty into
that little black girl I told you about. Then he changed me into
Scott. After I was changed, I knew it would only be a matter of time
until the Judge got around to you and your father. I hung around the
courts, hoping he hadn't changed you first. I was about ready to give
up when that odd cop - Mercer - brought the two of you in. Imagine my
surprise when the two of you walked out unchanged!

	"So I followed you as you drove out to your farm. Then I saw
you jump out at the mailbox and realized you had been changed as
radically as I.  It just took a little longer. From what I understand,
that's not uncommon. The problem was, I wasn't sure if you were who
your were or if you were your father. I staked out the farm the day
you interviewed and followed you into town. I got too close, though,
and bumped into you. I still didn't know if you were the son or the
father."

	"Did it matter to you?" I asked bitterly.

	"Yes," he replied frankly. "I had nothing against
you. Although I didn't get to know you very well - your father saw to
that - I began to consider you as much of a victim of your father's
machinations as I was.  Then, on the plane, you tried to help me."

	"I didn't think you'd remember that," I said. "I thought you
were out cold."

	"I was," he agreed, "but I seemed to remember hearing your
concern for me. It was almost as if I could feel it. Also, I
remembered that you volunteered to go up to the cockpit for me in the
first place."

	"Then why take out your revenge on me?" I asked, breaking into
a sob.  "Look what you've done to me."

	He hurried to my side of the bed. Sitting next to me, he tried
to put his arm around my naked shoulders, but I shrugged him away.

	"Look, Donna, you're wrong. I admit, at first I just wanted to
get closer to you to get at your father. I had to know if he
remembered who he had been. Revenge wouldn't be any fun against some
person who thought she had always been nothing but a farm wife. But
then I got to know you.  Donna, I really do love you."

	That was too much for me to take. Exploding in tears, I rushed
to the bathroom and slammed the door. To think, I had actually fallen
for Scott! I had surrendered to this new female body of mine and given
it over gladly to him. And he had used it. I felt dirty. Oh god, what
if I was pregnant? I'd get an abortion. I wouldn't have his child. I'd
show him. I wondered for a moment if abortions were even permitted in
Ovid.  Probably not, I realized.

	There was a knock on the door. "Donna, please come out. Please
listen to me. I'm sorry for what I did."

	"You're sorry for screwing me?" I yelled as I hurriedly
dressed.

	"No I'm not sorry I made love to you," he corrected. "I'm
sorry I deceived you. I should have been honest with you. You know the
funny thing about all of this?"

	"I don't find anything funny about it," I growled, wrestling
with a bra strap. Damned breasts! Damned vagina!

	"The funny thing," he went on, "is that my father died
anyway. I thought his failure killed him. But in this reality, he was
successful and still died. I guess he was just meant to die."

	I finished dressing. It wasn't my best effort. It was just a
pink spring weight knit blouse and a pleated gray skirt. A couple of
accessories and a quick makeup job and I was about ready for work.

	"Donna, at least let me drive you to work."

	I looked down at my heels. It had to be over a mile to
March's. I couldn't do it in heels. I would have to accept his
offer. I opened the door and stared at him. "All right, but that's
it. I'll be back tonight for my stuff. Then I never want to see you
again."

	The look on his face was one of pain. Was I being too hard on
him? I didn't think so. He had used me to get to my father. Then, as
soon as he found out he didn't need to get to him (now her), he
screwed me and...  and... told me he loved me? No! He had lied to
me. He must have.

	"Let's go," I said.

	We didn't speak on the way to March's. I made it a point not
to even look at him. When we got to the store, he stopped in front and
said, "Donna, I know I hurt you. I used to be a woman. I should have
remembered what it meant for a man to hurt a woman. Please find it in
your heart to forgive me. I do love you."

	I didn't look at him and I didn't answer. I slammed the car
door and marched into the store. I should have felt triumphant, but I
didn't. I felt lousy. By the time I was riding the escalator up to my
department, I was feeling even worse. He told me he loved me. He meant
it, I realized. I also realized that a had feelings for him as
well. Was it love? No, it couldn't be! The bastard had deceived
me. But if it wasn't love, what was it?

	"What's wrong, Donna?" Vera asked me as she stepped out of her
office.

	"Oh, it's just... I can't explain. You wouldn't
understand. And I don't want you to read my thoughts."

	She laughed, "I don't really have to, Donna. I suspect it's
about love.  Think about it, dear. Who would know more about love than
me?"

	I stopped. She was the Goddess of Love. Who else would know
more? I had to speak with her. She ushered me into her office to the
now-familiar chair across from her desk. This time, though, she didn't
sit behind the desk. She chose the mate of my chair and sat close,
facing me.

	"Now, tell me all about it," she commanded.

	I did, leaving out nothing. I know I must have blushed when it
came to admitting to having sex. I felt as if I had just admitted to
some perverted exercise, but Vera merely nodded in sympathy.

	"So now here I am," I summed up. "For all I know, I may even
be pregnant."

	"No, dear, you're not pregnant."

	"I'm... I'm not?" I asked hesitantly.

	"No," she confirmed. "Usually, new girls like you are
encouraged to take birth control pills. It's often included as part of
the automatic responses. However, for girls like you..."

	"Virgins," I clarified with a sigh.

	"Yes, virgins, that often isn't practical. So all new girls -
virgin or not - are given a ninety day grace period in which they
can't get pregnant. I might add, new men get a similar dispensation,
so with Scott, you're doubly protected."

	At least that was off my mind. I leaned forward, toward
Vera. "But what am I going to do now?"

	Vera leaned toward me. "What do you want to do?"

	It was a good question. I had to be honest with myself. What I
really wanted was -

	"You can't go in there!" It was Nora's voice, frightened from
just outside the door. The door was flung open, and there he was - my
father.  My mother was trailing close behind, concern in her eyes.

	"You're interrupting a private meeting between me and one of
my employees," Vera said coldly, not in the least intimidated by my
father's murderous stare.

	"She ain't gonna be your employee no more!" he boomed. "She's
goin' home with us!"



My mother rushed to my side. "Oh, Donna Mae, we were so worried about
you! After you called we called the police, but that Officer Mercer
said there was nothing he could do. Then your father and I drove into
town, searching every street for some sign of you. We were afraid you
had run away with that Scott boy, but we couldn't remember his last
name."

	"It's Gorman," a voice from the door said calmly but
forcefully. I looked over my shoulder to see Scott in the doorway,
staring as defiantly as my father. To me, he said, "I saw them pull up
in front of the store as I was leaving. I thought I'd better make sure
you were all right."

	My father turned to him, his fists clenched. "Were you with my
daughter last night?"

	Scott ignored the question. "Donna, do you need some help?"

	"I... I don't think so," I told him. I stood and faced my
father, coming between him and Scott. "Where I was and what I do isn't
your business," I told him, trying to sound calmer than I felt.

	"You're my daughter! It is my business!" he yelled.

	I would have loved to tell him that I really wasn't his
daughter, but he would never have understood. Even if he had
understood, I don't think it would have changed his mind.

	"Mr. Potter," Vera said suddenly, "do you love your daughter?"

	"You stay out of this," he growled, his gaze never leaving me.

	"MR. POTTER, DO YOU LOVE YOUR DAUGHTER?" Vera never raised her
voice, yet somehow, her question drowned out every other sound in the
room.

	My father turned to face her, his face white. "What?" he said
softly.  "Of course I... love her."

	"What is love, Mr. Potter?" she asked.

	"It's... it's just love," he replied, confused with the
question.

	"Do you love her enough to let her go?" she asked quietly.

	"Let her go?"

	I know there was magic in the room. Vera was, after all, the
Goddess of Love. I don't know what rules the gods were required to
follow, but I know that Vera - or rather Venus - did something to let
us all know what love was. It wasn't something that could be
verbalized, but it could be felt. I think in that moment, my father
understood for the first time in his life what it meant to love
someone enough to let them go. He had, of course, rationalized that he
was doing what was best for me. Jess Spencer was a good man, and I had
no doubt he would make some girl a fine husband, but he wasn't right
for me. Somehow, I could see into his mind and realized that he really
did love me - and my mother as well.  And he seemed to come to an
understanding of what he needed to do if he was to have that love
returned.

	He turned to me. The bloodlust had left his eyes, and the look
he gave me was unlike any look I had ever gotten from a male
parent. "Do you want to go, Donna Mae?"

	I shook my head. "I don't want to go anywhere," I said
honestly. "I just want to be my own person. This the first time in
either - in my life that I've had the opportunity to be my own
person. I want to keep on being my own person, wherever that leads
me. Do you understand?"

	"I... I think so," he told me.

	It was impulsive, I know, but I rushed to him and hugged
him. I think there may have even been a little tear in his eye. He
gave me a little smile, and I smiled back.

	"Well, Vera said suddenly, "if that is settled, we do have a
store to run here. Donna, Saturday is our busiest day. I need you out
on the floor, but I'll give you a few minutes here to wrap things up
while I help Nora."

	She was suddenly gone, leaving me with my parents - for they
were now my parents - and Scott.

	"Honey?" my mother ventured, "are you coming home tonight?"

	I looked at them for a moment before answering. "I'll be there
after work," I told them at last. "I'll get a ride with Charlene."

	"I'll take you home," Scott volunteered.

	I could see the look of suspicion rising in my father's eyes
again.

	"I'd like to look over the Casper farm, so it's on my way," he
explained.

	"The Casper farm?" my father asked carefully. "That's right
next to our farm."

	"Yes it is," Scott agreed. "And it stretches all the way to
the edge of Ovid in the other direction. I understand it's for sale. I
think the edge next to Ovid would be a good place to build a few homes
and some apartments. Ovid's growing, you know."

	"You've got that kind of money?" my father asked bluntly.

	"I sure do," Scott answered glibly. "I've been thinking about
just settling down here in Ovid. Of course, there's more land there
than I'd need. I'd have to lease the rest of the Casper place out for
farming."

	My father thought for a moment. "I might be able to help you
there."

	"I'd be much obliged," Scott said formally. "Maybe we can talk
about it this evening."

	My father looked at my mother. The only signal she gave him
was a smile. Turning back to Scott, he said, "Well, seein' as how
you're gonna be bringing my little girl home, you might as well stay
for supper. We can talk about it then."

	As they left, I saw the twinkle in Scott's eyes.

	"You bastard!" I muttered. "You had that all planned out."

	"It's a good business move," Scott protested. "Ovid is
growing, and there aren't enough apartments here. I've got the cash
from my inheritance, and I'm sure I can leverage it into a bank loan
to buy that farm. Your father can farm the land and pay the debt
service for me.  Then I'll free up enough credit to build on the land
next to Ovid."

	"Oh, it's a good business deal all right," I admitted grimly,
"but you used it like a dowry to buy my hand."

	He laughed, putting his arms around me. "Oh, come on,
Donna. Sure, it works out well, but you are your own person now, just
like you wanted.  I'll do that deal no matter what you decide. It's
good business as we both know. But I love you, Donna, and I do want to
marry you."

	"Marry me?" I asked in a tiny voice.

	"Marry you," he confirmed with a smile.

	I was silent for a moment, but I didn't shirk from his
arms. Finally, I felt my own arms moving around his waist, and I began
to feel the attraction I had felt the night before.

	"Well," I said coyly, "since you're going to be talking to my
father tonight, I suppose you could ask him for my hand, too..."

				***


	"Wow!" Diana remarked. "I like that Donna. She sounds like she
has cojones."
	
	"Actually," I said drolly, "I believe the Judge took away her
cojones."

	"There are different kinds of balls," Diana said with a
dismissive waive of her hand. "Just because girls have their balls
inside with an entirely different function doesn't mean they don't
have them p at least in a metaphorical sense."

	"So one question," I said as I refilled her coffee cup. "Donna
speculated that some of the transformees who don't seem to remember
who they were might really just be prisoners in their own bodies. Is
it true?"

	I had asked the question for a reason. I hated to think that
my former fraternity brothers might be trapped inside the bodies of my
family whom I had come to love as a wife and mother.

	"Nope," she said simply, sipping at her coffee. "For the most
part, the Judge lets random chance decide who remembers and who
doesn't, but he hasn't created a situation like you described - yet."

	I was relieved. "Well, it sounds like the Judge has it all
under control."

	To my surprise, Diana laughed. "You think so? Silly girl!"

	I didn't know what to say.

	"Well, she told me, rising to her feet and, with a wave of her
hand, re-donning her leather and silver tunic. "coffee break is
over. I've got to get back to the set. See you in the movies!"

	She was gone in the blink of an eye, but her laughter lingered
on.

THE END