Date: Wed, 1 Nov 2000 18:42:03 +0200
From: Sivan <jdfadv@actcom.co.il>
Subject: Astarte the TG Goddess

  My name is Susan Avidan and I live in Israel. I am a CD thinking about
going a little further and carrying out some alterations to my body.I am 50
years old. This is my first story( which I have expanded and altered
slightly):If you are interested in meeting me my address is
jdfadv@actcom.co.il I will be pleased to meet real men who are interested
in a person like me.

  My name is Sivan - at least that is my femme name. Regrettably I live in
a male body.

  I have always dreamed about becoming a woman. Actually I know that really
I am a woman born into a man's body. I am also a historian specialliazing
in the Middle East. During the course of my studies I learnt that in
Canaanite times most of the people in the Middle East worshipped a goddess
called Astarte.This cult must have existed for well over a 1000 years
because it clearly answered a basic need of people. The religion gradually
died out and /or was supressed. the bible is full of references to angry
prophets castigating the people of Israel for "whoring" (literally) after
foreign gods. .Astarte was the fertility goddess of the Middle East. In
Egypt she was known as Isis and in Greece as Pallas Athene. She was both
virgin and pregnant simultanously ! In a way like us TG's - two things at
once ! .It was because she was so totally feminine that I became obsessed
by her and decided that if I had to have any religion at all then why
should I not attempt to resurrect the cult and even alter it so as to make
Astatre the goddess of the TG's !

  As far as I was aware I was the only living soul on the planet who still
worshipped a pagan goddess.Everybody else either was without religion or
was obsessed by it

  Astarte is a woman goddess. Female. Everything I always wanted to be.With
full breasts and an open cunt - always ready to be fucked.

  Forgot to mention the most important bit: the way in which Astarte was
worshipped. Not in a tedious church, synagogue or mosque. By means of
sacred prostitution. The priestesses of Astarte worshipped by fucking the
male congregants . The act of copulation was the actual means of
prayer. You have to admit its a lot more fun than the standard means of
prayer in modern religions! Frankly I"m surprised that somebody else did"nt
think of it before me !

  True , the act of worship did not take place in public. That would have
been a wholesale invitation to an endless orgy with nobody doing anything
for a living, crops going all to hell and general exhaustion all round.

  The priestesses of the goddess fucked all day and every day. When the men
were out waging stupid wars then they would fuck each other.

  Of course I had no liturgy to worship my goddess. Because she was female
I knew that she was right for me. If I slept with a woman, at the time of
my orgasm I would dedicate my cum to her and try to imagine the cum
exploding into me. When I was fucked by a man , I thought of my goddess as
my partner pounded himself into my stretched ass or poured his hot cum into
my ever willing mouth.

  Later on I created a complete prayer to my goddess which I would recite
whilst holding my rotten penis in my hand ( whilst dreaming that it had
somehow miraculously turned into a hot twat).  The prayer could only be
recited whilst I was properly crossdressed as follows:

  Black mini skirt
  black panties ( with the special set up which I had bought from
Transformation in England and which concealed my dick),
  Black garter belt ( oh yes , always the black garter belt which we CDs
and TG's always have to wear. Its virtually our uniform!)
  Black stockings attached to the sexy straps of the aforesaid slutty
garter belt.
  Black spiked heels 6" which nearly made me cum on the spot when I saw
them in the TV shop and which I can hardly stand up in, never mind actually
walk in !
  My face in full make up with proper foundation to cover the beard, false
eyelashes which make me look like a slag, and masses of perfume
  The long blonde wig
  "Miracle " breasts which take forever to fix on .
  Red finger nails
  .
  Thus complete in this very appealing outfit , which made me feel the
whore that I wished to be.I would recite the following:

  " Astarte my Queen, my goddess. I worship thee. I worship your cunt and
breasts.
  I long to suck at your holy hole. I worship only you. Please make me into
the woman I wish to be. Please make me, I beg thee into the whore I wish to
be so that I can worship you as a woman"

  Not exactly a long Mass but the best that my imagination could think
up.Sometimes I would sit on the floor with a vibrator firmly lodged in my
ass whilst declaiming the prayer or I would violently masturbate with my
stockinged legs in the air and point my prick towards my mouth and feel my
own hot cum spurting onto me. I woul.d swallow my cum and think of that
long ago and forgotten cult and curse the fact that .I had a penis instead
of a proper vagina

  This went on for some time. I developed the prayer a bit and my loyalty
to the goddess never wavered. Even if it was a religion of one I didnt
care. I really did believe in her and my obsession only increased with
time.I fantasi.sed that I would make this into the religion of all that
little minority of "gender challenged" people.

  Naturally I did nothing.

  As time went by , my trans inclinations grew stronger and I began to take
hormones.I found somewhat to my surprise and indeed happiness that
  .this caused me to become far more interested in men and I found myself
having sex exclusively with men. I had bought a small flat of my own and
every day after work I would assume my identity as a woman .Men - actually
more that I expected - would come to my flat and fuck me rigid. My legs
were completly shaved and invariably in black or white nylons. The rest of
my body was also shaved and my ears were pierced.Socially ( when I was"nt
being fucked) I associated only with other transsexuals. I never went
anywhere without wearing a garter belt ( even when dressed as a man I
always wore my belt and stockings underneath because I needed at all times
the feel of some femininty). By this time my bottom was capable of taking
even large cocks because I spent a lot of time with a butt plug in me (even
when sleeping) so that my partners would enjoy penetrating me and after a
while I too began to enjoy the pleasures of being buggered and even began
to orgasm from it.
  I was so enjoying the pleasure of my new found sexuality that I decided
that the next step would be to become a TV whore. I loved to be fucked by
men. I loved to get men into my home and within a few minutes to have their
hot cocks in my mouth.I especially loved cocks with foreskins which I.would
lick and suck until the man sprayed his hot cum into my red lipsticked
mouth ( and as he came I would think of my goddess and know that she would
be approving my wanton acts). Then , if he still had the strength I would
sit on his erect member and fuck him properly.But what i really loved was
to be taken on my back with my gartered legs in high heels in the air and
feel the hardness inside my loose bottom hole. So it seemed to me that I
now had to become the whore that I knew I really was. At this stage ,
parodoxicaly I stopped
  taking the hormones , because I didnt want to lose my erection and
therefore I still did not have breasts . I could not take the next steps
because I knew that I could not do reassignment and keep my job.

  I continued to pray to my goddess desperately for a solution to my
problem.One day I felt so desperate that I decided that I would prefer to
die than carry on without possessing my own cunt. So I took some strong
whisky and various pills and fell asleep in the hope that in the next world
or in my next life , my goddess would look kindly on me and create me as a
woman.Knowing my sort of mazel I would"nt have been surprised if next time
round I would be born a woman and want to become a man!

  Before passing out an apparition appeared to me . I thought that I was
hallucinating or had actually died but this voluptuous figure appeared
before me and began to talk in a language which whilst neither English or
Hebrew ( which I know) was close enough to Hebrew for me to quess that it
was an early form of Aramaic ( a Middle Eastern language) It only took a
short time for me to understand what .the figure was saying:

  " Dearly beloved Sivan. You are not alone. I have heard your prayers to
me. I know that they are sincere and that you truly wish to become a full
woman.I have the power to convert you finally into what you really are. To
grant you the wish to possess a fully formed and real cus( vagina) with a
developed clitoris that will give you the power of multi orgasms. I will
also give you the full breasts which you have prayed for.

  But you should know that there is a price to be paid for this. You now
have eternal life. But it is a life of sex. Your sex drive will be so
strong that you have to have sex several times a day. The only way to
achieve this is to become the prostitute that you know you really are.All
my worshippers and priestesses are prostitutes.That is the way in which I
am worshipped .They were all once men who have become women. .The only
prostitutes who orgasm with. a client ( in our case, a worshipper)are my
priestesses. .That is the way that you will discover if a prostitute
belongs to our faith

  You will be fucked in every hole that you have - often multipally. You
will have immunity from all diseases, which means that you will .never need
to practice "safe" sex. Most of the time you will have the taste of cum in
your mouth. You will need to be penetrated by male organs all the time but
you should know that this constitutes proper prayer and this is the true
nature of worship of me.

  I am Astarte your goddess.The goddess that you have dreamed of and whom
you tried to worship. you now have the opportunity for eternal life and the
life which you know you really want - as a woman with full breasts, a
perpetually wet cunt and a large clitoris.

  In order to accept this gift and commit yourself irrevecobly to me you
are required to kiss my cunt.

  Do you accept?"

  I was rigid with shock. Could this be true? This was either a miracle or
a dream. There was of course only one way to find out.

  I crawled over to my goddess and bent my neck up to the lips of her
cunt. I said "I do this with all my heart, I have worshipped you and love
you. I will become your priestess , I will become a sacred prostitute in
your faith"

  I kissed her glistening vagina and promptly blacked out.

  When I woke I found myself in a room surrounded by four or five women
--all beautiful, with long hair, all dressed in what appeared to be gold
and diamond studded garter belts.

  I looked down at myself. I was naked and I was a woman.I had breasts and
in place of my miserable penis and balls, I had a cunt.I touched my new
nipples and then - in view of these strange women - I fingered my new and
beautiful hole. It was soaking wet ! I orgazmed on the spot

  I began to cry with joy. At last, at last!

  One of the girls came up to me

  " Sivan welcome, My name is Iris and I am head priestess . I see that you
are happy to own your own cunt. you will use it a lot. Our religion is
expanding .

  Before you receive your garter belt - which you will wear at all times as
befits a priestess of the goddess Astarte-as your initiation ceremony, you
will engage in multiple sex with three men at the same time. You must be
penetrated by three men in all your holes at the same time in order to
become enrolled as a sacred priestess in the cult of Astarte. Do you
understand?

  You bet I did, I couldnt wait and told her so.I had been dreaming of this
moment for all my life never believing that it would ever become true.

  .Within just a few minutes of becoming a woman I was going to lose my
virginity !

  And then as if this really was a dream, the three men arrived , one
white,one black and the third Indian. They seized me brutally. I was
already dripping with anticipation and then one of them placed his
forskinned cock in my mouth which I sucked like a proper whore and the
other two penetrated my new cunt and ( well fucked ) ass.My hymen broke
immediately whilst I could feel the cock on the other side batter my
bottom.The first man sprayed his cum into my mouth and I started to
cum. Then I could feel the other two pricks enlarging prior to cumming. My
cunt and bottom were engorged with hard cock. This really was heaven ! They
pulled their cocks out of my hole and sprayed their cum all over my face. I
greedily licked it up

  I couldnt stop cumming

  They fucked me silly .Cum everywhere

  Then they went .away and Iris returned

  " We saw everything. Your performance was that of an accomplished
slut. you are what you always wanted to be. When you wake up you will find
yourself back in your flat and you will work as the whore that you are. You
will spread our faith
  Every month there is a meeting here of all the priestesses to which you
will attend
  by the same means that brought you here. Congratulations.You are a
priestess and whore of Astarte . You will lack nothing and have an eternity
of sex."

  They gave me my garter belt. I clipped it on and blacked out again.

  I woke back in the flat. Yes I still had my cunt and tits and garter
belt. My clothes were that of a whore. The flat had changed somewhat and
was now totally feminine. I realized that the world had been changed
slightly to take into account that now my existance as a man had been
shredded and never existed. I was a woman totally and completely . I was
also clearly a prostitute. My cunt was already itching. I needed cock
desperately......................

  And since then I have been a faithful servant of my goddess Astarte and
have fulfilled her commands completely.

  (The story will continue at a later date)