Date: Sun, 6 Jun 2010 11:06:18 -0700 (PDT)
From: lauren westley <fundipity@yahoo.com>
Subject: Email Reality - Part 1 - Transgendered -

EMAIL REALITY
by
Lauren Westley


(Authoress Note: All disclaimers regarding characters, age appropriateness
etc are in effect. This piece is about humiliation, degradation and other
XXXX sexuality. This is a short story and not sure when or if I'll
complete. If you read it I hope you like it and if it's not your thing just
stop reading now. Thanks, fundipity@yahoo.com


I know I'm neither pretty nor young but even though to the eye I'm visible
as an older man that's on the outside it doesn't change who I am inside.

The Boeing 737 plane had landed and was just finishing taxing to the gate
as I sat wondering, "was this a good idea?" From my window seat I could see
the gangway rolling towards the cabin. It was a beautiful afternoon with
the sun shinning. The beauty of the sun on the earth after an earlier
thunderstorm always seemed like an omen. In a few moments I would
deplane. My mind drifted.

Within the next 10 minutes I would be meeting him and I'd either be on the
next plane home or on a new journey. The deal was simple. We'd meet at the
airport and if 'first-sight' was a 'no go' we'd just separate. If it
appeared 'ok' we'd travel to his house for the next step on this erotic
dream reality.

The cabin bell went off. Passengers began to stand. I was in row 13 with a
window seat, so I'd be one of the first off the plane.

His name is Don and I have no idea what he looks like. We ended up meeting
through emails. Discussing who we are rather then what we looked like. In a
little bit I expected what I looked like would result in a pleasant
dismissal and a flight home. Look, I'm 5' 9" 50 plus and 170 pounds. Not
exactly 'slut' material. However, I have no gray hair. Not balding and
hardly hairy. In my 20's I could have easily passed as a girl. I have no
idea now except for the one time I put on lipstick and thought my lips
didn't look feminine.  Having looked at numerous women's lips since then I
realize it wasn't my lips but the learned knowledge girls have about
applying makeup.

 But it's who I am on the inside. Inside I'm 5'6" mid 20's and 120
pounds. The gender doesn't change my inside persona except I have small
breasts and a small enough penis to think of it as a clit. I can't explain
why I don't envision a real pussy. Now my outside penis is about 5" so it
just a bit smaller then average.

"Sir," I heard the woman wearing a "I'm a Girl' t-shirt with her 38DDD's
expanding the shirt in confirmation saying it was time for me to get up and
to stop daydreaming. I rose apologizing to the other passengers for
dawdling (if they only knew what I was thinking about) and entered the
aisle.

This is a small airport so I knew I'd be meeting Don in just a few
minutes. If we both approved we'd go to his car. There was still another
safety catch. We had decided a few things in advance. Dan had bought
whatever outfit, lipstick, perfume, shoes and/or whatever he wanted me to
dress in. I had paid for the air travel.

If, after we arrived at his home, Don told me to get dressed I would have
the choice to do that or call a cab to take me back to the airport. We had
agreed since I was paying for the airfare Don would buy what he wanted me
to wear but if I decided to leave the cab fare was my problem and that
would be about $60 from his place. I had already spent $360 for the round
trip flight and another $50 for travel to and from my hometown airport. He
knew my measurements. Yes I know in girl size I was definitely a plus but
fortunately not a plus/plus.Isn't it funny a Plus size is actually a minus
sign. But Don hadn't seemed to care. He seemed more interested with who was
inside me and his desires to make my inside and outside persona one when I
was with him.

I walked up the ramp into the brightly lit terminal with a nervous lump in
my throat and a panic in my groin proceeding towards baggage claim.  My
blue jeans, yellow sneakers and a white t-shirt made me look ridiculous to
the casual observer but quite obvious to someone who knew what to look
for. The idea was Don would have first sight of refusal by seeing me and
then coming over and telling me to go or follow him depending how he
felt. Of course, I had the last right by calling the cab at his place.

Walking through the airport I saw the restroom. Even though I had gone on
the plane my eyes stopped to look over the sign above the woman's room. You
know the blue stick figure skirt. I watched so many of the women enter
after the plane ride and imagined they wouldn't use the one on the airplane
unless absolutely necessary. Squatting over a toilet at 30,000 with the
plane swaying must not be an easy pee. Don hadn't seemed much interested in
my conversation about "bathroom control' but as I passed the ladies room I
wondered how our fantasies would play out if this went all the way. And
what if one of my fantasies turned sour? Since I didn't have control what
would that mean?

Over the past month we had conversed about my limitations and his
desires. But we both had certain limitations and desires. Neither of us was
into 'scat'. I didn't want any other women present if he decided on having
guests and there was no way I was going to be photographed or do anything
in public. One of his desires was to have me hang from my arms, bound,
gagged and blindfolded. Something I had never considered. But an escapade
such as this would obviously find areas of agreement and others of
exploration so I had agreed. In fact there was much we hadn't discussed
about what would happen since this was a journey and not a
rulebook. Suffice it to say he was the Dom,

The steps to baggage claim were just ahead. I only had brought a plain
black with wheels 'carry-on'. Looking around I hadn't seen anyone with the
old luggage with handles. Whatever happened to that stuff? Where did it go?

I was so nervous walking down those steps I watched my feet thinking what
if I were wearing heels. Don knew I hadn't done dress up except for when I
was much younger. Would he expect me to wear heels? Nor had I ever applied
makeup except for lipstick once. What would he expect me to do? He was
aware I had never tried to walk in heels and that my legs weren't shaved
though they weren't very hairy either. None of that had mattered to
Don. It's part of why I was willing to come.

During the past month we had talked about these moments and those to
come. If we got to the part of my walking in dressed in whatever he wanted
me to wear he would become "Sir" and I'd be "Slut" or any other name he
chose.

 It was late Friday afternoon and my return ticket was for 1pm Sunday. So
the next 48 hours would be interesting whether we went all the way or even
if I just went home. The escalator ended and I pulled my bag behind me as I
walked to baggage claim and waited at the spot Don had picked out.

What was I doing here? This fluttered through my mind as I trembled inside
with the fear of an early British explorer mapping the African jungles
hearing unheard sounds from undiscovered animals. And then I heard the word
Don had said he would use to identify himself.

"Miss," he whispered into my left ear.

Startled I stepped back and turned to the voice. There he was. He was
somewhere around 50 plus with salt and pepper hair. He was taller then me
but not much but his voice made him appear stockier. He was wearing jeans
and before I could really see more his voice penetrated my consciousness.

"Follow me," he stipulated.

This meant we were taking the next step. If he had said, "Sorry wrong
person" then I would have simply walked over to ticketing and seen if I
could get a flight home.

I turned to follow him and as we had earlier agreed I walked a few paces
behind as if we were strangers, which of course we were. As I pulled my bag
along on its wheels I couldn't decide how I felt about him physically. I
was more drawn by what I knew about him over our month of emails then the
details of the body walking in front of me.

One of his emails mentioned how he likes to have "her nipples and tip of
her clitty clamped and chained together with the leash attached to them."
What Don meant by the leash attached I could only imagine. Did it mean he
would walk her? Would it hurt? Was this going to be me soon?

Don walked through the electronic sliding doors as I followed him into the
parking lot and then to his F150. In a few minutes we were driving north
along the highway to his house. We didn't talk along the way. That had been
his decision in an email. He said we were in this for the experience and
talking away before the final step would cloud things.

Now I'm not stupid. I mitigated the risk by getting his home address, his
full name, his phone number etc and before I had left I wrote a letter
explaining to whoever read it if I didn't get back on Sunday what had
happened. The note, which I had mailed to myself a week earlier, sat in a
drawer on the hall table near my front door. I was sure it would be found
by Tuesday if I didn't return since I had paper clipped it to the check for
my cleaning lady. She'd figure it was for her and open it. The letter was
very simple. His name, address, email, phone was listed as well as a brief
note explaining he was trying to blackmail me and I had gone to meet with
him. I figured that would be enough to get things moving if I didn't
return.

The F150 rolled away from the city its deep throaty exhaust mesmerizing me
as the trees became the scenery with the buildings lessening. It was a
small city with a regional airport and before long we had exited the
Interstate onto a state road driving through farmland. About half-hour
after we had left the airport we turned into the driveway of a quite
ordinary ranch house. The house was set back from the road. On the side we
had driven by was a large piece of farmland. I couldn't see if there were
neighbors on the other side because a dense hedge lined the right of the
driveway.

The privacy of the place was just as Don had described it in his email. I
got out of the car, we walked up the stoop and Don opened the door. We
hadn't really talked during the drive. Oh, Don had said something about the
weather but really this wasn't a typical social visit and I had kept
quiet. Actually what we had been emailing about doing and now were near
carrying out most would think was quite anti-social.

Once inside the house Don told me to go sit in the living room on the
wooden chair. He went to the kitchen and I walked into the living room. It
was moderately furnished with a sofa, two easy chairs and a flat screen TV
on the wall. All in all it was in good shape but it was definitely a single
man's decorating touch. A bit away from the center was the chair Don had
mentioned, It was a simple bar stool. It didn't go with the furniture but
when I looked around I could see on the other side of the foyer what would
have been the dining room a round table with several of the same bar stools
around it. (You know the kind that are chair height.) I sat down.

I'm not sure how long I sat there perhaps for 10 minutes when Don came out
drinking a beer and plinked down in his sofa looking at me.

Again time passed. Part of me wanted to call a cab but the other part
wondered what he was thinking. Would he ask me to call a cab? I mean asking
me here it should be up to me but listen I'm not very girl looking and he
may be changing his mind. But, if he told me to go up and change I was
suppose to not only change my outfit but also everything else as best I
could. In other words I was to be his submissive slut girl when I came back
down.

More time passed as he drank his beer. He sat with his legs spread apart
and his other hand reached down to his balls to move his penis but to me it
was sexual not simply a matter of releasing his penis.  He finished his
beer and put the bottle down on the coffee table.

A small smile broke through his lips as his voice floated over that smile
saying, "Slut, go upstairs and change."

This was the moment. My 'ah ha' moment as I rose wondering if I should call
a cab or not. By the time I was on the third step of the hallway stairs I
realized it was not a cab I was calling it was the tramp inside me.

When I got to the top of the stairs I saw an 11x8 piece of paper with the
word SLUT and an arrow in red magic marker. I followed it to the end of the
hall and opened the door to the room with another piece of paper with just
the word SLUT on it.

The room was pink and white and on the bed was a piece of paper. Next to
the paper was a matching pair of white panties and bra from some Adam and
Eve catalogue. There was also a pair of clip-on gold dangling earrings,
white thigh-high stockings, white opened-toe strappy shoes, a spray bottle
of "Faith" perfume and a tube of Target "Denver Sheer Blushy Pink
lipstick. Seems Don had done his shopping on-line.

Also on the bed was a small gift-wrapped box. It was wrapped in pink paper
with a yellow store bought bow and a card with just, "SLUT" in printer
script pink.

I picked up the note also computer generated in the same color. It simply
said, "Take off all your clothes, take a shower, put on only what is on the
bed, You'll notice the panties have a small hole cut out in the front that
is where your clit will hang from. Open the box after you've done
everything else and do what it says. Then, come back downstairs, Sir."

Twenty minutes later I was opening the box and found a small pink butt
plug, a bottle of lube and a note. "Put this in your pussy and come
downstairs immediately."

Walking down the stairs with the plug in my ass, my clit hanging out of the
hole (which I noticed had been sewn with a pink elastic edging) wearing
moderately high heels was both exhilarating and fearful. I thought back to
those steps going down to the baggage claim area. I was looking at my feet
now but they were girly toes and I was being very careful how I walked.

At the bottom of the steps I could see the table was actually a poker table
to my right. It brought back the memory of an email he had sent telling me
of another sub who had serviced his friends at a poker party one night. The
chips were on the table just as my chips were now as I turned left and went
into the living room.

Standing in front of Don in bra, panties, butt plug, stockings and heels
smelling very girly waiting made my penis swell poking out of the
elasticized hole.

(to be continued)