Date: Fri, 23 Jun 2006 07:56:57 -0700 (PDT)
From: Carl Philipp Valmont <chauderlos@yahoo.com>
Subject: Frankfurt, cross-dressing

                        Frankfurt, part I

                     A Madame de Bonne-Fin.

".  and  for  the  last four years, the compared  growth  of  our
companies shows that, while IFR increased its shares by 25  %  in
Southern  Europe , GRD mbH consolidated its positions in  Central
Europe by buying or merging with local companies."

For  the third of fourth time, Isabelle, the junior analyst, went
through the figures. I no longer listened to her, trying to  read
the  faces  of the men sitting over the meeting table.  They  all
looked the same, as if cast from the same mould. Grey faces, grey
eyes,  grey suits, gray folders, grey, grey, grey... It  was  two
days now that we came to Frankfurt, to meet our counterparts, and
finalize  the  merging of IFR and GRD. But  from  the  beginning,
things  went wrong. Without notice, the Germans began to  discuss
already  agreed issues, wanted to review figures and charts  that
had  been reviewed over and over again for the last months.  What
should  have  been a pleasant stroll turned into a  nightmare.  I
couldn't  come  back to headquarters without  that  agreement.  I
couldn't tell the CEO and the board that I failed. Moreover, this
failure  would  hurt my staff more than it would  affect  me.  It
could ruin their career, it would blow their future. In the hard,
merciless  world of finance, one defeat could bring  your  bright
potential to a dead-end.

".  our  two  companies would then lead the European market,  and
rank  4th on the world market. This would bring the shares  above
their  highest  level of '04 by at least 34%, hence  creating  an
estimated net profit of 23 to 26 _ per share."

I turned to Isabelle, gently landing my hand on her forearm:

"Excuse me if I interrupt you, your presentation is brilliant."

Facing the grey men that sat in front of us, I told them:

"Gentlemen, it's now 11:30. We have been talking about this issue
since  8:30  this  morning, as we did all day  yesterday,  to  no
avail.  If you agree, we shall close the meeting and start  again
at  15:30.  In the meanwhile, we shall refer to our headquarters,
figure new solutions and come back to you with new proposals that
shall be, or so I hope, at your convenience".

There  were nods on the other side, and without a word, my  party
left  the  room and headed for the conference room the hotel  had
provided. As soon as the door closed, they all burst at once:

"But, Philipp, you know we cannot change the data."
"Maybe  if  we  gave them a few extra percent from the  asset  of
GlobalNet; they would agree on the Hungaro-Export issue."

I cut my team short:

"Listen,  I do not want you to bring new solutions for  now.  You
have all worked hard; we are all tired and exhausted. I know  it,
and  what we are going to do for the next hours is to unwind,  to
relax. Use the fitness or swimming facilities of the hotel.  Have
a  glass  at the bar. An enjoyable lunch. Do what ever you  like,
but  stop  thinking about this, and when we shall meet  again,  I
will listen to you, and I'll give you my ideas, and we shall work
a new strategy. See you at 14:45, same place."

I left them flabbergasted, and headed for the lift.

While  I  watched the dull landscape from the glass  panels  that
surrounded  the  cabin,  I wondered if  I  had  taken  the  right
decision. So many things could go wrong at that stage; but  then,
things  couldn't  go worse. And a leader has to  make  decisions,
right  or  wrong, for a wrong decision is better than no decision
at all.

When  the  car  stopped at the 15th floor, I brushed  the  matter
away.  All  I  wanted  was to take a long bath,  listen  to  some
classical music, and relax.

As  I entered the room, I stopped in my tracks. Someone had drawn
the curtains; the only light was coming from the bedside lamp. In
the  dim  light, I noticed that someone was seated in an armchair
facing the door. A silhouette was framed by the light that  shone
behind  her. A silhouette I would recognize among thousands.  The
long  blond hair, the ear pendants, sending tiny sparkles of blue
and  yellow,  the  narrow  shoulders, the  left  hand  holding  a
cigarette  whose  smoke drew blue swirls in the  dim  light.  And
then,  the  smell  hit me, the unmistakable  smell  of  expensive
perfume  and  Turkish  tobacco, the  very  smell  of  my  beloved
Mistress.

She was here! A gust of joy and exhilaration burst in me. She was
here,  my  Lady, the delight of my life, the pearl of my  nights.
Without thinking, without wondering how she had known I was here,
in  this very room, at this very moment, I performed the now long
established  ritual that ruled all our meetings.  I  stepped  in,
and,  at a few paces distance from her, I went to my knees,  bent
down  and  landed  my  lips on the tip of her  high-heeled  boot.
Again,  I was hit by the smell, the pungent smell of leather  and
shoe  polish.  Images  started to swirl  into  my  mind,  echoing
souvenirs, remnants of emotions that overcame me .

The  long  hours  she  had me kneeling at her  feet,  waxing  and
brushing  her  boots,  until  they  shone  perfectly.  The  sharp
commands, the punishment she gave me if she wasn't satisfied with
the  result.  The first time I begged her to scourge me,  holding
the  riding crop on a silver tray before me. The warm, gratifying
feeling I had when she pinched my nipples. The night she  had  me
walk  the  empty streets dressed like a whore, while she followed
me  in  the  safe and warm comfort of her car. The  pleasure  she
offered  me, like a present from heaven, when she allowed  me  to
come  for her. The dreary mornings when my whole body ached, when
remorse bit hard, when tears ran down, when I wanted to leave her
forever.  The evening when, all pride swallowed, I came  back  to
her,  attracted  by  the animal magnetism she radiated.  The  two
years  we  spent together, since that night when  she  became  my
Mistress.  The  everlasting feeling of surrender, confidence  and
fulfillment I felt when let myself fall into her entire control.

She cut me away from my reverie.

"I have been waiting for you"

Still  kneeling,  I  answered: "I'm so sorry  to  have  you  kept
waiting, Madame, so sorry."

"I called your PA, and she gave me your address here. I wanted to
surprise you, to take you off guard. How is your business going?"

"It  isn't going very well, Madame, that's why I came here early.
To leave the subject aside and to change my mind. But what I wish
is of no importance, Madame, I'm here at your service."

"Well. When shall you go back to your meeting?"

"At 14:45, Madame".

She glanced at her watch, a heavy men's chronograph of white gold
that made her wrist look frail:

"Go get ready, your clothes are in the bathroom", she snapped.

I  felt  my knees weaken, my heart missing a beat. I couldn't  do
that, I had to think about the coming meeting, and I had to  read
again  the draft agreement, and to cross check the latest figures
headquarters  had e-mailed, and. But the bare look of  her  eyes,
her  eyes  that were both chilling and burning, both  loving  and
hurting  melted  all  my will power, all my resolution.  I  heard
myself croaking:

"Yes, Madame, at your will", and headed for the bathroom.

There,  I  found the clothes she had brought for me. I undressed,
took  a quick shower. By luck, I had been to the beauty parlor  a
few days before, so my body was smooth and hairless, except for a
tiny  patch on my groin. I fastened around my hips a purple waist
cincher,  embroidered with roses, on which I attached a  pair  of
seamed  stockings; I put the assorted silken lacy panties  on.  I
slipped  in pair of high heeled sandals. I checked the  seams  in
the  full size mirror, they were perfectly vertical. The  panties
were  always too tight, and would be more so later, when my  cock
would  expand  and try to escape from its silky prison.  I  would
usually add make up, a touch of frosted almond lipstick, a  shade
of  green  on  my eye lids. But she hadn't prepared any  make  up
today.  I  smiled inwardly at my image. I was no longer  Philipp,
the  powerful  executive;  I was Sophie,  a  creature  of  desire
designed for the pleasure of my beloved Mistress.

When I entered the room, she was still seated in the armchair, as
if she hadn't moved since I left the room.

"You  look beautiful, Sophie, come closer. yes, that's very good.
turn around.

I smiled inwardly at her compliments, and did as she requested. I
paced the room, stumbling a little on my high heels, but eager to
please  her, to put a show for her. I turned around,  swaying  my
hips, my bare buttocks; and her looks were like burning darts  on
my  flesh.  But I knew more burning was to come. She had  me  sit
like a model, hands on my hips, or with my legs spread, or turned
to  the  wall,  looking at her over my shoulder. I  felt  like  a
centerfold from a girlie magazine, exposed and unashamed.

After a while, she had me pick up the breakfast tray and bring it
to  her.  She  had  cleared it from the  kettle,  the  cups,  and
replaced these items by less innocent ones. But this was  only  a
guess,  since  she  had  them covered by a  white  cloth.  Bowing
deeply,  I put the tray on the low table beside her armchair  and
stood before her, waiting.

She  got up, and started to move around me. I shivered as I  felt
her  long  fingernails  lightly grazing  my  skin,  following  my
backbone from shoulders to bottom. With her fingers, she  brushed
my  face,  following the line of the jaw, brushing my  lips.  She
took  a silken scarf from around her neck and knotted it over  my
eyes.  I  felt confident, I trusted her, but at the same time,  I
felt uneasy, left alone in the dark.

"Humm,  she  whispered at my ear, how lovely  you  are,  my  sexy
creature, how smooth and soft, just the way I like you."

She withdrew for a moment; I heard her rummaging with the objects
she  had  placed on the tray. A hiss of silk, a hint of  perfume,
she  was  near me again. I felt the soft, moist tip of a lipstick
tracing my lips, painting them in a color I couldn't guess. And I
regretted  it  deeply, for the color was a guess  of  what  would
follow.  Should the color be a pale shade of pink, her  treatment
would  be  smooth  and gentle, a tender blend of humiliation  and
exposure.  Should  it be dark, virulent red. then  she  would  be
fierce and violent, punishment and pain would await me. But then,
in  the  dark she confined me, I could do nothing but  wait,  and
expect, and hope that.

"There  you are, my creature, my sexy, slutty creature.  Tell  me
how  much you love me, when I treat you like the little bitch you
want to be".

Her  voice, a low, husky rasp; close to my ear, sent  a  shot  of
blood direct to my cock.

"Oui,  Madame, I love to be nothing else than the object of  your
desires"

"Good,  very  good. you know how much I enjoy playing  with  you,
when  you're  obedient and submissive, when you're  ready  to  do
anything to please me."

She  let  her voice trail, while her fingers danced all  over  my
skin,  designing intricate patterns from chin to thighs,  and  up
again, from buttocks to shoulder blades. Her nails sometimes  dug
lightly into my flesh, and I shivered at the biting feeling.

She took my hand in her, placing two tiny, cold, metallic objects
in my palm.

"Do it for me."

I  recognized  the ear clips she wore moments ago. Obediently,  I
started to tickle my nipples, the left one, the right one,  until
they  were  hard.  I felt her smooth lips kissing  them  lightly,
sweetly,  sucking and nibbling, teasing. When she felt they  were
erect  enough for her taste, she hung the clips on it. The rubber
pads  clamped  the sensitive flesh in such a sweet way  I  moaned
with  pleasure. Both nipples adorned with her jewels, she  played
and pulled at my buds, each pull bringing me closer and closer to
the  bliss  of pain and pleasure. My aching cock tried to  escape
its lacy prison, pulsing with desire.

Again, she left me, alone in the dark. She knew how I hated it. I
can  stand almost everything, but not knowing what awaits  me  is
worst  than anything. But then, that's the purpose of blindfolds,
isn't it?

All of a sudden, she smacked my ass, a vicious slap of the Hermes
riding crop we had chosen together. I tried not to wince, not  to
move, but she hit me again, and I had to collect all my will  not
to  escape the fire and ice gnaws of the leather. The thin fabric
of  my  lacy  panties was to thin to protect me.  She  alternated
soothing  words, gentle caresses and then, slap! The  crop  would
land  on  my  ass,  biting my soft flesh. I felt tears  gathering
behind my closed eyelids, she couldn't see it, but she must  have
guessed,  for  she  ended her whipping, as suddenly  as  she  had
started   it.  She  knew  how  to  push  my  limits,  but   never
overstepping  them. With tender care, she helped  me  out  of  my
panties, whispering comforting and caring words, words that eased
my  pain and made me feel I could have stood more. Next time,  to
please her, to serve her deeper, I will stand more.

When the frail fabric of the panties slid over my cock, it jumped
out of its prison, jerking like a spring. I felt the flat tip  of
the  crop wandering over it, from tip to ball; and I wished,  "Oh
no, please. this hurts so much." For what seemed an eternity, she
teased   and  tormented,  playing  with  my  fear  and  emotions,
withdrawing  her instrument, preparing for a blow,  and  while  I
gathered my strength to stand it, the touch came back, gentle and
soft. I moaned, helpless and fearful, and she knew I was close to
the edge. She came back:

"Shh, shhh. don't worry, dear, you know I just want to play  with
you, to tease you, to tickle your nice cock."

I  tried  to relax, but then, at mid sentence. she hit me,  plain
across  the  shaft. Not a hard blow, not a painful  one,  really.
Only  to  remind  me that I belonged to her, that  when  I  stood
there, ready for her, she could do anything to me. This was  part
of the faith and trust we shared. I had to trust her, if I wanted
to belong to her.

When the aftermath of her last stroke faded, she gently pushed me
on  the  shoulder, down to my knees. She resumed her position  in
the  facing  armchair, then asked me to remove the blindfold.  In
the  meanwhile,  she had taken the cloth that  covered  the  tray
away, revealing what lay on it. The lipstick. The crop. The strap-
on dildo.

We  remained silent for a long while, me kneeling, hands  resting
on  my thighs, eyes downcast; she, her spiky heeled boot dangling
from her foot.

"It's time for you to go, Sophie", she said.

I got up, heading for the bathroom. When I passed near her chair,
she gripped my wrist, forcing me to a halt.

"Look  at me, my love, I want to see lust, and disappointment  in
your eyes".

I  looked  at her, at her bright shiny eyes. With her free  hand,
she stroked the latex penis that lay on the tray.

"When  you  come back, and if you succeed, it will  be  for  you,
tonight."

A  wave  of pleasure overwhelmed me. I would be hers.  I  had  to
succeed. I had to please her.

"Yes,  Madame, I'll be back, and succeed, for you",  I  answered,
eyed gleaming with anticipation.

While I undressed in the bathroom, removing the waist cincher and
the stockings, I felt her presence, leaning on the door frame.

"No,  keep those on, my dear. It will remind you of what you are,
deep inside you. A little female slut".

A  few moments later, I was waiting for my team to gather in  the
conference room. I was ready to face anything, any objection  the
Germans  would  raise. Nothing and nobody could resist  my  will,
rejuvenated  by  the power my mistress had given  me.  Under  the
starched  white  shirt, the tightly knotted silk tie,  the  black
pinstripe  suit,  I  wore a pair of purple female  panties,  with
embroidered roses.