Date: Fri, 20 Jan 2012 21:05:12 -0800 (PST)
From: Cassy Williams <lilmsneedy69@yahoo.com>
Subject: Giving in to Taking Over Part 1: My Problem

Giving in to taking over

Part 1: My problem

So here is my problem.  My boyfriend is immature, lazy and selfish;
impossible to respect.  I try.  I give him control of our finances and I
respect him and speak about him highly in public but he seems to be utterly
incapable of adopting a "manly" disposition.  If I ask him to get me food
or do chores around the house he whines like a child causing me to
reprimand him as if I were his mother.  He does not act professionally at
work either.  With my reputation I have acquired for him a job but if it
were not for my always checking up on him he would have lost it a long time
ago.  It would not be so bad if he was at least masculine in bed but he
never lasts for more than a few minutes and even then he cannot have his
dick in me most of the time because of his lack of self-control.  Aside
from this he is always jacking off, several times a day.  This gets so bad
that most of the time he cannot even muster up the desire to fuck me.  My
friends are a constant reminder.  While they are telling stories about
their men fucking them mercilessly until they cannot cum anymore, I am
forced to tell stories about how my "man" had to pull out violently after
three thrusts in order to avoid cumming inside of me.

Recently this took a turn for worst when I came to the realization that he
secretly, possible unbeknownst to himself, likes to be feminine.  This was
the worst feeling I have had in a while.  I have always, and have expressed
to him, wanted a dominant and masculine man and we both had the
understanding.  Apparently he lied to me.  Maybe he did not know.

I believe this because I watch him check out other girls and it is so
weird.  He does not comment on how he wants to dominate them or fuck them
or get something from them. He talks about their clothes.  He talks about
what is cute and what looks bad.  He is hypercritical of girls in a way
that seems as if he is a snotty girl commenting on someone without fashion
sense.  He "advises" me on what to wear and how to be sexy.  He wants to
teach me how to wear heels.  More telling than this is his preferred porn.
I check his history and he is always watching porn without guys.  Isn't the
whole point of watching porn to imagine yourself as the actor? Instead he
simply wants to look at girls in sexy clothing and jack off.  He does not
want to cum!  He simply wants to jack off and be horny.  He collects
pictures of girls in panties and watches them in a slideshow.

I think he imagines himself as the girl.  He wants to be pretty!  He wants
to be cute!  He wants to be used by another because he is too lazy and
self-centered to want to make someone else feel good.  So I have decided
that I am not going to leave him.  Instead I think that I will give him
what he wants.  If he wants to be a bitch and have life handed to him I'll
let him.  If he wants to trade his freedom for service to me I'll let him.
If he wants to idolize me and allow him to degrade him I'll let him!

After all, who doesn't want a slave?  I mean to ask whether or not there is
a point to denying myself a fully obedient and willing pet.  I think I can
enjoy sacrificing masculinity for servitude.