Date: Mon, 29 Nov 2004 23:58:06 -0800 (PST) From: Matthew O'Shea <femboynz@yahoo.com> Subject: A New Life for Timothy Chapter 7. transgender authoritarian DISCLAIMER: This story is Fictional. But is based on a great part of my life as a submissive Sissy-boy. All names or places are of no living person connected to my life. If you don't like male on male sexual activities or under 18yr old. Please leave. But if choose to read on I hope you enjoy it. It is of a young Sissy males transgression into becoming a Slave boy with cross dressing to enforce his Sissy self. I do hope you'll read and send any comments to Matthew at femboynz@yahoo.com A new life for Timothy. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Chapter 7. This man whose name is Mr Lucas, then stood took my hand helping me to stand facing him. He took a clean handkerchief from his pocket handing it to me to wipe my eyes and clean out my nose. I did in silence, then stood and listened, while Master and Mr Lucas explained a few things of the past month or so to me. They have been very close friends for a few years, both are into the Bondage & Discipline scene and thought it would be great to have there own slave. After being to a party and seeing these two rented TV slaves, it was decided that's the sort Master should advertize for. Someone who could be made dress in female clothes and treated as a Sissy slave at all times. They received six replies that were of interest to them. After Mr Lucas read mine, he realized who I was, remembering me as the Sissy-boy from collage. By what I said in the letter, they knew I was a sissy-boy who wanted to be dominated and used completely by a Master. On the first visit to Masters house, Mr Lucas sat over the road in this car watching me arrive. Said how I stood outside the gate fixing my cravat, hanky in my top pocket, then my hair, making sure I look neat and tidy before going up to the door. I got embarrassed then, as that is just what I did, I wanted to look my best. Once Master had interviewed me, he was also satisfied that I was what he wanted. Ever since I've been with Master, Mr Lucas has known everything that has happened. I was now informed how nice it is to see me out of bed. Yes it was he who stayed last weekend with Master, while I had to sleep. That seems an age ago now as so much has happened to me, in this short time of a week. Mr Lucas made me kneel between his legs, as I was told to forget everything of the past. Like him being a teacher at the collage I went to, he doesn't teach there now either. He knew the way other boys talked. Also told me how he would of loved to of given my brother a good caning. For letting others in his class talk and treat me the way they did. Yes he heard that I had to satisfy a couple. But didn't know just how much. I told him how I had to masturbate or suck them off and drink their cum. Because Jason told them I'm a faggot and have a girls mouth. At that, I asked him please don't mention him again, because I don't have any other family now except my Master, who owns me. Mr Lucas just put his hands on either side of my face pulling me to him. Kissing me on the forehead, in what I thought was a caring way. I just looked to him saying, "Thank you." He then made me stand so as to have a good look at this Sissy. Sheepishly I stood, lowered my head so I couldn't watch him eyeing me over. Without a word I got pushed and pulled, my skirts raised right up, my panties pulled down to have a good look at my little petty under there. After which I was told, I look like a very pretty slut. I wasn't quite ready to hear him call me that, as I just looked at him. But didn't say anything. "Well that is all you are you know, a Slut!" he said looking into my eyes. "Yes I know, Sir," I quietly replied. Partway through this conversation Master left to go and start their meal. As they weren't prepared for my outburst at the start, so time was now moving on. Now that I'd settled down or more to the point, got over the shock of who Masters visiting friend was. I had to put on my pinafore then go finish the meal, which didn't take to long. While in the kitchen I kept thinking about Mr Lucas, how close it could of been had I spent another year at collage, then finished up with him teaching me. Now meeting him today as my Masters lover and I guess able to dominate me. Once I served their Dinner I had to stand behind and to the side of Master, with head bowed, waiting for any orders from him. At one stage Mr Lucas noticed me raising my head a little and looking at him. Quickly I was asked by him, why I had raised my head. I felt my face going a bright red with embarrassment. In a stutter I tried to apologise, knowing I had done wrong. Only I couldn't get words out, so finished up again just saying. "I'm sorry Mr Lucas for staring like I did." Master yelled at me to go kneel beside him. I did knowing it's not going to be a pleasant time. Plus for the first time, someone watching me being chastised for my impertinence. It's at times like these that I wish my hair was a lot shorter. As Master crabbed a handful pulling me this way`n'that, asking what right I had to raise my eyes from the floor. No one wants a slave looking at them while their eating, Do they! Plus you never again say MR!! From now on you will address him as SIR! Or if I'm not around it'll be MASTER! Get that into your thick head you scum. After a couple of hard slaps across my face. I was sent to kneel facing the far wall with hands on my lowered head and legs wide apart. After awhile Master called me to him, asking if I was hungry, which I was. "Would you like some of mine, before you go to your bowl," he asked. "Oh yes, thank you Master," knowing what's waiting for me in the kitchen. This will take my mind off of it. But I didn't know I would be eating it from the palm of his hand. After he had chewed it up he dropped it out onto his hand, then put it in front of my mouth, telling me to eat up. I looked to Master in hope he wasn't really going to have me eat it. When I got told this or nothing till tomorrow night. My mind promptly changed without another word. Once I started licking it up, I could hear Sir laughing. Saying how disgusting I am, but how good it is to see I'm being well trained as a slave. It seemed disgusting for a start, even my eyes watered thinking of having to do it. But it was my Master's and I don't care what I eat of his. When finished I said, "Thank you Master for feeding me your food like this." again lowing my head. Master informed Sir that he'd see me doing a lot more before the weekend was over. I just cringed thinking what other humiliating things would I be made do in front of Sir. Later, after I'd finished all my cleaning up. I was back in the lounge kneeling to the side of the couch. On which Master and Sir were resting comfortably with an arm over each others shoulder, drinking their wine. It looked so nice and romantic. I wished I could of been up there also. Every so often they would talk about something they had in store for me. Or what they'd like to do with me, most of which sounded so degrading or completely depraved. I could tell my burning face had gone a deep red. I hung my head feeling very humiliated by what is in store for me. I could only listen, it would be more than this new slaves life is worth to speak, or ever look towards my Masters. As they poured another wine, Master was asked if it would be alright to give me some. I couldn't help looking towards Master in hope, as I hadn't had any alcoholic drink for sometime now. Master looked at me, then said, "yes that'll be OK." I felt pleased and happy to know I could have a drink at last. Sir called me to him, having me kneel right between his legs. "Now open that mouth and don't spill any, do you hear?" I knelt with mouth open waiting for the glass to touch my lips. I will learn soon that a slave never gets what it hopes for. Instead, Sir put two fingers into his wine glass, then into my mouth. Telling me to suck and saver such beautiful wine they were having. There I knelt sucking wine off Sir's fingers in this humiliating way. Plus to hear them laughing about it, as I did so. I only had that one `drink' in which I also had to thank him for. But not before Master struck at me for not saying `thank you' quick enough. When it came to bedtime for me, Sir was asked if he'd like to get me into bed. Yes, he jumped at the idea. In no time I was being led up stairs to my room. After kissing Masters feet before I left. I had to underdress in front of him, which by now I didn't mind doing. As he'd seen everything I was wearing and what I was like under my panties anyway. But it made me a little embarrassed hearing his remarks about me being in girls clothes, specially about having my clit looking graceful, as he put it. While I took off the make up, Sir decided to look through the draws at what I had. Fortunately there was only the clothes Master had bought for me to wear. But all the same they were taken out, I'd be told how he was looking forward to having me dressed like a proper whore and used like one. Once I'd cleaned the make up off and brushed out my hair. Now it was time for more humiliation. Knowing I'd now have to lie over that nappy for Sir to pin it on me. Lying there waiting, I was asked where the baby powder was? "I don't have powder Sir, Master just puts me in the nappy as is," I said. "Oh, babies always are powdered under there nappies." I was told. "I'm not a baby Sir, I just have to wear them because Master keeps me tied up so I can't touch myself down below," I tried to explain. "You wear nappies, only babies wear nappies, hence you must be a baby. So we'll have to see about getting some baby powder for you. Won't that be nice." as he rubbed over my stomach. I didn't answer his question, knowing I don't have a say in anything anyway. The look I gave mustn't of been the sort of look he wanted, as he slapped my face. Reminding me that I'm only a Fucken slave bitch. Once I had my nighty on, I had to stand while he eyed me over. Even making me walk around a little, caress myself over my upper body. As I did so I couldn't help what was happening under the nappy. It was also noticed, as he asked what the problem was. I had to just quietly say, that fondling myself in my nighty gets me excited and my clit aroused. "Well get into bed now so I can tie you down, with hopes that'll also keep you excited all night. To think you won't be able to touch, won't that be good." "Yes Sir," I said getting into bed. Once my wrists were put in there restraints. Sir then gave me the back of his hand to kiss before patted my head saying. Have a good sleep, as tomorrow is going to be a real electrifying day for all. He then just smiled at me, then left turning out the light, but leaving open the door. I lay wondering what tomorrow had in store for me, that it was going to be so electrifying. I woke in the morning by Sir pulling the covers off me and slapping lightly on my face. The restraints came off my wrist, next thing I noticed his hand going under my nighty, up to feel the nappy. Good Sissy you're been all night without wetting yourself. Hearing him say that really made me feel like the baby he said I was last night. So I quickly said, I don't wet myself in bed Sir. For my unwanted response, his hand went just as quickly back, to squeeze over my nappy covered clit and nuts as hard as he could. Causing me to squeal and squirm in pain. "Did anyone ask you to comment," he asked, still with hand firmly on clit. "No they didn't Sir." "So keep that fucken mouth shut! Now get down stairs and make us a nice hot cup of Tea. Don't forget to knock before bringing it in." As I got up, I went to put slippers on. Only to be told, No! Bare feet is good enough for a slave. I was also wanting to wear a dressing gown, as it was a little cold. But again that was denied me. I was just told, "Normal slave wear nothing at all except there collar. So think yourself lucky that your Master lets his Bitch wear sissy clothes." I didn't reply, but took of smartly for the kitchen. Oh damn! it was there that it happened. The build up over night in my bladder, now decided to flow freely. There was nothing I could do to stop the flow either. If I'd tried to go to the toilet, that would of been very painful for me later. Plus Master would of known if I went a time without going. So there I now was, making Tea taking it up stairs, offering it to Master and Sir while I was in a wet nappy. On entering Masters bedroom I was confronted my Master and his lover in a deep passionate embrace. I didn't quite know what to do, as it's the first time I've been in such a situation. Watching others making love, I just stood there. Eyes glued on the two beautiful bodies entangled in each others arms. As I watched my little wet clit started to come alive. I know I couldn't touch or show any signs of my arousal in front of Master. Then I thought what do I do, just put their Tea down and leave. They must know I'm here as Master told me to enter. Do I tell them I've got their Tea, so yes that's what I did, quietly. Only to be told, "Put the fucken Tea on the side table and kneel beside the bed facing the door." Master told me without lifting his head from his lovers chest that he was licking over. As I knelt there, I could only listen to their love making. One didn't have to use much imagination to know what they were doing. It sounded so beautiful, I wished I could of been apart of it. With the low soft moaning I wasn't sure which one was taking it. Till I heard Master saying "Yes! Fuck me harder man." Shortly after I heard Sir low grunting cries, as he unloaded his man juice into my Master. There was only their deep breathing I could hear for a minute or so. Then Master saying, God that was fucken good. As they lay there engrossed in each other, my presence was ignored. I didn't mind as I knelt there listening to their lovemaking. My little clit was really getting strained by it all, as it fought against the wet nappy. By the time they were finished the Tea had gone cold. Master sent me of to make them another cup, but don't throw these cup out, just leave them on the bench. On my return with fresh Teas, this time they were ready to drink. As I handed Master his cup, he could smell the stink of my wet nappy. So I was made go stand over at the door, but facing them with head bowed and hands at my side. I just had to stay like that till they decided to get up to go and shower. As they went past me Master lifted my nighty, so they could feel how wet I was. Which caused them to laugh about my child like behaviour. I could do nothing but stand there, letting them do as they wish, but feeling very humiliated. While my Masters showed I had to go down to prepare their breakfast, feeling quite sad. That I wasn't going to have the pleasure of being in there with Master and towelling him down afterwards. Or even now helping him dress. Once they were finished, I was summoned to bathroom my Master yelling out. "You faggot BITCH! Get up here Now!" on my arrival Master informed me I was to be clean inside and out. So had to then strip naked, that meant taking off the soaking wet nappy in front of Sir as well. Again he made remarks about only babies wetting there nappies. Again I could feel my face going beet red with embarrassment. Now stripped, nappy and plastics in the bucket to wash later. It was now on the floor face up for me on a wet towel, that one of my Masters had just used. Holding my legs back as far as possible to give easy passage to my butt hole. I could only watch as Master came, smeared some grease on my hole, before inserting the long nozzle connected to the rubber tube attached to a large enema bag. In no time I could feel warm water entering and inflating my bowels, as he squeezed the bulb forcing all of the liquid into me. My stomach felt and looked like a pregnant woman once the contents was emptied into me. I just had to lie flat on the floor, with a stern warning not to let any seep out. As I lay I began getting cramp down below which forced me to moan in agony, I begged to Master to let me discharge it. He didn't hear me. The more I tried not to loss any, the greater the cramps became. My moaning continued bringing Master down to massage over my stomach, which was of no help to my situation. Realizing I couldn't go much longer Master helped me up and onto the toilet. The pain of the cramp was such, that I now had great trouble trying to empty my bowels. Suddenly, trickle after trickle, relief came as the dirty smelly mess started cascading from my rear hole. The cramp pains were decreasing and I was able at last force out all that shity mess with a thunderous and smelly discharge. All the while I was being watched over, with remarks being made about how I seem to enjoy having an enema. Like it does wearing its wet nappies all this adding to my humiliation. Now empty I wiped myself clean. Only to be told to lie down again, but this time on my stomach. The procedure was repeated only with cold water this time. Then it was up on all fours and to have my stomach smacked as they laughed at how it wobbled about. It did seem easier to hold the water in this way up. But the cramps still came strong before I was allowed to empty myself out again. With very little smell this time. By now the bath water in which my Masters had showered had gone quite cold. So Master relented and added some more hot water, just warming it up a little. Master also informed me, that I should like my bath because they have both pissed in it for me. After I had finished bathing, shaving wherever was in need of it, cleaning my teeth. I went back to my room, only to find Master hadn't put anything out for me to wear. Having his lover here must of taken pride of place to my dressing. I didn't want to suffer the wroth of Master my deciding myself what I should wear. So put on my nighty and went down to ask Master in the now normal way for permission to speak. Once that was granted and I asked what I`m to wear. I was informed, "what you have on is good enough for you to do your work in today. But bring me the ring, I think you should wear that also." Master said. With a look of sadness on my face, I returned carrying the ring and spray. Only to have my face slapped hard a few times, then spat on for displaying such a look. Master knew why I was looking sad as he told me, I'll wear the ring whenever he wants it on me. That I'm nothing but a slave who'll do what it's told without showing any hint of displeasure. If it gives Master pleasure to see me wearing the ring or any other item he wants on me. I'll just wear it, knowing it's making Master happy having me this way. I just stood there, raised up my nighty to be sprayed then ringed. Firstly Master inspected to see for any missed hairs after the shaving. Fortunately all was fine. All the while Sir was sitting at the table watching with a big smirk on this face. Possible thinking, the Sissy boy he knew from collage is now being degraded in this humiliating way. But I now didn't care what he or anyone thought, I'm only Masters slave, that's all I that matters to me. Now ringed, I was pushed over towards Sir, so he could have a closer look at my attachment. I just had to stand hands at my side, as Sir proceeded to lift my nighty to inspect how my clit is restrained. I had to hold the nighty then, so he could have a real good look and feel of my clit and the sac below. By the look on his face you could tell he was really enjoying pulling back and forth on my skin. His hands were cold, but so soft, that I was beginning to get aroused. I closed my eyes thinking how nice this felt. Even the pain coming as my clit fought against the ring didn't deter how I was beginning to feel. A hand went under encasing my jewels lightly massaging them. All of a sudden I realized it was to good to be true. Yes! That hand that was feeling so gentle without warning. Just squeezed my sac hard causing me to SCREAM!! out in agonizing pain. My eyes quickly opened and watered, the pleasant thoughts I was having quickly evaporated. My body felt vulnerable, my legs were starting to tremble, my hands opened wide in fear, coursing the nighty to drop over Sir's arms. "Didn't I tell you to hold that nighty up?" he asked in a stern voice. "Oh yes Sir, I couldn't help dropping it, Sir." my voice still quivering as I looked towards my Master. Who was talking to Sir about the fun they were going to have today with this `thing' referring to me. I took hold of the nighty again, pulling it back up to expose myself again to Sir. But now told to just turn around, lift up the back of the nighty, open my legs wide and bend over as far as I can. Nervously I obeyed wondering what is going to happen. Then realizing not long before I'd been cleaned out up there. Is this where and how I'm to lose my virginity. My cheeks were parted giving a greater view of my cherry, as they talked about how I'm still a virgin and wondering why no one has taken it from me. I was just left in that precession as they talked about my feeble body, about the lack of colour in it. I was beginning to feel fear listening to their conversation and laughter. Once they had finished degrading me verbally, they both spat on my hole before letting me stand again. I was sent to kneel facing away from them as they finished their breakfast. All this time I could feel the wetness of their spittle trickling down my thighs. I must say, I liked the feel of it, but wished it was something else. As they finished their breakfast, I now had two plates to lick clean before being sent out to my bowl of mush. As I got down to it, I noticed the bread had been mixed up with some of the tea that my Masters didn't have earlier. The remaining tea was in my other bowl for drinking later. My list of chores for the day sat on the table. As I read I noticed there was nothing after getting their lunch. I didn't quite know what to think of that, until time came to get their lunch. When I was told I could have a drink from my bowl. Then go to my room and I'd find some clothes on the bed for me to wear. I was to change my nail polish, and put some make up on. Waiting there for me was this beautiful deep red satin with black lace trimmed bra, panties, camisole. To my surprise I was going to wear a suspender belt with a pair of fine black stockings. But missing is anything to wear on my little clit this time. After I changed my nail polish to a vixen shade [which is a real deep red] I did my make up. I looked at myself in the mirror, and must say I looked very pretty and feminine and felt the same also. Just wished this ring wasn't controlling my feelings down below. For my comfort I left my room, made my way daintily down the stairs to my Masters waiting in the lounge. Noticing he was alone, I stood waiting for some comment about the way I looked, but none came in that regards. But I was asked why I hadn't curtsied, if I want to dress and look like a Bitch. I'll have to learn to act like one and Bitches curtsy to their Masters. "So Do It Bitch!!" not expecting that sort of remark, I nervously attempted to do a curtsy to him. Never done this before, my effort left much to be worked on later. As Master said, there are ways to train Sluts to do things right. As I stood, Master pulled my panties down, pleasing me as he removed this tortuous ring from my clit. "Does that feel better," he asked. "Oh yes, Thank you so much Master," I said with much relief. Without another word, I was led down and through the doorway past the inside entrance of the garage. Then to stop at a door a little further down, on the opposite side of the hallway. This is the door to the room I'd been told about on my first visit to the house. I could only look up fearfully to Master, realizing the room I was being taken into. What I thought it contained. I stood with apprehension while he took the keys from his pocket and placed it in the lock. Master looked to me, asking if I was alright. I told him I felt a little nervous about where I could be going. The door was unlocked and opened, at the same time, ordered me to get in there. Going through the first door, I realised where we were headed. But as Master opened this last door and ordered me in. I all of a sudden felt very hesitant of where I was heading, my mouth got dry, my hands became sweaty, my stomach started to turn. As I stood knowing what lay ahead of me, Master put his hand on my shoulder in a comforting way saying. "Don't be affrayed, you're only a slave now." his hand then guided me in. I entered, finding I had to walk down a dimly lit wooden stairway of about 12 steps. At the bottom of the stairs Master parted two full length heavy black drapes for me to walk through. The first thing to hit me was a smell of stale urine, I wonder how long ago that happened. The room was lit by one central light over a frightening looking table. Something like you might of seen in an operating theatre a some years ago. Leather straps hanging from it, either end could be raised or lowered, metal tube like things, that things can be locked into. Standing over at a bench I noticed Sir wearing only a pair of black trousers and shoes. I guess in its earlier life this would of been some ones decent size wine cellar. But as I looked around wide eyed, it's far from any wine cellar now. Yes I was standing in a dungeon for want of a better word. But Master calls it a `Training or Playroom'. Hanging on the wall were quite a few straps, canes, cat'n'nines. Even a long looking horse whip. Shit, I hope that isn't used on me, I thought as I felt its end. At this time I couldn't take in all that was in there. But what I saw and the over view was scarey, but also exciting in a way. Knowing how I want to be treated and punished. I noticed in the far corner a steel grill cage about 75m/m wide and high and about a metre and a bit long. The floor of it was a steel tray like. Sitting next to it was a toilet seat on this low clear perspex box. Maybe that's were the smell is coming from, I guess. As I continued looking around, under the stairway was a couple of draws. Between that and a cupboard was another small cell set in under the steps. Not much bigger than the cage on the floor over all, but just had a thick steel mesh door. Hanging from the ceiling towards the far wall was a black leather sling or harness, with steel rings attached to it. Surveying it all, suddenly made me very nervous, my whole body started to shake. There were things I'd never seen before, other things I'd seen when Master took me to have my ring fitted. I couldn't help but ask Master to please hold me, as I took hold of his hand. He did, then pulled me close to him with an arm around comforting me. Knowing some of the things I saw looked frightening. I asked Master if that was all to be used on me. I was pleased when he said no, not all. Other Masters use the room to punish their slaves or someone whose needs are to just be tied up and punished. At this stage of my life I didn't know much about S&M. Or even that others really thought and wanted the same as I do. All I knew was, I wanted to be dominated, kept under strict control and punished. Yes, as a feminized slave. [I don't know if that makes sense to you, but it really did to me] After a couple of minutes I was again quite at easy. Master also noticed that as he asked if I was ready for my next step into my life as his slave. "Yes Master I am, I just couldn't help it seeing all this gear so suddenly was a little scary. But I know this is what I am, what I need," I told him. I was then asked if I remembered my safe word? "Yes it's `Red rose' Master." "Good now if you have to use it don't feel you've failed or be ashamed about it," he told me. All of a sudden I got pushed over to a chair with some ropes sitting on a table next to it. Master pushed me down onto it, I was pulled right back by Sir who was standing behind it. He took a rope wrapped it a few times around my chest tying me firmly to the chair. Each arm had the same treatment, followed by a wide belt around my waist holding me firmly to the back of the chair. My legs were now the only thing I could move. "This won't hurt if you don't move." Master informed me taking a bit of cottonwool with detergent on it. My right earlobe got wiped, Sir held my head firmly to one side, then something was held behind it. I then felt a needle being forced through into what was being held behind. I couldn't help letting out a sharp cry why the needle was finding its way through. It felt like minutes, but was only seconds I guess before it was pulled through. Then followed by a stud being set in there. Without a word, my head was just pulled to the other side. For the procedure to be repeated on the other ear. With being so restrained and the shape pain of it, my body started to sweat, even the palms of my hands as I clinched them tight. Before the ropes were removed they felt around the centre lobe of my nostril. Talking about putting a large ring through there to pull me around by. Like another slave has got. Thankfully that wasn't to be done now. I got told the rings will stay in there for at least two weeks and to turn them each day. Standing now before Master, I had to repeat my plea to be used as his slave. To be treated as he wished to treat me. That I have no rights, I'm now nothing, I own nothing, I'm just a feminized slave. I felt a little nervous and embarrassed repeating these words. Knowing Sir was also listening to me giving myself up as a person. To now be just a bit of Masters property, something to just be used. Yes, a slave. But knew this is all I wanted to be, a submissive controlled sissy-boy. To be dressed as a girl, made work and be punished for my Masters pleasure. After I even felt happy, that Sir was here to witness me say it. With that, Master took a 40m/m wide black leather studded collar placed it around my neck and buckled it closed. Without Master saying a word, I knew this was to ratify my statist as his slave, his property. I looked up to Master with a smile just to show that I'm happy to be his sissy slave. Before getting down to kiss his feet and thank him for making me what I now am. As I got back up, I had to turn to face Sir. Who proceeded to strip me of all I wore, except my new collar. I was disrobed in a very suggestive manner, his hands caressing gently over each item as it was being removed. I would be asked what I was, am I a girl or a boy. I didn't quite know what to say. Because Master has told me I'm not a real boy, as real boys don't want to wear girls clothes. Yet I didn't want to say I'm a girl, as I don't want to be a real girl. After a little prompting, I knew I had to answer. So softly I said, I'm nothing but just a sissy, Sir. With that Master told me to say it out loud, tell us what you are again, he said. "I'm just a sissy, Master," I said loudly and to Sirs amusement. As he took hold of my clit, vice like between two fingers, squeezing and twisting it coursing me to whine and squeal, as he pulled on me. That brought laughter from them both, as Sir said in a mocking way. "Oh, I'm just a little sissy and I don't like having my clity pulled." At the same time Master was over picking out a strap or something I knew was to be used on me. I stood watching as Sir lowered a pulley from above, before having me stand under it. Leather wrist straps connected to the ropes were fastened on my wrists. I looked nervously as it began raising my arms above my head. While this was going back up, Master was now down fastening each ankle to a ring about a half metre apart. My whole body was now at their mercy as I felt the pulling of each arm. My feet were just flat on the floor and that's all. I had very little movement without causing pain. My lowered head was lifted up by Master, as he held a short handle in one hand playing the other end of about 6 or 8 lengths of narrow leather straps of a good half a metre long through his hand. Telling me, I'm about to get just what I deserve and learn to enjoy it, as it will be not be the last time. Again he asked what my safe word was. Satisfied, my head was let drop again, as he went slowly behind me. I felt his warm body now standing right at my back, his hands came around touching me everywhere gently, over my nipples, down caressing my stomach, a finger circled my bellybutton. I could feel his warm breath on my neck, as a hand wondered down to fonder my balls and clit. Which my now had stood firmly before me. My eyes were closed as I savoured the moment of his soft touch. All to soon that gentleness turned into taking and squeeze tightly on each nipple. Causing me to again let out a deep long whine. Releasing his grip, his hands slowly caressed there way back under my touchy up stretched arms. Causing me to try and wiggle away, but was so imprisoned that I was unable to move. Seeing my predicament, Master asked, "did I want to go somewhere." "No Master, I'm just very touchy under there, Master." "Well we'll see if there is anywhere else that you may be touchy," he said. I was left standing there feeling all alone, I turned my head to try and see what my Masters were doing. When I was just told in a demanding tone. "Don't you dare turn that head anywhere, just keep looking down at the floor that you'll be licking clean later, you bit of shit!" Master yelled. I had no option but to obey. Then without any sort of warning the first of many strokes of the `cat' landed firmly across my back. I'll never forget those first few strokes. As I just twisted my body as much as I could, throw my head back crying out, Oh!.... Yes!! Before dropping my head again and closing my eyes, ready for the next painful blow to make its mark. As it did very quickly. Each of the first blows I felt left there mark, ready for the later ones to home in on, as they did. It wasn't long either before my cries of excitement [if you can call it that] soon became moans of agony, as each stroke seemed to cut in over the other. With a short brake, after I don't really no how many lashes. Sir came in front of me, lifting my head to see my watery eyes, but not crying eyes. I could tell as my blurry eyes looked at him, that he was enjoying watching the assault on my sissy-boy body. I was shown a couple of clamps, as he squeezed them open and closed in front of me. Then went to each nipple closing one on each, causing me to moan and body to tremble under there pressure. But he wasn't finished, I watched as he took a long thin leather thong. Pulling down on my ball sac before trying this thong around it then hung a couple of weights to it. As he let it drop, the swinging and weight brought more pain to my ever increasing painful body. looking at me he asked, "how does that feel slag." "They hurt Sir," was all I could painfully say. As he swung on the weights, Master flicked on each nipple clamp. My body was just twitching around uncontrollable not able to go anywhere from this attack. All the time being told to stand still. I couldn't, I said I can't Master. That just caused Master to grab a hand full of my hair, pulling my head back to say. "We thought you would like having your nipples and balls played with. You seem to enjoy playing with them yourself." My head was then pushed forward again, as they laughed over my predicament. Sir remained in front of me watching, as Master restarted his onslaught over my sore burning back. Each stroke now had my head jerking backwards, closing my eyes with each muffled moan. I didn't realize it, till it was to late. I began to wet myself, I felt it run down my leg onto the floor till I was standing in it. Knowing what I'd done and hearing there remarks about, how I would be cleaning it up. Made me start to cry, as I also tried to say I'm sorry I could help it, I didn't even know it was happening. Nothing more was said about it, but I was left standing in it for the remains of my punishment session. I just screamed out as the next lash struck, then another land quickly over the one before. Again I screamed out, as it seemed to land even harder. With me now screaming out, Sir took a blue scarf from a draw, rolled it up from opposite corners, tried a knot in the centre. "Now open your mouth bitch," he said then pushed it in. Handing the ends to Master who tried it firmly behind my head. I was now gagged, any noise from me was surly muffled. Master again asked what my safe word was. I was able to let him know in a muffled tearful voice, that it was `Red Rose'. After a few stinging blows of the `cat' under each armpit, it was put aside. Only to be replaced by the paddle across my backside, between the thighs. My crying and muffled screams continued. As I was feeling its burning reminder of the first time I was punished with this same object. I could also feel my clit was beginning to twitch again. It seemed no time till it was standing proudly before me again. Sir told Master how I must enjoy being punished, as it gives it an erection. With that Master told Sir that it must be a bloody kinky faggot. Because it loved licking my two day old dirty underpants that I'd also slept in. How I also got that turned on, having him work me off with his soiled handkerchief. You see the way it loves to be licking my feet. Now a good whipping and it's standing up again. "Can't wait to see what else will do this to it." He said as they both talked about things they want to do to me. Just hearing them saying those things, was making me jerk in anticipation. I cried out again, as I felt the paddle then leaving its marks under my arms, down my sides. At the same time Sir removed and undid the thong around my ball sac. Which was a painful exercise, but let blood flow freely down there again. Next thing he told me, this is going to hurt a little. Taking hold of each nipple clamp, he just looked at me. Suddenly, squeezed them open and pulled then off. I think that caused greater pain than the flogging I'd just been given from Master. As I just throw my head back crying and screaming out loud the best I could, through my gagged mouth. Twisting and pulling against all my restrains. I could feel my eyes now burning as the tears rolled out down my cheeks. My nose was also running, my face must of looked a real mess. So much for my make up. Yet with it all, I still had a full blown erection. I felt Masters hands come from behind to cup each breast, squeezing in a gentle massaging way. I think to help the blood flow back, as I did feel relief from it. I put my head back, with hope of just touching Master and yes I did. To my surprise, he asked if I was feeling better now. Still being gagged and sobbing, I could only nod to say yes I do, Thank you Master. His hands then proceeded to work there way down caressing my front as they went. I let out a welcoming moan, as I felt his hand encase my hot throbbing clit. With his gentle touch, I felt my clit stand like a rod of hot Iron. "I think you could do with a little relief right now, don't you," he said. Again I could only nod my head as I tried to look at Master to say `Please' "No don't look at me, just keep looking down at the floor," I was told. Looking down I noticed his hand take a firmer grip of my rampant pulsating clit. He then jerked me hard and fast. Trying as I did, I couldn't keep looking down. As the agonizing assault on my throbbing meat was causing my head to go in all directions. I could feel my foreskin going up over its swollen gland head, then being pulled straight back down. It felt like he was trying to rip my skin right off. Moaning, whimpering through my gag with all the pain. I knew I wasn't far from spilling a load from my sissy clit. My body started twitching, jerking back and forth, I was pulling against the restraints, in all causing me more pain as I did so. Then it happened, I tensed up, I jerking violently, my body just seemed to convolutes. I tried the best I could to cry out "UUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMM, FUUCCCKKK I'M GOING TO CUUUUMMMMMMMM!! GOD I'M COOMMMIIINNNGGGGG, " as I began shooting my juice. But I knew it couldn't be heard. At the same time, with the beautiful feelings I was having. All the pain I was enduring seemed to disappear from my thrashed body. I felt like I was in heaven. Not a slave in a dungeon being whipped, as part of its training. Master was behind me, holding me firmly by one hand, as the other remained working my clit. While my sissy juice jettisoned from me, volley after volley it shot forth. I then noticed through my blurry eyes, Sirs hand right there to catch it all, as it came out. Master continued holding me and massaging gently now till the last drop dribbled free. Completely spent I just fell against the restraints. They were all that kept me from falling to the floor. I felt so weak and exhausted now, sweat running from every part of my body. Master undid and removed the soggy gag as more sliver ran from my mouth. I couldn't help it, my mouth was so full, I tried to swallow but couldn't take it all down so quickly. I looked to Master, but he must of known I didn't mean to made a mess. He just held my head as I fell forward. Telling me to now lick up all sissy juice from Sirs hand. Show him how a pansy enjoys its own spillage. Sir put his juice filled hand up towards my mouth. As I leaned forward to lick it all off like my life depended upon it. As each ankle was released and my feet could come together again. I still had no strength to just stand without help. With the lowering now of the pulley, all I could do was flop onto the floor. To finish up lying prostate over my spilt urine. I lay there eyes closed, exhausted. I felt each wrist being released from its bonds that held me up so secure just moments before. Masters hand stroked tenderly over my head as he asked how I was feeling. Seeing me lying here like this, must of been nothing new to Master. I was to find out later, as other submissive's have fallen the same way. "Very sore Master, my legs just feel a little weak at the moment," was all I could say, I just wanted to rest a little. Master turned me over, resting my head against his leg. Softly telling me to open my mouth, as he held a small glass of water to my lips. I sipped slowly on it looking up to Master, I gave him a small weak smile. Somehow I didn't seem to have the strength to speak. Once I'd finished the water my Masters lifted me up and lay me face down on this cold cream coloured vinyl covered table. Seeing all those straps hanging from it earlier. I thought I was in for some more discipline. I let my arms just fall to the sides, waiting for them to be pulled up and restrained into those straps. But no, they were let lie there as Master wiped something over my batted rear. It felt so good as it took some of the burning away, for a short time anyway. I would of been quite happy to just lie there to let my body recover. But Master had other ideas, as I was pulled of the table to stand easily now. His hand went under my chin, lifting my head to face my Master. Showing no concern of how I'm feeling after the whipping I've just received. Instead I was told how this room is filthy and smells of piss. That I have to have everything sparking clean, the floor washed and smelling clean before I'll be allowed out. With that Master just spat in my face, grabbed me my the hair turning me to face Sir. Who I had to ask, if he would like to also spit on me also. Which he took great delight in doing, making me open my mouth as they both then spat into it. I felt so degraded now having them both filling my mouth this way. But it seemed to humour them, as they laughed about it and made a contest of it. Seeing who could get there spit straight into my mouth. As I stood in front of them with my mouth open, waiting. Once they had finished there spitting game with me and Master making a point in saying. How I love having my mouth used for his waste. I knew he was referring to using it as his urinal the other day. I had to put my bra back on, which didn't feel to nice over my still tender titties and back. Now it was stand in front of Master, to have a small chain attached around the base of my clit. Then a weight hung on it, fortunately it wasn't as heavy as during my punishment. "Now slag you can stay like this while you do your cleaning. Don't forget, it's on your hands and knees to wash the floor." I was informed. With that I was sent of to get the cleaning gear I needed, plus take my underwear to my room. Going up stairs I thought how different I felt earlier coming down made up and feeling so very feminine. Not realizing what I was walking so daintily down to be getting. As I was doing my cleaning, it gave me a good chance to look at everything. Thinking of how some of it is to be used. Even just handling some items started to get me excited. Like the black rubber pump up dildo, the different size leather straps. Yes I know I was still sore, but the thought of still being punished with these excited me. That I just had to kiss then saying I hope I can feel you soon. Hanging in the cupboard under the stairs, were two full length black hooded capes. Also a pair of black latex rubber pants. Plus a straight jacket, which looked like it had a lot of use. I was also quite intrigued as I looked at the perspex box in the corner with the toilet seat on it. But in a few days time I was to find out its true purpose. As I went to inspect the cage, I noticed a strong smell of urine and the tray looked a little strange in colour. All I could think of was they must of had someone here last weekend while I was kept drugged in bed. So as well as my own piss to clean up, there is now someone else's also. That made me wonder if it was a sissy like me, or how old it would of been. Was it kept in this cage for very long. At least these thoughts took my mind away from the mess I was cleaning up. It was a very painful experience, being down on hands and knees washing the floor. The pain of my whipped back along with the weight hanging now heavily at the base of my clit pushing down also on my ball sac. No matter what I tried, I couldn't seem to relieve myself from the pressure it was forcing on me. Thereby it seemed to prolong the time it took to wash the floor in a way that would satisfy Master. I was so pleased once I had washed that last corner of floor. I could stand again, stretch my legs, arms, letting the blood flow again the way it should. Yes all looked clean now, even if it smells mainly of disinfectant at least that's better than the smell of stale urine. When Masters came to inspect, they were also satisfied with my effort. Saying I have to keep it clean like this all the time from now on. I wonder who had cleaned it before I arrived, was there another slave that had to do it. These things I'll properly never find out. I had lost track of all time since being in the `training room'. That when I had finished the day had well moved on to early evening. Before being sent to put my underwear back on, plus the pretty pinafore that was waiting for me. Master removed that dreaded weight and chain, which gave me great relief at last. Masters had got their own dinner ready, plus there was some food in my bowl waiting for me. But before I started eating Master informed me, I'm to squat and use my fingers to eat with. This again gave them great amusement as they sat watching the mess I was making of it. I don't know which way is the hardest way to eat, from my bowl like an animal or squatting using ones fingers. I still made a big mess of myself and dog roll still tasted like dog roll, even with mashed up vegies. Before being put to bed for the night, it was down on my knees to thank Master for the punishment I had received. For having him pierce my ears. I also had to thank Sir for helping Master punish me. Then I had to ask him if he would like to bed again. I dreaded that after last nights humiliation of being told constantly that I'm just a baby. Yes I knew he would be keen to do it, as he said with a big grin over his face. The thing is also I've been wanting to use the bathroom, but haven't been allowed so far. So on the way up to my room I asked Sir if I could go clean my teeth. As that was OK. With him, I thought I'd use the toilet at the same time. I went into the bathroom closing the door behind me. OH SHIT!! as I heard Master just yell out at me. "What the FUCK are you doing, you dumb Bitch!!" as the door was just pushed open. Before I had a chance to even turn around. "I'm sorry Master I forgot," was all I could think to say. But knowing I didn't forget, I was just hoping I could get a quick piss in before bed. "You didn't forget. You know you're not allowed to close a door behind you. Why would a slave want privacy?" he asked in a stern voice. Nervously I stood, hanging my head, not knowing what to say. "I asked you a question!!" he again yelled at me, while raising my head high with his two fingers firmly under my chin. I could feel my eyes starting to water up in fear, as I didn't know how to answer. In fear of another whipping so soon, on a body that is still feeling the pain. No longer could I hold back as the tears just rolled from my eyes as I cried. I could only fall to my knees begging Masters forgiveness for the wrong I've done. Begging him not to whip me again so soon, trying to say my body just couldn't take it right now. As I was down licking at his feet grovelling, begging for mercy. I just lost control of my bladder, right there on the bathroom floor I started urinating. The second time today I've humiliated myself this way. That I knew would not help my situation in any way. Still crying, I just collapsed into the wet mess I had made. Feeling humiliated and embarrassed, as Master and Sir just stood over me looking. Then to hear Sir say, I knew it was just a baby, we'll have to keep it that way now. I lay in my cold wet panties, camisole and stockinged legs. My mind was still too engrossed in my degrading exhibition, to think of what punishment I would be getting for this disaster. When Master got down, patted me on the head saying. You better get this cleaned up, now. Then he and Sir left me to it, only to return a short time later with nappy and plastic panties in hand. They both stood and watched as I finished cleaning the floor. As I looked up to Master, he just asked, "Who gave you permission to remove your clothes?" "No body Master, I just thought they were to be cleaned also. I was going to do that once I'd finished the floor." "Well I have other ideas, you wet them, you can now stay in them. So! put your panties and camisole back on," Master ordered. Taking them from the bath, I was about to put on colder and wetter underwear than I'd removed. As I'd mopped up most of the mess with them and just throw into the bath ready for washing. Once I'd put my panties on, Master lay the nappy down ordering me to now lie on it. Yes, I was to wear the wet panties to bed under my nappy and plastic panties. Now I had to take up the cold very wet camisole and put that on also. Master must of read my mind as he said, "no you're not going to bed in it." And no I didn't. A leash was attached to my collar before I was lead down stairs again for what I thought was going to be another whipping. Fortunately it wasn't, I noticed the cage had been pulled out, the door was open. There was a canvas cover on the floor of it. I knew not to say anything, I just looked to Master, then to Sir knowing what this meant. "You want to perform like an animal, well you can now be caged like one also," Master informed me while removing the leash and collar. I asked if I could please keep the collar on. But no, he won't have me sleep in it. Leather straps were attached to each wrist before Master just pushed me down to a kneeling position. I knelt with head bowled, as Master informed me that I'll be spending the night in the cage and to get used to it. As from now on any misbehaviour this is were I'll be kept. I tried to plead the best I could with Master not to put me in there. Saying how I couldn't help what happened in the bathroom. As my bladder was just so full. He didn't want to hear as he told me to just `shut my Fucken sissy mouth'. I knelt in silence not knowing what else I could do. "Kiss your Masters feet scum, then get that pansy body in were it belongs," I got right down kissing at his beautiful feet, staying even longer kissing, licking at them. Hoping in this time Master may relent on caging me. Once my head was pushed away, I knew my time was up. I just lay were I'd been pushed, I didn't want to put myself in that cage. Without warning my Masters just took hold of my body pushing it in, as I cried and screamed out pleading not to do this to me. "Please, please Master No! don't keep me in here." I kept saying as the door was closed behind me, then I heard the padlock click shut. I felt worse than an animal at the Zoo, the way I was, was the way I would have to stay. I was looking through steel bars, I couldn't even kneel up, straighten my legs. On all fours I was and that was how I'd have to stay. Yes I could lie curled up on my side, as I would find out later I could also turn around. But for now I just remained on all fours, tears dripping from my eyes onto the canvas covered floor. Master and Sir stood remarking how at home I looked in here, in its own special training room. It wanted the door closed behind it, now it's crying because the is doors closed behind it. Being so confined I couldn't even look at them, till Master came squatting before me with a chain in hand. "Now give me your wrist," he ordered. Passively, I raised my left arm to him, knowing that chain is about to be attached to my wrist strap. Then the right wrist was wanted for restraining. In the position I was kneeling, my arms now taken from me. Coursed me to then fall to my final resting place for the night. As I lay looking to Master, he pulled at the chains saying. "How safe I was now, that my little hands wouldn't be able to do naughty things. I can just lie and savour the smell of my little accident." As Master stood up, I was shocked. As I was all of a sudden in total darkness, when a large thick cover fell over the whole cage. I panicked, crying and calling for Master. "Please! what are you going to do to me," I kept asking with the fear of something worse to come for my misbehaviour. To add to the pain my body was already suffering. Master realised I was panicking badly, not feeling to secure when he raised the cover to reaffirm nothing is going to happen to me. The cover is just to keep me warm over night. I felt better then, as I thanked him for that. His hand came between the bars and whipped the tears from my eyes, before he stood and again I was back in total darkness. I was OK. this time knowing nothing is to happen. I lay trying to find some way to get comfortable, without adding to the soreness of my back, as I heard my Masters leaving the room. There must of been a bit of light shining as, all of a sudden it got darker, the room light was turned off. Followed by the sound of the door closing. I'm now all alone lying uncomfortably in this cage, wearing only wet and smelly camisole and panties under a nappy. Which I guess by morning will also be very wet. I don't know how, but I seemed to drift of to sleep in no time. Next thing I was waking up, still not knowing what time it was in this darkness. With the cover over my cage it had got rather hot, the smell of urine had become quite strong with the heat build up. Trying the best I could, I was unable to lift that cover to let a little fresh air in. Resolute in the situation I would just have to lie here and wait for Master to release me. I tried the best I could to move around, but my restrains kept control of how I could move. I would lie back thinking of my situation, of my punishment yesterday. Knowing that was just the first of many more and possible worse to come. The hard way Master milked me, so different to the previous times. But I wasn't a proper slave then, god all this thinking is making me hard again. I turned to lie the best I could with my clit under me, trying to rub it with the thoughts of being punished again. Having others seeing me and treating me just as the pansy slave I am. Wearing my pretty underwear, make up and ribbon tied in a big bow in my hear. I got so hard yet I couldn't rub myself I couldn't touch myself either. I started whimpering in frustration, I took my already sore nipples between my forefingers and thumbs squeezing on them. That wasn't much help, it gave me more pain but no sexual relief because of it. I felt at my new ear studs, thinking of lovely ear rings I'd seen and would like to wear. Hoping Master will let me buy ones I like. Then I thought of them saying about a ring through my nose. That frightened me a little, as I've seen punks with them and could never imaging myself to look like that. OK. I'll be wearing a collar but that is different, I'm a slave. All these thoughts I was having at times also drifting off to sleep again. I heard footsteps coming down the stairs, it was my Masters. The cover came off the cage, the heat buildup just disappeared as I was hit with the cold air. But at least the strong smell of urine also drifted out. I could see my bowl on the floor as Master got down to release my wrists and asking. "Did my Pansy have a good comfortable sleep." "I kept waking up sore and uncomfortable, Master," I said kneeling now the best I could. "Well this is what happens to disobedient slaves, So think about it. Now here's your breakfast, feed yourself through the bars," Master told me. They stood and watched me for a while finger feeding myself. Then saying they'll be back soon to let me out. I'd lost all track of time, but it seemed a good half hour before Sir returned and unlocked my cage. With a little effort I found I was able to turn around to crawl out. Not knowing whether I was allowed to stand or not. I just knelt there looking up to Sir. "Kiss my feet Bitch," he said pointing to them. They smelt and tasted clean as I kissed them as I do Masters, which satisfied him. I was then told to get up as he started to walk towards the stair. I just stood and asked Sir if I could have my collar put on me first, please. A blunt "NO! Not yet," Was his answer. I followed uneasily and painfully behind, up the stairs out of the `training room' and finishing at the bathroom. Master had run me a nice warm bath. It looked so inviting, as I was feeling so very dirty, smelly and hoped it would help relieve some of the soreness. It was just so nice to be able to take of these wet smelly clothes I've had to stay in. As I got in the bath the warmth made my body sting. I could feel each of the stroke marks as I lay myself down. Master offered to wash my back for me. That felt just so good, he was very gentle and just the thought of having his caring hands on me, cleaning me as I leaned forward. Once I'd finished my bath cleaning my teeth at last. I had my collar put back on, then sent to get dressed just in my pretty underwear and pinafore. That's how I'd stay for the rest of the day. I noticed on the clock it was now almost 11am. So the rest of my day would be busy doing all I had to get down. After I had got Masters lunch I was sent to put my make up on. As Sir wanted to see me looking pretty before he had to leave. When that time did arrive not to long after. I had to kneel and thank him for helping Master discipline me. Also to apologize for the bad display I put on the night he arrived and promised it would never happen again. Which I know it wouldn't as I'm now quite happy for any of Masters friends to see me as a slave. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - The next chapter will be early New Year. So to all that read this hope you have a Happy Christmas and New Year. Matthew.