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From: "Saul O. Synjin" <Saul@EmanEslaf.intl.Prsa.net>
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Subject: TG: Hypnotized into Tabitha 1/2
Date: Mon, 17 Feb 1997 03:21:57 -0800
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Tabitha (Part 1)


     The add said: understand women. I thought what the Hell,
after my last girlfriend left me, I needed something like this. I
answered it with a phone call. A pleasant feminine voice
reaffirmed my confidence, reassured my fears, and set me up with
an appointment. I went the next Thursday.
     I sat in the outer office for almost an hour, and when I
finally got up to leave, having complained to the secretary (and
in truth having the chance to stare at her for an hour was more
than a privilege), I decided to fuck it all. That's when she slid
back the glass partition and told me the doctor would see me.
     Doctor? I was seeing a doctor? It was the first I'd heard of
it. The add hadn't said anything about it, nor had the door. I
entered and she met me. A brunette with warm honey brown eyes.
Her face was slim and her figure petite, but with two
unmistakably big breasts bulging even through the professionalism
of her suit, which ended in a skirt. She sat on the side of her
desk after shaking my hand and motioning me to a chair. I must
have stared at her long smooth legs for half an hour, because
when she finally started with the treatment, I realized I hadn't
listened to a thing she had said.
     "So, if you really want to understand them, just give the
word, and I think we can help you."
     "Well, I do," I replied, and her smile made me so hard I
almost couldn't bare to sit.
     She looked at me with a strange sort of look, one of
satisfaction I think, and said, "Fine. If you'll just help me, I
think we can help you."
     She gestured to the wall, where two pieces of paneling swung
back and revealed a huge circle. There were spirals of red and
white winding their way like the yellow brick road to the center.
She sat in a chair beside me.
     "Now, first I think we should help you relax. Don't worry,
It'll be over in a second."
     Only now did I notice the hypodermic sitting on the end
table. She picked it up, uncapped it, gave it a hearty squirt,
and I began to eye it and squirm uncontrollably.
     "Is that really necessary?" I asked nervously.
     "Look," she said frankly, "I've done a dozen of these things
and I'll be honest. You are attracted to me."
     I looked away ashamed. She was right. I could think of
nothing more than slithering my tongue up those legs and pushing
my penis deep into her. I wanted to see her close her eyes and
moan, but still for her to know that and admit it to me was
embarrassing.
     "It's okay," she continued, and placed a hand on my leg.
"But it does present a problem. As long as you think of me as a
woman and not as a doctor, I can't help you. You need to relax,
and a man like you seldom does that upon a first meeting with a
woman to whom he is attracted, physician or not. All I want to do
is give you a little something to relax."
     She leaned over before I could refuse and pushed up my
sleeve. Within a second she squeezed my arm and a vein popped up
as if by her command. "It'll be over," the needle stung, "before
you know it." She pulled it out.
     "It's just a sedative, and a mild hypnotic. You won't
actually feel anything but relaxed. I have to do the real work.
Don't worry. We can stop whenever you wish."
     I stared down at my arm, and then back at her. "How long
before I feel it actually working?"
     "It shouldn't take long. But if you are worried or want to
look for some signs, you'll have trouble moving your eyes about.
Meaning you'll suddenly begin to fixate on whatever catches your
eye. In fact, why don't we go ahead and test it, and I'll show
you the difference."
     I said okay, and felt a sudden compelling urge to breathe
deeply. I did so and immediately lost my anxiety. The drug was
already taking effect, and my entire body seemed to go limp.
Everything seemed to become extremely casual. She raised a finger
and held it up to the right of me, instructing me to follow it
with my eyes carefully. I did so, and for a moment she kept it
there, then slowly moved it across my gaze to the left. I watched
it, following it without trouble. And after a few moments of
studying my gaze carefully, she moved it back to the center. I
again followed it without problem.
     "Fine," she said, "it's not working full strength yet. We'll
wait a few moments and try again. In the meantime, why don't you
tell me why it is you want to understand women badly."
     "Well," I said, pausing to let another deep breath take me--
they were getting deeper and harder to stop. "My girlfriend left
me because I didn't understand her. I don't even understand what
she meant by that. Look, I just want to know what women want. Bad
enough to come to you for help. I didn't know you were a doctor.
Hell I didn't even know--"
     I paused, my eyes blinking, staring at her nameplate but not
reading it. It felt like early morning, as if I'd just woken up
and had two dozing eyes. I shook my head, but it did no good; it
was so heavy on my shoulders, and my body was like clay, a
thoughtless, obedient lump. I was breathing terribly deep and
staring mindlessly at her desk. Then I shook my head, blinked
again, this time waking up, and tried to remember just what it
was I'd been saying.
     She looked at me piercingly, and said with a low smooth
voice, so soothing and soft in every way it could have put me to
sleep even without the drug, "Why don't we try again, hmmm?"
     She raised a finger, but I was staring at her tie, and
wondering what her breasts looked like. "Ahem!" she said, and I
switched my attention to her finger. There it was to my right,
and I obeyed her instructions to watch it. Then, it was gone. It
was as if time had suddenly passed me by, because I woke up and
saw her finger had moved to my left. I looked at it, being more
careful to keep my attention. But after a second I drifted and
the next thing I knew it was centered directly before me. I
hadn't seen it move once.
     "Whoa," I sighed, my eyelids growing irresistibly heavy, and
looked her in the eye out of amazement. She smiled, lifted my lid
to analyze my condition and caressed my cheek warmly. She came
ever so close to me, and gave me a small kiss. It was terribly
erotic and lasted forever. Everything moved in slow motion.
     "Good, I think it's taking effect," she said, each word
crisp, enunciated carefully and cleanly.
     She moved behind me, placed her hands on my cheeks, and
gently directed my eyes to the great circle which I now noticed
was spinning slowly, all the spirals leading to the center. I
watched it turn for a second helplessly, and was quickly
entranced with the patterns, leading inward, always inward,
turning, turning, circling, and encircling me, making me feel off
balanced.
     Then her low and quiet voice became soothing and teasing. It
was so soft and enticing I could only listen.
     "Just relax and watch the center," she said, her fingers
massaging little circles into my temples. "See how the red lines
lead you in, in, always in, until you are at the center? The
white lines lead in, too, in, always in, until you are the
center. Listen to my voice, let it soooothe you. Let it take away
all your fears, only my voice, my voice only, so soft and
relaxing. You are relaxing completely, watching the circle spin
around and around, leading you inward, inward, until you are at
the very center, and relaxed. Completely, totally relaxed,
leading inward, inward, softly relaxing you. My voice only,
making your eyes tired, very heavy, very tired. You are
completely relaxed and sleepy."
     My eyelids were so heavy, even my head began to droop but I
still looked at the circle spinning, spinning, listening only to
her voice, making me so sleepy.
     "Watching, listening, sleepy," she whispered close to my
ear. Her lips touched them, and I could feel them move as she
spoke, but her words were gently taking control. "You must sleep,
you must close your eyes, even if only for a second. Only for a
second, let your eyes close. You are at the very center, all the
lines leading towards you, and you are so, so weary, so very,
very weary, so tired you must sleep. Close your eyes, relax, let
them fall, so heavy, your arms, legs, and head so heavy, as if a
dozen lead weights are pulling on them, pulling them down. Watch
the circle making you sooo tired, so sleepy. Even if only for a
second, close your eyes, you must--"
     I closed my eyes, but only for a second.
     "--close your eyes. Good," and her voice began to trail off,
"You will listen to me, and to me only, you will obey, and
remember noth--"



     I awoke, and felt different. I sighed a nice warm sigh,
stretching my arms above me, letting the covers slip away, and
got to my feet. I felt lighter, shorter. Paying it no mind, not
even remembering what had happened the night before or trying to,
I went into the bathroom to urinate.
     Once at the toilet, I stood above it and reached my hand
habitually for my penis, missing it on the first try, and the
second. Sleepily opening one eye, I looked down and reached
again, feeling my bladder begin to ache.
     Nothing.
     I opened both eyes.
     JESUS! IT WAS GONE!
     Wait a minute, wait a minute, I calmed myself, closing my
eyes once more. Something was wrong. Let's just ease in to this.
Your penis doesn't just disappear. It's still there, or you're
still in bed.
      I looked again, this time with both eyes. It was gone. In
it's place a nice patch of pubic hair hung close to my body, but
the real me was gone. I was gone. Then I suddenly realized to
look down there I had to bend over slightly to see over my--over
my--
     breasts.
     I turned to the mirror. There a beautiful blonde woman stood
in a body I lusted for. Her breasts were perfect, with two round
nipples straight and hard. I looked down, spying the same. Yes, I
was excited, of course I was fucking excited. I felt for my penis
once more, finding only hair, and further down a large opening
where my fingers felt the familiar warmth and wetness of a
vagina. A stab of pleasure went through me.
     How long I touched myself, stared at myself, told myself it
wasn't happening I don't know. But the next thing I remembered I
was hiding beneath the covers. Hiding from my own body, my new
body. There was the sound of a doorbell. I didn't answer, but I
heard the whoosh of a door sliding open. It was her voice, still
as soft and luxurious, and I suddenly remembered her giving me
the needle. I poked my head above the covers, having to push a
wave of blond hair out of my eyes. It was an awkward thing to do.
     She was accompanied by two orderlies.
     "I know what a shock this is, believe me. We are here to
help."
     "You Bitch! What have you done to me? Where's my body?"
     "Please, just let us help you. We can help you adjust."
     "I don't want to adjust. I want my body back."
     The two orderlies grabbed me, and in my own body I could
have taken at least one of them, but these arms were weak, and
even when I grunted helplessly, it was a female's complaint that
came out, not a man's. I was no longer a man.
     We went down many corridors, but finally arrived at a door
and I was swept in and placed in a chair, quickly strapped in, my
arms, legs, and head suddenly immobile. He thanked the woman who
had brought me, dismissed the orderlies, and sat down before me.
     "I'm here to help you adjust. Here is what you can expect."
     I shivered in fear, unsure of what to do.
     "After this session and others, you'll feel comfortable for
awhile, then the feelings of being a man will creep back in, but
slowly you will adjust and eventually you will have forgotten
what it was like to be a man, and soon you will want only to be a
woman."
     "Never," I said with gritted teeth.
     He smiled and pulled up my nightshirt, which I only now
realized covered no underwear. My legs were stretched apart by
the chair and I felt something uncomfortable enter me. It pushed
inside of me, and finally stopped. Then he fitted my head with a
metal band.
     "We will stimulate the vagina and the hypothalamus with
pleasurable sensations under a deep drug enforced hypnosis and
let you have wet dreams of men, and of make-up, and shaving your
legs, and everything being a woman entitles. Then we will give
you a nasty shock, and send painful vibrations into your brain at
the same time we instruct you to remember being a man, and
lusting after women."
     "You're not putting me under again, no matter what you do."
     "The drug stays in your system for a minimum of six weeks,
which if you are not adjusted by then, you won't adjust. Within
the week, you'll have snapped and will be a woman from then on.
As long as the drug is in your system, the post suggestive word
she placed should activate you into an abnormally deep sleep, a
very suggestive unconsciousness. Shall we try?"
     "Fuck you."
     "Splabth."
     My eyes closed, I relaxed, and my mind opened.
     "Good, very good. Your name is Tabitha. You are a woman, you
like being a woman. Repeat that please."
     "My name is Tabitha. I am a woman, I like being a woman."
     "Good. You are attracted to men, and men only. You want men
to make love to you. Repeat that please."
     "I am attracted to men, and men only. I want them to make
love to me."
     "You are a woman. Repeat that please."
     "I am a woman."
     "Again, please."
     "I am a woman."
     "Again," he commanded.
     "I am a woman."
     "Again!" he said, more demanding.
     I responded the same. "I am a woman!"
     "With conviction, AGAIN!"
     "I am a woman!"
     He had me repeat it again and again, until finally I was
half believing it and saying, "I am a woman. Yes, I am a woman!"
     It finally stopped.
     "Tabitha," he called.
     I had somehow, though temporarily I'm sure, been convinced
that that was my name. "Yes," I said softly, like a child.
     "I want you to think of a woman. Think of her breasts, think
of her lips, think of her thighs, and her stomach."
     My mind was suddenly filled with the vision of a woman's
anatomy.
     "Think of her brushing against you, whispering in your ear.
Think of her underneath you, and you inside of her."
     I did so, and would have grown erect had I still owned a
penis. But there was a soft humming sound that was increasing,
and I began to feel my head and vagina contract. I began to grow
sick.
     "Picture yourself having sex with her, kissing her, slipping
your tongue deep inside her mouth. Hear her sighing, pleading
with you to make love to her, to go faster and deeper. Feel her
against you, sweaty and moving under your thrusts."
     The sickness grew, until I suddenly found myself in a
seizure. I was contracted in agony, and screaming. Electricity
was pouring into my head and making me shriek.
     "Picture it!"
     I held out for as long as I could and finally yelled, "NO!"
     The pain stopped, the sickness left, the electric jolts
ceased.
     "Picture a man," he said enticingly.
     I did so. Another humming began, but this one vibrated me in
a different way.
     "Feel him biting your neck, his weight on top of you, his
hands squeezing your nipples, his tongue deep inside your mouth,
playing with yours. Hear your sighs, you can't control them. Your
legs about his waist, squeezing, and him moving deep inside you."
     The vibrating between my legs was bringing me to a feverous
pitch. God! It felt good, and the vibrating in my brain
reinforced it beyond reason. I was in perfect pleasure, unable to
think but what he asked of me.
     "Feel him thrusting inside you, pulling out, thrusting,
pulling out. Again, again, again, faster, faster, faster, again,
making you scream with pleasure, making you hold him with
abandon, making you say his name again and again, saying yes, say
it with me, yes, yes, more, yes."
     "Yes," I said because if felt so good. It was rising in me,
this pleasure, leading me somewhere. "More," I said because I
couldn't bare it if it stopped, I needed all he had to give.
     "You need it so bad. YES! Now, you say, now! And he thrusts
deep inside you and you feel him, and dig your nails into his
back, your head on his shoulder, your legs wrapped tight around
his waist, your behind lifting from the bed. NOW!"
     And By God I began to orgasm, and it continued, I pulsed and
twitched inside with feelings I'd never had before, caught up
helplessly in his homemade fantasy, sure I only wanted to feel
more of the man inside me.
     It was at the climax that he played his hand, his final
ploy, hanging close to my ear whispering these words.
     "Tabitha is your name. You are a woman. You only want to be
a woman. Everything that is a woman you are, for now and forever.
You love men. You are friends with women. You like women, but you
make love with men. You listen when they talk, do what they say.
You are easily controlled."
     The climax continued, another orgasm hitting me hard, and I
was totally receptive to his every word.
     "Man is dominant, you are feminine. You like make-up. You
like frilly dresses, and showing off your legs. You like men
feeling you and looking at you. You want only to be pretty. Only
to be woman. Only to be beautiful and feminine. You are helpless
to resist."
     Finally, the waves of pleasure left me and I began to lose
the shudders and became very weak. I breathed, feeling as if I
was floating on a waterbed, warm, weak, floating in a nice
aftermath of ecstasy. I was still deep under hypnosis, and he
removed the headband and the Sensizer from between my legs by
instructing me not to feel it. I didn't. Then he unstrapped me
and brought me slowly out of the trance.
     I opened my eyes. I was exhausted, but as he watched me, I
instantly and instinctively closed my legs, keeping the knees
together in a typically feminine way. This time, when I
stretched, I did it with my wrists out, and feeling my breasts
push delightfully out, and finally stood. He offered a hand, said
he hoped the next session would go well, and when I took his
hand, I held it gently, with a slightly loose wrist.
     The orderlies escorted me back to my room, and I knew I
needed a shower, not knowing the hypnotist had instructed me to
need one. I turned it on, stripped and felt the hot water soothe
away all the sweat. Then, suddenly, while washing, I found my
legs were uncomfortably rough. There was stubble, and I knew I
should shave, but something inside of me refused.
     I exited the shower, found my men's clothes, and tried them
on. They didn't seem right, but I was damned if I was going to
wear women clothes. I was damned if they were going to make me
into a woman. I left the room without any problem and returned
after only a few moments. Unable to help myself, whether by
compulsions or just sheer comfort, I took my shirt off, went
through the drawers of my chifforobe and found a brassiere.
Slipping the straps over my shoulders, I stretched the cups
around to my breasts and hooked the center together. I was
grateful that that was where it fastened. I wasn't sure if I
could handle one that secured in the back. With that done, I
replaced the shirt and went to lunch.
     While eating, my legs stayed together.



     So there I was in a life boat in the body of a beautiful
blonde girl. My shoulders were fragile and bare, my figure petite
but pretty, and my legs smooth and slim. I had beautiful feet,
and there was red polish still on their tips, and my hair flowed
down my shoulders hanging around my neck, tussled but beautiful.
My breasts were light and firm, the nipples still young enough to
point straight instead of sagging, and my face was young, with
thin pink lips, my nose sleekly pointing from there to two
dimples on either side of my small mouth. And my eyes were blue
and transparent.
     I searched for my penis and found it was gone, only finding
a delightful sensation awaiting when my finger inserted itself
between my legs. There my hand moved rhythmically having
obviously done this before and I breathed in pleasure, my breasts
heaving with each sigh. I moaned, and my voice was youthful and
sensual, a thin tone, but not so much small as full and lively. I
began to cry and realized at once that it felt good. My emotions
were irrational and I felt every bit a woman, stronger than I
expected but fragile in a way too by the way I sobbed.
     When I came, I felt such wonderful feelings, totally swept
away in the orgasm, but missing a man's touch. A man putting his
chest against mine, making me long for his kiss and his lips wet
on my forehead, and biting my neck. His tongue touching mine, and
his cock inserted within me, moving, pushing my legs wide until I
had no choice but to wrap them around his waist and give in. To
submit and let him have me in whatever way he wished, to let the
movements of his waist and my hips answering his completely
invade and control me.
     And soon when he was deep inside me, I felt the warmth of
his semen and it felt so wonderful to look into his face and see
the pleasure there, to see how he was at the same time completely
dependent on me and committed to pleasure. I controlled him
completely, and he said to me that he loved me, and lord help me
I believed him; and wanted him to stay with me for the rest of my
life, and be pregnant with his child. God help me I wanted to
bear children for this man. I truly had no ability to obey at
least for the moment. He said whatever he said and I nodded,
kissed him deeply and was his forever.
     The next day, I looked in the mirror, pleased with what I
saw, but missing my male body. I was no longer able to look at
women with lust. Something in me had changed; they had done
something to my mind; and worse made it so I wouldn't mind. I
actually seemed happy that they had changed all of me, including
my personality. I knew I didn't have much time (although if I had
still been male three hours would've been boring), because my
date was coming to pick me up and I had to get ready.
     To the bathroom I went and started to pour myself a bath. I
didn't feel like a shower today; I wanted to pamper myself. (They
had really done a good job on the mental side of me, changed me
completely. I couldn't even remember what it was like to have a
penis, to just jump in the shower, to walk like a giant, or sit
with my legs spread apart. I even tried it, but it seemed wrong,
awkward, completely unfeminine, and I just wanted to be a woman.)
     When the tub was filled, my bath drawn and foamy (I had put
some moisturizing bath cubes in it), I disrobed and soaked for a
while. Then, soaping up my legs and putting on some cream, I took
a razor and shaved them. But I couldn't get it all, so I found a
bottle of Nair, and tried again. This time they were so smooth
and slick I could hardly believe it. They felt good this way.
     When I got out, drying myself, my skin felt very soft, and I
bundled my hair up in a towel. I just folded it up in a cone like
I had seen my girlfriend do a hundred times, like it was second
nature. Then after I was sufficiently dried, I toweled my hair
and combed it out, and put in a little mousse. I then blow dried
it and after that was done I could only wait for it to settle so
I could run a brush through it one last time. In the meantime, I
sat on my bed, still in robe, and found some nail polish. It was
a light pink, and I liked it so much I did my toes with it, too.
I had to be careful not to smudge my fingernails as I painted my
toes, and not to get it on the sheets, and I spent some time
blowing on my nails before I went back into the bathroom to sit
before the mirror.
     Some foundation went on first, rubbing it in with my
fingers, then a little blush just on top of my cheekbones leading
and darkening as I approached my ears. Not too bad, I thought,
for having only been a woman a little over a day. Then I brushed
my eyebrows, but they didn't seem to do right, and I realized I
would have to pluck them. It was not something I wanted to do,
but otherwise they wouldn't look right. It hurt. I didn't realize
how much it hurt just to look good, but I kept wincing with the
pain as I pulled hair out with a pair of tweezers. After it was
done, I used some clear mascara to smooth them down.
     Then I applied a light gold to my eyelids, placing a light
brown in the center leading inward, to make the bridge of my nose
look thinner. I was already beginning to find things I didn't
like, things I would never have noticed as a man. With a darker
brown, I ran a line just above my lashes, then decided on a dark
black mascara. I looked up and tried to make my bottom lashes
look long. Once coated, the top lashes did look long and I curled
them up. I gazed into the mirror and noticed how pretty it made
my eyes. I liked them, and put another light coat on the bottom
lashes to better show them off. Then, with a thin liner, a deep
gold, I ran a line under my eye. The mixture of colors really
brought out the blue in my eyes. 
     After that was done. I ran a lip pencil around my lips,
tracing the exact form I wanted to see, and applied lipstick, it
was pink, like my nails. I tried a beige color first, making them
gloss but it didn't match my nails. I was beginning to think
women were hypersensitive to color, always wanting them to match.
Anyway, the pink looked good, and I figured I'd have to find an
outfit that--an outfit, Shit I hadn't even looked.
     In the closet, I found two things I liked. One was a black
miniskirt which would show off my legs, and I could wear some
dark hose with it, maybe some lacy stockings, and some pumps, but
I didn't like the blouse that went with it, and I couldn't find
anything better. The second was a one piece, a red dress that cut
off right at my upper thighs, and I thought it might show off a
little too much of my legs. How did women get away without
showing their panties to everyone? I could still wear the dark
hose, and use the gold jacket that hung on a hanger. It would be
baggy on me, but it would look so good with the dress.
     I took off the robe, unable to believe I was going to wear a
dress on my second day as a woman, especially as one as tight and
as revealing as this one, and slipped the dress up my legs. It
got tight around the waist, but with some squirming, and the
dress was designed to be tight, I managed to get it up all the
way. I quickly realized I either couldn't wear a bra with it, or
I would have to find a strapless one, because the dress sat low
on my shoulders, leaving most of them bare. I also wouldn't be
able to bend down, or lean over unless I wanted to display my
breasts to the world. I held it up with my hands, and looked into
the mirror. Man, I was hot! If I was a man I would've fallen in
love with myself at first sight. I slipped out of the dress, and
found some hose. Slipping them on without putting holes in them
with my long nails was a challenge, but I quickly soon learned
how to do it. Inserting my thumbs inside, and using the flats of
my fingers I eased them up, slipping them smoothly past my knee
and up my thigh, feeling them slick against my legs, and then
standing I worked them up my waist, feeling my legs so
wonderfully smooth I got excited just feeling them, and they
looked good too. My legs were shiny, and thin, and my panties
would turn on any man. They rode high on my hips, and barely
covered me at all, almost a g-string, but kind of like jockeys
too. Once the hose was up, the doorbell rung. Jesus, he was
early!
     I walked around for a second, not knowing what to do. I
hadn't even looked for shoes yet. Running to the door, I opened
it and saw an incredible man, with a tight sculptured jaw, and
penetrating eyes. He scanned my body (I'd put the robe back on)
and I melted when he gazed into my eyes and smiled. I smiled
back, trying not to blush or to gush and told him I wasn't ready,
and could he please wait. He said, no problem.
     I raced into the bathroom, lost the robe, struggled back
into the dress, and searched for a pair of shoes. The black pumps
were out, but there was a red pair just like them, and closed in
the toe. I didn't want anyone seeing my toenails, if I could help
it. I'd done a shitty job on them with the polish.
     With the heels on, I was helpless to walk except how they
told me to. They made me walk with a twist, shifting my weight
only just enough to keep balanced. It made me move sexily, and at
once I thought I would give him a thrill. Walking back into the
living room, I asked him if he could zip me up, having already
done it partway. No since in giving him a glance at my ass, not
yet anyway, then just as he was doing it (feeling his hands cold
on my skin, I shivered slightly, he apologized with a deep voice
that made me quiver inside and shiver all over again), I suddenly
realized I hadn't put on a bra. Oh God! Would he notice? Of
course he was going to notice. I would've if I was him. Oh well,
he zipped me up without mentioning it, and when I turned around,
he told me I looked great. I thanked him and gave him a kiss on
the cheek, completely by instinct. I never would've done it had I
thought about it, but it felt natural, and he seemed to like it.
     I got my jacket, put it on, picked up my purse, which I
seemed to know the location of at all times, and looped it around
my arm. I knew there were some cosmetics in it, and I could only
hope they would do for the night.
     I put on two gold ear rings that dangled loosely and would
lure people's gazes down to my neck. And there, I looped a small
red and black heart on a tiny gold chain. Then, taking one last
moment in the bathroom, I put a little dab of lip gloss in the
center of my bottom lip. If that didn't turn him on nothing
would. I wanted to turn him on, and it felt right. I checked my
hair one last time, smoothed the tight dress down around my hips,
and reentered.
     Back beside him, I said I was ready, still marveling at the
way he was looking at me, and the way the pumps were making me
walk. Then, he placed his hand on the small of my back and
ushered me through the door.
     Less than four hours later, I was helplessly seduced by him.
He had me however he wanted me. I was still very much under the
influence of the conditioning they had put me through. Whenever a
man spoke, I listened. I was submissive to his wants, following
his lead everywhere. And when he kissed me, I wasn't the
aggressor like I was afraid I might be, but the prey. They had
mind controlled me into being what they thought a woman should
be. I was now that woman. Pretty, clever, sexy, but completely
dominated by a strong male. I couldn't break out of it, every
time I tried I felt strangely uncomfortable. So awkward that I
could only do something helplessly feminine, like cross my legs.
     But when he opened my legs, felt my smooth thighs, breathed
on my neck and pushed himself deep inside me, I groaned, grunted,
and panted like a helpless little girl. I cried 'yes' and 'more'
and tried to give him what he wanted.
     That's how they had forced me to be, and even forced me to
want to be that way. Oh, god, I was a woman, and this guy was
completely dominating me, and I liked it.


Tabitha (Part 2)

     The next day I was disgusted with myself. Fortunately my
date had left before I awoke, because I would've kicked the
fucker out. I hated myself for being seduced and even for wearing
a dress.
     I decided to go out for a jog. When I was a man that had
always seemed to help. I looked around for something to wear, and
found some tights that would've looked great on me, but dammit
they would also make me look like a woman. I knew I was but I
didn't want to be. I wanted my old body back.
     So, I settled for some rather loose shorts and a T-shirt,
wanting to forego the bra but knowing it would be uncomfortable.
With my hair tied back--I didn't even want to touch myself--I
stepped into the hall and started to run.
     Two hours later I was back at my door breathless and
heaving. I was sitting in the hall trying to recover when some
guy came up. He was kind of cute, and I noticed that he was shy,
and this made me think him even cuter. Yet, I knew also it was
the conditioning they had put me through.
     He asked me out. Jesus, what was I supposed to say to that?
I remembered full well what it was like to get up all that
courage only to be dumped on by some bitch that thinks she's too
good for you. I tried to explain that it wouldn't be a good idea,
but he got this expression on his face. He knew was being
rejected so I finally I told him yes and to come by later. He
asked when and I told him anytime just to make it spontaneous and
we could talk or do something. He suggested jogging the next
morning, and hinted that he might like to drop by tonight. I
smiled, and said that founded fine.
     When I stepped back in my apartment, they were waiting: the
woman and two orderlies. My heart sank. I suddenly wanted to run,
but I didn't have a chance or the energy.
     "Do we have to drag you this time as well?" she asked.
     "No, but can I shower first?"
     "You'll need a shower afterwards."
     I was filled with dread. I had no memory of what had
happened last time, but I knew that it had upset me. And when I
came back I always seemed to lose contact with myself. I was a
man when I left but a woman when I returned.
     They escorted me to the doctor.
     "Hello. Any problems we should know about?"
     "Well, I don't like getting fucked by a guy just because I'm
a woman. I mean if you're going to do this to me, how about at
least leaving me some dignity?"
     "Your date last night was arranged so that you would get a
taste of being a woman. We couldn't very well have you just
sitting alone and not experiencing any of it. The change would
take longer that way."
     "Why do you want to do this to me anyway?"
     "It was your decision."
     I started to object.
     "Now please just sit down in the chair."
     I did so but this time no one strapped me in. Maybe, I would
get a chance. Maybe I could fight it this time. He looked at me
oddly and said: "Splabth."
     I suddenly went to sleep.
     When I awoke I felt the change as before. My masculinity had
been robbed, whisked away to some other place, and I didn't mind
it. Even after being disgusted at myself this morning, there were
certain things that hadn't changed. Like the compulsion to keep
my legs closed, and to wear a bra, and other things, such as the
way I walked, they had all become involuntary things, and that
was after just one treatment. What was going to happen after this
one?
     The odd thing was I didn't notice any lasting change, not
like suddenly needing to keep my legs closed, but something
inside me was stirring.



     I opened the door. He stood there looking cute and shy and I
let him in. He gave me a rose, which I thanked him for saying it
was sweet, and had to resist an urge to kiss him. He asked me if
there was anything special I'd like to do and I couldn't think of
a thing so he gathered me up and forced me out the door.
     I was going to object, but I liked his sudden domination;
their mind control was doing it again. Though, he kept looking at
me to make sure I wasn't going to bat him over the head and
leave.
     There was a small party going on, which I'd never been a fan
of, and some people were dancing. I'd never liked dancing. I
always thought I'd look foolish doing it. But he grabbed my hand
and suddenly we were there, and I discovered I actually did like
moving to the music. Teasing him with my body and appreciating
his glares afterwards.
     When the evening was over, we were at my door, and I had a
sudden compulsion to let him in. He kissed me. My toes wanted to
curl up it felt so great.
     I think that's when it happened. I just couldn't help
leaning on the door afterward and hearing him leave. I was in
love. I couldn't wait to go jogging with him, and I thought I
might wear those skin-tight aerobic tights after all. Maybe
afterward when we were all sweaty he would seduce me.
     The next morning my masculinity returned, though less of it
than usual, but I didn't feel disgusted. I was still thinking of
last night's date. But I was worried if he came around to jog
before the treatment he would notice the difference. I found
myself praying they would come first. When they did, they
marveled at the change; I almost ran to the treatment center.
     When I got back, my head and inner thighs were sore, as they
usually were. I had a sudden thought that would never have come
had I not gone to treatment so willingly. I was wondering what it
would be like to be pregnant.
     The doctor had said that any day now I would have the final
struggle and then the treatments could stop. I didn't know what
he meant. But it happened after jogging.
     I was sitting alone when the thought occurred to me that my
name really wasn't Tabitha. I knew that, and spurts of memory
came back to me, as if they had been cooped up too long. I
suddenly remembered exactly how it felt to walk with a penis, and
to woo women, all the things being a man entitled. The doctor
said if I wanted to make it easier on myself to look at my
reflection in a mirror as it happened. I did so, not realizing
that it would make the struggle easier all right. It was a
constant visual reminder of my new body. I was no longer a man;
why not accept it? But all those memories were there. I
remembered everything, and dammit I was a man. I loved women, but
I didn't. That was the conditioning; I felt sure I could beat it
if I kept at it. Dammit! I did want my old body back.
     Something uncomfortable happened between my legs, and
something slipped in my mind as I saw. I was bleeding. I wasn't a
man. I thought about him again and about how tonight wouldn't be
a good night to sleep with him for the first time. He would just
have to wait.
     It slipped further in my mind when I found some tampons and
put one up me. The confusion was full blown. I was suddenly
reeling trying to decide whether I was a man or a woman. Then
suddenly it stopped. I looked at the mirror, still fighting the
compulsion to wear makeup, and said to myself: "What do you
want?"
     The mirror didn't answer which only brought out more
confusion and it was so painful I just wanted it over. Like being
a schizophrenic and fighting yourself for your own mind.
     I thought of myself in the old way. Penetrating women.
     I thought of how good I looked in that tight red dress.
     To be the aggressive one, with the option to dominate.
     To sit back and let him have me, obeying my body's desire.
     To risk such rejection for a chance at romance.
     To wear makeup, and polish, to move and sway, to twist in
heels, to feel the smooth coolness of pantyhose, to bleed, to
have the ability to give birth. To walk around being looked at,
sought after, thought of in wet dreams. I had a new chance for a
new life with a wonderful guy I was in love with, even though I'd
just met him. I wanted him.
     Finally, I looked up and said. "I give up."
     Something in my brain just clicked as if locking itself in
position. I was now a woman. Or rather a woman with a period.




     He and I continued to date and within that week he made his
first move. I was surprised because he seemed so shy, but I'd
been giving him pretty strong signals that I liked him. I
couldn't help it. He was very nice, considerate, he listened, and
he was funny. Besides, my admiration of him had grown. He was
cute before, but the more I got to know him the more I liked him,
and soon I found I was thinking he was downright gorgeous.
     We sitting on the couch in my place watching some movie he
wanted to see. Some beat'em up, slash'em up, and strangely enough
I didn't like it. I'd always loved them before, but this time I
kept watching him. He'd move with the hero, and punch and dodge.
He was so adorable I just couldn't help it.
     When the movie was over, he told me how much he liked me,
and I told him I liked him, too. I got some wine to celebrate,
figuring that we were finally making some progress. He was
finally starting to talk to me, to open up and tell me about
himself. For the longest time I had to avoid his questions about
me. What was I going to tell him? I used to be a man?
     Then he reached over and took my glass and set it down on
the table. I just looked him not knowing what to expect, then he
scooted closer to me and put his hand on my cheek. I smiled and
put my hand on top of his, then took it away from my cheek and
kissed it gently on the knuckles. When I looked up at him he was
completely entranced with me, and somehow I knew he was in love
with me. I had this feeling as if I had somehow snared him,
somehow caught him in my web, and the power felt good. But I was
caught, too, and didn't want to abuse my power over him. I
couldn't hurt him for the world.
     He moved close to me, his breath touching my lips, and we
lost eye contact as he rubbed his nose on my cheek. Then he gave
me a small kiss, barely noticeable, just a nip, but it turned
into another nip, and finally an embrace, and then I was being
pressed back. I leaned back with him on top of me and he started
kissing me softly around the neck. Taking a nibble here, a lick
there, I knew how he wanted it to end, but I was feeling the
familiar sensation of my period. He would have to wait. It was
his final test.
     When he kissed me again, our lips were pulling each other,
our mouths becoming hungry, and I could hear his breathing
growing heavy. I should've stopped it right there, but it felt so
goood. He felt my back with his hands, running his fingers up my
shirt and gripping my shoulders. The other hand found its way
down the back of my shorts and they were slipping down. I was
almost on my back, leaning against the arm rest, and I suddenly
heard his breath near my ear. It was loud, but I couldn't stop
him. He had started nibbling on my lobe and I started to giggle,
but before I could, he licked just behind my ear. I gasped his
name, took a sharp inhale, and he must've knew what it was doing
to me, because suddenly he was kissing me there, biting me on the
upper neck, and licking that place again. I hadn't even known it
existed, but he had found it in a second. And once he had me
totally swept up, feeling as if I couldn't stop it, he knew it
and began to inch his way around my body.
     His hands began to work their way up the front of my shirt,
but hesitantly, ready for the slightest word from me. I let him,
bearing mind that he just couldn't go into my pants.
     Suddenly, my shirt was lifted up. He was licking my stomach.
Working his way up with his tongue, kissing me around the naval
and testing my response. Nibbling his way to the bra I was
wearing and finally stopping. I was just about to say something,
to tell him that this would have to do, when he kissed me hard on
the mouth, his hands falling around to my back again. He hugged
me hard and I felt his head cock to the side. He was giving me a
cue. I opened my mouth, and his tongue dived in. We tasted each
other, his tongue and mine licking and sucking.
     I felt the release as soon as it happened. There was
suddenly less pressure on my breasts, and his hands slipped
quickly around to the cups and pushed them up. He was still
kissing me deeply only this time our tongues were in his mouth
and we were playing again. I simply couldn't stop him, and
finally his mouth left mine and there was a second in which I
could speak.
     I opened my mouth, said his name, and suddenly felt his
tongue rounding my breasts. He was licking me slowly, kissing me
as his tongue spiraled around my left breast to the nipple. I was
beginning to breathe heavily again, and he slowly, painfully slow
made his way to the tip. Once there he sucked, nibbled gently,
prodded my nipple with his tongue, kissed me, told me how
beautiful they were.
     His hand went down the front of my shorts. I almost
panicked, but gently and quickly, I pushed him away, taking his
hand in mine, stopping its search for that final button that
would make me his.
     I told him not yet. He said when, and I said soon, but we
had to wait. At first he seemed a little angry, and I was
beginning to feel disappointed. He was failing my test, but then
he explained that we should've talked about it before he tried,
and he apologized. I told him there was nothing to apologize for.
But he kissed me lightly on the lips, said he had just gotten
peeved because he had gotten so turned on, and said also that he
wait. Wait until the time was right, and until I was ready.
     When he left I gave him a hot kiss to keep him warm, and
thinking of me.
     The next day my period was gone. On the one hand I jumped
for joy, on the other I was worrying. I didn't remember having
sex with the other man. It was planned and that was another
person, one who didn't want to be a woman. At least I didn't have
to go to treatments anymore.
     He came to my door bright and early, and I was still in my
sleep wear. He didn't seem to mind. All I had was a pair of
panties on with a long over shirt. My hair was tussled I wasn't
wearing any make-up but when he came through the door he swung me
around in his arms and kissed me.
     I told him not to look at me because I hadn't even dressed.
He lifted my shirt and put his hands around me on my bare back,
noticing that I was bra-less, and pressed extra close, feeling my
loose breasts against his chest.
     He told me not to worry about it because we were going
swimming. I said great and hurried to the bathroom.
     I suddenly wondered if I had any swimming suits. I did, but
just one. It was pretty skimpy. Just a two piece bikini and it
was small. The bottoms were just an elastic band with a thin
piece of silky looking cloth on the bottom. I slipped out of my
panties and into them. They exposed my entire leg up to my hips.
On the side there was just the elastic strap to contend with. In
the front they went down in a V into a thin line that went under
my legs. It just barely covered my crotch.
     I turned around and noticed that the rear did the same,
covering about a third of my cheeks on each side. I took my shirt
off and raised the top to look at it. Then slipping my arms into
the loops I put it around me from behind and hooked it together
in front. The tops of my breasts were truly exposed, and the
bottoms hung out a little bit, and the insides of them were bare.
The only thing it really hid was my nipples, and even then the
material was so thin you could see them poking out.
     I brushed my hair, found a beach towel, applied some
waterproof mascara, and put the over shirt back on. Then we left
and went to a pool.
     When I took my shirt off I thought he was going to die. At
first he just looked at my breasts. Just stood there gawking,
then his gaze fell to my waist and I could tell he was just
amazed. I was pleased and went to the pool and dove in.
     When I came up to the side there was a tall guy looking down
at me. He offered a hand and I took it so he could pull me up. He
sat down beside me and started talking about how he hadn't seen
me around before. I looked back for my guy and saw him just
sitting and getting angry. At me or the guy I didn't know, so I
excused myself real quick like, told the man that I was with
someone and he gave me some answer like if he wasn't enough,
blah, blah. I gave him a look that said just get lost will you.
     Back at my guy I straddled his legs and looked him earnest
in the face and said, "I'm not here with him. I'm here with you."
He seemed to like it, so I gave him a long kiss just to settle
the argument and to let everyone know that I was taken.
     The pool was great. Men were constantly eyeing me, and I
dived in often just to let them watch. Then I laid out in the sun
and asked him to put some lotion on my back. He massaged me and I
was so loose and relaxed I almost fell asleep.
     When he told me I was starting to burn we left. Back at my
place I lifted off my shirt, having dried completely and turned
to meet him. I kissed him hard and at first he backed away, not
sure of what to do, but I pressed in and he dropped everything,
took me in his arms, laid me out on the carpet and quickly
removed every stitch of my bathing suit.
     He was breathing on me, fondling me, and when his hand
slipped between my legs, I was his. When he stuck a finger up me
I was breathing so hard and needing a kiss from him so bad I felt
weak. I would've done anything he asked just so he wouldn't stop.
     He took his trunks off and was moving around me. I reached
down and took him in my hands, cupping his testicles softly with
one hand and caressing the stiff shaft with the other. I knew how
sensitive it was, so I made sure my nails didn't touch him, just
my fingers, and they found the underside of it and rubbed
slightly. I made a circle with my fingers and slowly moved it
over his head and up and down. I did it quickly just by his head,
in short movements. The irritation turned into excitation, and
finally he said he needed me. I let him kneel between my legs and
opened them wide, leaning back so he could get a good angle. I
wrapped my thighs around his waist and he slowly moved his prick
around my vagina, opening it and touching the clitoris. Then his
head found my hole and he slowly pushed part way in. He pulled
out and pushed in, this time going a little farther, and soon he
was all the way in and moving around inside.
     He pumped me slowly for awhile and when I opened my eyes and
asked him to rest for a bit, he moved it around inside me,
kissing me all over. Then I looked him in the eyes and began to
breathe heavy again, kissing him with a fever so he would begin
thrusting inside me again.
     He would start so slow each time and after each rest he got
a little faster. Finally I couldn't wait any longer. I looked at
him, he was slowing thinking I needed another rest, but I planted
my hands on his rear and pushed, biting his neck and licking him.
He got the hint and began to move so fast I couldn't stand it.
His eyes were closed and I knew he was trying to hold it but it
was hard.
     I gasped, then grunted, then I groaned a little and grabbed
his head and yelled, "Now, Jesus, now!"
     He gave me all he had and I lost it completely. He came
inside of me. It was wonderful. I was his woman. He was my man.
     It was then that his sperm made his way deep inside of me,
and while he was kissing me, thanking me, telling me how much he
loved me, and how great I was, I was losing the final touch of
manhood.
     We slept.