Date: Sun, 26 Sep 2010 00:50:41 -0700 (PDT)
From: Julian Irwin <julian.nz69@gmail.com>
Subject: A Dream comes True chapter 12 transgender teen

I knew what I had to do, my clit was still throbbing begging attention. My
right hand lightly stroked its way down over my beautiful satin nightdress,
coming to rest at the base of my swollen appendage. I let the hand lovingly
fondling its length through the safety of the nighty, before retreating
again, while I still had full control of myself.

Taking the blue satin scarf in my hand, I began caressing over my whole
upper body. Lovingly up over my face, I just had to stop there, as I
relished the sweet feminine bouquet radiating from within its fibres. My
mind went wild with all these wonderful girly thoughts. Inducing more
twitching from my already pulsating sissy clit. Back down to my now erect
left then right nipple, holding the scarf there while I used both hands to
tweak gently on each. God, the sensation is so incredible. I lay deep in
thought, not wanting to go to fast, so soon.

Retrieving the red patterned satin scarf from under Cuddles. I proceeded to
place it over my head in much the same way I'd seen in Denise's
photos. After a couple of tries I succeeded. Turning the light right off, I
sat placing both hands to my face. Again I had the beautiful aroma of
feminine perfume infusing my nostrils, what more could a sissy like me
yearn for.

Lying back resting my head comfortable on the pillow, letting my hands
wander up all over my shrouded head. This is just so intoxicating, the
warmth of my breath, along with the perfume from the scarf had me in
seventh heaven. I know now why Denise is so into using her satin scarfs in
such mind-blowing wantoned ways. How I wish she was with me right now,
caressing, kissing, feeling the others satin encased head resting together,
talking sweet things. Yes, I know we wouldn't be able to suck each others
quavering clitties, but we could still enjoy them.

Still gently fondling my face with the left hand, while the right took up
the other scarf. In slow motion I continued caressing my sexually aroused
body. Over my nighty, down under to thrill one stiff weeping
clit. Fingering the droplet off, I wiped it onto my full aching basket
beneath. With satin scarf back in hand, I lightly began its upward
expedition under my nighty. Caressing each of my thighs tenderly, up over
my stomach, to each sensitive side, under my hairless pits, before going
back to send shivers through extremely alive nipples. All the time I
continued fondling my satin enshroud face. With the inevitable build up of
sexual tension in my whole body, along with my resolve to hold off as long
as possible. I lay the scarf over my nighty right at my enthused
breast. Caressing one more time over satin covered face, before letting my
hands come to rest over ones sumptuous nighty.

I couldn't help but softly run my hands over the adorable fabrics of my
nighty with the equally adorable scarf. At the same time closing my eyes,
letting my mind wander back to when all this began. The many sissy dreams I
used to have. Meeting Mummy, even letting her strip and bath me right from
the first day. Having her dress me as a girl for the first time, the
gorgeous silky underwear, my very first girls training bra, even to wearing
makeup. Meeting my dear sweet sissy friend Ashley/Annabel, that day I could
never forget. God, how I wanted to be him right there and then. Dressed in
the most Sassiest of sissy clothes, she is so adorable. Then to meet Denise
my sissy sister, who I also love so very much. Then today, to be stripped
to just my pretty underwear by a strange woman in this shop. The trill of
having her dress me in such exquisite gowns. A lady who excepted me for
what I am, to hear her telling me what a sweet young girl I am.

It's not even a week yet since I moved in with Mummy and Denise. Yet I'm
feeling more of a girl now than I ever thought I would and loving it. My
early thoughts of being just a Cross Dresser have long vanished. Yes I know
the closest I'll ever get to being just all male again, will be dressed as
a Sissy Boy. As I was the other day for my Doctors visit. Once my breast
develop and after ones vocal chords are operated on, I guess I'll be more
the Girl of my dreams.

Putting a hand up to caress my satin covered face again, I brushed against
Cuddles. Oh yes how could I ever forget the immense pleasure I got when
Mummy said I could pick up Chrissy the doll. The enormous excitement of
being able to express my real sissy side by cuddling and kissing a doll, a
real girls doll, on my first visit. I know I had Prince, my teddy, who is
now my Princess. But could only enjoy him in the privacy of my bedroom. But
a real adorable doll with long wavy hair, wearing her full length beautiful
gown is something else. I took Cuddles and Princess into my hands, letting
them feel my satin encased face, it felt so good, to me anyway.

Noticing the turmoil building up between my thighs, I knew it's time to put
Cuddles and Princess to one side. By now I could even smell my own sexy,
musky breath as it was trapped under the satin scarf. Taking the scarf
resting over my nighty at my breast. I ever so slowly fondled it over and
down every part of my shimmering body. I could feel the pounding of my
heart, I couldn't hear it because of my soft whimpering, as I touched
enthusiastically around my aroused crotch. Lightly feathering the scarf
around my hot pulsating clittie. Realizing it's been the best part of a
week since I've been allowed to put my hand around my own throbbing
appendage. Something I used to take for granted at least twice a day
before. But I didn't have Mummy or Denise to take good care of it for me
then.

Resting the luxurious satin fabric across my upper thigh. Hesitantly I then
encircled my twitching stiff clit, it felt amazing. Or was it just those
days of a abstinence that gave me this feeling. Never mind, my fingers
gently slid up and down the length a few times, pulling my lovely skin
back, exposing the blood filled gland head to the cool air. I could feel
the sissy lube seeping from my slit onto my fingertips, again I just had to
wipe it over my little basket below.

After caressing around my cherry basket and beyond, I took the satin scarf
lightly back in hand. Oh yes!! This is a thousand times better, as I again
veiled my ridge clit, fondling over my whole genital region. The cool
glossy texture sent shivers through my whole energized body. I could hear
myself giving soft whimpers of unadulterated pleasure. Knowing I couldn't
hold off much longer as my lower body began to vibrate. My left hand worked
the nighty up high out off harms way, before going to caress passionately
over one satin enshroud face. As I began to stroke over my lips, I thought
of Denise, it's her mouth the other side of this sensuous scarf. In wild
fit of passion I began kissing on it, moaning softly, whispering Denise's
name.

Meanwhile the satin scarf in my right hand flittered lustfully, as I worked
at an increasing pace towards the momentous discharge. Just in time I
dropped the scarf to safety between my legs, but still able to feel its
silky touch between my thighs. Deep moans, whimpers, little sissy squeals
all parted my lips, as I sensed the rapid flow of sissy juice along my
almost six inch shaft. Quivering, trembling, finally jerking
uncontrollably, but unaware of my screams of ecstasy. Suddenly squirting
many hot splashes of sissy sperm, which make their presence felt along my
tensed naked body, from my chest downwards. I was unaware of anything else,
other than this erotic spine tingling experience, of my face being veiled
completely under this sumptuous satin scarf.

I kept hold of my shrinking Sissy clit till the very last drop has been
given up. After which I savoured in the pleasure of caressing my fingertips
from my now empty cherry sac, my deflating clit, working up over my stomach
towards my breast. Spreading sissy sperm as I went, making sure each breast
and its still erect nipple got well coated.

I lay exhausted, my eyes closed, breathing deeply. My left hand still
savouring my satin enclosed face. While the right continued fondling each
breast and nipple with its now sticky deposits. Fortunately I'd placed the
small towel under my pillow. Once I'd wiped clean my hand and body, I just
lay there, eyes closed deep in thought. Thinking how much I want to
experience this all again, only next time with Denise. Both our faces
shrouded in satin scarfs rejoicing in such unadulterated pleasure.

Retrieving the scarf from between my legs, lowering ones nighty to a more
dignified state before raising the duvet to its rightful place. Not wanting
to relinquish the beautiful satin that confined my face. I just lay there
caressing over it, using the other scarf as well. Turning sideways towards
my teddies wanting to cuddle each. The thought went through my head. Is it
wise to try and sleep in such away, wisely I guess, I decided it
isn't. After one final caress of my satin covered face, I undid the knot,
slid the scarf free, to let the cool night air embrace my face. I took both
scarfs in hand holding them lovingly, kissing them sweetly, before cradling
them protectively to my breast. Like a contented child, I now closed my
eyes. In no time I seemed to drifted off into a tranquil nights sleep.

Wake up sleepyhead I heard, at the same time the hand of a heartless sister
began shaking me from behind. Still half a sleep, I turned to face a
smiling Denise sitting there looking so radiant. "What time is it?" I asked
as I tried to sit up. Then realized I still had the lovely scarfs in my
hands. Seems I hadn't stirred all night, I was still facing my teddies, the
scarfs still cradled in my arms. I gave Denise a sheepishly shy grin,
wondering what she'd be thinking.

To take her mind away from what she could see, I said. "You look beautiful,
where are you going?"  "I'm going to work, remember of a Thursday and
Friday I go to the school, where I'll see you this afternoon. Also I think
some new students were going to start last Monday. So guess whose looking
forward to checking them out? No they aren't girls like us either." then
she bent over to give me my good morning kiss.  "Are they real girls?" I
asked a little disappointed, as I was not to keen on being with real girls
if I still have to go there, as Mummy wants me to.  "It's just gone eight
o'clock. Now did you have a good night?" as a hand came to stroke over the
satin scarfs I tried to hide.  "I'm not saying unless you answer my
question, are they real girls." I again asked.  "OK no they aren't real
girls, just gay boys." she said like it's no big deal.  All of a sudden my
eyes opened up, any thought of wanting more sleep has quickly vanished.  "I
didn't know gay boys went there also. You didn't say earlier and Annabel
hasn't mentioned any boys to me."  "That is because she didn't no, nether
did I, it's all new. I'll explain tonight once I find the reason. Is that
OK? Now did you have a good night, I want to know."

Blushing while nodding my head at the same time, before looking up to
her. In a quiet voice "I covered my face with a scarf like you did in those
photos. It's a really sexy erotic sensation you get wearing the satin scarf
over my face like that, isn't it?" I found myself caressing the scarfs
upwards to touch over the cheek facing Denise. I couldn't help kissing them
at the same time. "I....... I was wondering if we can do it together one
night. You know, when Mummy lets you sleep with me?" I asked with a big
smile.  "Oh Jessica you are so gorgeous." as her hands came to take hold of
me for a lovely embrace.  "You really loved having your head covered like
that also, did you. I'm sure we'll be able to be together wearing our
beautiful scarfs. I'm so pleased you appreciated it as much as I do. What
say we talk more about it tonight. Because I must get going now or I'll get
stuck in the slow traffic. Plus I hope to have some checking out to do."
With that I got another lovely kiss. "Aunty will be in soon, so no
playing." she said smiling while walking towards the door.

I was still lying there savouring the afterglow of Denise's kiss when the
door opened. I hadn't even had time to cuddle or kiss my teddies. When the
order came, "Time all girls were out of bed." Next off came the duvet,
leaving me exposed to the world in my nighty cuddling two beautiful satin
scarfs. To add further embarrassment to the situation, down below I'd
sprung a lovely stiff clitty.  "Oh what have we here. Didn't Jessica enjoy
herself enough last night?"  "Yes I really did, but I couldn't help this
happening again right now. I'm sorry Mummy." as I tried to cover it with
the scarfs.  "I know you can't help these things happening sweetheart."
without saying anything else, she bend over giving me a kiss while stroking
lovingly over my hair. "Come now and have a nice shower. I'm sure you need
one."

With my morning ablutions over, I was allowed to massage the hormone cream
into my breast. Under Mummy's guidance, I went to work kneading each
breast, exhibiting great care as I went. I swear after each days massage
and use of the pumps, those little nipples are getting more
pronounced. Experiencing this emotional phenomenon under my own hands. How
could any sissy like myself, not develop a taut clitty under her panties.
"That's enough now, you hold the cups while I work the pump." Mummy said
with a wide smile. Yes she well knew what effect the self manipulating was
having on me.

"Would you like to do your own makeup this morning darling, while I have my
shower?"  With great fervour I went to work. Wanting to look stunningly
perfect for when Mummy returns. I had just finished brushing out my hair,
as the door to the en suite slid open. I stood ready to smile, delighted
with my look. Only I stood open mouthed, seeing Mummy emerge wrapped only
in a white fluffy bath towel, which didn't leave much to anyone's
imagination.  "Give me a good look at you darling." she said with no
concern to her almost nakedness. "My, you are becoming quite a little
expert with your makeup, aren't you." as she ran an approving eye over my
face and hair.

Mummy sat to let me blow dry, brush and comb out her hair. I know I take
longer than I should, but it's so soft and silky, my fingers love the
texture as the hair glided over them.  "I think that'll do for now. Would
you like to get me a dressing gown from the wardrobe, sweetheart?"  Looking
in, I didn't know which one she'd want so asked, "Is there any particular
one you would like?"  "You chose one for me sweetness."

So I did, the beautiful silk full length ivory dressing gown. Placing the
other back in the wardrobe, I held it lovingly against my body, as I slowly
sashayed the few steps towards Mummy. Facing away from me, I noticed she
had removed the towel from around her body. Standing there almost naked,
yes she was wearing a pair of pale gold satin panties over a matching
suspender, the stockings not yet attached.  "Put the gown on the bed for
now, be a darling and fastening the little hooks for me."  The soft bra was
sitting loosely over her lovely shoulders. With the hooks fastened , I
again was to see each breast sat comfortable in its cup.

To follow, Mummy sat on the ottoman, then proceeded to don her fine light
tan nylon stockings. Once the left leg was encased Mummy stood asking,
"Would you be a dear and fasten them for me." Oh yes how I'd love too, I
thought to myself. Kneeling to her side I nervously went about the business
of attaching stocking top to the two fasteners. With my face so very close
to her thigh I couldn't hold myself back from offering it a soft
kiss. Somehow I felt guilty for kissing Mummy in such a way, she is my
mother after all.  " Oh Mummy I'm so sorry for doing that, I didn't mean
too, I just couldn't stop myself."

Without saying a word, she just proceeded to glide the other stocking
gently up her right leg.  Holding it before the suspender clips while
smiling to me. I knew I was to repeat the same process on that stockinged
leg. This time taking greater control of my demeanor, I stepped back
straight away ready to stand.  "Isn't that leg good enough to be kiss?" I
got asked from a smiling face beside me. "I don't want you to be sorry for
expressing your emotions to me or to Denise. I've told you that before, is
that understood?"  "Yes it is, you've got lovely legs Mummy, and don't
stockings make them feel so glamorous." as I went with a free mind this
time, to kiss lovingly over her right leg.  "You have love legs also my
darling." as she stroked the side of my face.

Dropping her arms out slightly, I knew I'm to have the pleasure of adorning
her gracious body in this fine feminine gown. Holding it gently between my
fingers, slowly I ushered each arm to its appropriate sleeve before raising
it up to sit flawlessly over her shoulders. Moving myself to stand before
her. I couldn't help but just fiddle a little, making sure it sat as
elegantly as possible over her fine feminine frame, before tying the two
inch wide sash into a lovely bow in front. Standing back a little just to
admire Mummy in her elegant gown which I've had the pleasure of putting on
her. I smiled telling her how beautiful she is. Which earned me a lovely
warm mouth to mouth kiss.

"What say we go have some breakfast now. We don't need to get dressed yet,
as we're not going out till later."  We then headed down stairs to the
kitchen. This time I prepared my own bowl of girly food, which is quite
simple. 250mls of warm milk mixed into a sachet of girly powder. All is
ready in under a minute. At the same time Mummy got her bowl of weet-a-bix
and tea for two ready.

Once breakfast had been consumed, my pumps were released to let my breast
deflate some. I like watching this happening slowly, seeing two puffed out
boobs shrinking. Wondering each time how much larger they'll be
developed. Now for my next step into girlhood, yes one small yellow pill to
be taken with a little water. One down, six to go and I'm wondering what
the final result will be.

We sat in the lounge to finish our cups of tea, while Mummy tried to
explain the effects of these pills to me. I don't know whether I understood
or not. All I seemed to understand is, they'll help me think or comprehend
in a more feminine way *I think*. In a short while I became quiet, leaning
against Mummy's right arm. Intoxicated by the motherly warmth radiating
from her, I just had to ask.  "Mummy can I sit on your knee for awhile,
please." I feel so loved sitting on her knee.

Without a word she put her cup on the small table before us, opened her
arms ready to receive her Jessica. In no time there I sat cuddled in her
arms, resting my head against her shoulder the beauty of her breast, my
hands couldn't help but caress over the silk gown which surrounded her fine
body. With this wonderful acknowledgement of being loved, we stayed that
way in silence. Only little kisses between us could be heard, I think you
could call it, mother daughter bonding.  We seemed to stay embraced a good
few minutes before Mummy said. "Jessica sweetheart, what say we go upstairs
to Mummy's room?"  Not quite knowing what to think, I just nodded my head
in agreement.

On entering the bedroom, I watched while Mummy went to straighten up the
bed after hers and Denise's night together. Turning towards me, putting out
her arms invitingly. I stepped over into her waiting arms, there we stood
embracing ever so closely, one could say intermittly. We soon sat on the
bed just as close, holding hands, my head resting against her shoulder.
"Jessica darling, you know Denise and I would love to have you sleep with
us some nights. You can see the bed is big enough for the three of us,
isn't it? But firstly, I would like you to feel free and comfortable with
Mummy's body, as I am with yours. Much the same way as with Denise, what do
you say?" as she kissed the side of my head, waiting an response.

I felt my head pushing closer into Mummy's shoulder, as I comprehended all
she had just said.  "Yes I would love to sleep with you and Denise
sometimes. B....... But don't laugh at me if I ask you things, will
you. Cause I've never been interested in women before, so don't know much."
"Darling you know I would never laugh at you, I've told you that before
haven't I?"  "I know but I don't really know anything about women. Except
what Andrew told me, when I asked him, what a girls clitty was."  Wrapping
her silk covered arms around me to offer one lovely kiss to my ever waiting
lips.  "Don't let anyone say, you're not the sweetest little sissy ever." I
loved hearing her call me that.

Taking hold of my hand to help me stand up. Holding my face between her
warm tender hands, our lips once again came ever so lovingly together. Next
thing I felt the pulling apart of the bow holding my dressing gown
secured. I smiled to her as the satin gown gently slithered free of my
slender body. To be placed over the ottoman, leaving me standing in only my
pretty nighty. Likewise, I took each end of Mummy's gowns silk sash, pulled
them slowly apart, opening up her gown ready to be released from her
beautiful body. To now stand before me, in the minimum of wonderful female
underwear, being a matching set of satin and lace bra, suspender and
panties. Fortunately no attempt was made to relief me of my nighty. I know
Mummy was well aware of the state of ones sissy clit. Yes standing proudly
under the cover of satin.

In a state of nervousness, Mummy helped me lie on her king-size bed. Not
quite know where to look or put my fidgeting hands, I lay tense.  "Jessica
don't be shy, I want you to take your time and touch my body wherever you
wish."  Turning on my side, I let my head rest against her upper
arm. Lightly I caressed over the side of her face letting my hand wander
across her beautiful neck. Cautiously, hesitantly, I let my right hand
brush ever so lightly over her fine stomach area, up her left side towards
her armpit and come to rest. All the time I was somehow afraid to touch on
her beautiful breast. Mummy's hand rested over mine, before guiding it
across and around her stomach again. Then leaving me be to continue
unassisted, caressing over her body. I must admit, I didn't wander far from
where I was. This is a whole new experience for me.

With great courage, I gently wandered up to touch over her bra covered
breast. By the little sight I heard, I gathered Mummy enjoyed the touching
also, but she turned away from me.  "Am I being naughty Mummy for doing
that?" I quickly asked.  "No darling, Mummy loves what you're doing. I want
you to unfasten the bra clips for me, in your own time." she said in a
raspy voice.  I leaned forward placing an affectionate kiss right where the
bra straps meet. Then proceeded to separate the two straps, at the same
time guiding the right strap to hang loose over her shoulder.

Turning back to almost face me, she all but let the bra slip off. I
realized I was going to get no help in any way, in my quest to familiarize
myself with Mummy's body. Taking hold of the bra strap, I tried manoeuvring
it off her arm. In this I received some help, till it hung free, but still
covered her breast. I don't know who was the most excited, the soft murmurs
I could hear, or the beating of my heart, that I could feel. There was no
conversation between us, all my thoughts were on trying to stay focussed
and not to freaking out, because I'm touching a woman's near naked body. My
Mummy's body at that.

Lying facing Mummy, looking into her closed eyes, the beauty of her face. I
lifted myself up a little, leaning over I kissed her sweet nose saying, "I
love you Mummy." then sliding back beside her. I know this is what she
wanted, I now knew I was also wanting to do it. Ever so faintly I let my
fingers touch over the bra covered breast. Between my thumb and forefinger,
gently I freed it from her body, pulling the soft article towards my own
breast. Holding it, treasuring it, like it's a gift from heaven, its
warmth, along with the aroma of Mummy's perfume. I wanted to kiss it, leave
it resting over my face. I couldn't, Mummy might think I'm just a perverted
little boy, so I let it go free.

Focussing back on Mummy's firm breast, her nipples also standing
pert. Gingerly I let my right hand drift back, my fingers fondling across
just under her breasts. Then circling slowly, softy around the base of
each, before taking the next major step for one gay sissy. Yes!!! I crept
my fingertips up over one then the other of Mummy's vulnerable breasts. I
could now hear sweet sights of rejoice in my ear. Looking to her I saw
closed eyes, I guess savouring this moment. Before touching the pert
nipples, I seemed to lean over the beautiful body beside me. Resting both
hands lovingly over her two unyielding breasts, gently I began massaging
them in much the same way I have with Denise's albeit smaller breast.

"Oh sweet Jessica, Mommy is loving your soft touch." I heard her
whispering. All the while lying eyes closed, cherishing my first romantic
intimacy with my mother. It didn't take long till little fingertips were
tweaking feverishly over two highly aroused nipples. In turn sending more
delightful shivers through her whimpering animated body. Leaving them go
free for but seconds, while I leant over to offer one compassionate kiss to
Mummy's welcoming lips.

Returning to her breasts, only this time I went one step further. From
kissing her lips to now offering the same gentle loving kisses to those
proud breast. All my trepidation of earlier has now parted, as my lips
began kissing passionately. My tongue softly stroking around the girth,
before I kissed my way up to flick teasingly over those saucy nipples. The
way she held my head, not letting me retreat. Her sweet words of
encouragement, I knew she must be satisfied with my effort.

I tried looking to her to ask, only she held my head firm. So I just took
the next enormous step. Opening my mouth to immerse and begin sucking on
her right nipple. By what I could hear, I again knew this is what she
loves. At the same time I began thinking. I'm sucking on Mummy's breast
just like I'm her baby. That recollection excited me greatly, as I nursed
happily savouring this angelic moment. I gathered I wasn't the only one
loving this. As the next thing Mummy helped me lie across her lap in such a
way as to cradle me at her left breast. All the while stroking my hair,
talking sweetly to me. I guess it would of been a good few minutes I lay
happily suckling, when I think Mummy's sensitive nipples were getting a
little sore

Lying back beside her, I knew what she wanted me doing next. Escorting my
hand back over her stomach, only taking it lower, brushing on her pretty
gold satin panties. My hand froze, my whole body tensed up, I just couldn't
do it. After all the excitement of just minutes earlier, it all fell flat
for me. Experiencing her breast was so totally different to putting my hand
down there.  Even my clit had started to subside.  "I'm sorry Mummy, I know
it's mean of me, but I just can't do that." I said softly while trying not
to look at her. Thinking she is going to be mad at me for getting her so
aroused, now this. No more than I would likely be. But I just couldn't go
there, as much as I'm loving being here in bed with her.

Turning to face me, I thought here it comes, ready to tell me what a teaser
I am. But no. Instead her left hand came to stroke over my hair, then a
kiss was planted on my lips.  "Aren't you mad with me Mummy for what I just
did?" thinking she wouldn't of kissed me if she was.  "No sweetheart, I
said to take your time and you did wonderfully. Only I thought you might of
been a little more Bi, like Denise is."  "Does that mean I won't be able to
sleep with you and Denise now. Because I would really love to and I promise
I won't get in your way."  "Don't even think that silly. I said we would
love to have you sleep with us some nights. That doesn't mean we're going
to have some sort of orgy. Just the three of us girls sleeping together." I
was then pulled into a lovely embrace.

We both just lay there, guess each with our own thoughts. Resting my head
comfortable beside Mummy's, I must say I was feeling ashamed for not doing
what Mummy would of liked. But deep within me, I knew I just couldn't
indulge myself. I love lying here with her and what I had done. In a slight
vein of hope making Mummy realize I love her deeply, I softly asked.
"Mummy can I put my arms around you please, I love you so very much."  "Oh
my ever sweet Jessica, I know you do and Mummy loves you. Now cuddle in
close as you were before."

I didn't need a second invitation. In no time my arms were resting either
side of her, almost lying on top. I placed light kisses over her lips,
nose, cheeks, wherever they happened to land. I could feel her breast
against my much smaller ones.  "Does Denise .......... you
know......ummm..... does she suck on your nipples like I did?" I asked.
"Yes she does and loves it as I know you did. I also love sucking on hers
just the same."  "I felt like your baby when I lay in your arms sucking on
them before. I liked sucking on Denise's also, I can't wait till mine grow
out some." I said enthusiastically.  Squeezing her arms tighter around me,
she told me, I am her baby and I can suckle her breast anytime. In a way I
was now feeling a little more relaxed, knowing I'm forgiven for not
touching down below.

After another shower, I did my own hair and makeup, which made me feel
proud. Because Mummy didn't have to do any touch ups of either. Dressed in
a new lightweight woolen maroon tartan pleated skirt with a long sleeved
white chiffon blouse. Which in turn was finished off with a plain maroon
silk scarf, knotted behind and under the collar. So it hung V shape in
front. The image in the mirror was so neat, as you could see the gloss of
my lovely white satin petticoat, with frothy lace of the bra showing
through my chiffon blouse. Oh how I would loved to be wearing Denise's
silicon pads underneath. There was no gaff today, just a lovely big bow
tied around the base of clitty. A sweet gold chain anklet adorned my ankle,
displaying little contrast to my light tan stockings and black two inch
heels. Mother and daughter both smelling of beautiful perfume, we left the
house. Next stop the special girls school or is it now, for another visit
to the Doctor.

Driving up this long windy driveway we arrived at the main entrance of the
school. Which looks more like an old large three story country homestead. I
could just imagine the class of people that lived here years ago. The
lovely garden parties out on these lawns. All the Ladies dressed in the
most gorgeous of gowns, the gentlemen also handsomely attired. On entering
the main door, reception was right before us. After telling her we had an
appointment with the Doctor. See gave me a charming smile, guess she would
of known what I'm here to see the Doctor for. Looking on her computer she
said, "Oh here we are you must me Jessica Peterson, am I right?"  "Yes I
am." I replied shyly.  "Once you've seen the Doctor, I see there is an
appointment to see the Governess afterwards." another cheerful smile came
our way, followed by directions to the Doctors rooms.

I was hoping to see Annabel, but being only 2:20pm guess they would all
still be in class. At least I saw Denise hard at work, on our way towards
the medical centre. I was surprise to see a couple of boys sitting
there. No not Sissy girly-boys like myself, boys just in a boys school
uniform. Long navy trousers, white shirt with red and white diagonal
striped ties, they looked really smart. Guess these are the gay boys Denise
was telling me about this morning. Not knowing then, what sort of remarks
to expect from them, I sat shyly close to Mummy. No there was none, they
looked, smiled, then said hello to Mummy and myself like it's an everyday
occurrence. Sitting opposite them feeling a little nervous, not wanting to
look straight at them. Yet I did want too, as they were both rather cute
about 15 or 16 I would say.

"Are you just starting school." the red head boy asked. "Oh, I'm William by
the way and this is Richard."  "I'm pleased to meet you both. I'm Jessica
and this is my mother." I shyly replied.  "No she's not starting school
yet. Jessica just has to see the doctor today, but will be starting in a
couple of weeks possible." Mummy said for me.  "You'll like it here, it's
so much better than normal schools. Everyone is friendly we have a lot of
fun, specially with the girls. We only started on Monday and we all seem to
fit in so well. Guess it's because we all have so much in common." Williams
said.  "And no one wants to bashes you for being what you are." added
Richard.  I was curious to know why, so asked "Are you cross dresses or
just gay?"  "Oh we're Gay, there is seven of us here, we've all just
started. Although it's mainly girls like yourself. They started taking gay
boys also, who weren't strong enough to take the beatings any longer."
Richard said as tears came to his eyes, at the same time William took hold
of his hand.  "I know what you mean, I'm also gay and have been through the
same sort of problems." I said.  I guess Richard must of had some beatings,
the poor boy. I was about to ask if they knew Annabel, only the nurse
called them into the other room.  All I got a chance to say was, "I'm
looking forward to being here now and meeting up with you both in a couple
of weeks."

"So you're all keen to start school again now, are we. So different to the
other day when I said about wanting you to come. What on earth changed your
mind?" Mummy said with a big grin.  "Well, girls are allowed to change
their minds sometimes. I believe it's a woman's prerogative." I said
smiling to her.  "Jessica Peterson?" came from a door next to the one the
boys went through.  Nervously I stood looking and hoping Mummy would follow
suite. Yes she did thankfully.  With our greeting over Mummy and I sat in
silence while the Doctor scanned through my file.  "Yes, now come give me a
look at you young lady." he said while standing. I did likewise going
towards him. Taking a flat spoon thing and a small torch, he proceeded to
look down my throat.

With the inspection complete I was ushered into another room where a video
camera was set up.  "Now I want you to sit here and say your name and
date. Then read a couple of paragraphs from this book for me in your normal
voice." he instructed me.  As I sat a little nervously, scanning quickly
what I was to read. I was told not to be nervous, it's just for a
comparison for later. That's OK for him to say, he's not sitting here in
front of a camera. It wasn't like making a movie, as it was all over in one
take. After which he let me view a couple of others that have also had
their voices softened or should I say feminized. Just listening to them
made me pleased I said I wanted it done.

A date was set for Tuesday two weeks from now. "It's a very quick, simple
operation, about three or five minutes only. But after you won't be allowed
to speak for a couple of days. Then the hard work begins with one on one
speech training. In a week or so you won't recognize this old voice of
yours." I was told with an assuring smile.  After enquiring how my special
food and hormone cream are going, we were on our way. But not before being
reminded of Monday evening in two weeks. I looked at him, "I thought you
said Tuesday two weeks."  "Yes but you have to be here on Monday so we can
make sure there is no eating or drinking before hand." talk about trying to
starve a girl.

Our next stop was to see the Governess of the school. As Mummy wanted to
enrol me starting that Monday prior to my operation. Must say the Governess
seemed a very nice woman. But don't they all before you actually start
school, then lookout!!!! She told us about having some gay boys here now,
one of the reasons is financial for the school. As well, to help these boys
who have been beaten up because of being *different.* In the same way the
school was established to help boys such as Jessica here. With that remark
she gave me a big smile. Then I was reminded I won't see much of them,
because I'm not doing the normal school syllabus. My program will consist
of speech training, dance and a course of understanding your new body. I
had to ask what she meant by *My new body* No, I'm not about to be changed
in any way. It's more noticing the way girls act differently to boys, so
there is nothing for me to worry about. Great!!

At least I got to saying Hello to Denise before leaving. Which was
wonderful as she introduced me as her sister to some of the other staff
members. As she has her own car, plus is to see the Doctor herself, Mummy
and I headed home again. I was feeling quite happy about everything. If I
sound as good as those other girls after their voice change, I'll be
delighted. I don't know whether we flew home or what, but we seemed to be
here in a shorted time than I expected. Maybe my mind was to busy thinking
of what is lying ahead for me. I know I couldn't get the thought of
learning Ballet out of my head, I love Ballet and often wished I could
dance so delicately.

While having our cups of tea Mummy and I check our mail, which I hadn't had
time to do for a few days. As expected I had a couple from the ever sweet
Annabel of course, one telling me all about having these gorgeous gay boys
at school now. Plus another one from Andrew wanting to know how I'm getting
on. Decided to write to Annabel first, as there is so much to tell
her. Like going dress shopping yesterday and all those gorgeous
clothes. Then of course my visit to the school today to see the Doctor. But
mostly about meeting those two cute boys William and Richard and how I'm
now looking forward to starting school albeit for only a few weeks. I think
Mummy was beginning to wonder what I was writing, as I had to have little
giggles every so often. Just thinking of what Annabel will write back. Once
I'd finished writing to Annabel and Andrew, I let Mummy read them before
sending them off. Only the one to Andrew, Mummy said to delete and ring
them
 tonight, as we'll have to make plans to return their cases.

Once dinner was over, well Mummy's and Denise's anyway, as you wouldn't
call my food `dinner.' I rang my old flat and spoke with both Andrew and
Shane, it was really great to hear their voices again. I asked if it would
be alright if I took their cases back over the weekend. Seems Saturday
morning would be the best time, as their new flatmate will be moving in
late Saturday afternoon. I was pleased to hear Shane ask if I'll wear a
dress, as they both are looking forward to see Jessica the girl. I tried to
say, well I've sent you both a photo of me as a girl, won't that do? Seems
not they want to be able to touch not just look at a photo. OK as long as
you behave yourselves, I'm a young Lady now, I tried to tell him. Ya right,
was the response I got.

Shane then asked if Margaret was about, he wanted to speak with her. Gee!!!
if I knew what he wanted to ask, I would never let them speak. Like is she
having trouble getting me to bed before midnight. Plus another couple of
equally embarrassing questions, I was pleased to hear her say I'm no
trouble getting to bed. But to add, she has me in bed by 9:30pm of a
night. I could just imagine what Shane had said to make Mummy laugh and
look my way. At least he told her they are looking forward to seeing me on
Saturday. He must of asked if Denise would be coming also, as Mummy said no
it'll just be me and Jessica. Denise is staying at a friends place Friday
night. That made me overjoyed knowing they must like Denise, to ask if
she'll be coming.

Yes, on cue I was sent of to start getting ready for bed. Denise said
she'll be up soon to help me. I guess that is so we can talk about being
veiled, like I mentioned to her this morning. Well I hope that is so. A
short time later Denise arrived, just in time to brush out my hair for me,
I love that, specially now that it's getting longer. Yes she did want to
talk about being veiled, and is delighted that I appreciated the
tantalizing experience. She can't wait till we can be together to enjoy
each other fully veiled. Unfortunately it'll have to wait for at least a
week.

I was now about to be hit with another girly experience I never thought
of. More to the point knew anything about. Yes! I know girls have their
monthly periods, once they reach puberty and why. But for a transvestite to
also be having menstrual cycles? Well Denise explained all to me.  "No it's
not a normal everyday sort of thing. I and many others take these pills
which help them experience almost the same sort of emotions. You'll learn a
lot more about it when you start school, as that is a big part of the
*understanding your body* subject."

Seems like all your sensitive parts get even more sensitive, you get cramps
and leak. You can't even play with your clitty for the 7 days. Hearing all
that I had to ask why do it, if you don't have to? Her response was. "It
helps you understand women's feelings and emotions better. After those
seven days, you know you want to go through it again." She said, "One could
say it's much like when a woman has a baby. In the pains of childbirth, she
swears she'll never go through that again. But after she's given birth and
holds that precious baby that she has given life too, all that pain has
vanished. Well it is just a teensy weeny, little bit like that, do you
understand?" **

I guess I'll understand much better once Denise starts her within the next
day or two. Or once I learn more at school. I asked her if Annabel has
menstrual cycle? Seems she has had a couple, something else I must ask
Annabel about. Wonder if Mummy has plans for me to be more girl like, I
thought to myself. This is also why she won't be coming to see Andrew and
Shane. What Mummy said was an easy way of saying Denise won't be able to
visit. I'll also have a week to wait for an erotic night veiled in those
divine satin scarfs. The wait will be worth it I'm sure.

In bed I was quite contented just to be wearing my pretty nighty and
mittens. Having Princess and Cuddles beside me, while I have so many things
I need to think over, after today. As much as I love having Denise milking
me, I was quite satisfied with just a lovely kiss and cuddle. Then offering
my hands to Denise for my mittens to be fastened on and keep me safe
overnight. Lying with my teddies in hand, I started thinking first about
what Denise has just told me. Having monthly periods, wonder if I could
handle it. Well if Annabel can I might be able too, there again it'll help
me be so much more feminine. So if Mummy asks if I'd like to go on those
pills, guess I'll say Yes!.

I struggled with conflicting emotions over what happened in Mummy's bed
this morning. It's something I never thought would occur. I know I was
contented once I touched her breast, then even suckled those lovely
titties. But to go lower, is a thing I could never do. OK. I want to dress
and act womanlike, be treated like a young girl, but that is all, I love
sex with males. Looking at myself, I suddenly realized how selfish I
am. After all Mummy has done, and is still doing for me. I could still be
living in the flat wanking myself off, still just dreaming of wearing all
these adorable dresses and more. Things I'd done even in these few days,
would never of happened, had it not been for Mummy taking me in. I would
never of enjoyed myself the same as I did just last night, had I not been
here. And I'm with two people who love me more than I could ever of
visualized. Would I ever of met my gorgeous friend Annabel, who is
everything I wish to be. Had
 it not been for Mummy. I cuddled my teddies in close, kissing them, hoping
for an answer from them to my dilemma. It still didn't come. Over the night
I kept waking up thinking the same thoughts. It's amazing how lots of
wonderful ideas come to you in the we dark hours of the night.

After a restless night, I woke via a sweet kiss to my cheek from a
beautiful perfumed smelling girl, named Denise. I turned to see her wearing
a lovely baby blue satin blouse, the long sleeves were finished off with a
good three inch cuff. Around her neck hung a two strand pearl neckless. The
skirt was a just above the knee length charcoal gray in a fine woolen
fabric. Her hair brushed out and lightly sprayed, what can I say, but she
looked stunning. Quickly I put my arms out wanting a hug before she's off
to work. Oh how I love living here with Denise and Mummy.  "Is Mummy up
yet?" I asked.  "No she is still in bed, why?"  "Will you ask her if I can
go and talk with her, now?"  "You don't have to ask silly, come on up you
get and into Aunty you go. Let me take those mittens off first, shall I."
"No they are alright, I like wearing them really." as I put my slippers on.

Hand in hand we headed to Mummy's room, "Someone wants to talk with her
Mummy." Denise said before kissing both of us goodbye.  "What is it
darling." as she patted the bed, inviting me to sit beside her. "Better
still get between the sheets to keep warm."  That I happily did, making
myself comfortable, right where Denise had spent the night.  "Wouldn't
Denise take your mittens off for you?"  "Yes, but I like wearing in bed." I
said with a smiling.  "Now what is on your mind, that couldn't wait till we
were having breakfast." she said while lightly squeezing my cheek.  "Well
I've been thinking, umm .... Please just listen me out before saying
anything, won't you."  "Yes, OK." she responded with a what's this all
about, look on her face.

"When I was in bed with you yesterday morning, it was all very strange to
me. Being in bed with a lady for a start. As you know I freaked out some,
when my hand got escorted down there. I've never touched any woman like
that before, never. Then in bed last night thinking it all over, I realized
how disgustingly selfish I am. To you of all people, who have given me
everything and done so much for me. You give me so much pleasure when you
milk my clitty. Yet I was to selfish to do something for you and possible
would help me. I know I can't go down there like, umm ........ with you
naked. Or use my thing to you know what? Does Denise ..... uummm ..... you
know........... Oh God, please help me say something." I seemed to just
lose everything I had thought to say.

With my hesitation, Mummy pulled me into her arms cuddling and kissing me
in such a lovely way. No not sensually, more mother child sort of way, like
she has a few times before. A way that makes you feel loved and wanted. As
I lay back beside her, she said in a soft caring voice, "Jessica my sweet,
God has helped you say enough to make me know how charming you are. No you
are not selfish, I know how this is all new to you. But I wanted to help
you to be more comfortable seeing me naked, as I am with you and with
Denise. Now as for *Does Denise you know ...........* I guess you're
meaning does she enjoy making love to me in an intermit way. Well yes she
does, I thought you knew that already?" while giving me a sweet smile.
"Yes I do, but see that is another reason I couldn't ........... you know,
even if I were straight. Because that is something specially beautiful
between Denise and you." I said.  "You know it was Denise who said to write
to you at the start. She also wants to share with you as much as I do. You
have *You know what* with Denise haven't you? And don't be to shy to said
the words, had sexual intercourse. Is that understood? Now come give Mummy
a big cuddle." I was told.

Wrapped lovingly in each others arms, I couldn't help but tell her over and
over how much I love being here, being her daughter. I realized as did
Mummy, how my mittens were getting in the way. So was ever so pleased when
she suggested they come off. Wonderful, I can now caress through her
lovely, soft, silky hair, feel the softness of her face. "Mummy can I touch
your breast, like yesterday, Please?" I whispered softly in her ear.  "Yes
you can, but you don't have to ask Mummy, sweetheart." while helping me
lower the shoulder straps of her nighty.

In no time my warm delicate hands were again caressing each breast. Showing
the same love and affection to them as I had to her hair, her face. I
wanted to kiss them, lick them, suckle on those firm titties again. I
wonder if I'm taking to much for granted If I just do it. I'm sure she'll
push me off if I am, I thought. So decided to go for it. Holding Mummy by
the shoulders, I started kissing over her face, nose, ears, lips, her chin,
finishing up at my target, Mummy's breast. Warm gentle loving kisses I
placed all over each breast. I let my moist tongue flitter ever so lightly
over each, while blowing just as softly my warm breath over each. There was
no checking my bold advance, the quiet moans told me she is cherishing this
moment as much as I am.

The gentle touch of a hand over my hair, along with sweet loving words to
her Jessica, confirmed Mummy's approval. I felt so childlike taking her
titty between my lips, suckling with not a care in the world. After a
little suckle on one, my eager mouth was directed towards the other. That's
a good girl she said while holding the breast as I got comfortable. "I can
see what my little girl loves." I heard her say. I smiled to myself know
how true those words were, I felt so contented knowing I'm allowed to do
this.

Placing each strap comfortable back over Mummy's shoulders, I then lay back
beside her. I again decided to let my hand caress gently over her sweet
nighty covered body. Working from the breast downwards in the most
desirable way I could, I hoped. Slowly, teasingly I went from side to
side. My hand stopped over her navel, my middle finger lovingly circled it
a few times. As I thought how significant this little thing is between
mother and child. I don't know if Mummy knew what I was thinking, when she
said "That is so lovely Jessica." I looked up smiling to her, only to see
closed eyes on one beautiful face. The light must of turned green, as my
hand started on its pilgrimage once again.

All this time I could hear sweet words of encouragement from above, as I
got closer. Caressing over the satin nighty covered upper left leg, before
teasing her inner thigh with my fingertips. Parting her legs a little
further, along with faint whimpers, I knew Mummy must be in a state of
ecstasy. I placed a few affectionate kisses to her right arm, before
letting my fingers tease likewise to her right upper leg and thigh. All
this time Mummy just lay still while I lovingly gave her the attention she
deserves and should of received yesterday morning.

Suddenly I seemed to get those nervous fluters in my stomach, knowing I'm
so close. I can't turn back now, hearing the soft murmurs and words from
Mummy, gave me the strength and added motivation I required. Kissing softly
over where I've just caressed, before taking hold of her limp right hand in
my left, raising it towards my lips, I kissed it with all the love and
passion I could muster. With eyes still closed, a sweet smile came to the
face of my mother. I knew I was doing no wrong, we were both savouring this
beautiful moment of adoration.

Slowly I coaxed my right hand up to brush over Mummy's sacred part. Closing
my eyes I began fondling gently over the satin nighty overlaying her
vaginal lips. All this time my clit didn't get past a semi erect state. As
much as I tried, I couldn't bring myself to touch under Mummy's
nighty. Caressing back up over her lower stomach, kissing lovingly on her
breast. Then fondling back towards her vaginal lips, in hope of going
further this time to please. But no, I just couldn't do it, I had to keep
the nighty between my hand and her intimate part.

Mummy knew I could go no further, as she turned towards me, pulling me into
her arms.  "You have done well sweetheart, I know how hard it must be for
you." as she ran a finger over my lips.  Wrapping my arms around her
resting my head on her shoulder. With tears of disappointment welling up in
my eyes, I tried to apologise for being so inept.  "You don't have to
apologise dear, give Mummy a lovely kiss and cuddle." that I had no trouble
in doing.

In no time, two satin sheathed bodies lay entwined in carnal bliss,
kissing, caressing lovingly over each others. After awhile we lay together
exhausted, before drifting off to sleep again for what must of been a good
hour. Only to be woken by the sound of the telephone, fortunately the
answer machine took the message. So whoever didn't know they had just woken
mother and daughter from a beautiful togetherness sleep.

In a subdued whisper I asked, "Mummy can I kiss over your beautiful body,
as I did with my hands?"  "You can do what you wish my sweetheart." while
giving me a loving smile, as she lay relaxed.  As I had but an hour or so
earlier, my soft sissy lips began kissing passionately over Mummy's
graceful satin enclosed body. From one to the other breast, each beckoning
nipple, my mouth worked slowly downwards, not missing any part of the warm
beauty beneath my craving lips. From one thigh to the other I kissed with
much reverence. There left but one most precious part of Mummy to be
worshipped. Without a second thought I lay my mouth adoringly over her
satin concealed vagina.

Our togetherness did help a great deal, I wasn't so shy watching Mummy
drying herself after her shower. While having breakfast I mentioned about
talking with Denise last night about wearing the satin scarfs. Mummy thinks
it would be wonderful, knowing how Denise really loves her face veiled in
satin scarfs. I also asked about having monthly periods like Denise is
about to have, and will I be having them. Seems I should wait till I do the
`Understanding your body' course, then we'll talk about it.


** I hope no one will take what I wrote about comparing a woman in
childbirth with a TV taking those Menstrual pill as anything similar.
Because I'm not and never would try to compare. I believe a woman giving
birth is a most wonderful thing. So I hope you read it as such.

I think this could be the final Chapter of this story. I have a lot more
I'd like to write. But I don't know if anyone is reading it, so am I
wasting my time writing. Julian Irwin.