Date: Thu, 29 Jan 2004 17:31:23 -0500
From: Linda Laving <lindalaving@hotmail.com>
Subject: Me and Mom (TG)

               'Me and Mom'

	By Linda Laving
	lindalaving@hotmail.com

	Right from the very beginning, it was always just me and my mom.

	I don't remember ever having a man around the house and my mom never
brought it up, and the few times I tried she'd deftly changed the subject. I
took after her a lot, and while I was quite a bit taller at 5'9, in high
school I was still only 102 pounds. I think my mom always wanted a daughter,
and perhaps had named me Leslie as an androgynous alternative. And though I
wasn't born female I never was very masculine by nature. Without any input
from her I had grown my straight dark blonde hair down to my waist, I never
had a bit of body hair, and at 15 I still hadn't started growing any facial
hair.
	As a small child I always sat with her at her vanity as she got ready for
work every morning, putting on her makeup and fixing her hair, and on
Saturday mornings we'd both sit and talk as she'd do her nails and pluck her
eyebrows for whatever date she had that night, and for the coming week.
	Since my earliest years, though, when she was working and I was off school
I'd dress up in her bra, panties, stockings and one of her party dresses,
which of course never fit right, and sit at her vanity and play with her
makeup. I'm sure she noticed her clothes were being worn and her makeup
being used but she never said a word for years. Then, when I was 15 she came
home unexpectedly early and discovered me dressed that way - but instead of
being angry, she just said
	'Honey, I always knew - and you make a lovely girl'.
	After that she started buying me girls clothes, and my own makeup, and
taught me how to apply it better. And more often than not after that I'd
dress as a girl when we were home alone together.
	When I went to school, though, I always tied my hair back in a ponytail and
wore jeans and a tee shirt, and while I never really had any close male
friends no one bothered me either, I was mostly just ignored. I was friends
with some of the girls in my grade but we didn't socialize after school. A
few times I did hear people wondering aloud whether I was gay or not but sex
was not something I thought about one-way or another. And when I'd overhear
the other boys talking about sex and masturbation it didn't trigger anything
in me. My penis was fairly small and almost never got hard.

	Near the end of my sophomore year, on my sixteenth birthday, my mother
surprised me with a present and told me I wouldn't be going to school that
day. When I opened the package I found a beautiful flowered cotton sundress,
short with spaghetti straps, and she told me we'd be going out so I should
put it on. 	I had never been out as a girl before and was very nervous, but
she pulled out a white strapless bra, panties, and some small silicone
inserts she'd bought for me, and I put them on with a pair of white open
sandals.
	At her vanity she sat in front of me with a tweezers and plucked some hairs
out of my already thin brows, and painted my finger and toenails for me in a
pink shade. I put on my own makeup, fairly light as she told me to, with
pink lipstick, and put on a simple neck chain and bracelet with some small
gold hoop clip-on earrings, and she helped me comb out my long straight
hair.
	I grabbed a small white purse and stood up, and my mom looked at me and
said 'Oh, honey, you are so pretty'. And as we walked out and I passed the
full-length mirror in the hall I saw a typical teenage girl a little taller
than average.
	My mom got on the interstate and as we headed towards the city I asked her
where we were going, and she just said 'We have a few appointments, you'll
see'. We got to the city and parked in a garage, and took an elevator up to
an office suite and went in.
	'Mom' I said 'this is a therapist's office!'
	'It's not what you think' she said 'You'll see', and we announced ourselves
and were both led into the doctor's office. The doctor introduced herself,
and said 'Your mom and I have talked, and all I want to do is ask you some
questions'
	With my mom in the room, the doctor went through a questionnaire, which I
answered, and then she started asking me questions about my feelings. She
said 'Your mom and I have already talked, and what I'd like to offer is HRT,
or hormone replacement therapy. It'll be a series of pills which you'll take
daily' 	I asker her what the effects would be and she told me that it would
make me feel better mentally, but over a period of time would make me
develop breasts, redistribute body fat, lessen body hair and help stop any
future scalp hair loss, among other things.
	In other words it would help me become a girl if that's what I wanted. And
then she told me it was totally up to me, I was still young, but if that was
going to be my goal the sooner the therapy started the more complete would
the transformation become.
	She also mentioned that she had planned on having me see a voice coach, but
after meeting me she saw that my voice had never changed to begin with and
that all my years with my only my mom had made my vocal inflections
naturally feminine, so she said she didn't think I needed it.
	I didn't have to even think about the hormones, and said yes, and she wrote
out some prescriptions and we set up another appointment and left.
	We then walked a few blocks down to a jewelry store and went in, and my
mother told the sales girl 'I'd like to get my daughter's ears pierced'
I was thrilled, the clip-ons hurt so much, so we picked out a pair of gold
studs and I sat in a chair as the girl pierced my ears and gave me the small
care kit to put in my purse.
	When we left there I said 'Mom, I'm hungry', and she said we had to make
just one stop first, so we walked a few blocks down and she guided me into a
beauty salon. My mom talked to them first, and they guided me to a chair,
and a girl started trimming my hair, she cut bangs in the front and slightly
layered the sides. Then my mom paid and we left and went down the street to
a nice restaurant for lunch.
	At lunch I expressed some nervousness at going back to school with the
earrings and the hair, but she said 'Don't worry, sweetie, earrings aren't
uncommon these days, you can gel your bangs back if you feel like it, and
I'm pretty sure no one will be shocked' Then she smiled. I did feel
wonderful, it was so nice being out, and after lunch we went shopping
together. I noticed a few people glancing at me and mentioned it to my mom,
but she just said 'Sweetie, you're a beautiful girl, of course people are
going to look, and your height makes you even more striking. Not a soul
would ever suspect otherwise'.
	It turned out she was right about school, no one said a word, and I began
taking the hormones regularly and it wasn't long before I noticed that my
breasts were starting to get larger and become more sensitive. I started
growing my nails longer and tapering the tips but kept them unpolished
during the school week, and soon the school year was over.

	By the time school started back in September, my junior year, my breasts
had become noticeable, and my mom had the therapist write me a note to
excuse me from gym, but I was still wearing loose T shirts and jeans to
school which helped hide the breasts, and life went on. But I was now
spending all my time as a girl except for the classes.
	As I was nearing my 17th birthday towards the end of my junior year my mom
decided it was time we had a heart to heart talk, and she asked me if I had
any interest in boys, or had thought about that at all.
	'I'm not gay, mom' I said, and she replied 'Gay, straight, none of that
matters at all, but sooner or later you will hopefully find someone to care
for - and in your case it would probably make more sense for that person to
be a boy. And I have noticed that when we're out together you are attracting
a lot of attention lately'.
	'But mom' I said 'how could I be with a boy? I don't have a vagina, and
that's all boys are looking for'.
	'Honey' she said 'All boys really want is to be satisfied. And there are
other ways to satisfy them that are easier and safer in this day and age'.
	'Mom!!!' I said, so she dropped the subject at that point. But a few days
later she came into my room and told me to come into the living room, and
when I got there she said 'Sit down and relax' and turned on the VCR.
	I was surprised to see the title of 'Oral Pleasures' on the screen, and
then the video started with a naked guy sitting on a couch as a woman walked
in, kneeled in front of him, and leaned over to take his cock in her mouth.
I sat there mesmerized as the movie went on, and the women first pleasured
the guy till he had an orgasm in her mouth, then a half dozen new guys
walked in and she kneeled in the center of the room and took them all in her
mouth, one after another, till they shot their sperm in her mouth or on her
face.
	At one point one of the guys held her head and forcefully thrust his cock
into her mouth and obviously, her throat, and at the end of the movie the
woman was laying on a couch with her head hanging backwards over the edge as
several guys in a row squatted before her face and literally fucked her
mouth and throat as their balls slapped into her nose and she stared upside
down at the camera. 	When the video stopped I was stunned - and then I told
my mom 'That was disgusting and degrading! I wouldn't do anything like that
for a million dollars!'
	And she replied 'Sweetie, I know you wouldn't - that was the only available
movie they had at the video store that showed all the possibilities. But
some of those same techniques can be incorporated into lovemaking, and can
be quite nice. And there aren't many guys alive that wouldn't be satisfied
with any of that. You know that when I date I sometimes bring my dates back
here afterwards? Well, more often than not that's what I do to satisfy the
men, and I've learned to enjoy it very much, and it's so much easier and
safer than intercourse. It's not disgusting at all, and is only degrading if
you're doing something against your will'

	I left the room afterwards, but the images stayed in my mind. And a few
weeks later, my mom came home after a date with a guy, which was not really
unusual, but this time she came to me first and said 'I'm going to leave the
bedroom door open a crack, and the lights off in the outer hallway, and I'd
like you to watch what happens in there through the crack', and then she
went in her room with drinks where the guy was waiting.
	I really didn't want to watch, but I couldn't resist, so I stood at the
door and watched as my mom and her date sat on the bed sharing a drink.
After a few minutes he turned and kissed her, and they sat there kissing for
a while, and his hand went up to her breasts and hers down to his lap. She
moved back and took her blouse off, and then reached over and opened his
belt and slid his pants down to the floor.
They began to kiss again, and she reached down to take his cock in her hand
and began to slowly stroke it, but when reached over and started to go under
her skirt, she said to him 'Sweetie, it's that time of the month - but I'll
take care of you'. Then she kissed him again, stood up to step out of her
skirt but left her panties and pantyhose on, and then she slid to the floor
where she slowly pulled his shoes off and then pulled his pants and under
shorts off completely.
	Kneeling between his legs, she began to kiss him again as he sat on the
bed, and took his now rock hard cock in her hand and slowly played with it.
And then she leaned down and slipped her mouth right over his cock and began
to slowly move her lips up and down his shaft, and he let out a moan. After
a few minutes she lifted her head up and kissed him again, and they kissed
for some time as she slid her hand up and down his shaft. Then, she lifted
his shaft upward and bent over and began to run her tongue over his balls as
she gently stroked his cock, and he moaned again. She quickly leaned up to
kiss him again, but then leaned over, took his cock back in her mouth, and
cupped his balls in her hand as her head began to move up and down as her
lips went slowly up and down his shaft. He moaned, and then she started
making soft moaning noises herself as she steadily stroked his cock with her
mouth, her lips going right down to his pubic hair with his cock obviously
entering her throat, and the back up so her lips were just circling the tip.
	I couldn't believe I was standing here watching my mom doing this, but I
was getting really turned on all the same. Not a hard-on, just maybe a
little fullness down there but a very funny feeling overtook me.
	They were both moaning now, him loud and her soft, and she started moving
her mouth faster over his shaft, and then he said 'I'm going to cum' in a
tight voice, and she just made a 'mmmmmm' sound and pulled her lips back
towards the end of his cock, and then he went 'OOhhhhh' and stiffened up as
she started making soft slurping noises, and it was obvious she was drinking
down his juices. Then she pulled her lips off his cock, stroked it upward a
few times, and leaned over to lick the tip clean and leaned back to look up
at him with a smile.
	'That was absolutely wonderful' he said, as he leaned over to kiss her, and
they kissed for a few minutes more till he lay back on the bed, and she laid
down next to him and cuddled in against him, and they just lay there
together, arms around each other, and every now and then they'd look at each
other and touch lips.
	Finally she said 'Well, I better get up' so I took my cue and left the
doorway and went quickly back to my room, and a few minutes later the door
opened, they came out together, and she walked him to the door where they
kissed goodnight, and he said 'Can I call you again?' to which she replied
'Sure, sweetie'

	After the door closed I stepped out into the room, and she said 'What did
you think sweetie?'
	I was silent for a minute, and then said 'I was surprised that there was so
much kissing, especially during and afterwards. I always heard that men
wouldn't kiss you after you did that to them.'
	'Some guys are like that' she said 'but most aren't. And kissing is really
nice on it's own, isn't it?'
	'Mom, I've never kissed anyone that way. Where would I meet a boy to kiss?'
	'I'm sorry honey, I wasn't thinking' she said 'I just take kissing so much
for granted. I guess you don't even know how to kiss, do you?'
	'Not really mom, I've seen it done in movies but that's it'
	'Maybe I should teach you then,' she said, and stepped over in front of me,
and touched her lips to mine.
	'Mom, this is kind of strange' I said.
	'No it's not sweetie, it's just kissing. And someone has to teach you if
the boys can't.' She leaned in towards me and said 'Part your lips a little
and relax them', then put her lips on mine. I felt her tongue slide slightly
inside my lips, and instinctively, I put my tongue against hers. We began to
lightly lick the tips of each other's tongues, and her lips opened a little
wider against mine. It felt really nice, and her mouth had an odd taste to
it, a little musky and salty, probably the remnants of her dates cum, I
thought.
	For quite awhile we stood there, softly touching tongues and lips, and I
again started getting a funny feeling and again started getting full down
below. She must have felt it also, because suddenly she pulled back and said
'see, you do know how to kiss. Well, lessons are over then. Goodnight
Honey.'
And we both went to our rooms to fall asleep.

	The next day she acted as if nothing had happened, but on the day after, my
17th birthday, we were sitting down at the kitchen table and she said
'Sweetie, we really have some decisions to make. The school year is almost
over, and I'm sure it's starting to get uncomfortable for you there. Your
breasts are getting too large too hide (they were now almost up to a B cup),
and your whole body is starting to change. I noticed your hips are getting
wider and your muscle tone is changing, and the whole situation here is not
great for you.
	I've decided that next month when school ends we're going to move. Only a
few miles away, but it'll be a different town with different people and you
can be a girl all the time there. We'll register for your senior year as a
female, and nobody will know you as anything else.
	I had, as I'd mentioned earlier, virtually no male friends anyway, and only
casual girl friends, so I was very happy to hear this.

	Soon the school year was over, and we moved to a new small house, and as a
symbolic gesture I put all my remaining guy clothes in some plastic bags
which we threw in a dumpster on the way to the new house. Over the summer I
took driving lessons and managed to get my license (which unfortunately,
still showed my gender as male, but who would see it?), and otherwise I
spent some time on the beach in some new bikini's, was introduced to the new
neighbors by my mother as 'My daughter Leslie', and I grew my nails long and
was able to keep them polished for a change.
	At the end of the summer I registered for my senior year as a girl - and of
course I did have to have my transcripts sent over but my mother had already
prearranged with the woman in the office to have any gender references
removed. The woman was very sweet anyway, but I suspect a bribe had been
involved.
So I started classes, and right from the beginning things were now different
- the girls treated me different, some were of course snotty by nature, but
most were very nice to me. I still kept a certain distance from the other
kids, but some of the boys were becoming very persistent. My mother's words
and actions regarding sex kept reappearing to me but I wasn't ready. And the
school year passed quickly, and I was soon nearing my 18th birthday.

	My 18th birthday was on a Saturday, and when I awoke I went downstairs to
find a large present on the kitchen table. When I opened it up I was
surprised to find a new outfit, different from anything I'd owned. There was
a black lace trimmed wonderbra with matching panties, a black lace garter
belt, sheer nude lace trimmed garter stockings, a pair of 4" stiletto heeled
dress sandals that laced up the ankle, and a black spandex, very small, tube
dress.
	My mom came in a few minutes later, and said 'Happy Birthday - you are now
a woman, and I have a day planned for you. After lunch I want you to take
your shower, polish your nails with this, and put on the new clothes' and
she handed me a bottle of bright red nail polish. 'What are we...?' I
started to say, but she just replied 'You'll see'
	So after lunch I took a shower, shaved what little hair I had on my legs
and my armpits, and went to my room and painted my toes and fingers with the
red polish, and started to dress. The new bra pulled me in and gave me some
serious cleavage, and I tucked myself back inside the new panties, put on
the new garter belt, and pulled on the very smooth stockings and attached
them to the garters. I then pulled on the tube dress, which barely covered
the stocking tops, and stepped into the sandals and laced them around my
ankles.
	As I was walking around the room in the heels, which were surprisingly easy
for me to walk in, my mom came in the room, and she was dressed exactly the
same. I sat down to put on my makeup and she said 'Heavy on the eyes' so I
sat in front of my makeup mirror and brushed on black liquid eyeliner, black
mascara, and looking at her, matched her dark pink and smoky blue eyeshadow.
She then came over and handed me a plum blush, which I applied, and handed
me a tube or bright red lipstick which matched my polish, and I lined my
lips with a red pencil, then put on the lipstick.
	My mom came up behind me and began to brush my hair, and in the mirror I
saw her tease it on top and spray it in place. I stood up and walked to the
full length mirror to see myself and thought I looked like a hooker, and
told my mother so, but she just laughed and said 'You look great, don't
worry'
	And then I looked back in the mirror and saw myself in a different light. I
noticed for the first time exactly what the hormones had been doing. My hips
had widened beneath my flat belly, and my breasts were very proportionate to
a tall skinny teenager. My long blonde hair framed my thin face, and while I
wasn't model material, and my nose was a little large, my large dark blue
eyes and full red lips drew the eyes and I saw a girl on the verge of
womanhood trying to look older than she was.
	I looked at my mom, and had to admit she looked great also. She was almost
40, but looked 10 years younger. She had the same dark blonde hair as I did
but it was shoulder length and layered, and the same dark blue eyes, but she
was built totally different than me. She was only up to my shoulder, maybe
5'6 in matching heels whereas I, in the heels, was 6'1 and my teased hair
added another 4 inches or so, and she was much more voluptuous, with an
hourglass figure and a small waist. But she still could be taken for my
older sister.

	'Let's go' she said, so we both picked up very small black purses on
shoulder straps, and slipped on matching full-length black cardigan sweaters
to cover up a little and left the house and got in her car. It was only 4PM,
but when I asked where we were going, she again replied 'You'll see', and
she got on the interstate and headed towards the city.
	We got off at an exit still on the outskirts and were in what appeared to
be an industrial neighborhood when she pulled into the parking lot of a
small building with a sign that said 'Adult Videos - Peep Shows'. The
parking lot was very large for a building that small, and packed, but we
found a spot and pulled in, and she said 'Leave the sweater here'. I took
off the sweater, and got out of the car in the tube dress and heels, and she
said 'Follow me'.
	At the front door a sign said 'You must be 18 to enter' and she smiled at
me as we walked in. We were in a large room filled with videos and sex toys,
with a cash register over on the side with a listless looking clerk behind
it - and even though the lot had been full, the store was empty except for a
single guy scanning through the magazines.
	My mom went up to the register and said '$20 in tokens please' and the guy
handed her a small roll, avoiding eye contact. Then she took my elbow and
steered me towards the back wall and through the curtains that were there. I
found myself in a large wide hallway with rows of door on each side, about
half of which were closed, and the closed ones had a red light lit over
them. There must have been a dozen guys lounging around in the hall on both
sides.
	'Come on' she said, and headed towards the end, and all eyes followed as we
walked down the hall and into the last door on the right, and latched the
door. I found myself inside a small room, maybe 5' X 5', with a video screen
and coin slot on the left and a bench along the back wall. The floor was
filthy and looked wet in the dim light and my mom said 'Don't touch
anything', as she pulled a small wad of napkins from her overloaded purse,
wiped the bench, and then threw the wad on the floor and stepped on it,
moving it back and forth with her sandals and then kicking the dirty wad in
the corner under the bench.
	On the right wall there was a hole about 4" in diameter, obviously
connecting into the next booth, and my mom put some tokens in the slot
opposite and said, as a video came on of a woman's face, close up, sucking
on a cock
	'As long as you keep feeding tokens in, no one bothers you here'
	'What are we doing here?' I asked.
	My mom looked at me and said 'It's time you learned some of the things you
need to know. You're 18 now, and you're going to be entering a social world,
and I want you to be prepared' She then walked across to the hole and stuck
a few fingers through and wiggled them, and almost immediately a cock came
through the hole.
	'I'll take this one, just watch carefully' my mom said, and she squatted
down on her heels in front of the hole, and took the cock inside her mouth.
As I watched in fascination she moved her lips in and out a few times and
got it wet with saliva, and then placed her hand around it and took her lips
off.
	She began to run her tongue over the head of the cock as she slowly stroked
the shaft with her hand, and then she slipped her lips back over it. She
began to move her head back and forth as the cock kept disappearing and
reappearing between her lips, and she was making wet suction-like noises as
she did this with a steady rhythm. And suddenly I heard a knock against the
wall and she moved her mouth off the cock but left her tongue against the
bottom of the cock head. And when she reached up and stroked the shaft just
once white creamy looking fluid shot out of the hole at the end of the cock
into her mouth and then slowed and began flowing visibly onto her tongue.
She waited till it slowed and then took the cock back into her mouth and
sucked on the head, and I could see her throat move as she swallowed down
his juices. And then the cock was pulled back thru the hole and disappeared
as my mom licked her lips and stood up.

	I had to admit I had gotten turned on while watching her, but not in a
genital way - it was different. My mom looked at me, smiled, and said 'Do
you want to take the next one?', but before I could answer I saw a cock come
through the hole that was only semi hard, circumcised, and looked to be
about 5" long. 	'Perfect for the first' my mom said 'go ahead and I'll coach
you', and without thinking much or taking my eyes off it I squatted before
the hole as she had and placed my face a few inches from the cock and took
it inside my mouth. The texture was a surprise, it felt very silky against
my lips and tongue, and tasted mildly like sweat and urine.
	'Cover your teeth with your lips' my mom said 'And suck it very gently'.
	I did as she said and it started getting hard inside my mouth.
	'Now move your lips down the shaft, and then back out in a slow rhythm' she
said 'keeping up the soft suction.' On the third time in, the tip of the
cock hit my throat and I instinctively gagged
	'Not so deep, you're not ready yet' she said 'press your tongue against the
bottom of his shaft as you're doing that, and on the out strokes lick hard
at the spot underneath where the head meets the shaft'
	I did as she said, and was moving my mouth back and forth along his cock
and using my tongue as instructed, and was shocked how much I was enjoying
it. The silkiness sliding back and forth across my lips and along the roof
of my mouth, and the warmth against my tongue felt somehow right. And though
I couldn't see the guy I could feel little tremors through his cock as I
worked on him, and heard faint moans through the hole.
	'Pick up the rhythm slightly' said mom 'and increase the suction just a
little', and as I did that his cock got harder still, and all at once the
inside of my mouth got warm and wet and was filled with an unusual taste.
	I hadn't felt anything spurt, but after a few seconds I realized that the
guy had cum in my mouth, and was still cumming, so I froze, not knowing what
to do. My mom realized what had happened and said 'Just keep the cock head
in your mouth, and keep sucking gently' and I did that and could now feel
his warm juices flowing onto my tongue.
	The taste got more intense and was unlike anything I'd ever tasted but kind
of nice, musky, salty, and sweet at the same time, and as I gently sucked it
pooled in my mouth, and finally stopped, and the cock pulled out from
between my lips with a pop and back thru the hole.
	'Hon, you can either swallow it or spit it out' mom said, but without even
thinking I swallowed it down and felt the thick liquid slide into my throat,
and as I stood up the taste was very strong in my mouth.
	'Congratulations, baby,' she said with a smile 'what do you think?'
	I was somewhat dazed by the whole thing, but I blurted out 'I liked it'
without thinking, and she replied 'I knew you would'.

	My mom fed some more tokens into the slot to keep things going, and when
she turned around we both looked down to see a very large and wide cock
sticking through the hole this time. It was a solid 8" long, and thick,
though slightly tapered at the end.
	'I'd better take this one' she said 'pay attention' and she squatted before
the huge cock. Looking down I could see that the cock was as long as my
mom's head was deep, and I watched in fascination as my mom opened her mouth
wide and engulfed it. She moved her lips back and forth over the front half
of it, getting it wet and slick, and then, in amazement, I watched as she
slid her mouth down the shaft slowly till her lips were right against the
pubic hair showing through the whole, and then slid back out to the end, and
somehow she was taking the whole cock in her mouth with slow strokes.
	I bent down a little and watched from the side and saw that every time her
lips hit the bottom of the shaft the skin around her throat would expand a
little, and I watched the cock slide effortlessly into her throat on every
stroke. She slowly quickened the rhythm and within a few minutes was quickly
sliding her lips back and forth, and then I heard a knock on the wall and
she pushed her lips all the way down the shaft and kept them there, and as I
watched her throat seemed to pulsate and I heard a background groan through
the wall from the booth next door.
	She was audibly breathing through her nose as he emptied his cum into her
throat and then the cock pulled back with a very loud pop, and my mom took a
few deep breaths before she stood up.
	'How did you do that?' I asked, my eyes wide, and she replied
	'Practice, sweetie. As long as the guy isn't holding your head and pounding
your mouth, you can learn to relax your throat and breathe through your
nose. 'Without gagging?' I asked, and mom replied 'Well, that's where the
practice part comes in.'

	She had just finished saying that when the next cock came thru the hole,
and this one was about 7" long but only medium thick with a very tapered
head.
	'And as if we ordered it' she said with a smile 'here is the perfect
practice cock for you'
	'OK' I said 'I'll try' and I squatted down to the cock and slipped my mouth
around it. Again I was surprised by the silkiness of it, and like I had on
the previous cock I took it in my mouth and gently sucked it hard and got it
wet with my saliva, and began to use my tongue against the bottom and the
underside of the cock head. I began to move my lips back and forth along the
shaft, and my mom said 'try taking it into your throat a little - when it
hits the back of your mouth, breathe in deeply through your nose.'
	So I did what she said and moved my lips in till I felt the cock head at my
throat, then took a deep breath and kept going and the cock slid into my
throat.
The gag reaction started anyway, so I quickly slid my lips back out and kept
sucking on what I could take in, and then tried it again. The second time
the cock entered my throat I didn't gag, though, and I started a very slow
rhythm and began to let it slide inside my throat on each in stroke, and was
using my tongue on the out strokes, and after a short while my throat
muscles relaxed and I was able to keep it up and quicken the rhythm.
	This time the guy did knock in warning, but wanting to taste and feel the
ejaculation inside my mouth I moved my lips out to just encircle the tip and
I felt a pulsing against my lower lip just before he shot his load, and this
time I felt a splash against the back of my throat as his cum spurted out
forcefully and the taste began to fill my senses, and it was followed by a
half dozen smaller spurts before the cum that was left began to flow softly
onto my tongue. He quickly finished, and as he pulled out from between my
lips and back through the hole, I closed my lips and moved the sticky liquid
around my mouth, experiencing the strong musky taste and the gooey texture,
and then let it slide towards the back of my mouth and swallowed it down.
	I stood up and licked my lips, and my mom looked at me and smiled and said
'So what do you think about taking it down your throat?', and I replied
		'Not nearly as tough as I'd expected'
	'It'll get easier with time' she said, and I sat down on the bench to catch
my breath. We fed the last batch of tokens into the video coin slot, and I
was playing around with the channels, when I heard a noise and looked over
at the hole.

	My eyes went wide when I saw a huge, almost black cock sticking into the
room. It must've been 10 inches long and not even fully hard, and very
thick. My mom looked over, saw it, and said 'I'd better take this one
sweetie', but I was mesmerized and without even thinking I walked over and
took it in my right hand and dropped to a squat in front of it. I started to
take it in my mouth but found I had to open my jaw really wide just to fit
the width, and with just the cock head and an inch or so my mouth was full.
	'Don't even try to get that one deep' my mom said 'just get the whole thing
wet.'
	So I took my mouth off the end and began to use my lips and tongue along
the shaft and got the entire cock dripping with saliva, then I slid back
towards the tip and took it back in my mouth.
	'Just concentrate on the head' she said 'and use your hand on the shaft',
so I began to suck gently on the large black cock head, moving my lips and
tongue back and forth over the first few inches, and began to slide my right
hand along the shaft in the same rhythm as my mouth. I slowly sucked,
licked, and stroked the huge cock, and began to use my left hand at the same
time to lightly stroke the hairless black balls hanging beneath the cock.
The cock got slightly harder in my mouth, but didn't get rock hard, and he
was thrusting lightly through the hole so I knew I was doing the right
things, and his balls felt really large and tight as I cupped them gently in
my left hand.
	I began to suck and lick harder and stroked faster as my mom watched and
out of the blue it was like someone turned on a faucet and my mouth began to
quickly fill with hot thick cum. There was no major spurt, just a strong
flow of musky juices, and within seconds my throat opening was plugged and I
coughed, which caused some of his semen to shoot out my nostrils and start
dripping over my lips. The taste permeated everything, strong, and slightly
bitter and spicy.
I quickly gulped down a large mouthful as his cock was still draining,
followed by a second and then a third mouthful before he was drained and
pulled back through the hole. My mom looked at me, still squatting at the
hole, feeling the warmth as the volume if his cum slid down towards my
stomach, and she started laughing.
	'I'll bet you didn't expect that' she said 'sometimes guys are naturally
large shooters and sometimes guys won't masturbate for weeks in between
ejaculating but I suspect that he was in both categories. But I do think
you'd better clean yourself up' she said, handing me a small mirror.
	And even in the light of the video monitor I could see I was somewhat of a
mess. Small milky streams were still draining from my nose, my lips were
slick with cum, some thick strands were hanging from my chin and somehow I'd
even gotten some globs in my hair alongside my face. She handed me a tissue
and I wiped my face quickly, and then we both left the booth and went into
the bathroom down the hall together, passing the guys lounging outside the
booths who just stared at the two of us.
	In the bathroom I wiped my face with a wet paper towel, fixed my
foundation, washed the stickiness off my hands, and put on new lipstick. Mom
fixed her makeup also, though her repairs were minor, and we headed out of
the bathroom. She took my arm and guided me towards the door, and I said
'We're not leaving yet, are we?' But she smiled and said 'I have a few other
surprises for your birthday'
	I got into her car and turned to her and said 'Where are we....', but she
just said 'You'll see' like she had before, so I gave up and leaned back in
the seat.

	A little while later, though, we pulled up in front of a large building
with valet parking out front, and mom said 'Come on, take your purse but
leave your sweater' and we got out of the car as the parking attendant held
the doors open.
	Once inside, we headed towards the ladies lounge and went in. In the
brighter light, my mom looked me over and told me to freshen up a little,
and I combed out and fixed my hair and redid my lipstick, and then she led
me out into the reception area, where she told the man at the desk that we
were waiting for our dates and would be in lobby lounge, where we headed and
sat together on a couch. Then my mom explained what was up
	'A guy I've dated a few times, Tom, told me he has a single younger brother
- and I told him I had a single younger sister' she said with a smile. 'So
we've got a double date for dinner, with dancing afterwards. I've seen a
picture of the younger brother and he's a cutie. But keep in mind that,
first, neither of them has a clue that you're not genetically female, and
second, that this is a real date, your first, and not arranged sex. So don't
be too easy'
	'But mom, I don't know how to act!' I said
	'Don't worry' she said "we're just going to have dinner, dance a little
afterwards, and if anything happens naturally, it does'
	A few minutes later, mom said 'Here we go' and stood up, smiling, as two
guys started walking towards us. The one guy was obviously her date, maybe
in his late thirties, but the younger guy caught my eye. He was about 6'1,
just about eye to eye with me in my heels, slim with large shoulders, curly
blond hair and bright blue eyes. When he was introduced to me as Michael he
gave me a big smile and said 'Pleased to meet you'
	During dinner we just had small talk, and he was rather quiet, but so was
I. But after dinner we headed into the ballroom, and after we picked out a
small table he asked me to dance, and we went out onto the dance floor. It
felt really comfortable in his arms, and for the next few hours we didn't
talk a lot but danced almost every dance. And before I knew it they
announced the last dance, and we were all out in the lobby together.
	My mom looked at me with questioning eyes, but when I smiled back she said
'I'm going to drive home with Tom. Can you take my car and give Michael a
ride home?'
	'Of course' I said 'if that's OK with Michael'. He just smiled, so mom
handed me her keys and we headed out to her car. I handed Michael the keys
and said 'You drive', so he opened the passenger door for me, and then went
around and started the car. As we were driving I saw him frequently looking
at me from the side, but before I knew it he had pulled into a large parking
lot and said 'Here I am - I'd ask you in but I have a roommate and he's
home'
	I was a little disappointed, and I probably showed it, because he turned
off the car and slid over towards me on the bench seat. And then he leaned
in and gave me a soft kiss on the lips. Here I was, 18 years old, and had
never been kissed by a boy.
	Earlier in the day I'd sucked the cum from one anonymous cock, was fucked
in the throat by another, and sucked off and almost choked on the cum from
the largest black cock I'd ever seen but this was my first boy kiss.
	I leaned in towards him and kissed him back, and his lips opened a little
and our tongues met. It was electric, and I put my arms around his neck and
we sat there in the car touching tongues, and then touching each other. He
leaned back a little, looked in my eyes, and said 'Wow - you are really
something'. I smiled at him and leaned back in to kiss again. He started
lightly rubbing my breasts, and I put my hand on his thigh, but soon he
reached down to my thigh and began to slide his hand between my legs.
	I was well tucked and had put a maxi pad in my panties, but I still
couldn't let him go very far, so I reached for his hand and said 'I
can't.... it's that time of the month for me'. He looked really
disappointed, so I said 'But I can still do something for you', and I
reached across the seat and started opening his zipper.
He sighed audibly, and unlatched his belt, and I reached in and pulled his
already rock hard cock out. We kissed again, our tongues touching, as I
slowly stroked his cock, and he moaned. We kept kissing, and then I slid
back a little on the seat and lowered my head into his lap and took his cock
between my lips, and slowly slid my lips down his shaft as my tongue ran
across his cock head. He moaned again, and I straightened up, still slowly
stroking his cock, and I kissed him again. Then I was back into his lap, and
began a slow steady rhythm with my mouth along his cock, gently sucking and
licking, and he started moaning again, and it wasn't two minutes later when
he said 'Oh, baby' and his cum began spurting against the roof of my mouth
with force, and his taste filled my mouth, mild and sweet tasting.
I swallowed it down as it spurted in, but when he was totally drained I sat
up, opened the window, and pretended to spit it out. He was lying back,
drained, and said
	'Baby, that was the best - how did you learn to do that?'. I answered
	'My mom taught me, and you were the first', and he just said
	'Well you were unbelievable. Can I take you out again sometime?' I said
'Call me', and he gave me a quick kiss and got out of the car, and I slid
over and drove home.

	The school year was over, I graduated with good grades, and found myself
with a lot of time on my hands. I had been out with Michael twice for dinner
and then we ended up playing in the car again after the first time, where we
kissed and a blowjob was again an acceptable way to end the evening. But the
second time we went out his roommate was out so we ended up back in his
room.
	That was a little tricky, we started out sitting on his bed kissing and
petting but after awhile his hand started drifting down to my panties. I'd
learned to tuck myself real well and was able to get my testicles pushed up
inside me, and my cock was pulled all the way back with a small piece of
tape, but I still couldn't take close scrutiny much less get naked.
	I told Michael, as a confession, that I was a virgin and wanted to stay
that way for a while. He was surprised but said he understood - but he also
said he'd like to do to me down there what I was doing to him. I told him
maybe next time, and quickly took his cock in my mouth, and soon had him
groaning before he filled my mouth with his cum. But I could see that it was
going to be an issue in the future.

	The video store stayed on my mind, and I went online and discovered there
were some others also in the area, so I woke up one weekday and got myself
dressed. The weather had warmed up so I put on a denim micro-mini skirt and
a cotton camisole without a bra and did my makeup a little heavier than
usual, especially the eyes, and put on a bright pink lipstick. And then I
drove over to the video store and got there just before lunchtime.
	Surprisingly, the lot was packed and I bought a roll of tokens and went
into the back room. But this time I took a booth without a glory hole, put
some money in, and left the door open.
	Within minutes a guy was at the door, and he was decent looking so I
invited him in. He went to latch the door, but I said
	'No, leave it open'. He seemed nervous about that, but I guess finding a
woman (or so he thought) in a place like that was a once in a lifetime thing
so he agreed. I went over and kissed him, but he kissed back with his tongue
right down my throat, gross! So I stepped back a little and reached down to
open his pants. I dropped his pants and boxers and squatted down in front of
him, sideways to the open door, and began to suck him off. His cock was
maybe 5" long, and as I sucked him and ran my lips over his shaft I noticed
in my side vision that a crowd had gathered at the door just a few feet
away.
	This was a real turn on to me, so I began making moaning noises, and within
a few minutes he'd unloaded into my mouth with a grunt. I drained him dry,
and as his cum slid down my throat I looked over and saw that several of the
guys had their cocks out and were stroking themselves as they watched.
	So as the first guy left, I motioned a second guy over and took him right
in my mouth and quickly sucked and swallowed him dry. The crowd was getting
larger, so I stayed in a squat and took one after another in my mouth and
drained them all. The cocks were all sizes and shapes and every load of cum
had a distinctive taste as my mouth kept getting filled, and there was a
constant flow of cum sliding down my throat into my stomach. Finally,
though, after a few hours of squatting with maybe 15 or 20 different guys
having used my mouth to dump their semen (I'd lost count after 6) I looked
up and the doorway was empty.
I realized that I'd sucked off the entire lunchtime crowd, and stood up to
stretch my legs, which had gotten really cramped. I went into the bathroom
to pee, and wiped a few stray globs of cum off my face and fixed my makeup
and combed my hair. And then I left and went out to my car.

	I had missed lunch but wasn't hungry at all, and I decided to try another
video store I'd read about, this one actually in the city itself. When I got
there, though, I had to street park and noticed the neighborhood wasn't very
good, and in this place the cash register was behind a Plexiglas shield and
I bought tokens through a small slot.
	Walking into the back room, I stopped for a second as I noticed that
everyone was black except me. There were a lot of large guys standing around
the room but most of the booths were empty. Looking in a few, I saw they
were similar to the other ones I'd seen, but there was no bench in the
booths, just small low wooden stools. No one said a word as I walked around
the room, but I saw that all eyes were following me, and I had just barely
stepped into one of the cleaner booths (clean being a relative term) when a
large black guy walked in and silently unzipped his pants - and I didn't
have to tell him to leave the door open, he hadn't tried to latch it.
	His still soft cock came out, and was not the size of the black cock I'd
seen previously but was still large, maybe 8 inches and medium wide with a
defined head. 'You want my cock, bitch?' he said straight off, and I nodded
yes but didn't say anything and sat down on the stool. He walked over,
pushed his soft cock against my lips, and I opened them and took in some of
his cock. I couldn't fit it all, but I sucked and licked at the end, and he
soon got hard. But then he said 'Take it in bitch', and grabbed the sides of
my head and began to thrust in my mouth. I tried blocking my throat opening
with my tongue, but he was getting aggressive, and before I could do
anything he grabbed my head hard, said 'Drink my hot cum, bitch', and pushed
his cock hard into my throat a few inches and began to unload his cum.
	I felt the warmth in my throat, but started to gag, and as his sperm was
sliding down my throat, my stomach spasm'd and juices started coming up from
my belly. I pulled my head back a little but couldn't get his cock out of my
mouth, and my stomach contents, mostly cum but mixed with stomach acids,
began to pour out of my nostrils as I choked. He finally pulled out, and
said 'Hope you liked that, bitch' and left the booth, and I was sitting on
the bench and catching my breath, with cum and sour juices still coming out
my nose.
	Before anyone else could come in the booth I got up and left, and quickly
walked to the end booth, went in, and locked the door. I took out a tissue
and was cleaning myself off when I noticed there was a glory hole in this
booth. After that last guy I was planning on just catching my breath and
leaving, that had not been fun at all, but seeing the glory hole I changed
my mind, and knew that no one could throat fuck me unwillingly in here.
	So I stuck a few fingers through the hole, and a large black cock appeared.
And I ended up staying on the stool in that booth as one black cock after
another, all above average in size and some huge, used my mouth, lips,
tongue, and hands to drain themselves, and by the time I left a few hours
later my lips were sore and my mouth hot and sticky, and the taste of cum
filled my senses. Once out in the car, I looked in the mirror to clean up
somewhat, but my lips were so red and swollen lipstick wasn't even
necessary.

	It was only 5:30, and I should have gone home, but something had totally
come over me. I had become obsessed, and it wasn't just the cum itself, it
was the whole feeling. My whole life I had been somewhat meek because of who
and what I was, but now I had a feeling of power and control I'd never felt
before. 	Guys were lining up for my oral attentions, I was taking someone's
cock inside my mouth, and feeling it's smoothness and warmth as it grow hard
because of me, hearing the moans and groans I was causing, smelling the male
scent as my nose nestled in their pubic hair, and tasting first the faint
urine and sweat and finally having my mouth flooded with the hot sticky cum
as I felt the pulsing against my lips and heard the grunts and moans as they
unloaded themselves into me, with the strong individual taste of each guys
semen filling my senses as it either slid past or was ejaculated directly
into my throat and slowly dripped down into, and settled in a pool in my
stomach.
	Guys wanted me, and I loved that feeling.

	So instead of going home I headed back to the first video store, and found
that lot so full I had to park on the street and walk a block to get in.
Once inside, I bought another roll of tokens, and headed through the
curtains into the back room to find it was almost shoulder to shoulder with
guys, probably the mostly straight after work crowd.
	All eyes seemed to settle on me as a guy came out of the first booth on the
left and I walked in. This booth was larger than the ones I'd been in on the
previous visit, it had the video on one wall as the others did, but the
bench along the back was wider, maybe 7' instead of 5', and sparsely padded
with a thick vinyl cover. I fed a handful of tokens in and pushed the door
open, and a guy walked in. I noticed that he wasn't awful looking, but not
much else about him, and I squatted and quickly had his cock between my
swollen lips and using my oral talents soon had him spewing his cum into my
mouth.
	But, for some reason, even while I'd been sucking him I kept thinking back
on being throat fucked by the black guy earlier - and while it had not been
very pleasant to be forced like that, the feeling was stuck in my mind.
	And then I remembered one of the movies I'd seen and when the next guy came
in, instead of squatting I laid down on the bench on my back and let my head
fall backwards over the side and opened my mouth. He immediately knew what I
wanted and came over and pushed his cock in my mouth, and because of the
angle of my head my mouth was lined up with my throat, and as he began to
thrust against my mouth he was able to go deeper and his cock began to slide
in and out of my throat without any gag reaction at all.
	The earlier episode in the other video store must have loosened up or
stretched my throat, and I discovered if I breathed through my nose at the
right times I was OK. And when a few minutes later he pushed into my throat
and held it there as he blasted his load of cum into me I didn't gag at all,
I just felt the warmth as it slowly began the slide towards my stomach.
	As he pulled out and stepped back I saw that the room was full behind him
and the doorway blocked by guys, and the next guy stepped forward to take
his place and fuck my mouth and throat. I don't know how long I laid there
as cock after cock slid between my lips and dumped their loads of cum in my
throat, but after awhile some of the guys who were playing with themselves
couldn't wait and began to blast my face, and soon my eye sockets were
filled with hot thick globs of semen. I was totally lost in the feeling as a
steady stream of cum filled my throat and mouth and landed on my face, and
hot cock flesh slid back and forth against my lips, tongue, and tonsils as
soft testicles softly slapped against my nose.
	But eventually it stopped and when I reached up and ran my fingers across
my eyes I saw through the film of cum that the doorway was empty. I sat up
slowly and caught my breath, and as my long hair fell back down over my
shoulders I saw that it was also covered with white sticky globs. I reached
into my purse to get some tissues and realized I'd run out, so I grabbed my
purse and headed to the bathroom - which had an out of order sign on the
door.

	I turned and walked past the register, ignoring the clerk, and left the
place and started walking towards the car. It was dark outside, which I was
glad of since I could only imagine what a sight I was at that point. When I
reached the car I quickly got in and looked at myself in the vanity mirror
under the small car light, and I was a mess. My entire face and hair was
coated with white, shiny globs of cum. I had a few tissues in the glove box
and wiped my eyes clean, and the strings of goo hanging from my chin, but
gave up at the rest and just hoped mom and the neighbors weren't home when I
got there. I drove home, and the neighbors weren't outside but as I walked
through the front door my mom was waiting for me.
	When she saw me she said 'Oh, sweetie, what have you been up to?'
	I looked at myself in the full length hall mirror and saw what she saw - my
face was covered with cum, drying and still glistening globs I'd missed, my
eye makeup had run down my cheeks, my hair was a mess, uncombed with strands
glued together by semen, and my dress was stained all over, either still wet
in spots or dried to a crusty beige color.
	I told her where I'd been, and she said 'Honey, I took you to that place
just so you'd learn some techniques. You're too good for the guys in those
places'
	'But mom' I said 'I like sucking off guys. It makes me feel good. I just
got carried away a little'
	'A little?' she said 'How many guys did you suck off today, anyway?'
	'I lost count' I replied
	'Well, was it dozens? 25? 50?' she asked.
	'Well, maybe a few more than that' I said 'I honestly don't know'
	'Sweetie, your belly must be full from that many! You can't keep doing
that, honey, sooner or later something bad will happen. You need to find
yourself a steady guy or two, like Michael'
	'Mom, that's easy for you to say! But I can't do that! I've only been out
with Michael three times and already he's wondering why he can't even touch
me down there, much less have regular sex with me.'
	'Honey, I guess we have a few choices to make then. You can't keep going to
the video stores like that. Maybe you should start thinking about getting
surgery to complete your girl self physically.'
	'Mom, I don't want to get surgery!' I said 'this is the way I am. And I'm
also scared of that.
	'OK, honey, I understand.' She said 'and there isn't any rush for that. But
the video stores are out. There are certain guys out there called admirers
who specifically like girls like you, and we can pursue that route. And
there are also ways you can fulfill your needs and make a lot of money at
the same time.'
	'Mom, I could never be a prostitute!' I said.
	'Not a prostitute, honey, they don't make any real money. I was thinking
more along the lines of something in the porn industry, and we can talk
about that another time. But for now, go clean yourself up and I'll make you
something to eat'
	'Thanks, mom' I said as I headed towards the bathroom and the shower 'but I
couldn't eat a thing. I'm stuffed'

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Authors note: This story is a work of fiction. None of the names or people
depicted are real, though some of the finer details have been recollected
from experience. If you liked this story, please write me:
lindalaving@hotmail.com