Date: Mon, 30 Jan 2017 17:31:58 +0000
From: k darling <keldarling111@gmail.com>
Subject: Escapism

I have attached the story 'Escapism'. It is a Transgender story to be
placed in the TV category. Thanks,



*ESCAPISM: The Modern Man*


`Fuck yes! Yes Daddy! Fuck me like a little bitch!' I scream into the
pillow. My arched back allowing my partner full access to my greedy
asshole. He slams harder in response.

One leg bent, pointing a pink glossy stiletto heel towards the ceiling,
bouncing against my stocking clad legs.

Straightening my long caramel blonde wig, I run my hands against my
partner's sturdy thigh, reiterating the approval of my girlish screams. My
high pitched, fake American, best attempt at a porn star. In my mind right
now I am the star of the best porn flick anyone has ever watched.

My lover grunts, slaps my pert ass. His encouragement less vocal, less
dramatic. `Fuck. Yeh. Take that dick.'

I pinch my nipples through the silk of the pink satin teddy that clings to
my smooth, hairless body. The dress riding up my back, the thong panties
pushed to one side, as the massive cock pumps in and out of my ass.

If you've never been fucked, it's hard to explain the feeling. It's a
sensation that hurts like hell at first, but then slams through your body
with pure ecstasy. You feel like you're on the end of a battering ram, and
each blow sends a wave of pleasure throughout your body. Your dick throbs
and oozes precum. There's a sharp warmness somewhere deep inside your ass
that seems to reach the tips of your fingers. Your cock is harder than it's
ever been. Each time you scream like a girl you feel a little part of your
masculinity die. A new girlish wave of drunkenness clouds your mind.

Then the dick pops out and leaves me empty, incomplete.

`Turn' an imperative grunt commands.

I flip over on to my stomach, knowing that the climax is on its way.
Knowing that my reward is waiting. I stare up lovingly in to my partner's
eyes. His face a grimace, his beard glistening with perspiration dripping
on to his firm pecks. He looks at me in pure lust. He wants me. I will send
him over the edge.

I began to lick at the tip of his massive cock. It's salty to the taste,
but not unpleasant. He tugs at it furiously, as I try to look as sexy as
possible, try to play the part I was born to star in.

`Cum for me Daddy!' I whisper, brattish and impatient. Although this is a
moment I savour, I'm in no actual rush.


`I want your cum in my mouth!' I pout. Eyelashes flutter.



His face scrunches. His body tenses. Anticipation overwhelms me.



`Ughhhh nfffff' undecipherable pleasure escapes his lips.

As wave after wave of thick gloopy semen splats against my lip-gloss
covered mouth, I giggle, I gargle, I lick my lips. The cum runs down my
chin. I swallow most, savouring its rich sourness.

I look up in to my partner's eyes. Almost seeing from his perspective as he
looks down at me. I grin, knowing that I must look fucking terrific right
now. I smile at how much has changed, how far I've come, how right this
feels.

It wasn't always this way. Escapism is a wonderful thing.







-







The Modern Man is a hair-slicked-back, lumberjack shirt wearing, Spartan
beard grooming, gym membership owning, generic attempt at mirroring the
latest cover image of GQ magazine -- even though nobody has actually seen,
let alone bought, this image. It is an image burned into the sub-conscious
of a generation who aren't exactly sure how it got there in the first
place. It is a class of men who, to varying degrees, are happy to proclaim
their own grooming -- `manscaping' -- routine and how they use as much fake
tan as their bronze-varnish-faced girlfriends.

Sure, he Tweets -- a Modern Man has a firm opinion on everything. Trump,
Rooney, Bowie. His irrelevant, politically-correct dogma is spewed out at
regular intervals to an audience too self-absorbed to give two fucks. He
Instagrams his meals, he Facebooks the most mind-blowing or gut-wrenchingly
funny videos doing the rounds on the World Wide Web. Like dogs barking and
yelping in to the echoing night time, just hoping some other desperate fool
out there gives a single shit. Hoping they aren't alone.

See, the Modern Man has very few close personal friends. The lads meet up
at semi-regular intervals: football, nights out, gigs, stag dos. They spend
more time with their girlfriend's friends, taggers-on, work colleagues.
Work is a grey area. This can vary between Modern Men depending on area of
expertise and social demographic. You don't have to work at
Innocent-fucking-Smoothies to be a Modern Man. You can work as a plasterer,
a fitness coach, a butcher's assistant. Your position is not important, it
is the representation of the self. You can lie, cheat, steal, borrow and
beg: it doesn't matter, as long as you present the correct image to rest of
the world. It doesn't matter what the food at the restaurant tastes like,
as long as the triple-cooked-chips are in a stainless steel basket, the
frozen beef burger placed delicately between a brioche bun, served on a
slate tile, the buildings wall's distressed, the fittings rural or
industrial, high TripAdvisor rating.

This is a generation born out of Lad Culture, and although their own
fathers may not have gone through this rebirth of the white working class,
they certainly grew up through it. They were too young to realise, but the
classic Adidas trainers, Baddiel and Skinner, Oasis, chain pubs,
tubthumping of the 90s has left a stain that ultimately shaped their
current lives in some way.

This, in fact, is a return to Yuppie Culture of the eighties, minus the
shoulder pads and ill-fitting clothes. The fashion may have changed, but
the importance of the self is firm. It is Partick Bateman without the bank
balance. Having internet access from an early age has weakened their morals
and beliefs. Pornography has encouraged niche fetishes and a lack of
respect for women. The mask of online anonymity has developed hatred. Text
messages and group chats replace real friendships.

But that's alright, because the Modern Man looks good. His aftershave
smells expensive. His trainers are box fresh. His teeth are pearly white.
His biceps bulge against his skinny fit designer t-shit.

He looks happy.





-





*This is a bold brush stroke. *

*Not every man in Western Civilisation falls in to this demographic.*



*Not every Modern Man adheres to all of these principles. *



*Let's face it, if you're reading this story, and you have read this far,
you either A: like to dress up like a girl, B: want to fuck a man who
dresses up like a girl, or reside in category C: the confused region in
between, where in fact it's probably both. In recent popular surveys by
trashy online publications, crossdressing ranked at number 8 of `common
fetishes that aren't actually that unusual', while Shemale porn grows more
and more popular each year, making up for 18% of the total consumption of
all online fap sources. Now, these are the questions you have to ask
yourself: is this one of those Modern Man fetishes? Or are you escaping
that tag entirely, fed up with your social surroundings? Seeking something
more? *

*It is out of rejection of being a Modern Man that I became a sissy. *

*Escapism is a wonderful thing.*







*-*







It all started when I shaved my legs. Well, it probably started as a child
wearing my Mum's knickers, eventually escalating in to flashes of
crossdressing obsession. But that's a story for another time.

When I first shaved my legs, it was a physical rejection of the person I
had become.

I was bored, tired and ultimately pretty depressed. I was 25, in and out of
relationships and one-night-stands. In debt, slightly overweight,
unfulfilled at work and in life. My boss always questioning my punctuality
and disappearance around deadlines. Sick of weekends consisting of some
shit night out to another shit club. Sick of drinking through a lack of
anything else to do. Sick of trying to pull the hottest girl in the bar,
and ultimately settling for whoever falls for my shit lines. Sick to the
back teeth of following a football team that never wins. Sick of my friends
and everything we did together.

I needed a drastic change. Some people may have committed to hobbies,
explored the arts, moved countries. Fuck, some people may have even found
God.

I shaved my legs.

The dark night already drawing in, the grey darkness clouding the apartment
as I arrived home from work. Another grey, mundane day. January is the
worst. The light from the fridge illuminated my face as I scanned its
contents. Half a carton of orange juice. A half consumed block of cheese. I
sighed, knowing I'd have to make a trip to the shop. These excursions
regular and erratic, never buying enough food to last more than a day or
two.



I slung my suit jacket over the dining table and began undressing. Most
media jobs don't involve wearing a suit, but our office lives and dies by
the beliefs of the older generations. Fucking 70s work ethics. I seemed to
be the only person in there that had to take work home with them, everyone
else clocked in, logged on and fucked off home at 5:30. I couldn't just
produce my writing to that deadline. When inspiration struck, it didn't
give a shit about the `working day'.

Today was no different, I'd tried to scrape the words together for an
article entitled `The Modern Man', some vague idea that had been forming at
the back of my mind for some time. But ultimately I'd got nowhere with it.
I felt observed and scrutinised in that office. A heavy weight attached the
chain-like tie around my neck. Apparently January 20th was `National Fetish
Day', and, as my editor kept reminding me, I had to produce something by
the end of the week to coincide with this.

Lazy journalism is awash all over the internet in 2017. Websites and
publishers care more about hits and ad revenues than actual content. They
treat their audience with a distain that almost says `I know you clicked on
this out of pure boredom -- probably while taking a shit'. It's not why I
got into the profession. And yet on that night I began producing my laziest
piece of work to date. It might just have happened to change my life. Maybe
even saved it?

I slouched in to my office chair, began googling `fetish' in the hope of
finding something quick and easy to plagiarise. Keep the work wolves at bay
tomorrow. Stumbling across the all too familiar top 10s, top 17s, 5 things
you didn't know type nonsense, my idea formed. A quick easy list `common
fetishes that aren't actually that unusual'. Easy. Then I'll go buy food
and veg out in front of the TV. I was simply going to copy a few of their
results, change the order, and add a few words. Done.

I placed a few of the weirder fetishes in the top ranks -- apparently adult
babies are a thing now, so is tentacle porn and strapons. I began filling
out the others entries with some more obvious vanilla choices: feet
worship, leather, rubber, role play, crossdressing.

I stopped at that last entry.


For some reason it made my heart race a little faster.

I don't why, I guess it caught me off guard. As a teenager this was
something I did. Regularly. Usually with my Mum's clothes, masturbating
furiously in front of the bedroom mirror. I'd written it off as some kind
of weird phase, an illness almost. I'd weaned myself away from it like a
drug addiction -- convinced that it was something too fucked up to continue
participating in. I'd never spoken about it, shared it, or analysed it.

I searched through a couple of similar articles, and, low and behold, most
of these sites had crossdressing listed in a similar position. Number 8.
Number 6. Apparently it was a thing. People did this in 2017. My dick began
to stiffen at the thought. Fuck, I'd completely not thought about wearing
women's clothes for a long time. The self-inflicted rehab had worked. The
addiction was cured. At least that's what I thought.

An hour of internet research later, and a short trip to the supermarket, I
found myself stood in the women's clothing section. The Lingerie section.
Mainly aimed at older women, conservative and plain in their choices, but
there were a few more adventurous choices -- reds, blacks, neon pinks. The
kinky ones who buy a little something for the weekend while buying cereal
and toilet rolls. Hands trembling, two voices began running through my
mind.

One, loud and clear screaming: `This is fucking madness! What are you
doing? What if someone you know walks in? What will they think at the
till?'

The other less prominent, but more persuasive, warming and exciting: `Who
cares? It'll be fun. Self-service checkout. Remember how good it used to
feel?'


I bet you know which one won the argument.


I returned from the store with a handful of lingerie, stockings, a dress
and a tube of cheap unbranded lipstick. Fuck. The adrenaline pumping
through my body was intoxicating. I felt more awake and alive than I had
done in a long time. Feverishly I tore through the packaging, laying it all
out on the wrinkled covers of my bed. I'd guessed at sizes, gone for
somewhere between crazy huge and medium fit.


I remember gulping, before I took the plunge.


I tugged at a pair of black lace panties, adjusting the elastic around my
waste, rearranging the pink frills which detailed the hem.


Wow.

My dick sprang to attention. My hairs stood on end. I rubbed the front of
the lace, the texture and pattern evoking a familiar feeling of my youth.
This is what you've been missing.

Wriggling into the bra, adjusting the straps, cupping my chest. I don't why
-- and I suppose none of us ever do -- it was exciting.

I stood in front of the mirror, the pastel coloured floral dress -- too
tight -- clung to my body in a way that would have looked ridiculous to an
onlooker. But the sensation of it, this breaking the rules feeling, made me
feel light headed. It felt liberating. I felt different. Less tense.
Relaxed, almost -- aside from the raging hardon tenting the front of the
dress. I decided right then and there that I was committing to this. This
was my thing and I was going to explore it. Fuck it, what did I have to
lose?

10 minutes later, I shaved my legs in the shower. Off came the beard -- the
Modern Man taking a blow to the face as his mask began to slip.


I stood in front of the bedroom mirror, pouting. Rubbing my smooth legs
through the electricity of the stockings. Pulling at their tops and feeling
them snap back into place. I caressed my rock hard member through its lacy
confines. It begged to be freed, it begged to stand proud. It didn't take
long before the panties began to moisten, masses of pre-cum gushing into
the lace, an inevitable sticky wet patch forming.


A moan escaped my mouth. A guttural yet high pitched feminine sound. It was
like it was always there. Always wanting to be released.


I erupted into the panties. The longest and most intense orgasm I had ever
had. It was like all of the moisture in my body had just been shot out of
the end of my dick. The panties sodden, sticky and ruined.


When the heat of the climax had finally died down, I just stood in silence.
Completely shocked by what had come over me.


It felt brilliant.

And I wanted more of it.


I slept that night like a massive weight had been lifted from my shoulders.
Something had changed. A fog had been lifted.


Escapism can be a wonderful thing.



-



I scrunch my arms around Sal's neck as he embraces me before leaving. I
stand on my tiptoes as he squeezes the bare cheeks of my ass. We kiss
goodnight, our tongues deep, exploring, caressing.

`See ya, sexy' he whispers.


`Night, baby' I purr.


`You call me tomorrow?' he enquires, half turned, ready to leave.


`Of course'


He leaves and I'm alone. Cum stained and violated. Completely satisfied. I
totter back to the living room and remove my heels. I inspect my nails, one
of them missing, laying somewhere in the bedroom, the debris of our love
making. I feel warm and fulfilled. The warm late July night is slowly
ebbing away, birds are beginning to sing, as I undress and slip into a
sheer silk nightie. Removing my makeup and the glittering cum slicks off my
chin, I clamber into bed, my knees marked, my asshole sore and spent. I
feel truly content, as I drift off into a deep reverie - thoughts of how
this all began spinning through my mind.


It's been a crazy journey.


Escapism can be a wonderful thing.





*(Thanks, for reading. If you enjoyed this in the slightest, let me know
that you are out there and let me know what you think. Even if you thought
it was rubbish! As fun as it is to write these stories, it definitely helps
knowing someone has taken the time to read them. *

*Kelli,*

*Keldarling111@gmail.com <Keldarling111@gmail.com>)*