Date: Mon, 12 Jan 2009 00:54:39 EST
From: HeatherCD805@aol.com
Subject: Heather's Paradise

                            FANTASIES
                       By: Heather Johnson

After a restless night I awoke feeling very sensual but alone.  I was
slightly firm and knew I needed to spend some time in my feminine garments.
I have been secretly, for many years, dressing in womens clothing in the
privacy of my home, whenever I get a chance and risk not getting caught.  I
find womens clothing very exciting for some reason I can't explain.  I love
the idea of dressing in a manner that I myself find so sexually attractive.

This particular morning I knew I would be alone all day and knew I needed a
long session dressed as woman.  I quickly showered, shaved and began to
prepare my body for the experience.  I ran my hands over my naked body and
tried to visualize that I was a woman.  I have extremely sensitive nipples,
like a woman, so I gently brushed my fingers over the nipples which sent a
shot of sexual excitement over me.  Next, I pinched my nipples which are
very sensitive, in order to experience a bit of exquisite pain and to
orient my mind into a female state.

Next, I slipped on my pink satin panties which I buy a size too small so
they a very snug around my ass and balls.  I really wanted to feel like a
woman this particular morning so I used two sanitary pads inside my
panties.  I put one pad in the usual place in front.  I bent my cock to
point down and under me.  I don't want the bulge to show when I am fully
dressed in my tight skirt.  The pad in front then helped to secure my cock
underneath me and pushed my balls up into the bony socket.  When my cock
and the pad in front are in place a look in the mirror tells me there is no
trace of my cock and I look like I have a big luscious pussy read for
action.

The other sanitary pad I use in the ass of panties.  This is because I next
insert my dildo in my ass.  I discovered some years ago that I love to have
objects inserted in my ass, especially during my dress up sessions.
Whenever I do finally climax the firm object in my ass intensifies the
feeling.  As a result, on many occasions my ass feels "hungry" almost in
desperate need of penetration.  Since I don't have a real cock to take me
from behind, I select my dildo which is in the shape of a small cock and
balls.  To properly prepare for the desperately needed penetration I begin
to worship the dildo in the same way I would worship a cock if I could find
an understanding man.  I kiss and lick the dildo as if were the sweetest
tasting thing in the world.  I deep throat the dildo as best I can and
imagine some stud has pinned my down on my back and is gently forcing me to
accept him in my mouth.  When the dildo is well covered with my saliva, I
grease it well and insert it in my ass with the balls pointed down.  The
sanitary pad on my ass helps to hold the dildo in my ass.

The feel of the sanitary pads is exciting because they are so totally
feminine.  I decided that in my next session I would like to feel what it
would be like to be on the period.  I imagined that I would coat my cock
and balls with ketchup and then put the front pad in place.  In this manner
I could go through the day with the soiled pad and panties that women so
often have to endure.

By this time I am really feeling like a woman.  My nipples are hard and
desiring attention.  I begin to wish I had a companion, man or woman, to
suck and bite my nipples for me as I complete my transformation.  I again
pinch the nipples and contemplate how sexy I was feeling.  Throughout this
entire period of transformation I have to continually resist the temptation
to masturbate.  Deep down I knew that the longer I could prolong my
session, the more fulfilling the final orgasm would be.

Next I put on my bra which is a size 38 shiny white traditional garment.  I
have falsies which I stuff with other silky panties I have and a pair of
pantyhose in order to give myself large breasts.  I like the appearance of
the bra, but I notice that I should lose some weight in order to have a
more shapely figure.

I then use red nail polish to do my toenails.  I know I will be wearing
open toed sandals, so I want my feet to be attractive and feminine.  While
the polish is drying I rock back and forth slightly to work the dildo into
my ass and help it continue to loosen my asshole.  The dildo feels sooo
good.

I then put on my pantyhose.  This is a very exquisite part of the dressing
process as I believe there is nothing more feminine than a woman slipping
into stockings.  It is always a difficult choice whether to wear my
pantyhose or a garter belt and hose.  Sometimes I will put on pantyhose and
a garter belt and stockings over the pantyhose.  This morning I wanted to
spend some time, perhaps hours, in my female attire.  The garter and hose I
find too difficult to resist masturbating.

Next comes my slip which is silky white.  I pull it over my head very
slowly in order to experience the feeling as if I were a beautiful woman
putting on the most sensuous garment.  After the slip I quickly put on my
silky blouse which is also a bit too small as I like all of my feminine
clothes tight to hug my body. I thrill to the feeling of the tight satin
and silk surrounding me.

I pull on my red short skirt.  I wish I could find a red leather skirt in
my size, but I am a bit too big.  The feel of leather is pure heaven.
Finally, I put on my high heel sandals which have a 3 inch heel.  The heels
thrust my torso out and my ass up.  I have a very nice shape to my legs and
ass when I have on the high heels.  I would like to find red high heel
pumps to go with my outfit.  The high heel sandals are acceptable for now
because I can see my painted toenails.

I really wanted to go all out this morning so I also put on a full face of
makeup.  I use the base very thick in order to hide the whisker stubble.
Full mascara, eyeliner and thick blue eye shadow are all applied.  I like
to look somewhat like a whore, so I apply the makeup in excessive amounts
in order to gain that type of appearance.  I even complete the process with
lipstick.  I spray perfume all over me and especially between my legs.  I
enjoy the feminine odor and hope that it enhances my appeal as a woman.

I have not yet purchased a wig, however, I blow dry my hair as fully and
fluffy as possible.  I then spray it very heavily and put a pink bow in my
hair.  I want to feel so feminine.  I don't understand my need to dress and
feel like this.  I gave up years ago trying to figure it out, or if I was
sick or weird.  I determined that my fetish is harmless and that it relaxes
me, so why deny the enjoyment.  Now I feel like a woman.  I don't want to
be a woman, or have a sex change.  However, I love to dress in women's
clothing and act like a woman from time to time.  I also wish I could be
someone's women.

Now that I was dressed I began doing some chores around the house such as
making the bed, cleaning the kitchen and vacuuming.  As I did these
routines I thrilled to the feel of my legs rubbing together and the sound
of the pantyhose.  I also watch myself in the mirror as I bend over and do
other normal things that when done by a woman are so sensual in their own
right.  Just day to day activities are sexy when dressed in feminine
attire.  I noticed that I looked fairly decent, but wondered if I would be
attractive, indeed, sexy, to another person.

My fantasy is to dress up like this for someone else. I want to find
someone, male or female, who would find me attractive and desirable dressed
like this.  I want to be someone's woman.  I want to be submissive and
passive for someone.  I think I would like to have a male and a female
lover.

I picture myself with my male lover as his total woman.  He would treat me
like a lady and at all times relate to me as a woman.  I would love to go
out on dates with him including going to dinner and dancing.  I would sit
close to him at dinner so he could rub my nylon cover legs while we were
eating.  He could touch any part of me at any time.  It is tremendously
exciting to me to contemplate that I might be desired by him and that I
could satisfy him.  We would dance close and I would like to feel his cock
pressing against my leg.

He would take me to his car and drive me to his place.  I would rub his
cock through his pants while he was driving, and nibble his ear, and tell
him that I was his toy for his complete satisfaction.  The only requirement
is that I be treated as a lady, and that he take me very slowly.  He will
have to undress me.  I want him to enjoy my femininity as much as I do.

I would like him to slowly rub his cock on my nylon covered knees.  Maybe,
on some occasions, he could even come on my legs in this manner.  I would
like to have the power to make him come anywhere on me.  Even my face.  I
would rub his cock with my feet if he slipped off my shoes. I would like to
have him kiss and lick my feet.  If he could come several times during a
session I would have him come in my high heel pumps and then I would put
the shoe on so I could feel his come on my toes.

I would like to hold his cock in my hand and rub it slowly on my knee.He
would have to tell me how desirable I was and how pretty and sexy I looked.
He would have to pay particular attention to my legs and tell me how he
desired to rub and caress my legs.

He would then ask me if he could please have me.  We both would know that
he wanted to fuck my ass.  I would bring his cock from my knees to my
mouth.  I would lick and suck the cock like it was my last meal.  I would
pull off his shirt and underwear.  I would then sit on the bed and tell him
to undress me from behind me so that when I was naked he would not see my
flat chest and cock.  He could imagine me as a woman, his woman, from
behind.  I would tell him that my ass was his own pussy to play with and
that he owned it.  We both know all of this is a prelude to what the whole
evening has been working to; his penetration of my ass and my surrender to
him.

He would reach around me and pinch my nipples, hard.  I would be out of my
mind with lust by this time.  My asshole would begin to throb needing so
desperately to be invaded and pumped.  He would pinch my nipples again and
again, all the while demanding that I beg him to fuck me.  At first I tell
him it would not be ladylike for me to beg or to be so direct.  However, he
would continue his assault on my nipples until I finally begin to beg and
plead for a good ass fucking.  However, now he is somewhat irritated with
me and ignores my pleas.  I then get on my knees and worship his toes.  I
then insert my tongue in his ass and swirl it around.  This time, when I
repeat my pleas and whimpers for his cock in my ass he acknowledges me and
agrees now is the time.

I would grease up his cock and apply grease to my asshole.  I would then
lay face down on the bed.  I would ask him to spank me for being such a
nasty little girl.  After the spanking I would ask him to rub oil on my ass
and the backs of my legs.  He would be invited to rub his cock all over the
backs of my legs.  When he was finally ready to take me I would stick my
ass up in the air invitingly.  At last, he would begin to work his cock
into my ass.  The pain would be severe at first.  But then he would begin
pumping me, in and out.  Meanwhile, he would be describing to me all of the
nasty things he liked doing to me.  He would even tell me his fantasy about
pissing on me all over.  I can hardly take the image of that fantasy.  I
tell him to wait until I am fully dressed as his woman.  I will gladly lie
down in the bathtub and allow him to bath me from head to toe with his warm
pee.  As soon as he is finished peeing I will suck him until he also comes
all over me.  I will mix the come with his piss in the bathtub and lick it
up like a dog.  I want him to know how much he owns me and how appreciative
I am that he understands my need to dress and act as a woman.

After I describe for him how he could piss all over me I begin to feel him
getting harder in my ass and I know he is ready to come.  My ass is really
hot and open wide by this time and I want him to go on forever.  He is
really into it by now giving me long, hard strokes.  My ass automatically
rises up to meet his downthrusting cock on each stroke.  I feel so filled
up and overwhelmed with pleasure.  I tell him how much I love what he is
doing to me and how thankful I am to him.  He tells me that I am a nasty
girl and make a good whore for him.  He tells me he loves my pussy and that
he is hooked on our sessions where I make him feel so much like a man
because I am his total woman.  I beg him to do me for hours.  I beg him to
tie me up and leave me for hours covered with oil and a big dildo in my
ass.

We have both worked up quite a sweat by this time and the perspiration is
mixed in with the oil.  My mind was running wild.  There is nothing I would
not do to have him go on forever.  What hurt at first became sweet ecstasy
as he pounded at me.  A thought came to me that maybe if I could pass gas
while he was in me, he would feel the vibration and that would intensify
his pleasure.  At this point, all I cared about was his pleasure.  I wanted
nothing more than to serve him and have him use me for his total
satisfaction.  He could have demanded that I not have and orgasm for a
month I would have agreed, only if he would do this to me every night.  I
decided I would try to surprise him with the fart.  I worked my ass around
and around and encouraged him to take long strokes.  I told him to come all
the way out and then ram me to the hilt.  I told him that the complete
removal and then a complete penetration would maximize the stimulation of
his cock.  He started this routine and I was out of my mind.  I tried
flexing my asshole to contract when his cock was all the way in.  I felt
like such a whore that all I was a big pussy just for him.

I knew after he had withdrawn and repenetrated about ten times that quite a
bit of air would have gotten inside of me.  I then asked him to lay on me
for a minute with his cock all the way in me.  I told him I had a surprise
for him if he promised to fuck me the next day.  He said that I could not
be bothered making a commitment to a whore like me, but that if I ever
expected him to take me again, on his terms, I better give him the
surprise.  I asked him why he was so mean to me now when earlier in the
evening he had been so sweet, gentle and nice.  He told me that I must be a
whore because I love cock in my dirty backside.  He told me that I was such
a whore that maybe he would sell me to his friends and he would keep the
money.  I told him that if that would make him happy and to take care of
me, that I would serve whoever he told me to.

During this discussion he was laying on me with our perspiration melting
together until I felt like we were almost stuck together.  The pause in his
pumping me allowed me to build up a large fart, which I decided to let go.
My ass started a slight vibration around his cock as the air escaped and he
gasped when he realized what was happening.  The fart went on for fifteen
seconds.  About halfway through he groaned and then animal instinct caused
him to cry out in pleasure.  When it was over he continued to lay on my
back and I gently moved my ass in a circle, not saying anything.  He called
me baby and lover and said that the feeling was incredible.  He said that
it felt like he was getting a blowjob at the same time he was fucking.  He
told me that I could make a fortune with that trick.  He bit my shoulder
hard enough where I cried out.  He put his tongue in my ear which only
further fueled my lust.  I told him all I wanted was his cock and for him
to use me.  I told him that I was so grateful that he found me attractive
enough dressed as a woman to be stimulating and that he wanted me.  He told
me that he had friends that would find me attractive too and that maybe
they would all take me out.  I told him it would be hard for me to fuck
anyone else unless they understood my feminine needs and found me to be
sexy.  He assured me that they would all treat me like a lady until we got
into the bedroom.  I told him I would do whatever he wanted.

He said that after we had been out twice he began to think about my
capacities and my needs.  He said he had married friends who needed the
kind of passion and surrender I could offer.  He told me that maybe even
some of his friends would enjoy dressing up with me as their wives were
very uptight.  I told him that I would love to meet another man who would
dress up with me.  Maybe I could teach him how to be a pussy for men.  It
would be great for me to have an ass to fuck and someone who would like me
to fuck them as much as I like it.  I told him I would agree to private
sessions with any of his friends and that he could tell them anything goes.
I thought to myself that maybe I could find someone who would be as
appreciative of me as I was of him and that I could experience the passion
that I offer.  I told him that if we could get two or three of us who liked
being pussys and whores and getting fucked hard in the ass and sucking
cocks, that maybe we could start a club to travel together and offer our
services to appreciative men all over.

I was afraid to tell him that I had a very understanding girlfriend who
enjoyed my femininity and need to dress and act as a woman.  I keep her all
to myself.  I am lucky to have an understanding woman who are much more
difficult to find that a man who will fuck anything in a skirt, even if it
is another man.

He had now been in me for about an hour.  My ass was very loose and I could
hardly feel his cock unless he was pumping me. I told him I needed more
hard fucking.  He said that he did not care what I needed but that he would
pump me hard.  I then held on to the bed and further surrendered to his
assault.  He became very quiet and more intense.  His breathing quickened
and the pumping in my ass slowed down a bit.  I felt the telltale spasms
begin in my ass.  He digs his fingernails into my back and suddenly I felt
the warm feeling of liquid filling my ass. It feels like he is filling me a
gallon and I love it.  I try to contract my ass to suck it all out of him
at the same time I scream out with pleasure and gratitude for him doing
this to me.

Suddenly, he is finished with me.  He withdraws and tells me that I was
adequate, but that he expects more the next time.  I ask him what else I
could possibly offer.  He says to think of something.  He leaves me to
shower.  I am laying there desperately needing to come, yet not wanting to
spend my load.  I am covered with sweat, oil and his come.  My asshole is
throbbing and my cock is hard and in desperate need of relief.  However, I
quickly remember my proper place.  Even after an hour my asshole is
unsatisfied.  When he come out of the shower I rush over to him and take
his cock in my mouth.  He pushes me away and tells me he is expended.  I
beg him for more, but he tells me that he is satisfied and that I will have
to masturbate myself for relief when I get home.  He tells me to get
dressed and he takes me home.  On the way home he tells me that on our next
date he is going to have me dress up as his maid and that he will fuck my
ass while I am bent over making up his bed.  I again plead with him to put
his cock in my ass.  I tell him that maybe he could also put his arms
around me and jerk me off with his cock buried in my ass.  He laughed in
disbelief.  He said if he did anything like that he might reveal gay
tenancies and he was not gay.  I told him that we were just people and if
we could make each other happy, what difference did it make.  He said no.
He said this is another reason he should sell me to his friends.  Maybe I
could convert one of them into my girlfriend who would take care of me.  I
told him that he was right and that I was his slave.  I again asked him to
fuck my ass while I relieved myself.  He refused and took me home in
silence.

When I got home I have to go in through the garage so that none of my
neighbors suspect that I dress up.  When I get inside I decide I am too
excited to wait much longer.  I have a tremendous urge to pee as my bladder
is very full after an evening of drinking and sex.  I want to feel the warm
pee fill my panties, the sanitary pad and run down my nylons.  I stand in
the bathtub and think about the satisfying fucking I had just received and
how good my ass felt.  Finally, my urine begins to release and I flood my
garments with warm pee.  It runs all the way down my legs and drenches my
shoes.  When the flood subsides I stand in the pool of pee for several
minutes savoring the feeling and feeling somewhat degraded.  With all my
clothes on I turn on the shower and begin to clean up.

When I finish the shower I put my high heel sandals on and stand in front
of a full length mirror.  I take out a larger dildo and grease it up.  I
remove the smaller cock and balls dildo and quickly jam the larger dildo
in.  I watch this all in the mirror and imagine that my lover is again
taking me from behind.  I then straighten up and begin to work the dildo in
and out.  I grasp my cock and stroke its length firmly and regularly.  I
become very hard.  I now deserve to come.  I have been a woman all day.  I
have tried to be as pretty as possible.  I served my man as well as I knew
how.  Now it was my turn.  I quickened the tempo on my cock.  After three
more strokes, I gratefully exploded all over my hand and my legs.  I pick
up some of the come with my fingers and put it in my mouth so I could
swallow it.  I collapsed on my bed and fell fast asleep.