Date: Sun, 18 Nov 2007 21:25:07 +0000
From: Annie O <annie_00@hotmail.com>
Subject: TG\TV My new life - Part 1

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The following is an adult story. If you are not 18, you
cannot read it. If you are offended by sexually oriented
material, stop now.

My new life - Part 1 - Caught

I was sitting on the edge of my bed thinking about the past
6 months and how my life had changed.  "I'll be ready to go
shortly" I heard my mom call out from her bedroom.  "Ok mom"
I replied. My mother and I were going out to lunch then
shopping before I had to report for work at 7 this evening.
So I was sitting and relaxing and reflecting on the past.  I
was a different person now.

I lot had happened to me and my family in those 6 months.

I was a crossdresser on and off for as long as I could
remember.  It started when I was very young using my mom and
sister's panties and bras. As I got older and got a job I
began buying my own lingerie and clothing.  Like many others
I would dress repeatedly, and then purge my clothing and
stop crossdressing, only to come back to crossdressing with
even more intensity. As others have said; once a
crossdresser always a crossdresser.

I am 20 years old now, in college and a good looking guy in
my opinion. I date girls regularly, enjoy their company,
enjoy making out with them, but I always come back to
crossdressing.

So I decided several years ago to stop the purging and wait
to see if the urge to dress would subside.  It never did for
very long.  As a result I had acquired quite a large
wardrobe of clothing and toys that I liked using for my
pleasure. Living in a house with my mom and dad plus my
older sister had become a challenge hiding my stash, but I
had become very resourceful and disguised my possessions
very well.  No one had ever found them or so I thought.

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As I sat here on the bed, I remembered coming home one night
after school and seeing all of these boxes stacked by the
trash cans at the end of the driveway.  The family was
moving out of the house in 2 days because an addition was
going to be put on, so I new my parents were putting out
bits and pieces they no longer used.  But the boxes I was
looking at were too familiar; they looked like the ones I
was using to hide my things.  I looked closely and I was
almost certain. I did not want to stop and draw attention so
I tried to look unconcerned as I pulled into the garage.

I got out of the car and went in the house hoping to look in
the boxes later after dark.

My mom said "Hello.  Supper will be ready shortly. I am glad
to see you."

It was her usual greeting. My mom was always very kind and
understanding.  I can't remember her getting angry too many
times and the tone of her voice did not give a reason for
concern.

"What's for dinner?" I asked.

"A nice pot roast" was her response; she was a great cook
also.

"I see that you having been cleaning?" I said more of a
question.

"Yes, I found a number of boxes with things I had not seen
before, so I needed to clean up before the remodel"

"Oh" I said and I became very embarrassed and quiet.

We sat and ate our dinner just the two of us. My sister
Sarah and my father were away on business, so it was just my
mom and I.

"You are awfully quiet Daniel, anything wrong?" my mom
asked.

"No mom" I stuttered.

"You know Daniel I will always love you no matter who you
are!"  she commented.

My mom's comment just hit me very hard. It was an unusual
comment in one sense, but she was also very caring mother so
she would say kind things from time to time. But because I
was feeling very guilty, her comment was tearing me apart
inside, why did she say that and what is she thinking about
me I wondered. Maybe she did look in the boxes I hoped.

"That was an odd comment mom" I said.  She looked at me,
smiled and then kissed me on the cheek.

"Let's clean up the kitchen and then we can sit and talk
about our day" she said.

I felt the weight of the world suddenly fall on my
shoulders. We can talk about our day, I thought.

"Ok" I stammered.

We finished cleaning up and my mother sat down in the family
room.  She was in her early forties and quite attractive.
She worked as a consultant along with my father and older
sister, but today she was home with me.

"Would you like a glass of wine mom?" I asked barely getting
it out.

"Thank you Daniel and pour one for yourself as well, then
come in here and let's talk".

"Ok mom" I replied and I stalled for what seemed like an
eternity to keep from facing my mom.

I entered the family room and I handed her the galls of wine
and then I sat down and was very quiet. I did not want to
start a conversation, because I was afraid on the topic.

"Is there something I should know Daniel?" she asked.

"Like what mom?" I replied pretending I did not know what
the subject was about.

"Don't be afraid to talk to me Daniel, I've know about those
boxes for several years, mothers find everything you know"
she said with a smile.

"What boxes mom?" I replied and I stood and began pacing the
floor.

"The ones that are sitting out by the curb. They had your
picture dressed as a girl" she replied.

If she saw those pictures, she saw the other ones I had
taken of myself. They would not be flattering to a mother.

"Mom I don't know what to say, that was an old habit that I
grew out of several years ago, and I am sorry.  I am glad
that you threw the clothes out, I have wanting to do that
and have not had the chance.  I feel much better knowing
their gone."

"Daniel the picture of you in a bra, panties and a babydoll
with that thing in your mouth had last week's date on them
so you and I both know these aren't old. Don't worry I am
not here to scold you but to help you. I am your mother and
I still love you.  I am not ashamed of you in any way.  By
the way, I did not throw out your clothes.  I sent your
winter dresses, skirts and blouses to the cleaners.  The
summer ones I hung in your closet.  You have a lot of pretty
clothes, Sweetie, you and Sarah might be able to wear each
others clothes.  She would like some of your things!"  All I
could do was sit, listen, drink wine and feel sick to my
stomach.

"Your panties, bras, nylons and other lingerie I cleaned and
put in your dresser.  You need to take better care of your
clothing especially your lingerie; it is too expensive to
just toss it in a box. I'll help you with how to wash your
panties and bras later." She said.

I wanted to crawl in a dark hole as I heard talk so casually
about my possessions.

"Mom I can explain" I said.

"Shush Daniel, its ok" she comforted me.

"Mom I want to stop this, I don't know why I do it, I will
change" I yelled out as I kept pacing wildly.

"Daniel, sit here next to me." she said as she motioned me
to the chair next to her.

I walked over and sat down.

"So you want to stop dressing as a girl, right Daniel?" she
said.

"Yes mom" I replied.

"Do you really want to get rid of those cute dresses and
sexy panties and bras?" she asked.

I sat and did not reply, I knew that I loved pretending to
be a girl and I finally said in a very quiet voice "No mom,
I'm sorry and I know that you are ashamed of me but I like
dressing as a girl and I like fantasying about what they do
to boys. Please don't hate me mom, but I don't want to get
rid of my feminine clothes."

She smiled and said "It will be ok Daniel."

I suddenly felt very relieved like a big weight was taken
off me.  My mother finally knew about my dark secret and
what gave me pleasure and she was not angry with me.

"Mom what am I going to do? I can't keep my dresses hanging
in the closet and I drawer full of panties in my room, what
if dad or Sarah sees that, they will look at me like a
freak."

Mom replied "Your father and Sarah already know, we talked
about this for some time, they love you as I do and we will
not let anyone or anything hurt you."

"They know?" I said, as slumped down in my chair, I thought
that I would faint for sure.  I was going to be the laughing
stock of the family.

"It's ok Daniel, it will be ok" my mom said and then smiled.

"Now go upstairs and look in your dresser and in your
closet. I think that you will like what you see."

With that comment I slowly went to my room as a prisoner
would to jail, how did I let this secret get away I thought
to myself. I entered the walk in closet in my room and there
were my summer dresses, skirts and blouses hanging on one
side just as my mother had said.  My boy clothes were moved
to the other side.  I was shocked by what was there in the
open for anyone in my family to see, or anyone else that
came into my room.

I then walked to my dresser and nothing had changed and I
felt relieved but then I noticed a new piece of furniture.
It was narrow and I knew it was a lingerie dresser. I opened
the top drawer with a trembling hand and there were my
panties and I noticed the fragment smell of perfume.  It the
VS perfume I had bought and was afraid to use. It smelled
delicious and the drawer made me feel better.  I opened the
rest of the drawers and there where my bras, negligees,
babydolls, nylons and the rest of my lingerie all of which
smelled lovely and was all neatly folded and in place.

I felt myself get a little wet at the wicked thought I had,
but then I remembered my toys, they were not for the timid;
they were not flattering, pure filth. It was the dildos,
butt plugs, wigs and jewelry and I did not see any of it.
Thank god, my mom throw those out I thought, how would I be
able to face her otherwise.  Hopefully we would not talk
about it.

Then I heard her voice, I turned and I saw her leaning on
the door frame with her smile and glass of wine.

"Your didlo and butt plug are under your bed. After the
remodel is complete I will put the new furniture in that I
bought for your room today.  There is a sitting chair with a
foot rest and your toys will fit nicely in the foot rest. Do
you like the lingerie dresser and the dresses in your closet
Sweetie?" She had never called me sweetie before, so I let
the comment slide, but I did get a chill.

"Yes mom thank you this was a very nice gesture, but it is
overwhelming and scary." I replied.  How could I not say
thank you to someone that is being so nice too me?

"The wigs are being cleaned and we will set those on the
self in your closet. Did you see the jewelry case?" she
asked.

This was going too fast for me, I was getting light headed.

"No mom, where is it?" I asked in the most calming voice I
could use.

"Over there on the top of your chest on drawers" she
replied.  I had missed it.  All of my most secret passions
were now out on public display. Everything that I had owned
was now out for anyone to see and question and my female
personality and desires were no longer a secret.

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I was sitting and smiling a bit as I thought back. My 6
months can do to a person.  Just then my mom stepped into my
room,

"Wow Dani you look amazing.  Stand up and let me see" my
mother requested.

I did as she asked; I stood and slowly turned, then
curtsied. "Thank you mom, you look beautiful as well."

"We will make them all turn their heads won't we? Are you
ready to go?" I asked.

"Just a bit longer" she replied as she walked back to her
room.

So I sat back on the bed once again feeling really good
about her compliment and I started to recollect once again.

To be continued...