Date: Sun, 4 Jan 2009 13:03:13 -0800 (PST)
From: Fred Gingerman <gingerfred2005@yahoo.com>
Subject: Panty Pride -- transgender  -- tv

Panty Pride
by Gingerfred Man


Chapter One -- Mutual interest

   All your life, people tell you that you need to find others who share
your interests.

   Common ground.

   Birds of a feather. Flocking together.

   Sounds like a good idea, doesn't it?

   It is. Unless you're so ashamed of your "interest" that the mere act of
looking for someone who is like you foreshadows a pit of potentially abject
humiliation.

   Sure, it's no problem if you like to collect Crimean War hand weapons or
to needlepoint scenes from Charles Dickens novels. With the Internet, you
can match up with a gaggle of the similarly obsessive in no time.

   But what if you like to...you know...uh...well...wear women's panties?

   Obviously, this is no problem if you're a woman. Or even a girl. The
pantier the better, society says. But society makes a big, nasty frown if,
like me, you're a man who wears panties.

   Peter Pertbottom is my name. I'm 27 and I've always adored wearing
panties and <gasp> various women's things, like stockings, garter belts,
frighteningly high heels, slips, half slips, nighties, bras, bustiers,
waist cinchers and teddies.

   But I'm getting ahead of myself. Let's start with panties.

   I've worn panties just about every day of my life since my last "gym
day" in high school. This has had two major effects on my life. First, it
has terrified me about forming a relationship with a woman. I tried it,
without the panties, mind you, and chose the panties over the
relationship. Second, wearing panties and other feminine folderol has been
a constant and reliable source of sexual arousal for me, leading to an
immense number of stupendous, though self-inflicted, orgasms.

   So, you're asking yourself, what's Peter's sexual orientation? Good
question and one that I found puzzling as well. I mean, women excited me
sexually. The thought of making love to a woman was always part of my
fantasies. But in my dreams I was always as girlie as the woman I was
making love to. Did I want to "be" a woman for a rampant, rutting man? That
was also a part of many of my fantasies -- a very naughty part that I tried
to drive from my mind, but it always returned. My concerns were that men
would ridicule me and that, though I may have liked the idea of being with
a man, my natural heterosexuality would make the reality of it pretty
disgusting.

   The only thing I was pretty sure of was that it would be great to have
someone just like me to have girlish, cummy sex with. A psychologist might
say that I wanted to make love to myself (which was, in a way, what I was
already doing).

   It was all moot, because, if there was to be any risk in it at all, I
was far too chicken to take any steps to improve things for myself.

   Until I saw that ad.

   In my local newspaper.

   In the Sunday entertainment section.

   It said, without pictures or art, "Looking to meet other men who share
your enjoyment in wearing panties? Come to a nightly get-together at a
Panty Pride center, the national association for proud male panty
enthusiasts (or pantyists as we like to be called). Total discretion and
confidentiality." It gave an address (close to my home), phone number and
Web site.

   Was I seeing things?

   Was such a thing possible?

   One thing was certain. I could never visit such a place. My
reputation. My fear. Things were better left as they were.

   But it wouldn't hurt to visit the Web site. So I did.

   It was the oddest thing.

   There were pictures of men all over the site. Normal men doing normal
things. Chatting. Drinking beer. Watching sports on TV. In a normal,
VFW-Hall-type setting. And they were all wearing panties. Some had
stockings and garters and things. But many just wore panties and soft
slippers.

   They looked relaxed. They looked happy. Some were <gasp> erect in their
lovely panties!!

   Looking at that Web site made me frantically erect and needy. Thinking
about walking around as a free man. In my panties. Letting other pantied
men see me. Seeing other pantied men. Some of them getting erect from
looking at me, perhaps.

   Ohhhhhhh. I came hard in my panties, spurting out glob after glob of my
hot juices. Crying out, "Panty Pride" as I vowed to summon my courage and
visit the local center.



   Chapter Two -- Courage at last

   My courage took 17 days to build up, but I finally assembled the moxie
to keep my promise to myself.

   Seventeen days of reading everything I could find on the Internet about
Panty Pride. A New York Times review: "New nationwide club caters to men
who choose to express themselves through lingerie." The text of a Fox News
review: "Selfish hedonists promote godless activities in organized,
liberal-inspired debauchery."

   Seventeen days of surveilling the rather-non-descript building that
housed the local Panty Pride. Watching men enter and leave. Normal,
manly-looking men. Watching to see if police were surveilling the place. Or
blackmailers.

   The men who frequented the building didn't seem to worry about being
"outed." The reviews seemed to agree that no one was going to publicly
hanged on the Fourth of July for entering a Panty Pride facility.

   Still...I spared no caution. Waiting. Considering.

   Then, startling even myself, I decided to take the biggest leap of faith
of my life.

   At 5:03 p.m. on a Wednesday, I left my job, where I work as an
accountant for a manufacturing firm. Breathing only occasionally into a
brown paper bag, I decided to walk the 12 blocks from my office to Panty
Pride. Easier to see if someone was following me.

   No one was. I arrived at a spot across the street from Panty Pride with
my prettiest, sky-blue, satin, bikini panties under my navy-blue-suit
pants, caressing my private parts and not one plausible reason why I
shouldn't cross the street, enter a room, remove my pants and show my
panties to other men.

   Other men in panties. Tented panties. Looking at my tented panties,
which were getting significantly more tented by the minute.

   I crossed the Rubicon, also known as First Street , and walked past the
small "Panty Pride, lower level" sign and through the revolving door. Down
the stairs, moving quickly before my meager courage failed. Twenty feet
down the hall to a door on the right. "Panty Pride, Please join us," it
said.

   I was trembling, yet as resolute as possible for me, as I emerged from
the revolving door and thought I had arrived at the wrong place.

   There were no men such as myself. Merely two overly muscled young
fellows in tshirts that proclaimed: "Security."

   Was I in the building security office? Oh, how embarrassing if I were. I
would have to explain to these brawny men that I was looking for a place
where I could prance around in my panties. No way I would do that. I would
just bolt, run down the street, and join a monastery in Nepal . Or perhaps
Mars.

   But no.

   The larger of the two lads said, in a very kind voice, "You have the
right place, sir. This is Panty Pride. Would you please fill this out to
register as a new member? I'll also need your $50 registration fee and $20
for this session, please."

   So polite. So understanding. So...manly. And firm in manner.

   I did what he said. Quickly. Then he said. "Thank you, Peter. My name is
Eric. My associate is Walter. Do you have your panties with you, or would
you like to purchase a pair...size 8, I believe."

   He knew my size!

   I blushed and stammered, "I have my...things, thank you."

   Eric smiled. "I thought so. Here are your complimentary soft
slippers. You'll want to wear them, unless you brought your stockings and
heels. And here's your locker key. Just go through that door to the locker
room, put your things in the locker, apply your make-up at the row of
vanities if you wish, and go through to the main room. Since it's your
first time, Walter or I can take you through the locker room and into the
main room."

   Was Eric flirting with me?!?!

   Oh my!

   And I was still just in the reception area.

   I followed Eric into the locker room, then blushed furiously as he
watched me strip to my panties. Eric, that handsome, muscular man, was the
first person to ever see me in my panties. And he appeared to be fascinated
by what he saw.

   Oh the shame!

   How delicious it was!

   Someone seeing me in my most basic, feminine state. Looking at
me. Smiling. Was he being friendly, or was he...admiring me? What if he was
admiring me? What would I do? What would I want to do? What if Eric forced
me -- took advantage of me?

   I shuddered, then began to quiver a bit as I contemplated the room I was
about to enter. If it was anything like the scenes I had seen on the Web
site, there were lots of men in there. Men in panties.

   Men like me.

   "You look very nice, Peter," Eric said. "You'll be very popular in the
main room. The 'guys' are very nice. You'll like them. And I know they'll
like you. Will you stop by and say goodbye to me on the way out?"

   I nodded shyly. I was sure of it. Eric was flirting with me! Did I
really look that good? Or did Eric say that to all the "girls?" Why did
Eric want me to say goodbye to him? Did he like me? Ohhhh. I felt as if I
were in high school again. Wondering who "liked" me.

   Just as my overheated brain was processing all the new stimuli, Eric
opened the door to the main room and gestured for me to go through it.

   The second Rubicon. With many more to come, no doubt.

   I walked into the room and saw -- not much.

   It was a non-descript, club room. Couches, chairs, lamps, tables,
plants. A long bar. Two big-screen TVs at either end.

   And no people.

   I looked back at Eric, who said, comfortingly, "It's early, Peter. It
usually gets busy about an hour or so from now. There are usually a few
guys here early. And Andy the bartender is almost always here. Oh, I almost
forgot to tell you the rules. Just two, really. Keep your panties on for
now and keep your 'package' in your panties. Bye."

   What did that mean? Why wouldn't I keep my panties on? Why would I show
my "delicates" to the other "pantyists?" I was about to ask him for some
clarification, but he closed the door. Leaving me, alone and pantied, to
face a new world.

   I was quaking a little in very real fear. And my popsy was drooping from
dread. I needed a drink. And that Andy guy was around somewhere, Eric said.

   Eric was right. I heard some clinking and noticed a nice-looking, 40-ish
man stacking and cleaning glasses. Just a normal bartender, except that he
was wearing red, string-bikini panties, thigh-high black stockings and
two-inch-stiletto pumps.

   Oh my.

   Definitely a new world and I was about to make "first contact" with an
indigenous species.

   I stood there waiting for Andy to notice me. When he did, his reaction
startled me. He actually wolf-whistled at me! I blushed crimsonly.

   "Hello there, Cutie," Andy said. "Welcome to Panty Pride. Oh, I'm
sorry. I'm embarrassing you. It's just that we don't play games here. If we
think someone looks good, we tell him. And you look really good. Can I get
you a beer? First one of the membership is free. After that, I run a tab,
but I figure you won't ever pay for a drink here. The guys will be climbing
all over each other to pay for your booze."

   That would have been the moment to run out of there. I had met two
people at Panty Pride and they both foreshadowed a "popular" future for
me. Was I ready for that? Not really. Popular had always evaded me. I
didn't know how to be popular. It was a whole new set of rules.

   I guess I had better share a bit more about myself with you. I'm 5'10"
and 145 pounds. Slender and with minimal body hair. People have been
telling me all my life that I'm very cute for a male. Some, especially my
mother, have even hinted that I would be cute even for a female. My
features are somewhat feminine and, in the rare times that I made myself up
totally as a woman, I was quite pleased with the results.

   Having someone else affirm all that was having quite an effect on
me. Especially on my vigorously resurrected penis.

   Oh, about my penis. Nothing special. About five inches erect -- three
when soft. Circumcised. Small testicles in a nice pink bag.

   Much smaller than what I was observing grow in Andy's panties. He was
getting erect looking at me!! No one had ever done that, as far as I knew,
in my whole life. I was simultaneously flattered and terrified.

   Apparently it was true. I was cute. At least to two guys who saw men in
panties every day at their workplace.

   It was also quite strange to me that I thought Eric and Andy were cute
too. Andy was even wearing a bit of lipstick and some blush!

   I had been at Panty Pride for 20 minutes and I was already having the
oddest/scariest/best experience of my life.

   And the evening was only beginning.

   Andy had completely stopped setting up the bar and was giving me the
ocular onceover. Twiceover even.

   He said, "I'm sorry if I'm being forward, but you look so pretty in
those panties. Could you give me a 360? I mean, spin around slowly for me?"

   In for a penny, in for a panty. Thrilled, yet humiliated, I
spun. Slowly. When my back was to Andy, he said, "Stop. Please. Wow. You
have a lovely bottom and it looks spectacular in those panties. Your plump
cheeks fill those blue bikinis perfectly. I love the way you show just
about a half-inch of 'crack' at the top of your silky treasures in the
back. You're a little teaser, aren't you?"

   Was I? Had I shown my crack on purpose? I didn't know. Was I really a
little teaser? How unlike me. How naughty.

   Andy went on, "I really have to set the bar up, but will you make sure
you say goodbye to me before you leave?"

   I nodded. Men were setting up "goodbye" appointments with me. How did I
feel about that?

   No time to sort it out because at that moment, the regular crowd began
to swish, not shuffle in. Three men chatting vigorously burst through the
door. All wearing panties. One, like me, was in just panties and soft
slippers. One had stockings, a garter belt and very high, strappy stiletto
sandals. The other was wearing a pink bustier above his panties and soft
slippers.

   When they saw me, the conversation stopped.

   And stared.

   "Garter Belt" said, "You must be Peter. Eric's been telling everyone
about you at the security desk. He wasn't exaggerating. You're very dishy."

   Oh my.

   "Bustier" was even more enthusiastic. "I agree. And I'll bet you've
never shown yourself off to anyone before. You're so deliciously innocent."

   "Just Panties" made an interesting observation. "I think you're excited
by all this attention, Peter. Not only are your panties tented, your
nipples are very hard and erect."

   Sensory overload.

   I became aware that my stiff, needy peeny was making a big sticky spot
all over my "panty point." It was mortifying to think that others might
notice. What would they think of me?

   Then I noticed that they were stiff too, and their "pretties" were as
moist as mine.

   It seemed I had an effect on my fellow pantyists.

   Who knows what would have happened with those three cute men if lots
more fellows hadn't come streaming in at that point. Over the next 20
minutes, more than 40 pantied men filled the room. And each one made a
point of introducing himself to little old me.

   I guess at that point, I wondered, "What happens next?" Would we just
flirt and preen? Or would there be "more?" My peeny was quite needy and my
balls were getting uncomfortably swollen with heavy desire for something
vague but insistent. Eric had told me to keep my panties on and apparently
that was a firm rule at that wonderful place.

   But about 40 minutes after I arrived, the mood in the room began to
change. Most of the pantyists were chatting or watching sports on TV. Some
were more...active.

   I first 1noticed it when I saw two cute pantyists standing belly-to
belly, rubbing pantied peenies and <gasp> kissing!!!!

   That was horribly gay! And right out in the open. But the jaws of hell
did not open up to swallow them. Even when the first one cried out and
began to fill his panties with warm juices. Or when the second one joined
the first in pantied ecstasy.

   The odd thing was that no one seemed to notice. As if that sort of thing
happened all the time.

   "Oh," I thought, "If only something that delicious would happen to me."

   As hormones spilled over, more pantyists began to pair up. Some were
delicately manipulating each other's silk-covered
treasures. Rubbing. Teasing.

   Some were kissing.

   I stared in wonder until I heard, "Peter, would it be all right if I
touched your nipples? They're so lovely. And so erect and needy."

   I looked at the source of that sweet question and was intensely pleased
with what I saw.

   A pretty, girlish young fellow in a wispy, aubergine bra, matching
g-string panties, tan, seamed stockings and four-inch-stiletto mules was
looking at me hopefully. His big, liquid eyes were made up perfectly and
his lips were glossed invitingly.

   I almost drenched my panties just looking at him.

   Then he smiled. "My name is Francis and you're the cutest new member
we've ever had. Please let me give you a little pleasure."

   All I could do was moan softly in surrender.

   Francis took that as assent. Oddly, he stepped behind me. Then I saw
why. The naughty man rubbed his pantied cock in the pantied crack of my
bottom as he took each of my tender nipples between a thumb and forefinger.

   I gasped and surrendered to the assault on my virtue. Eager
capitulation.

   Francis tickled and rubbed my aroused nubs for several minutes as he
told me how pretty and feminine I was.

   I was soon losing the last of my reserve as my masculinity packed up and
left the building. After three or four truly delicious moments, I felt the
first, stern warning of an impending orgasm.

   Francis kissed my warm neck as he tormented my titties and rubbed his
silky cock around my private property.

   The second, more insistent warning.

   Panting with lust, I turned my head back toward Francis. The bad boy met
my lips with his as he dropped his right hand around my pantied
pricklet. Rubbing, kissing.

   I squealed, then spurted glob after girlish glob into my overchallenged
dainties. Gasping. Drowning with ecstasy. For the first, real time in my
life -- an orgasm with another person. Then, to make things even better,
Francis squealed and began to fill his own panties with his hot, sticky
cream. Moistening the rear of my panties as the front was drenched with my
own semen.

   "Let's get out of here," Francis breathed.

   "Oh yes!" I answered breathlessly.

   Chapter Three -- Francis

   Ten minutes later, I was seriously questioning my sanity.

   I was sitting in the passenger seat of Francis' car, driving
who-knew-where. In our fog of lust, Francis and I had somehow gotten our
boy clothes over our frillies and staggered past a disappointed Eric, to
the parking lot and out into the night.

   I was riding with a man who wanted to do things to my body.

   Things I would probably adore and remember all my life.

   But what if Francis were a sicko or a blackmailer or, even worse...gay?

   Looking at him in his male drab, he didn't look that attractive or worth
the risks he presented.

   Thank goodness I maintained a firm mental picture of what he looked like
as a pretty girl. And how he had begun to make love to me.

   Did Francis have a plan? If so, he hadn't shared it. In fact, we hadn't
said ten words since we left the main room of Panty Pride.

   Francis had undaintily wiped his make-up off and hastily dressed. Like
me, his panties were heavy with cum.

   He obviously wanted to take me somewhere where we could remove our
panties and "do things." What things? Would I like them?

   It was all very scary.

   But I wasn't resisting.

   Two blocks from Panty Pride, Francis spoke. "I can't take you home,
Honey. My wife does volunteer work on Wednesday nights, my Panty Pride
night, but she could come home at any time and catch us in bed. I know a
motel where they don't ask too many questions, if that's OK with you."

   Francis was married?

   To a woman?

   I hadn't considered that. Actually I hadn't considered much.

   My cock was doing all the thinking at that point.

   I still think it was my cock that blurted out something that I
immediately regretted: "We could go to my apartment."

   Great. Now I was taking a probably-gay, potential serial-killer to my
apartment.

   I was stunned that I had said what I said. But Francis seemed more
stunned than I.

   "You're single?" he asked, wide-eyed. "You have your own place and
you've never 'entertained' a 'girl-like-us' before?"

   Gee. Had I done something wrong?

   Francis saw my puzzlement and scrambled to make me feel better. "Sorry,
Honey," he said. [I liked when he called me "Honey."] "I just thought
someone as pretty as you would be married. The pretty ones almost always
have wives. And I'm shocked that you never had anyone to your apartment for
girlish fun. Now that I think about it, I'm very honored. And even
hornier. I'll do whatever you like and stop when you say 'no.' I promise."

   I believed him. And relaxed perceptively.

   Fifteen minutes later, Francis had parked the car and we were opening my
apartment door.

   Thank goodness I had tidied up and changed the sheets that
morning. Almost as if I had planned on bringing someone like Francis
home. Who knows what kinds of things had rumbled through my strange brain?

   What was I supposed to do next? The answer was to submit to Francis.

   "Let's girlie up before we get serious, Sweetheart," he said. "Can I
borrow some fresh panties? We're both a size 8, I think. I'm going to
freshen my make-up too. Would you like to 'do' your face a bit?"

   Whatever you say, Francis, I thought happily. I led Francis into my
bedroom, then fetched white, g-string panties for Francis and pink bikinis
for myself.

   I then soaped up a damp washcloth for each of us and went into the
bathroom to clean my privates, make my face and dress the way I loved to
dress.

   When I emerged, I was wearing a pink babydoll nightie over my pink
panties. My face was a feminine masterpiece. And I was horny as a Sousa
march.

   Seeing Francis quadrupled my randiness.

   He had found one of my nighties and sluttied up his make-up most
tastily.

   I was about to sample the full joys of male lesbianism.

   With a man about whom I knew five things -- his first name, his marital
status, the kind of car he drove, the kind of clothes he liked to wear and
the fact that he was very hot for me.

   So much blood had rushed to my own penis that I was facing erotic
anemia.

   Francis gasped when he saw me. My cock twitched when I saw him.

   He moved toward me, took me into his girlish arms, and kissed me
deeply. I moaned and opened my mouth to accept his sweet tongue.

   We swam in a hazy pond of pantied passion.

   Glossed lips burning glossed lips.

   Silken nighties pressing against each other's torsos. Stiff cocks
rubbing through our feminine frillies. Licking the inner regions of each
other's mouths.

   My ears were on fire and I was ready, I thought, for just about any
loving activity. If Francis wanted me to, I could even take his "dirty
thingee" into my mouth and suck it until he spurted.

   But first things first.

   Francis was at least as excited as I was, but he seemed to know the
steps to the dance we were about to perform.

   The first thing he did was to disengage from our embrace, then lead me
gently but firmly to my bed. He eased me onto my back, then peeled my
nightie up to expose my flat tummy and my <gasp> erect little tittie bumps.

   Francis assaulted my nipples with his tongue and lips. With his very
soul. The girlish man was ravenous for me.

   I grunted and squealed, enduring the sweet torment with awe and complete
surrender.

   At that moment, I was a woman in sexual congress with another gorgeous
female. And in that congress, there were no taxes, no empty rhetoric, and
no deficit. Though, by the feel of Francis' pantied cock rubbing against my
leg as he adored my left nipple, there was plenty of pork.

   Francis was frantic with lust and so was I.

   Moments before I would have fainted from his nippular attacks, Francis
withdrew his mouth from my erect, sensitive nubbies. He looked into my eyes
in a way that made me think that I was the most important person in the
world to him. Then he slowly, carefully removed my panties to expose my
pretty jewels.

   Blushing furiously, I covered my face in shame at my nakedness. We
hadn't known each other an hour and my unadorned, erect cock and pretty
pearls were revealed to my newest friend.

   How brazen and trampy I was.

   And how delighted by Francis' gasps of pleasure as he drank in the sight
of my girlish excitement for him.

   "You have the prettiest package I've ever seen, darling," the flatterer
said.

   "Tell me more about how beautiful I am," I thought, but didn't say.

   Instead, Francis showed me.

   Francis gently and sweetly took my right testicle into his mouth and
licked it, slowly and sensuously. Tonguing. Then withdrawing and kissing
the sweet sphere gently.

   Ohhhhhhhh.

   When he offered a similar enjoyment to my left testicle, I arched my
back, screamed and helplessly pumped out jet after jet of stored-up girlie
cream.

   All over my soft, warm tummy. Welling up in my belly button.

   Merciful release.

   Why had I screamed?

   It seemed like the right thing to do as a girl, my new, lesbian lover,
licked and sucked my pink purse.

   Francis was delighted at my trigger-happy, frantic orgasm. Even before I
stopped pumping hot juices, the bad girl ran his hot tongue around my pink
knob. Then <blush> he began to lick up the spunky river that streamed
almost up to my neck.

   He was swallowing my sperm!!

   I guess at that time I didn't know people did that for each other.

   So intimate.

   So deliciously DIRTY!

   I whimpered unmanfuly throughout the entire process. Then, suddenly,
Francis was on top of me. Kissing me with his cummy mouth. Rubbing his
pantied cock against my sticky drooper.

   It's amazing that I didn't swoon.

   As it was, I had just enough of my wits about me to propose to Francis
that I do something nice for him in return.

   Francis immediately stopped his assault on my withering virtue and lay
on his back.

   Awaiting my attentions.

   Trouble was, I wasn't sure what to do.

   The first order of business seemed obvious though. Get Francis' panties
off and see what I was dealing with.

   Francis gave me complete access, holding his forearms up in sissy
surrender.

   Francis' white, g-string panties were severely strained by what appeared
to be a very significant and extraordinarily stiff penis.

   I couldn't wait to perform a thorough inspection.

   Francis was making girlie-little-pleasure noises as I carefully untied
the panty strings at each of his hips. Then I peeled back the sticky, gauzy
fabric covering Francis' precious goodies.

   Oh.

   For someone as girlie as Francis, his cock and balls were quite
manly. And large. And dark. And hairy.

   Francis' cock was thick, long, veined and angry-looking.

   His hairy balls were huge. Hanging arrogantly. Engorged with cum.

   My first thought was, his wife was a lucky woman. What a shagging that
monster could give a woman.

   Then I wondered, did Francis shag his wife? Being all manly when he did
it? Making her submit to him? Pumping big globs of sperm into her wet
pussy?

   Oh, I was stiff again, just thinking about it.

   Then I thought, I was the lucky one at that moment. Francis' cock was
stiff and throbbing and it was all mine!

   Gently, I held Francis' heavy bag in my soft hand. Stirring the
contents. Watching Francis squirm with lust. Feeling the power of being in
control of another person's pleasure.

   Poor Francis' huge prick was leaking juices. And he was in great
distress.

   Mercifully, I helped him ease his joyful misery.

   And it was so easy.

   I laid my hand on Francis cockhead. The first time I had touched a cock
other than my own.

   It was warm and, despite its diamond hardness, velvety smooth. Francis
moaned audibly when I massaged the sensitive head, then leaned over to give
him a sweet kiss on his full, red lips.

   I adored every moment of it.

   As we kissed and I rubbed Francis' goo all over his pink knob, I felt as
if I had taken a huge leap off a very steep cliff. I had slipped the surly
bonds of my old life and the ground was rapidly advancing toward me. Would
the ground of my new life embrace me or would it crush my skull?

   Heady questions, but nowhere near as pressing as the question of how
best to bring Francis to a screaming orgasm.

   Did Francis want me to interrupt my exquisite handjob and take his fat,
wet glans into my mouth? Could I do that? Did I want to?

   Ah, Eros himself saved me from all that conjecture. Francis gasped
through our deep kiss and began to drench my pumping hand with his scalding
goo. He almost swallowed my tongue as his mammoth balls emptied their
creamy contents.

   The real question was, why had I waited until I was 27 years old to find
someone like Francis?

   I teasingly dipped my fingers into the reservoir of semen on Francis'
hairy stomach, then rubbed my sticky digits all over Francis' aching, empty
balls.

   Should I taste his sperm? Push my face into his crotch and lick up all
his naughty spendings?

   Again I was saved from my deliberations when Francis did two things in
succession -- one most welcome, the second very disappointing.

   First, Francis renewed his command, easing me onto my back, then
kneeling next to me. Was he going to...?

   He was.

   He took my half-soft, fully tingly cock between his lips and gave my
knoblet his full oral attention.

   A girlish man whom I had met that evening was sucking my cock.

   What would Emily Post say about the etiquette of the situation. A thank
you note was clearly in order. At least. And some form of reciprocation.

   But there was time for the tribal aspects of the ritual later.

   At that moment, for the first time in my life, my cock was in someone's
mouth.

   As I imagine you would know, it was quite an enjoyable experience. For
me, certainly. Apparently for Francis as well, if his enthusiasm for the
task was an adequate barometer.

   Francis was an excellent fellatrix. I had no frame of reference at that
time. All I knew was that my cock was being pleasured very, very well.

   And I felt what was happening to my cock in every flaming crevice of my
body. A body that had endured two heaving cums over the past two hours. And
was inching toward a third.

   Francis involved the entire cock in his slurpy attentions. Not just the
head, as many fellatrices will preach. His theory -- the entire cock is
embraced by the vaginal walls -- which is, after all, the penis' basic,
intended use.

   Francis' head bobbed on my itsy-bitsy peeny. His tongue mimicked, yet
surpassed the actions of a pussy's walls.

   But enough about fellatial theory. The practitioner was driving me half
mad with pleasure.

   I often wonder why my neighbors didn't call the police that night. I'm
sure they thought, from all the screaming, that I was being
murdered. Apparently, that prospect did not alarm or even disconcert them.

   Francis sucked and slurped and licked and put me into a spurting,
exhausting frenzy, where every spermal corpuscle left my body, as did a
great deal of my declining reservoir of masculinity.

   When my spirit rejoined my body, I was ready to do my amateurish best to
lick and suck his stiff beast.

   But then he did that bad thing I foreshadowed earlier.

   He left.

   "This has been the best night of my life, Honey," he said. "Better than
my wedding night. And you're precious to me. But I have to get home before
my wife does. If I don't shower and butch up, she'll know before she comes
in the door that I've been rolling around in cum all night. And I'm not
ready for that yet. I'll be back at Panty Pride next Wednesday. I hope
you'll be there."

   Bummer.

   He likes me better than his wife, but he's afraid she'll find out about
me. How many mistresses have heard that one?

   Not that I was his mistress.

   Before I could work up a good protest or a better pout, Francis had
kissed me and was gone.

   Slam, bam.

   Is that all there is? Until next Wednesday?

   Apparently so.

   But maybe not.



   Chapter Four -- Not, indeed.

   The next 48 hours were odd indeed.

   The first eight of those passed very quickly, since the emotion and
exertion of the night had exhausted me. After Francis closed the door
behind his fleeing bottom, I stood there and stamped my little feet a
bit. Felt way sorry for myself.

   Then, avoiding mirrors, I flung myself into bed, closed my eyes and fell
into a deep sleep.

   When I awoke at six the next morning, my first feeling was one of shame.

   I had been a stupid, indiscreet, gay, little sissy faggot. I had
compromised my pride and masculinity for a few cheap orgasms. The mirror
confirmed my hypothesis. I was a man with morning beard and a pink
nightie. Smeared lipstick. Sticky, dried cum all over my pubic area.

   It was horrid.

   And it was ending right then.

   No more sissying up.

   No more girlie stuff.

   And especially no more Panty Pride or that faggy Francis. With his big
cock and his talented, though gay mouth.

   That was over.

   That night, when I got home from work, I was burning all my panties and
frillies and taking my computer to the landfill.

   As soon as I got home. That night.

   And no panties to work that day. Boxers. Dirty ones, if possible. If I
could find some.

   It had been a while since I had worn anything but panties.

   I found a pair of old boxers, showered and "butched up" for work and for
the rest of my life.

   Filled with resolve.

   And I stuck with it. All day. Mostly. Though I had to adjust my
"package" now and then in the unfamiliar boxers. My "things" just weren't
comfortable in them. Maybe I would get some cotton briefs. Or wouldn't that
be manly enough? I was all for being the manliest I could be. Forever.

   Anyway, on the way home from work to purge the girlish parts of my life
forever, I stopped off at my local newsstand to get some reading
material. To distract myself from that girly stuff that used to tempt
me. Before.

   I went directly to the manly magazine section and picked up "Cigar
Addict," "Steroids Quarterly," and "Aggressive Alpha Asshole." Good, solid
stuff.

   How that other magazine fell in with my purchases, I'll never know.

   It was right in the manly section too. So I must have grabbed it
unwittingly.

   Completely unwittingly.

   Just a coincidence that it was what it was.

   "Panty Enthusiast: the Official Publication of Panty Pride."

   A man on the cover.

   In panties.

   Just panties.

   Smiling.

   So cute and comfortable in his skin. And his panties.

   I never knew such a magazine existed. I really needed to get out more.

   The "cover boy" was identified as "Nigel -- Liverpool , England ."

   So Panty Pride was international.

   Nigel was VERY cute. I found myself speeding to get home so that I could
investigate those other three magazines thoroughly. Purging my mind and
body of those pantied persuasions that seemed to resist purging.

   It didn't bode well for my future manliness when I locked my apartment
door, stripped off all my clothes as I beelined for my bedroom and lay on
my back on the bed. The bed where Francis and I had been so deliciously
intimate less than 24 hours earlier.

   Nor did it bode well when I realized that the only magazine that I
seemed to have brought to bed with me was "Panty Enthusiast."

   The boding was pretty much one-sided when I held the magazine with my
left hand and rubbed my pink parts with my right. I didn't really even open
it. Just looked at the cover picture of Nigel.

   Nigel was about my age. Maybe a bit younger. And he had a very cute
face. His panties were even cuter. Pink and sheer. With lacy, white trim.

   And he filled them very nicely. Was I a bad person because I took a long
look at the erect posture of Nigel's cock? How could I miss it? I mean it
was so big! And leaking furiously, if the sticky stain at the "point" of
the panties was any indication.

   Nigel was the kind of man I could meet at my local Panty Pride. That
very night, if I wanted to. Francis was home with his wife, probably
sticking that big cock into her pussy. Making her moan. And cum. Maybe he
was even putting that big cock into her bottom! What made me think of that?

   I began to wonder what it would be like to be in bed with Nigel. Maybe I
should open the magazine and see what I could learn about Nigel.

   Hmmm. Page 35. There it was. Oh. "British Baby," was the name of the
pictorial. It showed Nigel posing in a number of lovely pairs of
panties. In every picture, Nigel had a big stiffie.

   There was a model who enjoyed his work.

   On the seventh page of the extensive pictorial, the tenor of the article
changed. Not that Nigel was a tenor. He looked more like a baritone to
me. Anyway, Nigel was shown in the act of changing panties. Which meant I
got a really good view of Nigel in his natural state.

   He gave the camera the cutest, most sheepish smile as, with panties down
to mid-thigh, Nigel "stood" for all to see.

   Nigel's thick foreskin was all the way back and his pink, leaky peelips
were in clear view.

   I thought about what it would be like to put my girlish hand around that
pretty pole and give it a proper seeing-to.

   It was such a gay, unmanly thought. And it was that single, naughty idea
that made me step up my gentle wanking pattern into a purposeful pumping.

   I turned the page. Francis, I mean Nigel, who was obviously furiously
excited by the act of displaying his femininity to the panty-loving world,
was cumming in big globs. Right at the camera.

   What else could I do? I came too. Hard. Pumping my sissyish cream all
over myself. Surrendering to who and what I really was. Pretenses dropped
as thoroughly as I planned to drop my panties at Panty Pride the following
night.

   At least that was a resolution I knew I could keep.



   Chapter Five -- Friday Night Flits

   The next morning, I was a new girly man. I got up early, showered,
shaved my legs and painted my toenails. As I eased on a silky pair of
reinforced-heel-and-toe, seamless, black stockings and hooked my garter
belt. I began to wonder what my co-workers would think if they knew what
their fellow toiler had on under his suit pants. Some would be
appalled. But just as many would be, I imagined, fiercely aroused.

   Panty selection took a bit of time. But I decided on a lacy pair of
black dazzlers, which I slipped on over my garter belts straps. I packed a
pair of stiletto sandals under my baloney sandwich in my briefcase and
hoped that the day would go quickly.

   It didn't. But 5 p.m. eventually arrived. And so did 6. I wasn't going
to be pathetically early the way I was the first time. I wanted to make an
entrance.

   I pulled into a parking space across from Panty Pride at 6:12.

   The corrida awaited. But was I to be the matador or the bull?

   And did a matador wear panties under his "Suit of Lights?"

   All good questions, but pretty useless for what I was about to do.

   I descended the stairs, went down the hall and opened the door to Panty
Pride.

   Oh my. Eric was there. And that other guy -- Walter or something. It was
pretty busy in the security anteroom, but Eric stopped everything when he
saw me.

   "Peter!" the burly young Eric said. "It's wonderful to see you again. I
was afraid you were scared off after the first night. Panty Pride is not
for everyone. But we're all hoping it's for you. I hope you had a good
experience with Francis."

   Gee. So much information. Eric seemed a bit smitten with little old
me. And, he hinted, so was much of the membership. How terribly flattering.

   I just sort of nodded. Eric beamed.

   "Say, Peter," Eric ventured. "Would you like to get a cup of coffee
sometime on Saturday? I'm off all day."

   Was a man asking me out? As a man would ask a woman? How strange! How
horribly exciting!

   All I could do was just stare at him. Or so I thought. Apparently, I
must have nodded my assent, because Eric's face lit up and he said,
"Wonderful! I'll see you at noon tomorrow at the Starbuck's on 23rd Street
. Do you know where that is?"

   There I was nodding again. I knew where the Starbuck's was, but I didn't
want to meet a man there. A man who wanted me as a woman. That was what
Eric wanted, wasn't it? And I didn't want that, right?

   I should have told Eric that, but I seemed to neglect the delivery of
that message.

   He got busy at the counter collecting dues and such and it appeared I
had a date with a man the next day.

   What to do?

   At the moment, what I did was to go into the locker room and girlie up.

   I had shaved my face before I left work, and I had panties, stockings,
garters and heels under my boy clothes. So all I had to do was strip and
enter the panty pit.

   But I couldn't resist putting on some foundation, lipstick and blush and
doing my eyes.

   My chest was bare and titless and I had a head of boy hair, but, when I
slipped my stiletto sandals on, I was a very hot-looking chicklette.

   I took a deep breath, opened the door and entered the pantied gathering
room.

   I don't want to say every head turned. Some of the heads were involved
in naughty things. But most of the pantyists in the room gave me a large
slab of their attention.

   Something like that does a lot for a fellow's ego. My ego needed all the
help it could get.

   I didn't recognize many of the faces or pantied penises from Wednesday
night. I guessed that most of the pantyists were like Francis -- married
and sneaky. But the word about me was apparently out.

   Two pantied patrons moved my way.

   "Hello, Gorgeous!" a 40-something fellow in a full slip and tan,
reinforced-heel-and-toe stockings said.

   "Yes, Hello," a 30-something cutie in a purple teddy and matching
panties echoed.

   My small-talk gene was apparently recessive. Theirs was in complete
control of their personalities.

   "You weren't here last Friday, were you?" Full Slip said to me.

   I shook my head. Cutely, it seems, since I couldn't help noticing the
twitching in Full Slip's panties.

   Purple Teddy smiled broadly and said, "You must be the Peter everyone's
talking about. It's wonderful that you've joined us. Can I buy you a
drink?"

   Again, all I seemed to be able to do was nod. By then the word must have
been out at Panty Pride that I was not only vastly cute, but equally stupid
and inarticulate -- a heady combination for many of those of the XY
persuasion.

   Purple Teddy led me to the bar, where Andy the bartender smiled and
welcomed me back. "Amstel Light, isn't it, Peter? And by the way, you look
extra-delicious tonight. I hope I can see you later."

   Goodness. Everyone wanted me. I was the belle with the balls.

   I sipped my Amstel Light as Purple Teddy, who introduced himself as "
Gary ," engaged me in conversation about himself. Married. Two
kids. Broker. House in suburbs. Tells wife he has a poker game on Friday
nights with three other guys, including Full Slip, who attend Friday Panty
Pride sessions.

   Well, I wasn't about to be a home wrecker, but he was sort of cute. And
I was randy as Dennis Quaid's brother.

   Gary sort of steered me to a couch area where several guys were sort of
watching a college basketball game on a bigscreen TV. There was also quite
a bit of outside-the-panties fondling and even some very hot kissing.

   It wasn't as if Gary and I were running away together or anything. Just
sitting on the couch. Him talking. Me sipping my beer and listening to what
a genius his second-grade daughter was. Then feeling his soft fingers on my
pantied cock. Stroking me. Exciting me. Making me drip and gasp.

   I guess I'm a bit of a tart, because I sort of reached over and stroked
Gary 's cock through his panties as he stroked mine. Making him actually
stop talking (thank goodness) and just sort of squeak as I tickled his
glans with my girlish fingers.

   It was very exciting. I was in that stage of high excitement right
before the cum warnings are issued. Building toward frenzy, but not there
yet. When Gary moved in for a kiss, touching his hot, glossed lips to mine,
I groaned softly. It was delicious.

   Was I going to surrender what remained of my virtue to any pantyist who
made a move on me?

   Apparently so.

   And apparently, I was going to enjoy it immensely.

   Gary 's kissing and peeny-petting had me in a solid dither and I
appeared to be headed for the messing of yet another pair of precious
panties. But then, unexpectedly to me, at precisely seven o'clock, a soft
bell rang.

   The room full of pantied Pavlovs did two things. First, they groaned. In
apparent disappointment, not lust. Second, they stopped whatever they were
doing -- naughty or benign -- stood and sissied out of the gathering room,
through a door and into a large room filled with chairs and headed by a
dais and a podium.

   I was reminded of the scene in "The Time Machine," where the beautiful
Eloi, at a auditory signal, stopped enjoying their idyllic lives and
marched off to the Moorlocks' evil clutches.

   But nothing that awful was about to happen, was it?

   Like everyone else in the world with a penis, I HATE to be interrupted
when I'm in the pre-orgasmic state that Gary and I were entering. But the
entire membership seemed to find something worth stopping for. And I was
curious about what it was.

   Gary explained. "This is a really special night for our group, Sweetie,"
he said. "Our international president, Luke, is here tonight."

   Luke?

   There he was. Standing at the podium, saying, "All, right girls. Take
your seats. And no 'slap and tickle' during the meeting. Plenty of time for
that after. Let's have some pride. Panty pride!"

   Luke was a fine specimen of pantyist. He was about 40, I would
guess. Very slim and fit, which was apparent, since he was wearing only
silky, yellow-with-black-trim, bikini panties and matching bra, black
stockings, a yellow-with-black-trim garter belt and very high,
black-patent-leather pumps. He wore lipstick and what was either his own,
girlish hair or a very stylish, curly blonde wig. He was very attractive
and very self-confident. It was a wonder that I didn't cream my panties
just from the naughty thoughts I had about Luke.

   I took a seat next to a very manly-looking, fortyish fellow who smiled
at me, but didn't drool all over me like most of the pantyists did. Maybe
he was one of those "hetero" crossdressers I had heard about -- the ones
who only like women. To each his own, I always say. Or at least I do
now. At that time, my philosophy was more like, "to each what the world
thinks he should be."

   But that was about to change.

   "Settle down, girls," Luke said. "Let's stand and recite the Panty
Pledge."

   Panty Pledge?

   Everyone but me and a couple of other newbies seemed to know it by
heart. And they recited it with gusto:

   "I am a panty enthusiast! I love the constant caress of silky teasers on
my girlish testicles. I love to rub my stockinged thighs together as my
pretty penis shoots its sissy cream all over me and my companion of choice!
I may be a 'girls-only,' manly sissyboy, a 'male lesbian' who favors the
pleasures of my fellow pantyists, or a cock-sucking little slut, who adores
men and welcomes their big pricks into my tiny pussy. But whatever I am, I
am who I am -- without shame or guilt -- and without judging my fellow
pantyists. I am pantied and proud!"

   Holy pink dainties!

   What a great manifesto. Non-judgmental. No shame. No guilt. Only pride.

   But was it a practical way to go through life?

   Luke seemed to think so.

   "Thank you, everyone," he said. "Please be seated."

   "It's wonderful to see the Friday night crowd. And a special welcome to
our members, new and old, regardless of your needs, wants or physical
attractiveness.

   "As always, we will follow the pledge with testimony. Carlos, please
take the podium."

   Carlos sissied up to the podium in the first actual six-inch heels I had
ever seen. He was about my age, clad in a pretty, pink, mid-thigh-length
nightie, with matching pink stockings. His only make-up appeared to be a
little blush and some pink lipstick.

   Testimony began.

   "I'm Carlos, and I'm a panty enthusiast!"

   "HI, CARLOS!" the audience enthusiastically replied.

   "I started wearing my three older sisters' panties when I was about
twelve. At first, it was just to enjoy the feel of them, but then it became
sexual -- autoerotic at least. Over my adolescence, I spurted thousands of
sticky loads into my sisters' (and sometimes my Mom's) best undies. I was
always super careful and unlike most of us, I was never caught."

   A small groan went up from the audience as many remembered their mothers
swooning as they discovered their pantied sons in the throes of helpless,
drenching ejaculations.

   Carlos continued. "Then, like many of us, I gave it all up. Put it
away. Broke the habit. Got on the wagon. I lasted for almost the entire
four years I was in college. Mostly. OK, I strayed once or twice a week,
but that was all. Anyway, things were going well for me after I
graduated. I was a grad student and a research assistant to a professor
whom I greatly admired. He was a great teacher and a good guy and we were
really close...until that Saturday."

   We all leaned forward in our chairs as Carlos got to the good stuff.

   "Professor 'Smith' and I had been in the lab for 11 hours on that
Saturday and had made some real breakthroughs. When he offered to take me
to his home for celebratory pizza and beer, I eagerly accepted. "Smith'
lived in a nice condo near campus. I knew where it was, though I had never
been there before. Being invited made me feel special. We went in, 'Smith'
threw his keys on the coffee table and said, 'I'm going to clean up a
bit. Why don't you order us a super deluxe pizza? Just call 67 on the speed
dial. Then make yourself comfortable. Here's the money for the pizza in
case he comes by before I'm out here.'

   "That was a little odd, I remembered thinking. What would take him so
long? Anyway, I ordered the pizza, was told it would be 25 minutes, then
looked around for something to occupy my time while I waited. I didn't have
to look very far.

   "There they were. A whole stack of them, right on the coffee table. Back
issues of 'Panty Enthusiast.'"

   A slight chuckle went up from the audience. They saw where the story was
going and they liked it.

   "First of all," Carlos testified, "at that time, I had no idea that
Panty Pride existed. And I had no idea that there was any magazine that
portrayed men enjoying what shamed me as it fed my greatest need.

   "I trembled as I saw the cover of the top magazine. It was the very
first issue -- a real collector's piece. It showed our founder, Luke, and
it called itself, 'The Journal for the Rest of Us.' There was no mistaking
the content because Luke, as we've seen him many times, was dressed only in
panties and his considerable penis was pointed and proud.

   "I gasped when I saw it. I was thrilled to think that I was not
alone. Then I was horrified. 'Smith' had left pantyist magazines out for me
to peruse as he did whatever he was doing in his bedroom.

   "But then I was thrilled again. I opened the top magazine and turned to
Luke's pictorial. It showed him coming home from work, wearing a man's
Brooks Brothers suit. He peeled it all off, revealing that he had a pair of
sissyish white panties with a ruffled bottom beneath his power duds. As
Luke is in real life, he was delicious in the pictorial. Luke lowered his
panties to mid-thigh, then lay back on his bed, stroking his big, meaty
bone."

   I looked over at Luke. Surprisingly, he wasn't smug about the
endorsement of his pulchritude and endowments. Maybe Luke was the real
deal. A leader who cared more about his troops than his ego.

   "It didn't take many pictures for Luke to spurt his creamies," Carlos
continued. "And it was a big messy one too. Thick globs, all over his flat
tummy. And he made the cutest little scrunchy face. All from his excitement
at wearing those sissyish panties. At his girlishness. Girlishness he was
showing to the world. My excitement was building as quickly as my flight
instinct. Where the heck was 'Smith?' and what was he doing anyway?

   "I turned the page and saw Luke mopping up his cummy mess with his boy
tshirt, then shucking his sissy panties and slipping on a pair of sheer,
black bikinis. He was erect again as he slid on his delicious,
reinforced-heel-and-toe, seamless stockings and strappy, four-inch-stiletto
sandals. He sat at a vanity and made his face up beautifully. Luke was, and
as you know, is, amazingly feminine -- even more so when he added a
diaphanous, black peignoir and a curly, blonde wig to the ensemble. He
stood and preened in a full- length mirror for several pictures, then
extracted his sweet sissy meat again and began to stroke it.

   "I was beyond excited. Fearful that I would cum right there...in my
professor's house...in my baby blue, g-string panties which I happened to
be wearing that day because all my boxers were in the wash. Fearful that my
instructor would catch me in my high state of excitement and think I was a
simpering little pantywaist faggot. Fearful... DING-DONG!!! My heart
skipped several beats. It was the pizza guy at the door.

   "Blushing furiously and trying to will my outrageous erection down, I
closed the magazine and covered it with a Sports Illustrated. Somehow I
managed to get myself to the door and pay for the pizza, though I'm sure
that the pizza guy wondered what the heck had made me so flushed and my
trousers so lumpy.

   "I decided that I had to get out of there. I would just put the pizza on
the kitchen table and yell to Smith that my grandmother had just called to
remind me that her funeral was that day and I had to leave.

   "I got as far as the kitchen, when the bedroom door opened and out
stepped...someone I had never met before. Someone as unlike Smith as I am
unlike a velociraptor.

   "It was a totally feminine person in totally feminine lingerie. A pink
bustier adorned with tiny white ribbons, matching silk panties, white
stockings attached to pink garter straps, pretty pink stiletto sandals and
a pink-chiffon, floor-length peignoir.

   "The totally feminine person said, 'Whew! What a relief to get out of
those awful, man's clothes. I may have to wear them for work, but I
certainly don't wear them at home. Oh good, the pizza came. I'll get us
some beers. Have a seat.'"

   The crowd tittered. Apparently Carlos had just met his first, no-shame,
no-guilt pantyist and was at a complete loss as to how to handle the
situation. Many had been there before, apparently.

   Carlos continued. "I guess I just stood there with my mouth agape. And
my erection threatening to puncture my trousers.

   "Smith said, 'Oh, I'm sorry. Sometimes I forget that my openness about
what I like can startle some people. Frankly, Carlos, not that I would act
any differently, but I thought you would be fine with it. I mean, you've
been a pantyist most of your life, haven't you?'

   "How had Smith seen into my soul like that? Could we all recognize each
other that easily?

   "I gulped. Then I said. 'Yes, sir.'

   "Smith smiled. Then he said, 'I thought so. Let's do two things. First,
don't call me "sir" when I'm en femme. I prefer "Rita." Second, let's get
you comfortable too. I'll put the pizza in the oven to keep it warm. We're
about the same size. Let's go into my bedroom and femme you up. You do have
your panties on today, don't you?'

   "Gulp. 'Yes, sir...I mean yes, Rita.' Rita smiled and I followed her
submissively into what had to be the most feminine bedroom I had seen. Lace
and ribbons and chiffon everywhere. Pink and more pink.

   "At that time in my life, I would have never suspected what I really
was. But apparently Rita knew about me all along.

   "Rita said, 'Let's get those clothes off, down to the panties. And don't
worry about being "firm" between your legs. I know being feminine is the
most exciting thing in the world to you.'

   "Blushing furiously, I stripped to my panties.

   "Rita said, 'You have a lovely body, my dear, and I think those panties
are covering something pink and pretty. May I have a look?'

   "Apparently I could refuse Rita nothing. Rita gasped when she saw my
big, thick clitty. Pink and proud. Skinned and throbbing. Fat, cum-filled
balls dangling saucily below.

   " 'Oh, Honey,' Rita panted. 'This little girl is in a serious
condition. Rita has to help you out here or you'll implode.'

   "Rita's diagnosis was correct. And so was the treatment she
prescribed. She got onto her stockinged knees and took my fat girlfriend
between her glossed lips. Licking and sucking. Long, slow slurps.

   "It was divine. I couldn't believe it was happening, but it was
divine. A girlish, sweet, fellow pantyist was on her pretty knees sucking
my girlish cock, occasionally licking my swollen balls. Well, girls, that's
a situation with only one reasonable conclusion. And that conclusion
happened quickly. My gasping, wrenching orgasm. Pumping creamy sperm all
over my academic mentor's feminized face.

   "Generally, sperming your mentor's face does not auger well for your
academic future. But Rita was different. And so was I.

   "When I stopped trembling from the aftershocks, I dropped to my knees
and kissed Rita's cummy face, digging my burning tongue into her mouth. Not
sure about the agenda, I sort of eased Rita onto her back, peeled her
panties over her pink pricklet and dangling sissysack. Then I <blush>
became the cocksucker I had always dreamed of being, licking Rita's hot,
live love piston the way I had been sucking toy cocks for much of my life.

   "Practice makes perfect, girls. I was awfully good at making Rita pant,
gasp and, finally, spill her sperm into my hungry mouth.

   "That night we eventually got around to getting me completely en femme
and yes, Rita ensured that I didn't have to endure one more day as an anal
virgin. But the important thing I learned that night was ATTITUDE.

   "Living the way you were made to live is a good thing, girls. Rita
taught me that. And Luke and all of you have never let me forget it. PANTY
PRIDE!!!!"

   Everyone cheered at Carlos' stirring words. Luke gave Carlos a big hug
and a tonguey kiss, right on the mouth. Then the crowd hushed as Luke began
to speak.

   It was clear that Luke was a major icon to the pantyists. He was almost
hypnotic in the way he talked about being what you are and banishing guilt
from guiltless actions. Plus, he was extraordinarily feminine and
attractive for a man his age. For a man of any age. Or a woman.

   I felt inspired and I hadn't really bonded with the cult yet.

   Luke was also quite pragmatic about why a lot of the people were
there. He concluded by saying, "Now for the moment you've all been waiting
for. Anyone who wishes to remove her panties is welcome to do so. We close
at midnight tonight. Enjoy your evening."

   Hearty applause.

   Overwhelmed by all that I had heard and observed, I stood in awe as most
of the giggling horde removed their panties and cocks sprang free. What was
this place going to be like for the next four hours and 22 minutes? Did I
want to be part of it?

   Several of the pantyists, including me, did not remove their
knickers. Not that I was opposed to it. I just felt that I would be
so...exposed. The other non-removers didn't appear to be interested in sex
play with their pantied sisters. Just wanted to femme up, show off, and get
some support.

   Everything was happening so quickly that I...

   "Excuse me," a newly familiar voice said. "Are you Peter? I'm so happy
to meet you."

   I turned to see...Luke!

   Chapter Six -- Luke

   Luke.

   I could see why he was so revered by the pantied multitude. No only was
he gorgeous (despite his two-fifths-of-a-century of life); he was
magnetic. I mean, he wasn't flirting with me or shooting mind-control rays
at me or anything. He was just standing there, introducing himself to
me. The one who had begun it all for the pantied and proud was smiling at
me. And probably thinking I was an idiot for not answering his pleasant
inquiry.

   Blushing and erect in my stressed panties, I ventured, "Yes, thank
you. I'm happy to meet you too." Or something like that.

   Now what?

   Luke was still smiling. He must have had a lot of experience with
ninnies. He said, "I'm no good at small talk either. Can I buy you a drink?
Or would you like to come to my office and I'll show you my etchings?"

   In an upset worthy of Podunk College thrashing Enormous Football U, I
startled Luke and myself by croaking out, "Etchings."

   Surprise flashed across Luke's face, then -- interest. In me.

   From him.

   Oh.

   Things were moving very rapidly for me, all right.

   Luke was chatting about nothing as he escorted me out of the room to the
chapter president's office, which Luke used when he was in town. We clacked
along in our big heels. Luke confident. Me scared. Both erect in our
panties.

   It was pretty clear that Luke wasn't going to be taking me to the office
to teach me how to play Pac-Man.

   Luke held the door for me and I entered a nice room with a big desk,
comfy chair, and <gasp> a nicely made, queen-sized bed. Maybe for naps?

   No.

   Luke said, "You're the reason I'm here tonight."

   I was? I must have looked surprised, because Luke
continued. "Yes. Matthew, the chapter president, told me that a lovely,
once-in-a-lifetime, new member was here on Wednesday night. Dropped
everything in Jakarta and here I am."

   OH MY!!! I was that special?!?! Or was I that gullible to believe a line
like that?

   "Yes, Honey," Luke said as he brushed a strand of hair from my left
eye. "You're that special."

   <Gulp>

   I knew it was an odd moment for such thoughts, but I couldn't shake the
notion that Luke reminded me of someone. A movie star, maybe?

   What a silly thought to have as Luke leaned into me and pressed his
soft, red pillows of lips against mine.

   Oh.

   A lovely, supremely feminine, yet supremely masculine person was kissing
me.

   I surrendered, trusting the force that was Luke.

   I seemed to be making a habit of leaping off cliffs in the hopes that
the chasm below was filled with downy pillows.

   Sooner or later, my astounding docility seemed likely to get me in
trouble. But not that evening.

   Surrendering to Luke was an excellent decision.

   Luke kissed me deeply. Penetrating my mouth with his wet, probing
tongue. He pulled my burning body to his and rubbed flesh-to-searing-flesh.

   But he held his pubic area back from me. Denying me penis-to-penis
contact. Teasing me, perhaps. Or merely allowing me to experience the
delights of his body in a sequential fashion.

   What I did feel amazed me. Luke either had breasts or the finest falsies
in world history.

   How did that happen?

   I decided to save the chatter and questions until I was recovering from
my ninth or tenth heaving orgasm.

   So, consistent with my Panty Pride experiences to date, I remained a
functional inarticulate.

   I did manage to utter an "Oh, Luke," as the "cult's" founder kissed my
neck and cupped my bottom in his soft, girlish hands.

   Luke nuzzled my right earlobe and said, "Please call me 'Barbara,' when
we're making love, Darling. It's my girl name and these days I really only
use Luke when I'm at Panty Pride."

   Barbara! He -- she, really -- had a girl name. And a very plain one. Not
Desiree or Renata. Barbara. That suits Luke, I thought idly.

   Then it all came together for me. Who Luke reminded me of.

   Barbara Stanwyck!

   Remember her?

   A 1940s through 1960s movie actress who played very tough-minded, dommy
women. Damned good looking with great legs. But a face that had masculine
elements. The nose in particular. And a husky voice. I remember seeing her
films and wondering if she had a penis between those nicely-stockinged
legs.

   In her early films, like "The Lady Eve," she was a real sexpot, with
lots of scenes of her hooking her stockings to her garters. Later on, she
wore pants and was the matron of ruling families and such.

   But still a babe.

   Barbara was Luke and Luke was Barbara. But enough about film history.

   I had been relocated to the bed by the reincarnation of Barbara
Stanwyck. Who was removing her panties to reveal a healthy, erect, six-inch
cock. Then removing her bra to reveal two delicious A-cup titties with
large, erect, brown nipples.

   I had no idea what was expected of me or what was about to be done to,
with, over, around and in me.

   But I was game for anything Barbara wanted.

   See why docility is so liberating?

   You just lie back, open your legs and go on a guided tour of heaven.

   My tour guide that day wasn't a man. And wasn't a woman...exactly. More
like the world's alpha-sissy.

   A beautiful, feminine-masculine, sexy, lingeried, stockinged,
thick-dicked, and very-much in-charge alpha sissy.

   As I lay on my back in anticipation, Barbara gave me a good
eyeballing. She ran the polished nail of her right index finger around my
right nipple. Teasing.

   "Screw Jakarta ," she said. "I would have returned from the moon to make
love to you."

   <Gulp>

   My memory of that exact moment is a bit hazy. I do remember uttering
something akin to a whimper. And I remember the mad rush of every corpuscle
of my blood to erect my teeny peeny.

   I also remember a stab of fear. It appeared my moment had arrived. The
moment when a stiff cock would enter me. Either in my mouth or even <gasp>
<pant> in my tight bottom.

   It appeared that something entirely new was imminent in my life.

   Bring it on.

   "You have a perfect '45,' Darling," Barbara said to me. When she saw my
puzzled expression, Barbara said, "Your pretty prick is tenting your
panties at a perfect 45 degrees from the horizontal and the vertical. It
stands there so saucily, dripping the world's tastiest cream. Oh, I must
taste it." And my assertive lover reached into my panties, extracted my
pretty pole and ran her wet tongue around my sensitive knoblet.

   Oh, the pleasure!

   If she kept that up I would be frosting the beautiful face of the
world's premier sissyboy.

   But that was not the program that gorgeous hunk of femininity had in
mind.

   Luke/Barbara moved his/her body to cover my trembling torso. Straddling
me, she lowered her lips to mine for a soft kiss, which I hungrily
accepted. Then <shudder> she eased her dangling titties against my nubby
nipples. And rubbed. And kissed.

   Then my merciless mentor rolled out the heavy artillery. Continuing the
nipple friction and deep, starving kisses, she skinned my panties
completely down and off and gave her full attention to my stiff little
tickler.

   I almost blew my first, creamy load of the evening when, with one
practiced motion, Barbara's pretty fingers skinned back my foreskin,
exposing the tender, pink head.

   Then I squealed helplessly as, guiding my most tender parts as if they
were her property, she began to rub the underside of my pricklet against
her own "arrowpoint."

   Mixing our goo.

   Kissing me.

   Hot, erect nipples teasing each other.

   I was leaking pre-stickycream at a rapid rate.

   My cheeks were burning.

   And Barbara seemed every bit as excited as I was. Her pink tickler was
throbbing and twitching as it drooled creamy essence.

   Barbara's mouth attacked mine, tonguing me deeply.

   A pantyboy can only take so much sexual stimulation.

   I whimpered, arched my back and, in an agony of lust, emptied my
tortured balls all over my lover's overstimulated pricklet. Barbara
squealed girlishly as I pumped rope after thick rope of scalding sperm onto
her. Then she joined me in paradise.

   Barbara's balls were carrying a huge load of spunk and she lost the
whole contents in six creamy blasts that drenched my tummy and turned my
belly button into a lake of sperm.

   I was sexually spent. Balls completely drained. Incapable of any sexual
activity for at least a month.

   Barely able to catch my breath.

   Thinking only of sleep and rest as part of a long, slow recovery period.

   Then Barbara simultaneously took my cummy, droopy prick in his mouth and
stuck two polished, manicured fingers into my virginal bottomhole.

   And I was once again in the frantic hunt for my next orgasm.

   Which didn't seem to be far off if Barbara's fingers, probing and
massaging my prostate, had anything to say about it.

   Nothing had ever entered my pretty pucker before that.

   What the heck had I been waiting for?

   It was wonderful!

   Spectacular!

   It was intimate and so dirty.

   And it made me feel like a woman with a pussy. A pussy that loved sexual
attention.

   And was getting some delicious attention.

   Barbara was twice the cocksucker that Francis had been. And she was
prettier too. My eyes filled with tears of sexual heat as I watched my
curly-haired lover's blonde head bob up and down on my thrilled
pricklet. And those rude fingers in my tight, virginal pucker!

   Oh, girls.

   I asked myself, if fingers felt so good in there, what must a cock feel
like?

   Was I about to find out?

   Five minutes and 34 seconds after a killer orgasm, I blew my gooies
again. That time into the noisy, active, slurping mouth of Barbara the
Magnificent.

   Barbara the sword swallower, whose lips were on my pubic hairs as I
pumped globs of my life's essence down her pretty throat.

   I screamed like a little girl.

   Barbara seemed to like that. Her eyes smiled at me as she consumed my
thick, creamy load.

   When I had stopped spewing sperm and had alit on the earth once again, I
realized it was time for me to satisfy Barbara in like manner.

   I had to suck Barbara's big, stiff, dripping cock. Rules of courtesy and
all that.

   But was I entering the gayness zone, never again to be a full member of
polite society?

   Of course not, I informed myself. Barbara had a girl cock. That didn't
count. If it was Eric's cock, which I had no intention of even SEEING --
ever -- that would be gay.

   The angel was on her back Prick stiff and exposed. Looking at me with a
heady combination of lust and love. Titties bare. Nipples erect.

   Oh, my.

   How to begin?

   My experience was limited, but even I knew that titties like that needed
kisses. And sucks.

   So I lay on Barbara's right side and began to nurse, softly, on her
nipple.

   She moaned.

   I must have been doing it correctly.

   Should I touch her twitching, pink pricklet?

   I decided that touching it was a necessary step in eventually sucking it
and swallowing its creamy discharge.

   So, still sucking Barbara's pretty nipple, I ran my palm, several times,
up and down the length of her pink pole.

   She liked that too.

   I stretched my head across her and began to orally admire her left
nipple. Mmmm. A slightly different taste and ...whoa!

   Was Barbara lactating?

   My surprised look made Barbara smile. Then she said,
"Hormones. Prolactin. Baby sips. Don't stop. So good."

   That was amazing. And quite tasty.

   I kept sucking and began to fondle Barbara's prick gently. From its
bulbous, velvet head to its attendant spherical companions. Examining
it. Caressing it. Weighing her heavy balls in my soft hand.

   She liked that too. In fact she liked it so much that, with little
warning, Barbara squealed, arched her back, and began pumping her sweet
cream all over her already cum-filled tummy.

   Barbara may have been past the flower of her youth, but she was still
producing lots of liquid pollen.

   I was delighted!

   So happy that I was able to give such pleasure to the leader of an
international movement that addressed an idea whose time had come. Proud
pantyists. Enjoying their femininity. Fulfilling their deepest needs. In
the full view of others. And in the full variety of their desires. From
panty preeners who only wanted to show the other pretty boys the tents in
their panties, to sissy lesbians who 69ed their pretty heads off with
others of their ilk, to full-fledged manlovers, who only counted a day a
success when they could femmy up and get a bellyful, bottomful and faceful
of a man's thick, creamy loads.

   Which was I? Well, I had definitely advanced beyond preener, though just
doing that was still very exciting to me. It appeared that I was about to
move fully into sissy lesbian, since Barbara's cum-drenched cockhead seemed
to be in my mouth. And I appeared to be sucking it with great enthusiasm.

   My first cock was most delicious. It was very naughty because Barbara's
cum from my previous "tickles" was still drooling from her peehole. And it
was very naughty because I was lapping up every drop of my first cum snack.

   But it wasn't gay. Oh no. I decided that right then. Barbara was a
girl. At 40, more properly, a woman. She lived full time as a woman. She
even had breasts. Nice, tasty ones at that. So sucking her cock was
definitely not gay.

   Though the thought of my so-called "date" with Eric scheduled for noon
the next day may have had gay undertones, sucking Barbara's prick, my first
such oral feast, was perfectly hetero.

   Maybe I was obsessing about that a bit. But everyone knows that
rationalizing is more essential to one's wellbeing than sex. I mean, did
you ever go a whole day without rationalizing?

   Anyway, my technique, which involved fervent, though random licks and
sucks, may have been primitive, but it seemed to delight Barbara.

   That girl could whimper and squeal all right. And she kept telling me
what an angel I was and how lucky she was to be with me.

   Imagine. I'm with the Founding Pantyboy of Panty Pride and she says
she's lucky to be with me.

   That idea was such a rush, girls that I began to pump my juices before
Barbara did. Just from the whole situation, you know?

   I was on the downside of my very intense orgasm when Barbara pushed her
cock deeply into my mouth, screamed, and blew her goo down my throat!

   I gagged.

   I choked.

   But Barbara would not be denied.

   Cum dribbled from both sides of my mouth and formed a little beard on my
chin.

   Still, I must have swallowed about a gallon of my lover's spermies.

   It was quite tasty.

   I resolved to try that again sometime. And it wasn't even New Year's.

   Barbara was whimpering as she withdrew her flaccid, cum-drenched pink
pole from my mouth. She held eye contact with me as she rubbed the peehole
all over my face, creating a mask of cum. Then she offered the head for my
farewell kisses. An offer I accepted greedily.

   We were both spent, lying on our backs, chests heaving. It was some
moments before Barbara and I conversed.

   She began. "You're an angel of love, my dear. I'm so happy you chose to
give yourself to me as you did. I hope Panty Pride and the wonderful
affection we just shared will set you on a life path that makes you very
happy."

   I smiled, then leaned over and kissed her deeply.

   Holding me in her arms, Barbara continued, "You're sweet, beautiful,
completely submissive and incredibly feminine. Panty Pride is richer for
your membership. You'll be a fantastic role model, regardless of how you
choose to express that femininity."

   "I think that by coming to Panty Pride, you've already decided that you
can't conceal you femininity any more. When I made that decision, I was 23
and I founded Panty Pride. The big questions for any pantyist are: 1) Are
you willing to express your panty pride to the world beyond Panty Pride?
and 2) How do you like your sex?

   "Big questions indeed. Unfortunately, 92.3% of our members say no to
question 1. I decided early on that I was going to be a full-time femme,
heedless of brickbats or even death threats. Though the rewards are great,
few are willing to endure that journey. The good news is that when I
started Panty Pride, almost no one was willing to 'come out.' So I prefer
to think about the 7.7% of our members who share their pride rather than
those who sneak out to our meetings on the wife's bridge night. Not that I
don't welcome the sneakers as well.

   "The second question is a difficult one as well. We have a lot of
preeners at our meetings. Some eventually find the courage to share
girlish, panties-on fondling with another pretty boy. Some of our members
who keep their panties chastely up, I'm sure, rush home after a meeting and
beat their pricklets raw as they recall the pretty panties and naughty
goings-on they saw at our meetings. The great majority of our members have
'active' relationships with 'girls' they meet at Panty Pride. Oceans of
sperm are exchanged, both at the meetings and at torrid little trysts they
conduct at each other's homes or at seedy hotels. Husbands sneaking away
for an hour of stockinged, garter-belted passion with another pantied
partner. It's delightful! I've had many such sweaty encounters and I
recommend them very highly.

   "Then there are the manlovers.

   "A different breed in many ways.

   "They preen at meetings.

   "They play with the other girls, both at meetings and in extracurricular
gropes.

   "And they 'date' men.

   "Straight men.

   "Men they've known all their lives. Men they met in a hotel bar. Men
they met on the Internet. Their bosses at work. Their clergymen.

   "Men.

   "The manlovers wear full feminine lingerie or just panties and an eager
mouth and bottomhole. They 'dress' full time, with an array or cosmetics
and a complete, feminine, man-donated wardrobe or they slip on a pair of
their wife's panties and flop on their backs for the man next door.

   "They want to be feminine. And they want to share that femininity with a
man. They want to submit to a man -- surrendering to all the man's
disgusting needs. They believe that such submission is the only way to be
completely feminine. Plus they have nuclear orgasms along they way.

   "Does that describe you, Miss Peter? And if it doesn't, then why is your
little peeny so stiff and drippy?"

   I didn't know. Really I didn't. I do know that my peeny was bursting
from Barbara's description of a "manlover." But I was in bed with Barbara
and I hadn't cum in like 20 minutes. So that may have been the reason for
the stiffness.

   But Barbara was merciless. "Rumor around the meeting hall is that you're
seeing Eric the security guard tomorrow for coffee at noon."

   Holy indiscrestion! I blushed all over. Did everyone know everything
about me? Was Eric blabbing?

   Barbara squashed that notion. "Eric and you were overheard and sissies
are terrible gossips. Eric told no one, though he's bursting with
anticipation. The man is smitten with you, my Angel. His cock must be
bursting at the thought of being 'with' you."

   I shuddered. Was it fear? Or was it lust?

   Was I one of those manlovers?

   Would I be in femmy frillies. on my back, knees up, under Eric or
<blush> another man, as he <shudder> pistoned his hard, thick cock in and
out of my defenseless little bottomhole? Would I be screaming in an agony
of delight as Eric pumped spurt after sticky spurt of his disgusting juices
into my ravaged "pussy?"

   I couldn't answer those questions, though the bonecrushing orgasm I
endured as a result of that fantasy (and Barbara's expert penile
manipulations) foreshadowed a great deal.



   Chapter Seven -- Manloving

   I didn't want Barbara to leave me that night without drawing out as much
of her wisdom as her sperm.

   So in a lull in our lovemaking engendered by two completely-drained
"pink purses," I snuggled up to my new lover and took her droopy cock into
my girlish hand. Skinning the head idly I asked, "So, Barbara, are you a
manlover?"

   Barbara's cock twitched.

   Should I record that as an "aye?"

   Maybe.

   Barbara said, "That's a difficult question, Sweetie. Beyond a yes or
no. Truth is, I'm not sure myself what the answer is.

   "Let me tell you what I know to be true. I know that my lovemaking with
you and, to a lesser degree, with other pretty pantyists, is deeply
satisfying to me. Frankly, I get all the pantyist pussy I want. More than I
want, actually. So many pantyists want to get in bed with Luke the Founder
that I have to disappoint most of them.

   "I'm not bragging. It's the truth and it certainly makes for a great,
cum-drenched life.

   "The funny thing is that I can also have all the genetic-girl pussy I
want too (though I don't want much). Never did really enjoy being the donor
of the old in-and-out. Lots of women throw themselves at me when they find
out that the perfectly-coiffed-and-made-up, sexy, older woman in the Chanel
suit, sheer stockings and fuck-me pumps has a big dick between her legs.

   "For me, the confusing thing is men.

   "Men want me.

   "Oh, how they want me.

   "And not just because they read about me in Forbes, Fortune or the
Economist and they figure I'm rich. Which I am.

   "They want me because I'm beautiful and I have a cock. The same reason
the women want me, actually. I'm besieged by offers from men, including
marriage proposals.

   Barbara grunted softly as I took her delicious cock into my mouth once
more.

   I tickled the "arrowpoint" with my tongue as Barbara answered the
question I didn't ask.

   "Did I accept any offers from men?" she asked herself. "Well, yes."

   I looked up at her face and Barbara was actually blushing.

   She was ashamed.

   But why?

   "Men are my weakness. I know I should be satisfied with sex with our
members. I know a pantyist needn't do all that same-sex stuff
(pantyboy-to-pantyboy doesn't count, of course). But darn it, I need men!"

   Her cock began to stiffen at that declaration.

   She went on. "I never had a man until I was almost 30. Harry Dover, who
was my accountant and colleague, was not a pantyist, but he knew a business
trend when he saw one. So he helped me a lot through the early years. We
had just opened our tenth chapter, had a little too much to drink and it
happened.

   "He kissed me.

   "Totally unexpectedly. He kissed me.

   "I kissed back.

   "And before I could say, 'I'm not that kind of girl' or 'Ouch, it's too
big,' he was naked, I was down to my stockings, garter belt and six-inch
pumps, and Harry had his big cock eight inches up my ass.

   "It was fantastic. I adored it. I came a bucket just as Harry exploded
in my pretty bottom. He fucked me again before withdrawing, making me cum
twice more. Then we kissed for an hour or so and he fucked me again.

   "Then things got messy. I began to worry about the future of Panty Pride
if the potential members thought their leader was 'gay.' So many pantyists
point to some obscure study that says almost none of them are 'gay.'

   "Worse, Harry fell in love with me. He asked me to marry him, that
night, in Las Vegas .

   "I couldn't. Panty Pride was my mission and my mistress. Having a
husband would get in the way. So I sacrificed that form of happiness for
the form I have now.

   "Harry ended up marrying a slutty little pantyist from our Seattle
chapter and I ended up sneaking around to satisfy my need for men.

   "Keep doing that with your tongue, Honey. Unnhhh. You're incredible. I
should be satisfied with you and the other girls. But no. Miss Barbara, the
global entrepreneur, adores the feeling of being on her back, helpless, as
a rutting, powerful man pumps his sticky seed into her ravaged anus. I'm
only telling you this because I'm about to cum a big load into your mouth,
but six or seven times a year..OK, more like ten...I sneak off for a
fuck-filled week somewhere with my boyfriend du jour.

   "It's heavenly. Just like...eeeeekkkk. I'm cumming again."

   And she did.

   I was a little better at swallowing it that time. Or maybe the quantity
was diminished. But I still had cum dribbles from my mouth onto my chest.

   That atomic orgasm seemed to satisfy Barbara and I was concerned that
she would kick me out before giving me another trip to heaven.

   But Barbara was a trooper. "Ease that pretty bottom of yours onto my
face, Darling, and let me eat your pussy."

   Girls, I hope you've all experienced an eager tongue in your
bottomhole. When you first feel the tonguetip touching your wrinkled
sphincter, you tremble with lust. You're helpless to prevent the assault on
your masculinity and your virtue. And that suits you just fine. Because
your little peeny is reaching for the moon and you're whimpering and
babbling as the stiff tongue penetrates your "gate of pleasure." As the
wet, probing tongue lubricates and dilates your most intimate place, you
glimpse the gates of heaven. A really skilled analinguist, such as Barbara
certainly was, can get the tongue in far enough to tickle your
prostate. And that, my feminine friends, is when you surrender your body
and spirit to your licker.

   Barbara's tongue drove me half mad with lust. She orally explored my
rectum for a good 30 minutes, during which my limp noodle produced no
erections and little sperm, but two stunner cums.

   I was a quivering, simpering, but satisfied little sissyboy when Barbara
told me that she needed to leave in a few minutes to get into her
Gulfstream for the return trip to Jakarta . I kissed her and thanked her
repeatedly for her lessons in love. Then I imposed on the world's Alpha
Sissy's good nature once more to ask what I should do about men in general
and about Eric, whom I was seeing in 11 hours and 43 minutes, in
particular.

   Barbara smiled. "I think you know your feelings about men, Sweetheart. I
know some things about Eric that may be helpful. I know that he began
working at Panty Pride so he could meet someone like you. I know that he
hasn't even really seen you in full girlish clothes yet and he's half in
love with you. I know that he hasn't 'been' with any girls like you. And I
know you want to see him tomorrow. And I know that now that you've had a
tongue in your bottom, you want to see how a big cock feels there. How am I
doing?"

   I blushed.

   She knew a lot. And it was all true.

   I almost felt that my next question was too petty to ask. But I did
anyway.

   "What should I wear for my <blush> date with Eric?"

   Barbara said, "Last answer, Honey. I really have to go. I wish you would
wear a 13-inch miniskirt; ruffled blouse; big, curly wig; full make-up;
tan, fully-fashioned stockings; six-inch, fuck-me pumps; and your
naughtiest lingerie. But you're not ready to wear that in public. Wear
stockings, garters, a skimpy bra and your best panties under your boy
clothes. The situation should develop nicely."

   And Luke/Barbara was gone.



   Chapter Eight -- Eric

   I made my way home that night and fell instantly asleep, waking at 9
a.m. with only three hours to get ready for Eric.

   If I decided to keep our "date."

   Just in case I did, I shaved my face, legs, and <blush> all around my
"pussy." Then, just in case, I painted my toenails a bright, sexy
red. Though no one, especially a man -- like Eric is -- was going to see
them.

   My toes looked good when I wiggled them girlishly. For a brief, very
exciting instant, I had a vision of Eric sucking on my red toesies.

   I gasped.

   And decided that I would keep our date.

   Just to be polite.

   And, although I wasn't planning on showing Eric anything other than
courtesy, I slid on some very sheer, very black, seamed,
reinforced-heel-and-toe stockings. Easing them over my painted toes was
exciting enough, but when I felt their cool silkiness along the full length
of my shaved legs, my pricklet was standing tall, drippy and at a 45-degree
angle.

   Thoughts of Eric and the liberties he might expect or even <gasp> take
had me in greater distress as I hooked my favorite ruffled, black garter
belt to my silky stockings. And it didn't help when I considered myself in
my full-length mirror.

   Just to get a proper notion of things, I slipped on my best,
six-inch-stiletto, strappy mules. Though Eric would definitely see me in
that naughty footwear, I loved seeing how it thrust my chest forward
(including my hard nipples) and my bottom back. What would Eric think, I
wondered, of my plump, perfect bottom? Would he want to just admire it or
kiss it or even <pant> TONGUE its inner folds?

   Not that he would ever have an opportunity. But if he did, he would be a
very lucky man to have an ass like mine. It was spectacular.

   My penis was twitching as I speculated a bit more about Eric and his
possible intentions. What if he saw me in my stockings and garters and
painted toes and he decided just to TAKE what he wanted? To just DOMINATE
me and USE me. I would be helpless under his superior manliness!

   And that little image was all my poor peeny could stand. I shuddered. My
balls constricted, then emptied their creamy contents through my pink
tickler, out my peelips and flying, in thick globs through the air.

   Oh.

   If just the thought of Eric could do that to me, what could the actual
Eric do?

   Was I about to find out?

   I completed my hidden, femmy ensemble with a lacy bra and my naughtiest,
skimpiest, pink bikini panties. Looking at myself again would have stirred
my spermies again, so I just covered up my feminine masterpiece with
boy-khakis and a boy polo shirt. Like painting over a Monet with "dogs
playing poker."

   <Sigh>

   The world may have been ready for my feminine self, whom, by the way, I
had secretly named "Summer," but I wasn't anywhere near ready to show
Summer to the world.

   Not that day.

   Though that day was to present some interesting moments.

   Very interesting.

   At 20 minutes before noon, with a sense of resignation, anticipation,
and terror, I got in my car and drove to Starbucks.

   Didn't have to go.

   Could have just bagged it.

   Stood Eric up.

   Moved on.

   I didn't owe Eric anything.

   But maybe I felt sorry for him.

   He was kind of sappy about me. I was being a good, kind person. Sort of
seeing him as a gesture of kindness. I certainly hoped that Eric didn't
expect anything more than courtesy. He couldn't have been so brutish and
conceited that he expected to kiss me, could he? Or fondle my penis? Or
have me fondle his? Or stick his penis in my mouth? Or in my <gasp> bottom?

   Of course not.

   Despite massive, self-administered doses of rationalization, I was
trembling visibly as I entered the Starbuck's.

   Then I saw Eric. Waiting for me. Standing. Watching the door. Shifting
from foot to foot. Lighting up when he saw me. Smiling broadly --
hopefully. Moving toward me.

   Fear struck me again as I worried that he might humiliate me by kissing
me right there -- in public!

   But no. He just gripped both my arms and said, breathlessly, "I so very,
very happy that you came, Peter. I've been dreaming of someone like you all
my life and now you're with me."

   Wow!

   A fast worker.

   I wasn't sure I liked Eric being so presumptuous about "us" being
anything at that point. But before I could speak up, he had me seated and
asked if a tall, skim, decaf latte was all right. Which it was. How did he
know? Or maybe that's the sissy drink of choice.

   Anyway, I watched him in line as he ordered our drinks. And my penis
hardened.

   Eric was a beautiful man. Slim, but muscular. With a kind face and a
sweet demeanor, that could turn forceful as the situation demanded.

   Would he be forceful with me?

   Was I beginning to hope so?

   Did he notice my stiffie when he returned to the table?

   I didn't want to look that trampy. At least not yet.

   My resolve to keep things platonic began to dissolve as we chatted. Eric
was a good conversationalist -- equally interested in my views as he was in
his own. He had been a police officer since graduating from college. Loved
the work. And loved his off-duty job at Panty Pride.

   I found myself sneaking little peaks at his crotch to see his very nice
bulge. A fantasy began to form where Eric "arrested" me, took me to his
apartment, handcuffed me and had his way with me.

   More loss of resistance to Eric's potential advances.

   I told Eric about my family and my meager life story. Then I had to ask:
"Eric, I'm really enjoying talking to you, but, you've never even seen me
in girl clothes. How can you be so...interested...in me?"

   Eric smiled. "I see you as a girl, Sweetheart. The kind of girl I want
to love and marry. And that's how you see yourself too."

   And then, in front of all those overpriced-coffee patrons, Eric stood
up, moved toward me, gently pulled me to my feet, took me in his arms, and
kissed me.

   I should have been humiliated. I should have struggled. I should have
worried about what the 30 or so customers in the store thought about one
man sticking his tongue completely down the throat of another man. I should
have felt guilt for the intense gayness of the whole thing.

   Instead, I kissed back.

   My head swam and my penis engorged with every corpuscle of my blood
supply. I broke the kiss just long enough to say, "Take me home! Now!"

   So much for giving Eric the exceedingly polite brushoff I had
envisioned.

   Instead, I found myself sitting in the passenger seat of Eric's car,
with my hand stroking his massive, exposed penis, which I had frantically
extracted from his pants seconds after we got into the car.

   Eric drove rapidly as I stroked his red-headed friend with my feminine
fingers.

   "How far?" I gasped.

   "Fifteen minutes," Eric panted.

   "I can't wait that long," I said. Unlocking my safety belt, I leaned
over and took Eric's big, drippy cockhead between my lips.

   It was impetuous. It was impatient. It was delicious.

   Eric agreed.

   I'll never know how Eric stayed on the road as I sucked and licked and
teased his cockhead and tongued his peehole. I do know that I made the day
of those truckers who tooted as they passed us.

   Guess I made Eric's day too.

   Five minutes from Eric's apartment, my first-ever boyfriend grunted,
shuddered and filled my mouth with a huge, creamy load of his manly sperm.

   Yum. Thanks to my experience with Barbara, I kept it all in my mouth and
then swallowed it all.

   Men love when you swallow.

   I was still kissing Eric's deflating cock as we entered his drive way. I
sat up and he kissed me again. It was a bit more intense since the ice had
been broken between us. If I hadn't said anything, Eric would have found a
way to stiffen his piston and fuck me right there in his car.

   "Let's go inside and let me femmy up. Please."

   Eric agreed that that was an excellent suggestion. We hustled inside and
I looked around at what was a nice, tastefully furnished and clean (!),
one-room bachelor apartment. I knew about the bedroom, because that was our
immediate destination.

   Again, my impatient beau wanted to rip our clothes off and fuck. Silly
boy!

   "Give me ten minutes in the bathroom, darling," I said. "It'll be worth
it."

   Like all guys, Eric was impatient, but he knew that the ten minutes
would help him recharge his battery as well.

   I used the time to put to good use the mini-makeup case I had in my
pocket. A little foundation, some eyeliner and eyeshadow, some blush and
some lip gloss transformed me from vaguely masculine to intensely
feminine. I stripped to my femmy underthings, admired myself in the mirror,
took a deep breath and left the bathroom to meet my fate.

   My fate was naked, lying on his back, stroking a cock that I had only
cursorily inspected to that point.

   He sat up as if resurrected when he saw me in full feminine glory. I
think I actually saw tears form in his eyes. I was the realization of
Eric's lifelong dreams. And so, it appeared was he of mine.

   My peeny was tenting my panties severely as I joined Eric is his bed. He
consumed me in his arms, kissing me with a famished fever. He reached into
my panties and pulled out my popsy as we kissed. The first time a man had
ever touched me "down there."

   I squirmed and moaned softly as Eric explored my popsy and pink purse. I
was happy to surrender the agenda to Eric. Being mastered by a man is half
the fun of having sex with him.

   I whimpered when Eric broke off our kiss. Then he stopped "playing with
me." Hey! What was he doing? Reaching into the nightstand drawer and taking
out a small jar of something.

   I began to pout my lips for a kiss and wiggle my hips for some attention
to my privates.

   Eric's plan was better.

   His head descended to my pubic area and he took my stiff business into
his wet, wonderful mouth. Ohhh.

   Meanwhile, Eric pulled my panties completely down and off, eased me onto
my right side and carefully, gently entered my anus with a lubricated
middle finger.

   I groaned. Then groaned more loudly when Eric added first the index
finger, then the ring finger.

   The bad boy was sucking my prick as he fingerfucked my pretty pussy with
three rude fingers. Rubbing my prostate. Periodically kissing and sucking
my sensitive balls.

   Sensory overload.

   Eric was opening my bottomhole. Dilating it as he lubricated it. Driving
me half-mad with pleasure.

   Was he preparing my bottomhole for further pleasure? His or mine?

   Ecstatic agony was imminent. I felt the early signals. Then the
point-of-no-return signals. Then the freight train of orgasm rolled toward
me and I was tied to the tracks. The rubbing on my tender prostate. The
dominance of my man. The helplessness. The tender attentions to my
cockhead.

   I screamed like a high-heeled, miniskirted sissyboy being chased across
the schoolyard by a naked, stiff-cocked bully as I spurted my spermies into
my man's eager mouth. He kept sucking. I kept cumming, feeling the tingles
all the way down to my painted toes.

   I shivered with rapture and wondered why I had avoided my destiny for so
long. A destiny where I surrendered to men and they surrendered to me. A
destiny where men used me for their pleasure and gave me double the
pleasure that I gave them.

   And a destiny where my bottom was stuffed by a man's big, hot, hard
cock.

   A destiny that, it seemed, I would be fulfilling imminently. Especially
since my inquiring, stockinged toes told me that Eric's cock had renewed
its vigor.

   Eric loved my stockinged foot rubbing his cock. He loved having a
mouthful of my semen. And unless I missed my guess, he was falling in love
with me.

   "That feels wonderful, Darling," Eric said, "But please don't make me
cum. I have a specific destination in mind for that particular erection."

   I shuddered. Was he going to FUCK me?

   "I'm going to fuck you, Sweetheart," he said.

   That answered that.

   "I know I should work up to it. Suck your nipples. Get to know your pink
pearls a bit better. Eat your pussy. But I can't wait anymore and neither
can you. You desperately need a good, hard, thorough fucking and that's
what you're going to get. I have you nice and open and slippery down
there. I'm going to get you up on all fours and get into you from
behind. Then I'm going to make you the complete girl you've always wanted
to be. My complete girl. I'm going to cum in your bottom and then I'll own
you. You'll be mine. How does that sound?"

   Ohhhh! It sounded spectacular. But didn't we need to sign indemnity
waivers or say appropriate words? Or were we just going to fuck?

   Just fucking sounded just fine to me. So I answered merely, "Yes,
please. Please put your big cock in my sissy bottom and make me your
property."

   That was the right answer. For both of us.

   I surrendered my virginity with barely a whimper.

   Getting on my hands and knees, I presented a delicious,
garter-and-stocking-framed target to my lover. I opened my legs like the
little tramp I was. "Putting out," not only on the first date with a man,
but in the first hour of the first date with my first man.

   Is it any wonder why men prefer pantyboys to women?

   I gritted my teeth as I imagined the pain Eric's enormous schwanstucker
would cause as it tore my ass apart. But the only pain I felt was a small
pinch and all I heard was a little "slurp" as Eric eased his prick into me,
to the very hairs of his pubic thatch.

   I felt strangely full. As if something were caught in my throat. Not
unpleasant.

   I felt an initial strong urge to poop -- a feeling that thankfully
passed quickly.

   And I felt intense sexual heat as a hot anal invader rested on my
prostate, then began to rub back and forth.

   I was giving myself to a man. And the man was driving me crazy with
pleasure.

   Eric passed his hand around my right hip and began to fondle my tiny
package as he fucked me. I wasn't stiff, but I began to feel pre-orgasmic
pangs in my groin.

   I loved it all. I loved having a cock in my bottom. I loved the feeling
that I was a woman submitting to a man. I loved the lust I could feel
emanating from my man. I loved what my man was doing to my pink goodies
with his hand.

   Eric shoved his rude cock in and out of me for a good half hour, during
which I could manage only inarticulate grunts and sighs. And a limp-dicked,
drooling-not-spurting, four-star orgasm. I was crying throughout my
delightful agony, which excited Eric. And my orgasm made my ass perform
thrilling manipulations on Eric's cock. So within a minute of my surrender
to lust, Eric groaned and unloaded a deluge of sperm into my ravaged
bottom.

   It was messy. It was emasculating. It was the greatest moment of my
life.

   Until Eric fucked me the next time. And the time after that.

   It was a good thing we both had the entire weekend off, because we spent
more than 40 hours in bed. Most of it with Eric's cock in my bottom or in
my mouth.

   Don't you just hate Mondays? If Monday didn't exist, we would have
fucked forever. But we both had to return to work. And on Monday night,
after a shift of police work, Eric had to do a shift at Panty Pride.

   In the movies, we would have just chucked it all and run off to some
island or other. But fucking is so much more pleasurable if you have a
place to live and food to eat.

   So on Monday morning we kissed a lot, had a long, slow, messy, farewell
fuck in the shower, dressed, sucked each other off one last time, made
loving promises, and went off -- Eric to work; me to home for a change into
boy clothes and then to work.



   Chapter Nine -- The first day of the rest of my life.

   So there I was at work that Monday. Half in love with a man. Fully in
love with myself. Conflicted about whether I wanted to do what Luke/Barbara
did -- live as a woman full time. Use my femininity to get what I
wanted. Let the rest of the world adjust to me. Or just "fake it" a while
longer.

   I found myself looking at my coworkers as they went about their
tasks. Did they suspect that Peter, their fellow male wage slave, was
actually the lovely "Summer," sissy fatale and no longer an anal, oral or
anything-else-al virgin?

   Was Steve in Sales looking at me differently? What about my boss,
Mr. Spermouth?

   What would they have thought if I had shown up at work that day in full
femmy splendor -- miniskirt, heels, stockings? Would they all want me
fired? Or would they all want their cocks in my pretty bottom?

   Well, at that rate, I wasn't getting any work done, so I set about my
tasks until my phone rang. I answered it and heard a familiar, husky,
feminine voice.

   "How was your weekend, Sweetie?" Barbara asked. It was a bit hard to
hear her through what sounded like the drone of an airplane, but I was
delighted she called.

   Then a bit ashamed when she asked, "So you and Eric fucked all
weekend. How was it?"

   How did she know? Was I such a little tramp that the whole world knew?

   "I tried calling your home, the number of which you gave on your Panty
Pride membership, and there was no answer all weekend," Barbara
explained. "That meant you were either fucking at your place and didn't
want to be disturbed, or fucking at Eric's. So how was the fucking?"

   I blushed, whispered, "Wonderful!" into the phone and then shared a
giggle with my mentor and mistress.

   "But my bottom is sore and I'm randy all over again," I told her.

   Barbara laughed. "If I weren't on my way to Hong Kong , I'd be right
over to take care of that randiness. Pace yourself on the fucking a
bit. You're not used to it yet. When you are, you'll be able to spend two
weeks with a wonderful new boyfriend and take an ass pounding eight or nine
times a day for two weeks. And still keep what you need to keep in your
bottom and lose what you need to lose. I know. I've done it. Anyway, I'm so
happy that you've found something essential to your happiness. Eric may be
the answer to all your sexual and emotional needs, but take it from this
old sissy. You're young. You're new at this. Spread some sperm around
before you settle down with anyone. Go to Panty Pride meetings. Preen for
the preeners. Play spermy games with the other girls. Date some more
men. Eric will understand. If he loves you, he'll still want you. If he
doesn't, there are millions of men who would trade the deed to their homes
for a night with
 you. You've already given Eric a magnificent prize -- your virginity. He
owes you."

   Wow. What great advice. I decided that I would make a date with Eric for
the next Saturday night. And "spread things around" a bit until then.

   I thanked Barbara and she had two parting comments.

   "I'll be back in your town on the 23rd. Meet me in room 634 of the Ritz
at 7. We won't leave the room until the 25th! And, I'm not supposed to do
this, but you may want to discuss Panty Pride matters with two of your
fellow coworkers, both of whom are Monday night regulars. So go to a
meeting tonight and your lunchtimes and supply closet visits may be a lot
more interesting in the future."

   From that point on, my life became extremely interesting.

    Please tell me what you think at gingerfred2005@yahoo.com.  My other
stories on nifty: 

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"Panty Pleasures" transgender -- young friends
"Woodville" transgender -- tv
"Mothered" transgender -- control
" Panty Town " transgender -- teen
"Tradition" transgender -- teen
"Punished" transgender -- high school
"Panty Paradise " transgender -- teen
"Kevin and Molly Go to Camp" -- transgender -- teen
"Lovelife" -- transgender -- high school
"My Three Sissies" -- transgender -- tv
"Acting Out" -- transgender -- high school
"Explorers" -- transgender -- high school
"Pantied" -- transgender -- young friends
"Rebuilding" -- transgender -- teen
"The Au Pair" -- transgender -- surgery
"Birthday Girl" -- transgender -- teen
"Genes" -- transgender -- high school
"Brothers in Panties" -- transgender -- teen
"Coach" -- transgender -- control
"Intervention" -- transgender -- high school
"Winners" -- transgender -- teen
"Teased" transgender -- high school
"Irish Girls" transgender -- teen
"Finished" -- transgender --  teen
"Role Model" -- transgender -- high school
"Freedom" -- transgender -- high school
"Panty Fiesta" -- transgender -- control
"Experiments" -- transgender college
"One Fine Day" -- transgender -- teen
"Stiff Resistance" -- transgender -- teen
"Poker" -- transgender -- tv
"Panty Sabbatical" -- transgender -- high school
"Published" -- transgender -- tv
"Stripped" -- transgender -- high school
"Trained" -- transgender -- control
"Something Better" -- transgender - tv
"Fulfilled" -- transgender -- tv
"Private Matters" -- transgender -- high school
"Hard Times" -- transgender -- tv
"Girl Nights" -- transgender --  control
"Geography" -- transgender -- tv
"Somewhere" -- transgender -- high school
"Next Door Bride" -- transgender -- chemical (though I don't think it has chemicals)
"Service" -- transgender -- tv
"Test Driven" -- transgender -- tv
"Sissy Stepmother" -- transgender -- tv
"Slacker Moms" -- transgender -- tv
"Sissies and the City" -- transgender -- tv
"Paid in Full" -- transgender -- tv
"Alternative Education" -- transgender -- control
"The Boy Bride" -- transgender -- high school
"Stiff Competition" -- transgender -- teen
"Reservations" -- transgender -- tv