Date: Thu, 16 Nov 2006 12:06:07 -0800 (PST)
From: *** <dickheadto@yahoo.com>
Subject: Time for a change part 2 (TG - Young friends)

This is a continuation of the "Time for a change" journal I made here.

After the Halloween night, my days pretty much went back to normal with
going to school and doing the regular things a 12 (almost 13) year boy
would do until about 3 weeks later. I was watching a movie with my mom
and she asked me if I wanted to maybe be her daughter sometimes. I said
sure. She said that it seemed like I enjoyed being a girl for Halloween
and it would be fun to have a daughter. I told her it was really fun
being a girl and I would like to try it again. Tomorrow was Saturday, so
my mom said we could go to the store to buy some new girls clothes for
me. I was very excited and couldn't wait for it to be tomorrow.

The next morning, my mom helped me get ready. Although I didn't have
very much hair on my legs, my mom helped me shave them. They felt really
nice and smooth. She fixed my hair again so I looked more like a girl and
she helped me paint my toenails and fingernails a pretty pink. It was
fun. I wore a tank top shirt, shorts and flip flops. Even though I was
wearing gender neutral clothes, I didn't think anyone would think I was
a boy because I was small and very thin and my hair was now styled like a
girl.

We went to a shopping mall that was in the next town so nobody would
recognize me. When we got to the mall, at first I was a little scared
that someone would be able to tell I was a boy, but nobody even really
looked at us. Most were busy walking and shopping. The first store we
went into was for pre-teen girls. My mom would find a dress or skirt or
top and hold it up to me and ask me if I liked it. I couldn't tell what
they would look like on me, but I liked them all and I liked that my mom
liked helping me. The first thing I tried on was a tan sundress. It took
me a while to figure out how to put it on, but it fit great and came down
to my knees and was very comfortable. I had kind of forgotten how nice it
was to wear a dress and how much more I looked like a girl in a dress.
When I came out of the dressing room, my mom looked at me and said I
looked really cute. I was really happy! She had me twirl around and I
watched my skirt lift up a bit and move around with me. I loved the
dress. I asked if I could keep it on and she said yes. We shopped for
some more clothes and we got 4 dresses, 3 skirts, 5 tops, 2 pair of
jeans, 3 different kinds of shoes and a purse, non-pierced earrings and
some underwear things. It was really fun. I loved walking around the mall
in a dress. I loved feeling the skirt touching my legs when we walked
around.

On the way home, we talked about how much fun it was to shop together. My
mom noticed my knees were a little apart and reminded me to either hold
my knees together or cross my legs when wearing a dress. I crossed my
legs and it was so comfortable. It seemed so natural to sit like this
again. I forgot about it since Halloween. I even tucked my foot around my
ankle too, kind of double crossed. It felt so nice. I told her I liked
sitting this way and I would always sit with my legs crossed when I am a
girl. She just smiled at me and said I looked cute and very girly sitting
like that. That made me smile.

When we got home, I put away my new clothes and then helped my mom make
dinner. It was so fun. She treated me like her daughter, giving me little
hugs all the time and we talked about nothing and everything. I felt so
close to my mom again. I really loved wearing the dress and it made me
feel so different. My mom said that I used my hands more to gesture when
I talked and I seemed more like a real girl. I didn't even notice that I
was becoming more and more of a girl as the time passed.

On Sunday, I tried on all the new clothes and decided I wanted to wear
the gray top with my new blue jean skirt. The skirt was about 3 inches
above the knee^Åpretty short, but it wasn't too short that it was
uncomfortable. I slipped on my new blue wedge sandals and went
downstairs. My mom said I looked really cute and gave me a big hug. I
told her how much I loved being her daughter and I wanted to do this as
much as possible.

We went out for a late brunch and I didn't even think about if anyone
would think I was a boy. I felt totally like a girl now. We were sitting
at the table and just talking when my mom noticed a friend of hers from
work. Her friend came over to say hello. Her name was Maggie and her
daughter`s name was Melinda. Melinda was 13 years old. My mom introduced
me as her cousin and my name was Jessica. They sat with us and we all
talked for a long time. Then Melinda asked me if I wanted to go to the
movies with her. I said yes and my mom drove us over to the movie
theater.

When we got inside the movie theater, Melinda said that she was going to
meet a boy and for us to meet back up after the movie was over. I was a
bit disappointed, but I bought some popcorn and a soda drink and went in
alone to watch the movie. I was watching the movie when two boys sat down
next to me. The boy closest to me said hello and started talking to me.
He was 14, with light brown curly hair and very cute. I remember thinking
that I didn't really notice boys when I was a boy, but now I sure did
notice him. We whispered back and forth and I was really enjoying myself.
We shared my popcorn and he put his arm around me. I really liked that.
He said that I was really cute and I had very nice looking legs. I told
him thank you and was glad that I wore this skirt and that I remembered
to keep my legs together by crossing my legs. He pulled me closer to him
and I put my head on his shoulder. It was so nice. I was just smiling up
at him when he leaned over and kissed me. I kissed him back. This was the
second boy I have kissed and I totally loved kissing him! He kissed me
really softly for a long time and then he slipped his tongue into my
mouth. I took it and sucked on his tongue and then he sucked on mine.. It
was so exciting! We kissed for about 10 minutes and then the movie was
over. He asked me if I could meet him again next Sunday at the movie
theater and I told him I would like that very much. He kissed me good bye
and I went outside to meet Melinda. She asked me if I had a nice time and
I told her yes. Melinda said she saw me kissing a boy and I told her it
was really nice.

Melinda's mom picked us up and when I got home my mom was watching TV
and asked me if I had a good time. I told her I had a great time this
whole weekend and I loved being her daughter. She said I could be her
daughter again next weekend if I wanted, and I said I did.