My Erotic Obsessions

Well where do I start? I will start from now and go backwards 
as sometimes recounting things like this works better for me. 
Just a while ago I went for a bike ride with the purpose of 
going a few blocks to a community pool. I got there, and 
hopped over the barred fence and stood by the deep end. I got 
a rush as I fell backwards into the pool with all of my 
clothes on. You see, I get very turned on by situations where 
I get soaking wet in all my clothes.

However, just sneaking into a pool or lake or playing in the 
shower bathtub or water hose alone is not enough for me. What 
I really long for is situations where other people are around 
and they watch me as I purposefully jump in with everything 
on. I feed off of people's reactions. See what I am wanting is 
for people to see my silly behavior and see me getting all wet 
and to say something to me when I am either still in the water 
or when I'm climbing out. I like feeling slightly embarrassed 
or foolish by either my peers or even total strangers.

I'm still experimenting with what I like to wear when getting 
wet. I wear jeans and a long sleeved demon shirt and of course 
my shoes socks and even my underwear. I also like to 
experiment with any combination of clothing.

The whole thing I like is getting wet when you're not supposed 
to be wet. Like for example jumping in the pool at the college 
and then going to my work place in wet clothes. Or playing in 
a fountain when with friends. But what I really long for is to 
be hanging out on a deck by a pool and have someone throw me 
in when I don't really want to get wet or when I'm not 
prepared by having a change of clothes ready. Then I get to be 
wet all day until I can change at home.

I also like to throw other people in with there clothes on as 
well. I wish to be at a wedding where the bride falls in and 
then other wedding guest, including myself are pushed or 
thrown or go in willingly. 

When I was a child however, I didn't feel this way about 
getting wet. In fact, I didn't like it at all. I remember 
falling in a pool when I was four when my parents and I were 
at some car show. We didn't have extra clothes so I and my mom 
were in wet clothes all day. (My mom dove in to get me.)

Also I remember lots of times when it would rain when I was 
out with my mom and she made me run with her to the car or 
whatever and I got all wet and cried. I used to get cold 
sometimes too when I was wet. I also remember in second grade 
going to sea world and watching the kids who were standing 
right up against the shamu tank and getting absolutely water 
logged. I was sitting further back and barely got splashed. I 
really wanted to get sopping wet though.

I think that's where I started to like it. Also when I was a 
teenager at a car wash we turned the hose on each other and 
got soaked, I liked it then too cuz a girl was the one wetting 
me and she asked me to soak her too. Also another memory from 
child or early teen years was some neighborhood kids teasing 
me because my pants were wet because one kid sprayed me in the 
crotch with a water hose and it looked like I peed myself.

Then in my twenties as I was becoming aware of other fetishes 
and feelings of mine such as the diapers and regressing to the 
state of a baby, I went through a time where the thought of 
getting wet made me have panic attacks. I also cut myself a 
few times when forcing myself to look up things online about 
wet clothes. I would somehow force myself to do it even though 
it upset me I was inflicting the emotional trauma onto myself

Then sometime about 4 years ago when I was 25 or so, I started 
to put the sexual element with getting wet. Now these days you 
can't keep me out of water, accept when I know my parents will 
be around. This is because any time as a child when I got wet 
or dirty while playing they would yell at me and it made me 
feel scared and upset. I now have to indulge in my wet time 
when my parents are away, as they were today when I went in 
the pool. Prior to going in the pool I got soaking wet in the 
shower wearing my footed pajamas which seemed to really hold a 
lot of water. I loved sitting on the porch just in my soaking 
wet clingy heavy pajamas.

I wish I had the guts like I did a few years ago to just jump 
in the pool at work fully clothed and come back to work. I did 
it then when I knew I could either dry out before my parents 
picked me up, or when my boss was away, or whatever. I want so 
badly to just get soaked without planning for it. I want to 
get absolutely drenched and have people say things to me like 
"Oh my god, how did you get so wet? Or laugh and say "you're 
soaked what happened?" or be thrown in a pool and have people 
tease me.

I don't want to pack extra clothes or think the night before 
or even 10 minutes before. I just wanna be near water sometime 
and just on the spur of the moment just do it. I remember one 
time in tan shorts and a t-shirt and shoes socks and underwear 
I snuck into a pool by slipping between to bars where the gate 
had a gap, and I went to the deep end. It was a hot day. I 
stood on the ledge and just jumped, putting my feet out in 
front and landing with my tush first in the water.

My first realizations was the splash, then under water, then 
feeling my shoes really heavy and feeling my clothes clingy 
and water running off of them as I got out. I jumped in a 
couple more times just for the heck of it. If I was at a party 
where I was gonna get thrown in I'd wanna do it then be in wet 
clothes then change into my spare clothes and have someone 
throw me in again!

Getting wet feels good. I never seem to get an erection during 
the activity of doing such things accept if I'm in the shower 
and its really warm water and stuff but, in public I never do. 
I seem to be the type to go through a sexually stimulating 
experience and then later when I'm home and I masturbate, I 
replay it, amplifying feelings and exadurating events, and 
manipulating it and remembering the sensory feelings of being 
wet and playing back audio snippets of what people said and 
forming a loop until I hit the sweet spots of the fantasy and 
escalate my stoking until I orgasm.

That is also how I work with my diaper fetish as well. Since 
this article is not about the diapers and baby stuff, I am not 
going to really elaborate on those. Every now and then I still 
panic about getting wet, but then I snap out of it quicker and 
I don't feel the need to hurt myself at all anymore. That was 
only during a short period of time back in 2000.

Anyway, to sum it up, I am hoping to find myself in situations 
that will play out to the way I like them. There is a wedding 
I will attend soon. I hope and pray for water near by at the 
reception. A nice heavy tuxedo would feel so good and being in 
front of so many people for the pictures and for the whole 
time. Too bad my parents are there. I hope I grow some balls 
and just jump in and not worry about anybody, including my 
parents. All anyone can do is yell at me. It's a little to 
late when I emerge from the pool dripping wet!

So, if you've never tried such a thing; just on a whim, 
without any extra clothes and with some people around and when 
you know you won't be able to change any time soon, just go 
get wet! It feels so good! 

Also just as a list of all that I'm into, here it is. I like 
wearing diapers, wetting and messing in them, wearing baby 
style clothing, playing the role of a baby or toddler, also 
like to jump in the pool with my clothes on, play in the rain, 
and also like to pee my pants (without diapers) and also like 
to do everything in front of people. I love exhibitionism.

Summer's coming soon, I will hope for a blinding grey sheet of 
rain to pour all over me! Even the rain pouring and just 
getting on my shirt and a little on my pants isn't good. I 
like the kind of rain that soaks your shoes and makes your 
underwear soaking wet too! I like to walk around in the rain 
having other people trying to stay dry watch me from windows.

Anyway that should sum it up. Go get wet!