Tiffany's Diaper Tales Volume I By BabyInDiapers Written 06/08/2004 Chapter 089 Amy and I woke up and yawned. We laid there for a few minutes stretching and trying to wake up. Mr. Fluffy was on the floor so I sat up and crawled over to the foot of the bed and picked him up and returned to my spot and cuddled with him. Amy laid there going tinkle in her diaper. Mommy came into the room and said good morning to us. "Hi Mommy." I said as I crawled over to the foot of the bed. Mr. Fluffy was on the pillow still. I stood up and mommy hugged me. Aunt Kathy came in a moment later. They changed our diapers and then we went to the kitchen to eat. Tammy was still sleeping in. Kimmie had came home last night with her and they crashed in her room. Daddy was at the table reading the paper and sipping on his coffee. Teala was in the living room laying on the couch watching television. She got up early and changed her own diaper and had breakfast before the rest of us got our lazy butts out of bed. Mommy seemed to be a bit preoccupied during breakfast. I could sense something was on her mind. Later on I joined Teala on the couch. We watched cartoons for a while. Amy and her mommy went out shopping together so they could spend some mother daughter time. That was something they hadn't been able to do very much since they moved in with us. Even though it had been a few months since the attacks, it was still hard to not think about it at least once a day. So many people were displaced, and worse yet, so many lost. I tried not to think about it to much though. It always made me sad. Mommy went into daddy's office and closed the door. They were talking in there for a good while. I was beginning to wonder what was going on. It seemed like something maybe happened last night that I slept through. Whatever it was, only mommy and daddy seemed to know about it. The doorbell rang around 11:30AM. It was Emily and Laura. We asked Teala if she wanted to go play in the backyard with us. She decided to come outside for a little while even though it was a bit hot out. We hung out in the tree house which had an air conditioner window unit. "What time is Kelly coming over?" Laura asked. "After lunch my mom said. Probably around 12:30" "I hope she won't be shy when she gets here." Emily said. "I know what you mean, but we have to try extra hard to make her feel welcome and stuff. She'll come around, I'm sure." I said. Mom called us girls in for lunch. We had sandwiches and chips and we each had a sippy cup full of apple juice. "Mommy where's Tammy?" I asked. "She's in her room." Mom said plainly. "Is she awake yet?" "Yes." Mom replied. "Why she not eating lunch mommy?" I asked. "She's not hungry." Mom said. It sounded like she was trying not to talk about something. It seemed to me like mommy was upset with Tammy for some reason. Teala excused herself from the table. She walked down the hall and knocked on Tammy's door. A moment later she entered and closed the door behind her. Emily and Laura were quiet during lunch. I think they could feel the tension too. We sat on the couch waiting for Kelly to come over and play. Hey, you guys wait here, I wanna go talk to Tam Tam ok?" I said as I got up and headed for her room. "OK we wait here." Laura said. I stood in front of her door and I could hear faint crying. I heard Teala's voice. It sounded like she was trying to comfort her. I hesitated for a moment and then gently knocked. I hear footsteps coming to the door. Teala peaked her head out. "Hey Tiff." She said softly. "Can I come in?" I asked. Teala nodded and let me in and closed the door behind me and locked it. I stood there in the middle of the room taking it all in. Tammy was laying on her bed crying, and Teala was now standing behind me with her hand gently on my shoulder. I approached Tammy and sat down next to her on the bed. I put my hand on her shoulder. "Hi Tam Tam. " I said softly. "Hey Tiff." She said while still sniffling and crying somewhat. "What wrong?" I asked. She didn't answer. "Are you in trouble with mommy?" I asked. She just nodded. "What happened?" I asked. She slowly sat up and looked at me. Her face was moist with tears still. I hugged her tightly and she held me close to her. She was still sobbing some, but trying to compose herself. All the while Teala was sitting at a chair by Tammy's desk facing us. "Tiffany, I'm so sorry." She said as she lost her composure. "Tammy just tell me ok? I'll still love you no matter what." I said as I sat next to her on the bed. "Mommy is mad at me because what me and Kimmie did last night." She said. "What did you do?" I asked. A long silence followed, which was interrupted by a knock at the door. "Tiffany get out here, your friend is at the door." Mom said. "Go, it's ok hun, go play. Don't worry about me ok? I'll be fine. Teala is gonna stay with me for a while. I'll try to explain later ok?" she said while hugging me. "Otay Tammy. I loves you." I said as I left the room and shut the door behind me. I walked into the living room and greeted Kelly. She was sitting next to Laura on the couch. I had a hard time making the transition between such a serious moment with my sister, and now having to play. Sure I loved to play, don't get me wrong, but when someone you love is going through something, even if you aren't with them, you can still feel it. It's like a connection. I always felt that with Tammy. A while later I was able to shake the felling and indulge in my playtime. Kelly warmed right up to us girls. She wasn't so shy once she felt comfortable with us. She explained to us how her mommy made her wear diapers while they worked on the house and how her mom and dad went potty out in the yard. "They make me wear diapers so I don't have accidents because I was to shy to go in the yard so I would always wind up wetting my pants." Kelly said. "Oh that makes sense." I said. "So do you like wearing them?" Laura asked. "Actually yeah. I wouldn't want to wear them all the time, but sometimes it is nice to know that you can just go hide some where and go in your pants and go get cleaned up later when it's convenient." Kelly said. She was a very intelligent girl for her age. I could tell her parents were strict and she probably was a straight A student and all that. We played for a while longer. Kelly did a messy in her diaper but didn't want to get changed right away. Laura also filled her baby pants. That's when we decided to go get changed. Mommy called Tammy and Teala to change us. She seemed to not be in the mood today. "Dang, whatever your sister did, your mom is really pissed." Emily said. "Yep." I said as I knocked on the door again. Teala and Tammy came across the hall to my room and changed all us girls. Teala changed Kelly and Tammy changed me. Then Teala changed Laura's tinkle didees and Tammy changed Emily. We were going to go back outside to play but it started raining. Mommy put in a movie for us to watch and we all sat on the couch. Mommy and daddy went to lie down and take a nap. They both had been up a lot the past few nights and were very tired. Teala and Tammy had also fallen asleep in Tammy's room. After the movie was over we sat on the couch and talked a while. The door bell rang and it was Kelly's dad. "Hi." I said as I opened the door. "Hello, I've come to pick up my daughter." He said. "Ok. Do you want to come in?" I asked. "That's ok, I left the truck running." He said. "Kelly, it's your dad. Do you have all your stuff?" I asked. "Yeah." She said as she said bye to all of us. "Hey, it was really fun having you over. We'll have to do that again soon." I said. "OK, I'd like that. You and your friends are nice." She said as she went with her daddy down the sidewalk. They drove off and I closed the door and sat back on the couch with Emily and Laura and sighed. "I'm so tired." I said. "Me too." Laura said in agreement. "Let's go take a nap." Emily said as she got up and we walked into my room. Emily crawled into Teala's crib. Laura crawled into mine. I laid down on the bed. "Aren't you gonna get in the crib?" Laura asked. "Naw, I just wanna lay here for a while. You enjoy the crib ya big baby." I said as I yawned. "Otay me will." The whole house became silent. All that could be heard was the light rain dripping outside. I woke up a while later to find Tammy laying in bed with me. Her arm was around me and she was sound asleep. I lie there motionless even though I was awake. I could tell that Emily and Laura were still sleeping as well. Teala stood by the door. She quietly walked out to the living room and laid on the couch. I must have dozed back off because when I awoke later, it was dark outside. Tammy was still lying next to me. I gently nudged her to wake her up. She opened one eye, and then the other. She didn't say anything, she just laid on the bed and looked at me. I soaked my diaper while we laid there. Tammy smiled slightly. I was glad to see her smiling. She whispered. "You got tinkle pants." "I wet." I said quietly as not to wake the others. She sat up slowly and then stood up in front of the bed. I crawled out of the bed and followed her out of the room. She grabbed my diaper bag and motioned for me to go into her room. She didn't want to wake up the other big babies while changing me. I also figured this would give us a chance to talk. After my diaper was changed I sat on the bed next to Tammy. The door was closed most of the way except for a crack. "So do you know what happened last night?" Tammy asked. "Um, not really." I said. "Well, Kimmie and I came back from the movies really late, and so she stayed the night with me." Tammy said. "Did mom know she was going to stay over?" "No." she said. "So is that what she's mad about?" I asked. Tammy sighed. "Look sweetie-pie, I don't know an easy way to say this." She paused. "I like girls honey." Tammy said. "So do I? I love Emily and Laura and Amy, Teala and You, and my new friend Kelly." I said. "That's not what I mean hun. See, Kimmie and I like each other more than friends. We like to do things like boyfriends and girlfriends do. Do you understand what I'm saying Tiff?" I lowered my head slightly. I was taken by surprise. "So why was mommy mad at you for that?" I asked. "She caught us touching, and kissing, and other things I don't want to tell you about sweetie. We were having girl sex." She said while wiping away a tear from her cheek. "Oh." I paused. I didn't really know what to think. "Do you like me and Teala that way?" I asked. "No way! Yuck! You're my sister. Sweetie, I would never touch you like I do with Kimmie. There's a big difference. You don't do stuff like that with your family honey." Tammy said. "But what about that one night at Aunt Kathy's when Teala and you had your hands up each other's shirts?" "That was different. We were cold. Plus Teala is older, AND she's not my blood sister like you are. Besides I didn't even really feel anything when we did that. It's nothing like when I am with Kimmie." Tammy said. "Oh ok. Why was mommy mad? She lets us wear diapers, and do other stuff that most families wouldn't." I said. "Well, this is sort of different. Ya see baby, our church doesn't believe in what's called same-sex relationships. That means two girls or two guys. It is a really controversial issue though." "But why do they care who people love, as long as they are in love with someone and they get married." I asked. Tammy sighed. "I'm not even sure I am a lesbian. I still like boys too. To be honest Tiffany, I'm just about as confused as you are sweetie. But one thing I know, is mommy and daddy love us, God loves us, and we all have each other." She said as she gave me a hug. "What did mommy say to you about it?" I asked. "She said it was a sin and that it wasn't god's plan for people to do that. She then told Kimmie to go home. Kimmie was mad and said some things to mommy about our church, and her beliefs and they got mad at each other. Daddy came out and got in the middle of it and sent her home. Then they yelled at me." Tammy said. "I didn't hear nothing." I said. "That's cuz I stood outside by the front door. I'm sure all the neighbor's heard." She said as she signed. "Well Tammy, I don't really know what to tell you. Maybe you just need to pray, and study the bible and really let God tell you what he expects from you, instead of letting other people tell you. That's what I would do if I was confused about something." I said. "You know what, that's a great idea. You're so smart honey." Tammy said as she hugged me. "Can I pray for you?" I asked. "Sure baby. I'd like that." "Dear God, please help my sister to figure out what you want her to do about liking girls. I pray that you will help mommy to be patient with her while she figures things out and talks to you God. And Jesus, I pray that you will reach out to Kimmie and help her to know you. Please forgive us of our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. Show us your plans for us God, and lead us where you want us to go. I pray that Tammy and mom and dad will work things out. Also I pray for peace in our home. Please watch over us, and keep us safe. In the name of Jesus, we pray, Amen." "Amen." Tammy replied. Mom stood in the doorway for a moment. We knew she had walked by when we started praying. Mommy walked into the room. "Honey, go wake up your friends and go play on the back deck. I need to talk to your sister alone for a while." Mom said. "Otay mommy." I left the room and went to do as she said. Laura, Emily and I sat out behind the living room on the deck by the pool. The rain had stopped by this point. Teala came out and joined us for a while. Meanwhile in Tammy's room: Tammy was trying to speak but she couldn't get the words to come out. Mommy began to cry and just hugged Tammy. "I love you." Mom said to her. "I love you to mommy, I'm sorry." She said. "Shhh, It's ok baby. Mommy loves you so much." Mommy said while she held Tammy and cried. They stopped crying after a while and sat down on the bed. "I am sorry how things happened last night honey. I know I was out of line. I should have handled things in a calmer way." Mom said. "I'm sorry too." Tammy said. "I'm sorry for not telling you she was here, and for being out so late, and for what I was doing last night mommy." She said as she started crying again. "Tammy, answer me one question." "Yes mom?" "How long have you and Kimmie been," Mom said as Tammy interrupted her. "Only a few times, just the past year or so just 3 or 4 times." Tammy said. Mom sighed. "I know that girls your age sometimes experiment, or compare breast sizes, and so on, but somehow Tammy I get the feeling that's not what's going on with you and Kimmie." Mom said while blowing her nose. Tammy was trying to stop crying. "I think I love her mommy." "Honey, I think that you are confused, and trying to figure things out. Maybe both of you are. I can understand that. These days, with so much knowledge of sex at your age, from your peers, and from the media." Mom said. "NO, Mom, I do love her." Tammy said forcefully. Mom just sighed. "Tammy you know that same sex relationships are" "Yeah mom I know, they're wrong! But why? Just cuz the church says so? I don't remember seeing in the bible where it is wrong!" Tammy said while fighting back tears. "I understand your anger, after last night honey, but." "NO MOM! You don't understand! You're always letting us girls wear diapers, and that's not socially popular, but you taught us to stand up for ourselves and to not let people make us feel bad! You're a hypocrite! You and everyone else! If it's ok to wear diapers then why the HELL isn't it ok to be in love with a girl!" Tammy yelled. Mom smacked her face with an open palm. "I wont have you talk to me that way young lady!" she said. IN that moment she regretted what she had done, but she couldn't take it back. "I HATE YOU!" Tammy screamed. "I'm running away to Kimmie's house! At least her mom will accept me!" Tammy said while standing toe to toe with mommy. This was the point where we could hear them outside. I ran inside. They were both having a yelling match. Dad and Mom, verses Tammy, so it seemed. "Young lady, you are not to go over there! We have church tomorrow. Why don't you come with us and we can meet with the pastor and work this out. "Oh no! NO way in HELL! Get out of my room! I'm packing my stuff and I'm leaving! Don't get in my way!!!" she screamed. I stood there in the hall looking into the room watching my kind loving and gentle sister just fly off the handle and come unwound. This deeply shook me. Tammy had always been a source of stability for me emotionally, and with this turmoil going on, I couldn't handle it. I began balling. Daddy came out to the hall. He picked me up. "Come on honey." He said as he carried me to the kitchen. He called Laura's mom. "Can I bring tiffany over, maybe for the night. Our family is having a very bad quarrel. I don't want her to see this." Dad said. "Sure. I'll come get her. Just have them wait on the sidewalk." Laura's mommy said. "Emily is with them, can she come over too?" dad said. "Yeah, I'll call her mom when we get back here and work something out. I'll be right over Tom." Daddy hung up the phone. "Come on girls, get your things, you are going to Laura's house for a while ok?" Dad said as he held me and tried to get me to stop crying. As we waited out front we could still here them yelling. Laura's mom came up the driveway in her car and slammed the breaks and got out. She approached daddy. She told Laura and Emily to get in the back. "Come on Tiffany, Why don't you come over to my house for a while ok baby?" "NO! I want my Tammy!" I cried. "Aww, but we'll have fun, and you can come back later when everything is calmed down ok sweetie." Laura's mom took me from daddy. I cried. Daddy went back inside. I felt my whole life spinning. Everything within me felt like water swirling down a drain. I just cried until crying didn't do anything for me anymore. I just sat in Laura's mommy's lap with Emily and Laura sitting on either side. They tried to comfort me as best as they could. Meanwhile back at the house: It was pouring rain and thundering now. Tammy was throwing her stuff into her car. Mom and dad were standing on the steps crying. Each time Tammy would walk up to the house she'd push past them. "Please be careful honey." Mom cried as she got into her car. Mom was trying to hold on to the door handle. "Mom! Back off!" Tammy yelled. "I love you!" mom said as her tears mixed with the raindrops on Tammy's car window as she gave her mother one last glaring stare before pealing out of the driveway and gunning it off down the road. Mom and dad held each other crying in the rain. Mommy and daddy finally went inside and changed out of there soaked clothes. They sat on the couch praying harder than they had ever prayed. "News report Special weather bulletin." Flashed on the screen. "Flash floods in parts of Daytona, and inland." The weather man said. "Oh Tom, our baby is out there, and It's my fault." Mommy cried. The door opened. Amy and her mom came in. "Gosh it's raining cats and dogs.. Hey, what's wrong with you guys?" Kathy said while hanging her raincoat on a hook by the door. Amy stood next to her mom staring at mommy and daddy. "We had a fight with Tammy." "Again?" Kathy said as she sat down next to them. "What do you mean again? I never heard any fighting yesterday?" Amy said. "It was last night honey. Tammy and Kimmie came in late and, well, it's a long story hun." Kathy said. They sat there and talked for a while. "Hey, where's Teala?" Amy asked. "I don't know, she was taking a nap before everything happened." Mom said. Amy got up to go look for her. After walking around for a while she thought she heard breathing. She opened the hall closet door. "Teala! What are you doing in there?" she asked. Teala was quiet. She looked scared. Amy tried to help her crawl out of the hiding place she was in. Mom came over to her. "Teala, why did you hide in the closet honey?" "Cuz I got scared when you started fighting. IT was just like at my house when I was little and my mom and dad would argue. They would yell and hit each other and throw things. I always ran and hid. I just was scared when things started happening." She said while whimpering. "Aww, you poor baby. Mommy's sorry that things got ugly tonight. I would never hurt you, or anyone for that matter." Mom said as she checked her diaper. "You're all wet. How about you let me go change you into a nice dry diaper and fix you some ice cream?" mom said in baby talk. Teala nodded. Later on Emily had to go home. Laura was sitting with me. "I wanna go home." I said to Laura. "Ask my mommy ok Tiffy?" Laura said as she took me by the hand into her mom's room. "Tiffany wants to go home mommy." Laura said. "Well, let me call and see if things have calmed down, ok darling?" She said as she reached for the phone and dialed. She talked to my parents for a few minutes before hanging up. "OK, your cousin Amy is going to come get you sweetie." Laura's mom said as she got out of bed and gave me a hug. "If you need somewhere to run when things get bad at home, you can always come here Tiffany, Ok?" She said. "Thank you." I said as we embraced once more. Laura kissed me goodnight. She went back to her bedroom and laid down to go to sleep. I stood by the door with Laura's mom and then heard a knock. It was Amy. "Hi baby." Amy said as she knelt down and hugged me and kissed me. I didn't say anything. "Good night." Laura's mommy said as she shut the door. Amy and I got in the car. I was quiet all the way home. "Do you wanna sleep with me tonight baby?" she asked while walking with me into the house. "I want my mommy." I said softly. "Ok sweetie. I understand. There's no one like momma when baby wants to cuddle and feel all better. I know how ya feel sweetie. I'll cuddle up with Teala in her crib tonight." Amy said. "Goodie. She probably would like that." I said. It was late. I crawled into mommy and daddy's bed. I was in a squishy diaper but I didn't care. "You're wet baby." Mom said as she patted my diaper. "But it's ok. I'm glad you came home. Mommy loves you." She whispered. "I love you too." I said as I nestled in close to her and fell asleep in her arms. Teala and Amy slept in Teala's crib. Teala was doing ok, now that she got to be babied a little bit, it helped calm her down. I woke up crying later in the night. Mommy breastfed me until I fell asleep. Since my diaper was really wet, she changed me while I slept. Then she laid back down next to me. We all slept in late the next morning. We got up to late for church, but mommy and daddy went down to the church. They wanted to sit down and talk to the Pastor after services. Kathy was in charge of us kids. She tried to keep us occupied so we wouldn't think about all the stuff that happened last night. The phone rang while Aunt Kathy and Amy were fixing dinner. "I'll get it." I said as I reached for the phone by the end table to the left of the couch. "Hewwo?" I said. "Tiff, is that you?" "Tammy!" I said. "Hey. Is mom there?" "No she and daddy went out for the afternoon to church." I said. "Oh. Well tell them I'm ok, and I'm sorry." Tammy said. "Please come home, I miss you." I said as I started to cry. "I miss you too baby doll." She said as her voice wavered slightly. "I have to go, don't forget to tell mom I called and what I said ok?" "Otay Tam Tam." I said. "Tiff?" "Yeah?" "I'll come home in a few days after things blow over, or something. I don't want you to worry about me ok? I love you." She said. "I love you more." I said as I sniffled. "Aww, but I love you the mostest." She said as she laughed slightly. "Miss you." I said. "I'll miss you too. Be a good girl ok?" Tammy said. "Ok you too!" I said as I hung up the phone. Later that night Mommy and Daddy came home. They had been praying in the church prayer room all day and were exhausted. I told them Tammy called and that she was ok, and she was sorry, and she would be home in a few days when things blew over." Mom sighed with relief, as did dad. They got a shower and went to bed. "Tiff, if you wanna sleep with momma and daddy tonight, just crawl into bed when you're all ready. Ok?" "Otay mommy." I said while I hugged her and daddy. "Oh Kathy?" "Yes Tonya?" "Make sure this munchkin goes to bed in dry diapers. I had to wake up and change her squishy tushie last night." Mommy said as she laughed and swatted my diaper playfully. I laughed. "OK I'll make sure she's dry tonight." Aunt Kathy said as she came into the living room and gave her sister a kiss and a hug. "Thanks." Mom said as she walked into her room and closed the door. A moment later she opened it just a crack so I could push it open if I wanted to come in and lay in mommy and daddy's bed later on. Around 9, Aunt Kathy got me ready for bed. Amy and Teala were already tucked in and watching the end of a movie in Amy's room. After my teeth were brushed, aunt Kathy took me to my room to change my diaper. "Do you have to go potty?" she asked before she took off my diaper. "A little." I said. "OK go in your baby pants now, so you will be in dry didees for your mommy ok?" "Otay." I said as I tinkled in my diaper. "All done?" she said as she began to take off my diaper and wipe me and powder me. After I was diapered, I crinkled all the way down the hall to Amy's room. I said nighty night to Teala and Amy. Then Aunt Kathy gave me a hug and kiss. She handed me my bear and patted me on the head softly as I waddled into mommy's room and crawled into bed. Aunt Kathy shut the door behind me. After squirming around a little bit, I got comfortable. Mommy and daddy were so tired, they didn't even move. I prayed for my Tam Tam, I prayed a lot. I fell asleep around 1AM. That was the last time I looked over at the clock. I woke up again at 3. I totally went poopy in my baby pants. I relaxed and tinkled and then fell back asleep until morning.