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The Sickness : Awful Saying
Story codes: bg Mb ped fantasy magic
This describes sexual acts between children, which only end happily with the help of mind control (not explicitely stated). I do not advocate attempting any of these acts. However, I do advocate writing down any fantasys you may have of doing such acts and publishing them in apropriate places.
I awoke in shallow water on wet sand. Renee's sleeping body was beautiful under the moon light. I realized that Luke hadn't contacted me in my sleep. I wondered if he'd contacted Renee instead.
Renee shivered when she woke. I asked "Are you OK?"
She rolled over to face me and answered "More or less. Luke made quite a statement."
"What sort of statement?"
She sat up and told me "He made me agree to have more sex with you for one. He also showed off what a horny bastard he was."
I sat up and pressed my knees against my chest to resist the cold. I asked "How'd he do that?"
"He knew I was right all along. He just thought prying my legs apart was more important than protecting the world."
I was working my way into deeper water. Luke's priorities made me feel even colder. I commented "He must be stoped."
Renee answered "That's exactly what I thought." She stood up and draged me into deeper water. She soon had my arms and legs around her and my penis inside her. She moved to stand where I was up to my neck, and her almost up to her shoulders. I pressed my cheek against her shoulder. We began working to put me together, and for a long time, we forgot to eat.
By the time we needed to sleep again, I had good recall of a great deal of my life. I remembered my life into early adulthood. I'd remembered how I'd slowly been convinced that I was a monster by reading account after account of victims of my kind, even though it flew in the face of my common sense that sex could be that evil. I also remembered the book that had made it all make sense.
This time, Luke was on a sunny beach and I was far enough into the water that the waves were just swells. Luke asked "What have you remembered since we last met?"
I answered "The Awful Saying."
Luke began wading out to me. He confessed "I hadn't known you knew one. Do tell me about it."
I explained the ancient evil powers I'd learned about. As I did so, I began to get creaped out by how horifyed Luke wasn't. In fact, he seemed to think it was funny. I asked him if he thought I was wrong, but he answered "No. So far you've shown a remarkable grasp of it."
When I finished explaining, he commented "Your story is whiney, but accurate. You should accept the world as it is."
"I won't. If I ever get the power, I'll change it."
Luke laughed. He told me "I have the power, but I see no reason to use it."
This filled me with loathing for the man. He had me in his arms at that point and didn't let me go when I tried to struggle out of them. Then a sudden current swept us apart, and I began swimming out to sea. Then Luke commented "You're as bad as Thuriel," and I felt a shaft of ice through my body from my crotch to my throat that hurt so much that I curled up in a ball ad sank beneath the water. I didn't remember anything about Thuriel except that I knew the name. When I recovered enough to reach the surface again, I found myself facing the beach. The water was receding, and had already exposed a lot more of the beach. Luke was running for dry sand, and when he reached it, I felt the water lift me up.
I woke and sat up breathing hard. My motion woke up Renee, who asked "Are you all right Carl?" When I didn't answer, she sat up and put her arms around me. She asked "What did he do to you, Carl?"
When I recovered enough to speak, I told her "He knows! He even has the power to do something about it, and he didn't use it!"
Renee answered "That makes a twisted kind of sense, but then, Luke's a twisted man."
Then I remembered something else from the meeting. "Oh! Luke also mentioned a Thuriel." I shivered in her arms as I spoke the name.
She asked "What did he say about it?"
I answered "Just that I was as bad as him. We were talking about the need to change things."
She told me "I just read a little about it in a grimnour. It's sort of a magical presence that's dificult to contact. I can't see how you'd know the name."
"I guess that's one more thing to find out."
We recovered more of my memories of many pieces of my life. I remembered a number of art projects, children I'd loved, a mother who'd guessed my secret, my sexual fantasies, and my experiences with therapy. Renee was especially interested in the Buffy episodes I'd watched. I recovered my invention of the fantasy that lead to my new world, and how its magic could reverse the Awful Saying if enough of it could get into my world.
My recovery slowed down after Luke recruited me to his magic family. Most of the adult members were combination harem and fellow magicians, and there were many children, who I found adorable. There were a few men, most of whom had especially strong magic powers. I guessed that I had strong powers as well.
I was taught some basics and used to provide power for various spells I had no idea what most of the spells did, and lessons started becoming rarer and less informative. I did confirm from other people's spell casting abilities that I was incredibly powerful, and I wanted to learn what I was really capable of.
At first, I just asked questions and acquired a few well known details, and then I worked out a spell to contact a teacher. I didn't think I could reach a teacher who would teach me what I wanted for free, but I included a requirement in the spell that the price be one I'd be willing and able to pay. I made a telepathic contact with a being named Thuriel.
Thuriel quietly taught me a great deal of magic, and also explained why they might not want me to learn it. The problem was my unwilling self sacrifice. My unwanted abstinance both made my powers stronger and less stable. When I asked Thuriel what he thought about the safety of teaching me, it answered "You are the least of their problems."
I asked "What worse problems do they have?"
Thuriel
replied "To put it simply, The Awful Saying for Breaking Hearts."
The telepathy told me clearly that he was talking about the exact
Saying I knew. He went on to say "It can destroy sentient races
in a number of ways once they achieve enough magical power." I
had no trouble inventing a few.
Another string of events that started at that time was thae Renee
started trying to seduce me. I might have sucumbed except that
I'd picked up that Renee hated sex even more than most women, and I
knew that something else must be going on. Thuriel thought that
Luke had mistaken my problem for a simple case of forced chastity.
I replied "Why Renee then? There are a plenty of women here
who would be more plausible."
"Perhaps Luke found out that she has some means of relieving you of
your problem." Thuriel went on to teach me a spell for devining
that.
After I confirmed that Renee had some means to solve my problem, I
asked "Could she change my sexual desires?"
Thuriel answered "That's unlikely. Your sexual focus is
determined by subtle and complicated systems in you. If that were
a workable solution, the spell would have pointed to Luke."
The other solution I could think of didn't seem likely either.
I asked "How could she make it OK for me to have sex with a child?"
Thuriel answered "She wouldn't have to. All she'd have to do
is make you believe it was OK. Also, for what it's worth, I think
it's less destructive than your people like to think."
"It's certainly not harmless."
Thuriel replied "I would agree with that."
For a time, things worked out. I was able to distract myself
from my problems with my secret studies of magic. It also helped
to play with the children, even though I didn't do anything sexual with
them. During that time, my problems didn't get any worse, and I
learned a great deal about magic.
Things changed when 6 year old Katrina was raped and murdered when
her mother took her to a city for shopping. Pedophiles became a
main topic of conversation, and since I'd been close to Katrina, people
tried to comfort me with nightmares about what should be done with my
kind. I avoided people more and more. I also avoided the
children because I was endlessly reminded that I shouldn't go anywhere
near them. Renee was able to find me wherever I went, and tried
to comfort me by describing my gift for magic, which I could turn
against pedophiiles. She even taught me a number of spells I'd
long ago mastered from Thuriel. Throughout all of this, I had to
pretend that I accepted their hatred of pedophiles.
One night I told Thuriel "There has got to be something I can do!"
Thuriel suggested "You could run away. You know spells that
could keep even Luke from tracking you."
This was probably the best solution, but I wouldn't accept it.
"What does it matter that I can go anywhere if I'm a fucking monster
wherever I go?"
Instead of trying to argue with me, Thuriel made another
suggestion. "You can give them exactly what they want. If
you really are a monster, you will have saved the world from your kind,
and otherwise they will experience very poetic justice."
I thought about this and guessed I could devise a spell to remove
all of my kind from the world in about a year. Thuriel then
offered to help me set it up in a month if I'd include a few components
he'd provide in the spell, and I agreed.
As I recovered these memories,
Luke continued to contact me in my dreams, and I continued to allow him
to penetrate me, but I never forgot I was fucking a monster. I
continued to tell him and Renee what I remembered.
When I remembered what Thuriel and I had agreed to do, I asked Renee
"Do you think I messed up the spell?"
She answered "I don't think so. Almost any mistake you could
make would have caused the spell to fail, and you certainly succeeded."
I answered "I'll have to ask Luke why he wants to break the spell."
The next time I slept, Luke contacted me in my dreams and I asked
him just that.
He answered "Because child molesting is part of the variety that
makes my world so interesting."
I felt a surge of hope at that, because it sounded like I hadn't
harmed the world after all. I asked Luke "In that case, why
should I help you break it?"
He answered "To start with, you've succeeded where many social
activists have failed, and now elementery school teachers earn twice as
much. Mostly because you removed half of them." He went on
"Day care services have also become scarce, and in general, a lot of
people who cared about children are gone." This horified me, but
Luke had more to say. "Also, I think you know what using hatred
like that does to the hatred."
I answered "But surely they noticed that the people they hated were
gone!"
Luke laughed and replied "Actually, there was a lot of fraud even
before you cast the spell. Now that they have to make statistics
that are completely fraudulent, it hasn't slowed them down. I'd
guess in a couple of years there'll be wars over how pedophiles should
be punished." He paused for a moment and the asked "Are you going
to help me break the spell now?"
I answered "Yes."
What happened next was unremarkable, but it took a long time.
We slowly recovered my memories of the actual spell, and I reported
them to Luke.
This went on untill Luke broke the spell. I suddenly felt a
huge wave of warmth. It didn't burn, but the warmth has a too
intense feeling that one can sometimes get during an orgasm. I
think I started thrashing around in the water, and Renee let go of
me. When I regained some senses, I was curled up in a ball at the
bottom of the lake. And I remembered. Everything.