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\li0\ri0\sb60\sa120\keep\pagebb\widctlpar\tx1440\tqr\tx8280\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\outlinelevel0\pnrauth1\pnrdate0\pnrnot1\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid1472566 \b\f1\fs36\lang2057\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp2057\langfenp1033 {\insrsid1472566 Call Me Cursed}{\b0\fs24\cf14\lang1033\langfe1033\langnp1033\insrsid1472566 \par }\pard\plain \s15\qj \li0\ri0\sb60\sa120\keep\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid1472566 \f1\fs24\lang2057\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp2057\langfenp1033 {\insrsid1472566 By Joesephus \'a9}{\b\ul\insrsid1472566 }{ \insrsid1472566 \par }\pard\plain \ql \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid1472566 \f35\fs24\lang1033\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp1033\langfenp1033 {\insrsid1472566 \par }\pard\plain \s3\ql \li0\ri0\sb240\sa60\keepn\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\outlinelevel2\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid10112732 \b\f1\fs26\lang1033\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp1033\langfenp1033 {\insrsid1472566 Dr. Allison Dickson: \par }\pard\plain \ql \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid1472566 \f35\fs24\lang1033\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp1033\langfenp1033 {\insrsid1472566 \par I'm a medical doctor, not a historian. In fact, I'm one of the best doctors in the world, although I'm not yet thirty. That's not an idle brag, my brother won the Nobel Prize in medicine when he was 32, bare}{\insrsid11042407 ly a year before my father finally located}{\insrsid1472566 and murdered him. Does that sound like a Shakespearian play? It's not, but then several of Shakespeare's best were based on the "great men of history." \par }{\insrsid13262834 \par }{\insrsid1472566 The "Great Men of History" theory has lost popularity recently, but not in my }{\insrsid11042407 extended }{\insrsid1472566 family. You see many}{\insrsid11042407 ,}{\insrsid1472566 perhaps most of the truly great men of history were probably my kin. That's because of the curse. If one of those "Great Men, or Great Women" were childless, or left a child that wasn't even a pale imitation of the great parent, the odds are very good that they were in my blood line. }{\insrsid15555160 I know for a fact that Alexander the Great and George Washington}{\insrsid10779439 }{\insrsid15555160 ar}{\insrsid10779439 e my kin. 'The Mule' in Asimov's great work }{\i\insrsid10779439 The Foundation Trilogy}{\insrsid10779439 has to be based on one of my siblings. }{\insrsid1472566\charrsid10779439 \par }{\insrsid13262834 \par }{\insrsid1472566 I've just begun to study the curse, but }{\insrsid15555160 have verified a few facts. A}{\insrsid1472566 ll children born of "THE CURSED ONE" will be born sterile. My brother won the prize for his work in testicular cancer. His study wasn't altruistic. He was born with "immature testes syndrome." What that means is that his ph ysical development was normal, but he didn't produce sperm. The sperm generator just never got started, same thing for his vas ducts, they weren't there. The vas duct might have been fixed by surgery, vasectomies are reversed routinely these days, but i t wouldn't have made a difference.}{\insrsid15555160 Like all my half sisters, I've been born with immature }{\insrsid12934160 ovaries. We all seem to have a great love of children, and... it's very painful.}{\insrsid1472566 \par }{\insrsid13262834 \par }{\insrsid12934160 The exception is the cursed one. }{\insrsid1472566 My }{\insrsid12934160 current }{\insrsid1472566 theory is that some enzyme is released as a }{\insrsid13373716 c}{\insrsid1472566 ursed }{\insrsid13373716 o}{\insrsid1472566 ne dies. Somehow, that enzyme is absorbed by the child who kills him, probably through the blood. That enzyme triggers the development of the testes, and voila, a new Cursed One is created.}{\insrsid4661421 Does it sound strange that one mutation could be transmitted through so many generations? Well, think about it, every single ancestor of every single living human lived long enough to pass along his or her genes or... you get the point.}{ \insrsid1472566 \par }{\insrsid13262834 \par }{\insrsid1472566 There's just so much I don't yet understand about the process. W hy is The Cursed One driven to mate with so many different women? Why do the women he mates with begin to hate him almost as soon as they become pregnant? Why do all his male children go into a homicidal rages in his presence? \par }{\insrsid13262834 \par }{\insrsid1472566 I }{\insrsid13373716 sure }{\insrsid1472566 it is biological, but I'm }{\insrsid13373716 also}{\insrsid1472566 positive that it's nothing like a }{\insrsid1472566\charrsid2187216 pheromone}{\insrsid1472566 s or some sort of mind control. The Cursed One is THE Alpha Male and people react to that. If all my siblings are literally THE one in approximately one hundred twenty-seven million, the Cursed One is so far beyond us as to be literally incalculable. \par \par I know how that sounds, but let me tell you about the current Cursed One. He's too modest to tout his own achievements, but let me list a few}{\insrsid932980 before he became The One}{\insrsid1472566 . He was a world class athlete . He was offered multi-million dollar professional contracts in soccer, basketball and baseball as soon as he finished high school. He was considered the top }{\insrsid13262834 college }{\insrsid1472566 football recruit in the country. Each year there are only three or four high school seniors who score a perfect 1600 on the SAT college entrance exams, my brother was one of them, but he did it a}{\insrsid13262834 s a junior, a}{\insrsid1472566 year early. \par \par He chose to go to the US Military Academy at West Point where he graduated first in his class. He fought in the last two wars and became the most decorated hero in US Army history, surpassing the great Audy Murphy. Yes, Col Brown is The Cursed One! At the time he resigned his commission, he was the youngest full colonel in the Army. He left to become tenured in only two years at Rice University, one of the top ten schools in the country. Oh, and by the way, he is without a doubt the best looking man anyone has}{\insrsid5056767 ever seen. He was}{\insrsid1472566 absolutely charming, }{\insrsid932980 a moral paragon, }{\insrsid5056767 incredibly funny, }{\insrsid1472566 and his voice would earn him a starting role in any opera company in the world. Even before he became THE Cursed One, he could have almost any woman in the world to have his children, now... \par \par }\pard\plain \s3\ql \li0\ri0\sb240\sa60\keepn\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\outlinelevel2\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid10112732 \b\f1\fs26\lang1033\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp1033\langfenp1033 {\insrsid1472566 Col Arlan Brown: \par }\pard\plain \ql \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid1472566 \f35\fs24\lang1033\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp1033\langfenp1033 {\insrsid1472566 \par Call me cursed. I would gladly trade with Ishmael}{\insrsid10112732 on the hunt for Moby Dick}{\insrsid1472566 . Hell, I'd trade places with Ahab. I'd even trade pl}{\insrsid14372270 aces with Oedipus, whose story i}{\insrsid1472566 s a lot closer to mine. I hadn't }{\insrsid14372270 a clue who my father was}{\insrsid1472566 . I'm almost certain my mother never knew his name. I was conceived less than five minutes after they met. No, my mother wasn't raped, nor was I the product of a commercial transaction, my mother was an intact virgin when they met. I was conceived in my mother's virgin's blood, born bloody, and became what I am because I was infected by my father's bloo d as he died. \par \par Unlike Oedipus, I didn't marry my mother, I never got to know her. She was killed in an airliner crash before my third birthday. She was almost nineteen when she died, which makes her sound like some sort of besotted teen, but she wasn't. Even pregnant with me, she managed to graduate first in her }{\insrsid14372270 class at a }{\insrsid1472566 prestigious}{\insrsid14372270 , and very expensive}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid14372270 private}{\insrsid1472566 school. She applied to Harvard, and was flying home from Boston, triumphant}{\insrsid3544437 ,}{\insrsid1472566 after her interview when her plane crashed. I was raised by my gra ndparents. My Pops was the best dad a man ever had! I had an aunt/half sister who was a few weeks younger than me. Neither of my grandparents got a good look at my father's face. He just }{\insrsid2561631 waltzed}{\insrsid1472566 into their hotel suite conceived my sister/aunt, then conceived me, and left }{\insrsid2561631 without saying goodbye}{\insrsid1472566 . They didn't call the police. No one ever told me about that night, until after }{\insrsid2561631 the bombing}{ \insrsid1472566 . I wish they'd explained it to me, it might have saved innocent men psychic trauma. \par \par I know I sound cryptic, but that's not my intention}{\insrsid4670199 ... }{\insrsid1472566 I guess the easiest way to explain is to tell you my story. My grandparents were wealthy even before the settlement from the airline. My grandfather, Pops, made his fortune as a land developer/home builder. I had an exceptionally good childhood and early adulthood. I joined the Army right out of high school and loved it. I had the world by the tail and I was the envy of every man, until my marriage fell apart at age thirty-five. \par \par I had married a breathtakingly beautiful woman I' d met at a West Point dance my final year. It was only after our second date that I learned her brains were more impressive than her body. Although she was almost two years younger than me, she was just finishing her MBA at Harvard! She was the other h a lf of my heart, and she loved me almost more than life. To this day, especially to this day, I can't say a single negative thing about her. Except, perhaps she should have been a shade less loyal. I wouldn't trade all DeBeers' diamonds for a single day of our marriage, but I wish she'd left me a few years sooner. She would have been happier that way. \par \par Why did our marriage fail? It was my fault. No, I never cheated on her, even after the heat of the battlefield when the urge is so strong that infidelit y shouldn't count. I loved her too much. She was the only woman I'd been with and I wanted it to stay that way. Our marriage failed over our children... more correctly, the lack of them. \par \par After years of trying, we began to have tests. She was embarrass ing fertile, she could have gotten pregnant from a men's room toilet seat. I was shooting blanks. I had more testosterone than the whole French army, navy and air force combined, but the sperm generator was "immature". My wife was loyal, she begged me to adopt, but I couldn't stand the idea of raising a child that wasn't mine. Ironic huh, but that's part of the curse too. \par \par My most noble act during the noble part of my life was to divorce her while she was still young enough to have kids of her own. If, as the old country-western song goes "one takes the bow the other takes the blame," I did my best to take all the blame. I told her that I'd fallen for another woman. I offered her all my worldly goods as a settlement but she refused. She fought the d ivorce tooth and nail, even after I produced an exceptionally skuzzy woman I claimed was my true love. Hell, even after the divorce I couldn't even get hard for another woman, what irony. \par \par Right after the divorce, I resigned my commission, I took a job as a teacher. I wanted to give back, and be around young people. If I couldn't have my own children, I wanted to leave my mark by my influence on others'. I think that's part of the curse too. \par \par It was a good if quiet life. I had more money than I could sp end. My grandparents had both died leaving only my "aunt" and me to split their fortune. I didn't know that aunt was my half sister at that time, although she did. She knew the whole story, because she'd gotten it}{\f1\cf11\insrsid1472566 }{ \insrsid1472566 from Pop just before he died. She said Pops }{\insrsid13765695 was trying to shield me}{\insrsid1472566 .}{\insrsid15289497 That was one of Pops few errors in judgment.}{\insrsid1472566 \par }{\insrsid15289497 \par }\pard \ql \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid15289497 {\insrsid15289497 The night it happened, I was walking home from campus, after the party to celebrate my gaining tenure. I was a little too 'happy' to drive, but my house wasn't far from the scho ol. I was walking past the ROTC building when I sensed a man behind me. Furious, I whirled just}{\insrsid2435627 fast}{\insrsid15289497 }{\insrsid16409150 enough}{\insrsid15289497 to get knifed in the lung instead of the heart. Because of my history, I have a concealed handgun permit. Somehow, while he repeatedly sta}{\insrsid5725886 bbed me, I drew}{\insrsid1901892 my gun,}{\insrsid5725886 }{\insrsid1901892 shoved it into his chest and }{\insrsid5725886 shot him}{\insrsid9332880 . }{\insrsid15477300 He pulled me down with him, and I lost my gun as I hit the ground. }{\insrsid9992875 We were both covered in blood and }{\insrsid13580850 when his mingled with mine}{\insrsid3629264 ,}{\insrsid13580850 }{\insrsid2435627 my}{\insrsid13580850 world changed}{\insrsid15289497 . }{\insrsid13580850 A wave of energy nauseated me, and I passed out in a pool of my own vomit. }{\insrsid16409150 \par \par }{\insrsid15289497 I didn't see him }{\insrsid13580850 stagger}{\insrsid15289497 to }{\insrsid13580850 his}{\insrsid15289497 car}{\insrsid16409150 ,}{\insrsid15289497 }{\insrsid13580850 smash}{\insrsid6366195 it into the ROTC building}{ \insrsid13580850 and explode}{\insrsid6366195 . The explosives in the car destroyed the building, his body and made the whole thing look like the work of a }{\insrsid15289497 suicide bomber. }{\insrsid3629264 The }{\insrsid15289497 "car bomb" was h is contingency to cover his identity in case his attack on me failed. }{\insrsid14109690 He didn't want the police to suspect that the man I'd killed was my father.}{\insrsid15289497 \par }\pard \ql \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid1472566 {\insrsid1472566 \par I awoke in the hospital hooked to more tubes and wires than a whole room full of computer servers. A dozen monitors beeped and chirped in a syncopated cacophony of alarm. I felt weak as a kitten and preternaturally alert. More alarms and bells blared, and staff materialized like characters beamed from a Star Trek rip off. \par }{\insrsid15224153 \par }{\insrsid1472566 They spoke medicalese to each other, not exactly ignoring me, but too excited to pay much attention to me. I tried to force someone to }{\insrsid13371911 talk}{\insrsid1472566 to me, was immediately enveloped by fatigue and drifted back off to sleep. \par }{\insrsid15224153 \par }{\insrsid1472566 When I awoke the second time, I wasn't as weak, }{\insrsid13371911 but }{\insrsid1472566 I was dead dog tired. Bushed! I was also hungrier than I'd been in my whole life. The alarms had been reduced by an order of magnitude, but still more than enough to summon an army of medical personnel. This time there were security types with them. They didn't look like regular police, more like FBI. \par }{\insrsid15224153 \par }{\insrsid1472566 The medical types were even more absorbed by the - - - what ever their instruments were telling them, than last time. The agents eyed me with that lean and hungry look that so bothered Caesar. \par }{\insrsid2571341 \par }{\insrsid1472566 The one closest to my bed asked}{\insrsid14171537 the stunningly obviuos}{\insrsid1472566 , "Are you awake Colonel? Do you know where you are?" \par }{\insrsid2571341 \par }{\insrsid1472566 I tried to speak, but my throat was too dry, only croaking sounds came out. \par Finally, I managed to whisper, "Food." \par }{\insrsid15224153 \par }{\insrsid1472566 One of the }{\insrsid15224153 younger }{\insrsid1472566 female medical types heard me and dashed out of the room. The agent poured me a glass of water, added}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 a straw and held it up to my mouth. That, was when I discovered that my hands were bound to the bed by those thick leather restraints that hospitals use. Why? \par }{\insrsid12586307 \par }{\insrsid1472566 The female appeared with a glass of one of those milk-shake diet food supplements and I chugged the whole thing through a straw. \par }{\insrsid12586307 \par }{\insrsid1472566 Slightly stronger, I said, "Thanks, please sir, more." \par }{\insrsid12586307 \par }{\insrsid1472566 She laughed and disappeared again. \par }{\insrsid12586307 \par }{\insrsid1472566 The medical types went crazy pushing the agents out the door, The female appeared again, glanced at all the monitors, as she gave me my second glass. Ag}{\insrsid9394384 ain I downed it without a pause while s}{\insrsid1472566 he}{ \insrsid9394384 studied a monitor over my head that}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid9394384 I}{\insrsid1472566 couldn\rquote t see. She barked an order that sounded like a series of chemical compounds, and several of the staff left turbulence wakes as the} {\insrsid2571341 y}{\insrsid1472566 hustled to obey. \par }{\insrsid3754968 \par }{\insrsid2571341 The}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid2240676 young }{\insrsid1472566 woman, who I'd assumed, in my chauvinist way, was a nurse, }{\insrsid9394384 turned out to}{\insrsid3754968 be Dr. }{\insrsid11939923 Allison Dickson}{\insrsid3754968 , the head of the whole department.}{\insrsid11939923 }{\insrsid1472566 A young orderly appeared with several cans of the diet supplement and a bucket}{\insrsid11939923 brigade}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid2240676 formed}{\insrsid1472566 }{ \insrsid14171537 as I}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid2240676 chugged }{\insrsid9851980 a}{\insrsid2240676 dozen cans}{\insrsid1472566 . \par }{\insrsid11939923 \par }{\insrsid1472566 Feeling }{\insrsid2240676 only slightly }{\insrsid1472566 stronger, I managed, "Where am I, what happened? Why am I still starving?" \par }{\insrsid2240676 \par }{\insrsid1472566 The last question led}{\f1\cf5\insrsid11939923 }{\insrsid1472566 to several orderlies dashing from the room. It also seemed to have exhausted me, and I drifted back to sleep. \par }{\insrsid11939923 \par }{\insrsid1472566 When I awoke the next time, it was}{\insrsid6249180 very}{\insrsid1472566 slowly. I }{\insrsid682227 became aware that my throat}{\insrsid1472566 had some sort of tube crammed down it. Not fully awake, I pulled the thing out. }{ \insrsid6249180 It felt}{\insrsid682227 }{\insrsid1472566 like I'd pulled internal organs}{\insrsid6249180 with it. }{\insrsid1472566 I bellowed loud enough to temporarily drown out all the }{\insrsid6249180 electronic }{\insrsid1472566 chirps and beeps. \par }{\insrsid15665492 \par }{\insrsid1472566 I expected the full contingent of medical personal to appear like the genie from the lamp. Instead}{\insrsid9851980 ,}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid15665492 Dr. Dickson}{\insrsid1472566 rose from a chair next to my bed. \par }{\insrsid15665492 \par }{\insrsid1472566 She looked at my hand, shook her head in awe then asked}{\insrsid9851980 ,}{\insrsid1472566 "Are you feeling better? Are you}{\insrsid15665492 still}{\insrsid1472566 hungry?" \par }{\insrsid15665492 \par }{\insrsid1472566 I thought about it, realized that I wasn't hungry. I felt different, but not hungry. I }{\insrsid9851980 checked}{\insrsid1472566 my hand to see what had surprised her and }{\insrsid7214935 discovered}{\insrsid1472566 that it had a torn leather restraint on it. \par }{\insrsid9851980 \par Nodding at the torn restraint she said,}{\insrsid1472566 "You've been tearing those regularly. We've been contemplating surgery to install a peg. You've gained almost sixty}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 pounds, not that we can see where it's gone. Your body fat percentage has actually gone down. The breakthrough was when you woke up and said you were hungry. No one had }{\insrsid7214935 noticed }{\insrsid1472566 you were suffering from extreme malnutrition. Starving to death right befo re our eyes. You seemed to stabilize an hour or so ago. I think we're over the hump, but we don't have any idea what's caused this. There are some gentlemen from Homeland Security who are very anxious to talk to you, if you feel up to it." \par }{\insrsid7619324 \par }{\insrsid1472566 Looking at the doctor, }{\insrsid7214935 I was struck by two thoughts simultaneously, she}{\insrsid1472566 was beautiful, }{\insrsid7619324 and }{\insrsid11236730 she was a younger version}{\insrsid7619324 of my aunt. }{ \insrsid13652697 More alert, I wondered why I'd thought she wasn't in charge}{\insrsid11236730 last time}{\insrsid13652697 . }{\insrsid9199462 The aura of command }{\insrsid11236730 radiated}{\insrsid9199462 on her like sweat on a marathoner. }{ \insrsid1472566 All of that }{\insrsid1993324 authority }{\insrsid1472566 was focused with laser intensity on me. }{\insrsid9199462 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Responding to her unasked question, I tried to assess}{\f1\cf14\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 my physical condition and delivered the succinct line, "I feel funny." \par }{\insrsid9199462 \par }{\insrsid1472566 She smiled wryly and said, "I'm not surprised. }{\insrsid2053015 Early on we thought you might have been the target of a terrorist attack and not the ROTC Building. We}{\insrsid1472566 pumped you full of every type of antibiotic and tranquilizer we thought wouldn't kill you. }{\insrsid14558016 Not having any idea what we're facing, }{\insrsid1472566 we gave you everything but the kitchen sink.}{\insrsid8287308 }{\insrsid14558016 W}{ \insrsid8287308 e'd }{\insrsid14558016 still }{\insrsid8287308 like to run some more tests on you. }{\insrsid2627210 There are other physiological changes that have been going on that we can't explain. Your weight gain being the most obvious. }{ \insrsid14888105 However}{\insrsid2053015 ,}{\insrsid14888105 the only signs of }{\insrsid14558016 pathogens have}{\insrsid2053015 been you lack of energy. }{\insrsid1472566 " \par }{\insrsid2230205 \par }{\insrsid11890489 * * * * * * \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 What followed was a week of medical torture, and Homeland Security interrogation. The Homeland people at one point got rather combative. }{\insrsid2627210 I didn't have any explanation for why a "terrorist" would attack me before }{ \insrsid1267993 blowing himself up in a building. I didn't want}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1267993 anyone to know that I was certain I'd killed my father.}{\insrsid4005589 }{\insrsid1472566 I rather thought that was a hallucination and didn't care to undergo a full psychic exam on top of having every orifice prodded and poked. They did pull out most of the tubes and wires, but the tests were never-ending. \par }{\insrsid2230205 \par }{\insrsid1472566 My first clue to}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 the curse came on my last day in the hospital as I was waiting to be released. The medical people had reached a dead end and I was going stir crazy. One of the Homeland Security people became belligerent. He was insisting that I must }{\insrsid4005589 have some idea what my attacker looked like because I had his blood on my gun}{\insrsid1472566 . I'm not in the habit of lying, and because I was lying, I lost my own temper. When I roared back, the man acted like a defeated cur. }{\insrsid11890489 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 The }{\insrsid4005589 vision scared me, and using some of }{\insrsid1472566 my service}{\insrsid4005589 }{\insrsid11890489 privileges}{\insrsid1472566 , I demanded that the army medic I summoned escort them from my room. As they left muttering, a 'pink lady'}{\f1\cf11\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 volunteer came in to help me get home. Getting home involved more than a cab ride, s ince I'd been flown to Walter Reed Army Hospital in Washington D.C. Because of one }{\insrsid2250469 more foolhardy acts during my Army career}{\insrsid1472566 , I was entitled to free transportation on military aircraft, so one}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 of the staff had made arrangements for me to get back home that way. \par }{\insrsid2250469 \par }{\insrsid1472566 Flying military is a hassle, and I only do it if I'm going to a base for some reason. Since money wasn't a problem, I'd asked for a hospital volunteer who might know something about booking flights to help me. \par }{\insrsid9661195 \par }{\insrsid1472566 As she walked through the door, the curse erupted. }{\insrsid9388776 Need}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid9388776 drenched}{\insrsid1472566 every cell of my body. My cock got harder than and diamond edged drill bit, and as thick as a core sample. }{\insrsid2250469 I was dumbstruck! }{\insrsid1472566 The woman was very attractive, but not beautiful. She was mid thirties, and looked more like one of those TV moms than a sex sensation. She was dressed modestly, her figure trim, her hair and }{\insrsid11538838 make-up understated. She was far from}{ \insrsid1472566 the best looking or sexiest woman to enter the room that morning. Several of the nurses and younger doctors }{\insrsid11538838 who }{\insrsid1472566 had made a point of calling on me to say good-by, }{\insrsid11538838 were more attractive. Several of those made}{\insrsid1472566 sure I knew}{\insrsid14429828 they were 'available', and left notes on}{\insrsid1472566 how to contact them}{\insrsid14429828 . Yet I hadn't reacted like I wanted to rape any of them}{ \insrsid1472566 . \par }{\insrsid9661195 \par }{\insrsid1472566 The woman}{\insrsid16654302 could}{\insrsid11538838 n't}{\insrsid16654302 hide her awareness of my reaction to her. }{\insrsid3238897 Her eyes got wide and }{\insrsid2777874 for a second, }{\insrsid3238897 I expected her to run screaming down the hall. Instead,}{\insrsid16654302 she shocked me. She walked back to the door}{\insrsid3238897 to my private room,}{\insrsid16654302 but instead of leaving, she}{\insrsid1472566 closed }{\insrsid16654302 it behind }{\insrsid1472566 her, }{\insrsid2777874 then }{\insrsid1472566 leaned against it }{\insrsid2777874 to lock it, }{\insrsid1472566 and announced, "I'd planned to stop taking }{\insrsid2777874 the}{\insrsid1472566 pill at the end of this cycle." \par }{\insrsid9388776 \par }{\insrsid1472566 I swallowed }{\insrsid13465855 hard;}{\insrsid1472566 I was }{\insrsid3238897 trembling}{\insrsid9388776 }{\insrsid13465855 more violently}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid13465855 than during that foolhardy moment I mentioned earlier. }{ \insrsid9388776 W}{\insrsid1472566 hich was the most scared I'd been in my life}{\insrsid3238897 up to this point}{\insrsid1472566 . I couldn't speak. I just stared at her. \par }{\insrsid3238897 \par }{\insrsid1472566 As the silence lengthened she said, "If you don't have to leave }{\insrsid3238897 town }{\insrsid1472566 today, you could come to my house tonight." \par }{\insrsid9661195 \par }{\insrsid1472566 I blinked hard, }{\insrsid7482879 she looked disappointed but}{\insrsid1472566 continued, "My daughter is in}{\insrsid9661195 }{\insrsid1472566 a wedding tonight, but she'll be home later; you can stay }{\insrsid7482879 for her}{ \insrsid1472566 if you'd like." \par }{\insrsid10706775 \par }{\insrsid1472566 She paused again and then pleaded, "Please!" \par }{\insrsid10706775 \par }{\insrsid1472566 Her eyes never left mine, but I think she }{\insrsid7482879 saw}{\insrsid1472566 my erection}{\insrsid7482879 pulse}{\insrsid13465855 . I kne}{\insrsid1472566 w she was aware of my musk when she wrinkled her nose. I've always had a strong crotch odor; I'm the guy that "personal deodorants" were designed for. Now it smelled like I hadn't changed underwear in a month. \par }{\insrsid10706775 \par }{\insrsid6234317 I was embarrassed. I intended to apologize, instead }{\insrsid1472566 I said, "Get me a rental car and directions to your house. I'll be there at seven."}{\insrsid1920653 }{\insrsid15740680 I was flabbergasted that }{\insrsid1920653 I used my 'command voice.'}{\insrsid1472566 \par }{\insrsid10706775 \par }{\insrsid1472566 I hadn't meant to sound }{\insrsid1920653 so demanding}{\insrsid10706775 ; }{\insrsid1472566 I just knew that I had to get her out of the room, I was holding on to my control by my finger tips. \par }{\insrsid10706775 \par }{\insrsid1472566 She gave me a lottery-winner's smile and gushed, "I'm so honored, we'll be ready for you. I'll ha}{\insrsid8082270 ve a rental here within an hour.}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid8082270 }{\insrsid1472566 I}{\insrsid8082270 'll}{ \insrsid1472566 have a map to my home}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 in it for you. Is there anything else I can do for you?" \par }{\insrsid10706775 \par }{\insrsid1472566 She hadn't placed any untoward emphasis on the word "anything" to make i}{\insrsid15740680 t suggestive, but I knew her offer}{\insrsid1472566 was all inclusive. I waved my hand in dismissal. I wasn't being rude, but the only words I thought I could form were along the lines of, "Turn around}{\insrsid7689219 , drop your panties}{\insrsid1472566 and bend over!" \par }{\insrsid8082270 \par }{\insrsid7689219 When she}{\insrsid1472566 left, closing the door behind her, I felt my blood pressure drop to normal levels. What didn't drop was my erection, or my awareness of that woman. I pictured her hurrying down the hall, rushing to get me a rental car, using her cell phone to call some one to help her. I }{\insrsid7689219 hadn't been}{\insrsid8082270 the only one in that room who needed a }{\insrsid15738656 personal deodorant. }{\insrsid1472566 What I didn't know was the curse}{\insrsid7689219 was the cause}{\insrsid1472566 . \par }{\insrsid15738656 \par }{\insrsid1472566 Less than a half hour later a male orderly arrived to help me check}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 out. It was as smooth as the Army could make it . The Army takes care of its own, and I would always be welcome. I didn't see the woman, but a top of the line luxury car was waiting for me as I was wheeled to the hospital exit. The keys were in the ignition and a rental agreement was on the front se a t. One of those computer maps was evident, and the GPS system had her address programmed into it. I checked the rental agreement, it was in her name. Mary! I was listed as a driver, operating under my insurance and license. I have no idea how she got that information, I assume the hospital had it, or perhaps she had access to my wallet. \par }{\insrsid15738656 \par }{\insrsid1472566 As I started the car, I checked the clock. I had five hours to kill before I was due at her house. I thought about going s}{\insrsid6055801 traight over there, but I was}{\insrsid1472566 s}{\insrsid6055801 ure she would}{ \insrsid10427992 n't}{\insrsid6055801 be home. I don't}{\insrsid1472566 mean to imply that I had some sort of ESP connection with }{\insrsid6055801 her, I didn't. I had just had}{\insrsid1472566 strong}{\insrsid6055801 est}{\insrsid1472566 }{ \insrsid6055801 feeling that she want}{\insrsid10427992 ed me as much as I wanted her and that the time she'd given me was the earliest she could make herself available.}{\insrsid1770518 It was all non-verbal, but stronger for that reason. }{ \insrsid1472566 I }{\insrsid1770518 knew}{\insrsid1472566 that she was going }{\insrsid1770518 make me her top priority and}{\insrsid1472566 the devil take the hindmost. }{\insrsid9132606 She had}{\insrsid1472566 wanted to get pregnant before she entered my room, and when she saw me, she }{\insrsid9132606 decided that I was }{\insrsid1472566 to be the father.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Later I wondered why that little fact didn't bother me at the time. I knew I couldn't give her a child. Even if I could, I wasn't the type of man to make a baby and abandon it. I believe that all babies need their fathers living with their mother s. I wasn't the type to lie to a woman or to take advantage of her. Yet, I was }{\insrsid6105444 acting }{\insrsid1472566 worse than a penned bull next to whole herd of fresh cows}{\insrsid6105444 . \par \par }{\insrsid9768874 Now, I that I was feeling a little}{\insrsid1472566 more normal}{\insrsid9768874 , I tried to decide should make my own flight arrangements}{\insrsid1472566 . }{\insrsid13195013 After a small internal debate, }{\insrsid1472566 I }{ \insrsid13195013 decided}{\insrsid1472566 I wanted to stay the night in Washington. I had some very good friends here, working at the building of fives. (The Pentagon has five concentric, five sided rings, each, five stories tall.) Those jerks at }{ \insrsid7503271 Homeland Security had classified my presence in}{\insrsid1472566 Washington}{\insrsid7503271 as 'secret'}{\insrsid13195013 , so I hadn't seen any of them}{\insrsid7503271 .}{\insrsid1472566 I knew I wasn't being fair in my resentment of those agents. I knew that what happened to me wasn't part of the war on terror, but they didn't. I admire the jo b they're doing to keep us as safe as we are. Still --- I had buddies in town and I wanted to see them.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I drove out to the Penta}{\insrsid5778707 gon, showed them my service ID. I'd forgotten that the hospital personnel had attached a small miniature service ribbon to my civilian suit. It was the pale blue one with all the white stars. The sentry }{\insrsid13777576 checked my ID saw the ribbon and rendered a very snappy}{\insrsid1472566 salute}{\insrsid13777576 . It embarrassed me that I couldn't return the honor}{ \insrsid12525215 since I wasn't in uniform}{\insrsid13777576 . I tried to hide my annoyance when he }{\insrsid1472566 directed }{\insrsid13777576 me }{\insrsid1472566 to VIP parking lot. I}{\insrsid12525215 'd}{\insrsid1472566 told}{\insrsid12525215 the }{\insrsid13777576 sentry}{\insrsid12525215 that}{\insrsid1472566 I didn't want any honors, I was just there to see some buddies, but the halls }{\insrsid3875812 soon}{\insrsid1472566 filled with folks being deferential}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{ \insrsid1472566 anyway. My buddies arrived and we went to one of the cafeterias, where I ate too much and practically drowned}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 in bullshit. I felt wonderful. I missed the service, and was almost tempted to try to go back}{\insrsid16388467 . \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Before I realized it, it was time to fight the traffic to Mary's house. She lived in Georgetown, one of the most posh sections of Washington. When I got there the house was one of the more impressive, and I wondered why I didn't feel in the slightest intimidated. I had money, all I needed, but this house bespoke serious wealth. The kind t}{\insrsid5855021 hat gets you listed by Forbes Magazine as one of}{\f1\cf11\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 richest in the country. I parked in the driveway, and as I rang the bell, I wondered if there were servants. As I waited a whole host of questions surfaced. Why ha d the security gate been open? Had this woman worn a wedding ring? Why was she a volunteer at Walter Reed? This kind of money wrote checks; they didn't spend their time taking care of soldiers.}{\insrsid4598474 }{\f1\cf11\insrsid1472566 }{ \insrsid1472566 Could she be an employee here? It never occurred to me that she might have sent me to the wrong place, just as it never crossed my mind that the solid man who opened the door was anyone other than her husband!}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Our eyes locked and I took the man's measure. I had never believed in the 'Alpha Male' theory, but this man was an Alpha Male's alpha male. He exuded confidence and power. I liked him immediately. I didn't know why his wife}{ \insrsid4598474 was willing to cheat on him \'85 }{\insrsid1472566 openly! As our eyes locked, I knew something else. He would defer to me. }{\insrsid1067121 I}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 took charge. I wondered that}{\insrsid7959524 his deference }{\insrsid1472566 didn't }{\insrsid7959524 make me }{\insrsid1472566 feel uneasy. I hate wimp husbands. The idea of a man watching me take his wife sickened me. }{\insrsid3228722 I realized, after a second}{\insrsid1472566 , that this man would never do that; he'd kill the man who tried to hang horns on him.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid4662320 As he looked at the floor and shuffled his feet}{\insrsid1472566 , I wondered again. }{\insrsid4727160 An}{\insrsid1472566 idea }{\insrsid4727160 flitted through my mind }{\insrsid1472566 that perhaps he had a problem that even Viagra couldn't fix. He exuded ex-military and I wondered if he'd given more to his country than any country should ask. If that was the case, he was the type of man who wouldn't stand for his wife running around behind his back, he'd meet them at the front door in person. He ' d kick their ass if they weren't up to his standards. No, I shook my head, while that image was right, this didn't feel like that sort of situation, and they had a daughter. I couldn't understand what was going on. He didn't want me here, didn't want m e to see his wife, but he wasn't going to stand in my way. I }{\insrsid4727160 then }{\insrsid1472566 wondered if he'd cheated and this was a condition of her staying with him.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Whatever it was, I didn't want any part of it. I was just about to offer my excuses and leave when Mary appeared. It happened again. I went into full rut, practically pawing the ground.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Her husband might as well have been an automatic door opener, except I heard him growl, "Don't make me watch this!"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Irritated at the distraction, I said, "Go sit quietly in your chair, stay there until I'm done. Don't get out of it except to go to the bathroom."}{\insrsid4727160 }{\insrsid5844457 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I wasn't aware of }{\insrsid5844457 using my command voice, or what}{\insrsid1472566 I was saying. I only know because of what happened later and what they told me.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I saw Mary flash a look at her husband, it was lament not lust. I've never seen a look show such remorse, and regret. I didn't see him leave, but her }{\insrsid5844457 regret}{\insrsid1472566 gave me the slimmest margins of control.}{ \insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I looked at her closely, and I said, "Did I miss-read you? Did you have another reason for inviting me here?"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 It didn't seem possible for a face to change so quickly.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 She positively beamed, "I didn't think you'd come for me. I was hoping you'd come, but I thought it would be for Kristin, our daughter; she should be ovulating," her face posit ively radiated, "I did tell you I'm still on the pill; not that it matters."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I know now that the curse wasn't at full strength yet, or I wouldn't have been able to stop myself from taking her on the floor}{\insrsid5844457 ,}{\insrsid1472566 right in front of her husband. I would have had no more control than baseball headed for the bleachers. No more control than my father had had with my mother. When the curse completely controlled me, going a week without impregnating a woman would send me into a state similar to the Viking berserkers . Encountering a woman who wanted to have a baby, with me in }{\insrsid13062949 full}{\insrsid16123530 rut}{\insrsid1472566 , and not doing the deed on the spot would be like trying to stop a sneeze once it was started.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I didn't understand all that at the time}{\insrsid13062949 ; i}{\insrsid1472566 gnorance is not bliss. I think the reference to her daughter drained some of my pressure as well}{\insrsid14110209 , but I wasn't}{\insrsid5526962 sure why. }{\insrsid1472566 With that control came serious confusion. "What do you mean about your daughter?"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 She smiled, "I thought you had turned me down, that it was my daughter that br ought you here. She is one of the bridesmaids, but if you want her now, I can go get her for you. By the time I get to the church the service should be over."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I felt my pulse rate surge, that hollow excitement began in my chest, the one I always got just before the biggest of games or the smallest of combats. Before it overwhelmed me, my voice of reason kicked in.}{\insrsid5526962 }{ \insrsid1472566 "Are you offering your daughter to me, knowing she might get pregnant? What is this? Some sort of sick game? What kind of slut are you? How old is your daughter? I had visions of some junior high kid. Does she know what her mother has planned for her?"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 It was the second major misjudgment since I stepped through the door. I normally don't make those sorts of mistakes, but I was thinking with the wrong head. It would be months before I learned enough to prevent the curse from leaving behind the havoc I was in the process of creating that night.}{\insrsid5526962 }{\insrsid1472566 At the time, I let a mild concern about the willingness of a child to engage in a slut mother's plan lead me into a greater mess.}{\insrsid5526962 }{\insrsid1472566 "Just tell me where the wedding is, I'll see if she's --- suitable."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I'd meant to say 'if }{\insrsid5526962 she's old enough and willing'; w}{\insrsid1472566 hat I said had a very different connotation.}{\insrsid13661855 }{\insrsid1472566 I still hadn't gotten with ten feet of Mary, much less touched her. If I had --- I would have left. }{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 As I left the house, I told her I'd return; her husband}{\insrsid14110209 never crossed my mind}{\insrsid1472566 . }{\insrsid13705380 But then }{\insrsid1472566 I didn't know that he was virtually chained to his chair, unable even to speak. I'd like to think that I wouldn 't have done that to a man I detested; I know I would never have done it to someone I respected. Despite the shortness of our meeting, I respected Mary's husband. I'm pointing this out to show how the curse was influencing me, not just those around me.} {\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Safely out of sight of Mary, my other head began to do some of my thinking. Mary and her husband obviously wanted me to get her or her daughter pregnant. I tried to come up with a rational explanation of why they'd want that. }{ \insrsid13705380 Seeking}{\insrsid1472566 to eliminate false modesty, I could see why someone might want a smart war hero}{\f1\cf11\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 to father their child, but that just didn't ring true in this case. Nor could I explain why she and her husband }{\insrsid14118962 were trying to mak}{\insrsid1472566 e me think that I had some sort of power over them\'85 No, I reali zed that they weren't trying to make it }{\b\i\insrsid14118962\charrsid14118962 JUST}{\insrsid14118962 }{\insrsid1472566 over them, they were trying to convince me that my attraction extended to everyone. I don't believe in things like witch-craft, spells or mind-control, but I wondered if she was using some sort of pheromone to control me.}{\insrsid14565427 Certainly, I could smell her excitement, but at some instinctive level, I knew that it wasn't something like pheromones.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 With that though, I was so close, I }{\insrsid13705380 so }{\insrsid1472566 wish that I'd been able to unravel the clues to the curse as I drove to the wedding. Instead, I r}{\insrsid10776194 eviewed my actions}{\insrsid1472566 since I'd left Mary}{\insrsid10776194 the first time}{\insrsid1472566 . I'd encountered any number of women, and I hadn't noticed that any }{\insrsid14565427 others }{\insrsid1472566 seemed anxious to hav}{\insrsid3232924 e my baby. If I had only known}{\insrsid1472566 \'85 the saddest words in the English language.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I've never crashed a party in my life. Part of that is I can't remember a party I wanted to go to that I hadn't been invited to. It never even occurred to me that I was crashing now. When I got there, the reception had already started. There was a large engageme nt picture of the happy couple as you signed in. I studied the pair. Their happiness was obvious. The young man looked promising. No, nineteen year old could ever be described as an alpha male type, but the promise was there.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 No doubt influenced by the curse, I decided that instead of trying}{\insrsid3232924 my 'appeal' on }{\insrsid1472566 Mary's daughter, I would confirm my lack of }{\insrsid3232924 '}{\insrsid1472566 appeal}{\insrsid3232924 '}{ \insrsid1472566 by trying to charm the bride. I joined the end of the reception line. When I reached to shake hands with the bride, I tried to project }{\insrsid3232924 the same}{\insrsid1472566 desire for her}{\insrsid3232924 I'd felt for Mary}{ \insrsid1472566 .}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I was embarrassed, but relieved when all that happened was that she gave me a look that said, "You must be one of Steve's people, I'm so glad you're the last one."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 When our hands touched, what she said aloud, was, "I can't tell you how excited I am that you're here. I'm flattered beyond words."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Giving me a conspiratorial look she added, "Would it be alright if I talk to Steve privately about how we're going to do this and get back to you? I don't want to hurt him, please?"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 The pleading was now as evident on her face as in her voice.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Startled, I moved to shake hands with the groom. As our eyes locked. I saw that same surge of anger that I'd seen in Mary's husband. This time it was gone much faster, and a pleading expression replaced it.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 He whispered, "Please don't let anyone know. It's my wedding day --- couldn't you wait till we get back?"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Again, I felt an irrational surge of anger. I'd always encouraged subordinates state their cases vigorously, yet now I was getting furious when an unreasonable act of mine was being challenged!}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I replied in my command voice}{\insrsid5798828 , but pitched so only he could hear}{\insrsid1472566 , "Bring her to Mary's house as soon as you can get away."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 As I saw acceptance in his face, my anger evaporated and I added, "You don't have to let anyone know, leave at the normal time."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 The part of me that still wasn't controlled by the curse was aghast that I was telling a groom that I was taking his wife on their wedding night.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid7168060 Trying to soften my intolerable action I}{\insrsid1472566 add}{\insrsid7168060 ed}{\insrsid1472566 , "I'll make it up to you, I promise."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 The relief on his face was so profound I }{\insrsid5798828 fled}{\insrsid1472566 before he }{\insrsid5798828 could }{\insrsid1472566 embarrassed us both by an inappropriate display of gratitude.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Those were mistakes in judgment numbers three and four. I've probably been that wrong about that many people before in one day, but I don\rquote t remember whe n. Never have there been the consequences like the one caused my miscalculations.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Again, once I got out of sight of the bride, I seemed to come to my senses. Realizing that I didn't know Mary's last name, and since she wasn't at the wedding, I figured t here was a better than even chance the bride and groom would have n}{\insrsid12189863 o idea where I'd told them to meet me}{\insrsid1472566 . The further I got from the young couple the more outrageous the whole idea seemed.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Determined to leave before someone recognized me, and before I could make a bigger }{\insrsid12189863 asshole}{\insrsid1472566 of myself, I almost ran over Mary's daughter. She had the same coloring and the same solid good looks. She was older than I'd }{\insrsid13458017 hoped}{\insrsid1472566 . A young woman in that age range where guessing was impossible. She could have been as young as sixteen or as old as twenty-seven. I don't know how she spotted me, but she'd blocked my path.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Standing with arms akimbo she said, "You're Col. Brown aren't you? The man my mother told me about?"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Once again my system }{\b\i\insrsid1472566 flushed}{\insrsid1472566 with lust, my hands moved to rip her clothes from her. My body planned to take her right there in the lobby, my hand actually grasped the neckline of her bridesmaid dress before my brain caught up with what I was doing. Using every erg of the iron control }{\insrsid13458017 I'd been }{\insrsid1472566 taught at West Point, I forced my hand to my side. So locked had been my eyes with hers, that it took several more seconds to realize that she hadn't been prepared to struggle. In fact as my hand dropped, it appeared she was about to remove her dress on her own.}{ \insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I }{\insrsid12522826 was}{\insrsid1472566 breathing hard}{\insrsid12522826 , trying}{\insrsid1472566 to }{\insrsid13458017 hold}{\insrsid1472566 a semblance of control, images of her mother and the bride, naked and draped open in the same bed flashed through my mind. Normally, an image like that would ensure}{\f1\cf11\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 an erection. Curiously,}{\insrsid12522826 it had the opposite effect. I'd just learned that }{\insrsid1472566 one way to control }{\insrsid5178197 what}{\insrsid1472566 I now call it }{\b\i\insrsid1472566 THE FLUSH}{\insrsid1472566 is to remember that you have waiting and willing partners. As I struggled }{\insrsid5178197 for}{\insrsid1472566 the decorum t}{\insrsid5178197 hat I expect of myself, I saw }{\insrsid1472566 fear creep onto her face.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 In a trembling voice she asked, "Don't you want me? I didn't believe mom when she told me what she'd done. I thought it was some sort of }{\insrsid5178197 sick }{\insrsid1472566 practical joke. Then I saw you talking to Edna and I knew. Mom said that if you came, it would mean you wanted me, please don't change your mind now!"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 As I looked in her eyes, I had my next insight into the curse that will control the rest of my life. This young woman }{\insrsid5178197 also }{\insrsid1472566 wanted my child. By displaying }{\b\i\insrsid1472566 THE FLUSH}{ \insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid16260444 as }{\insrsid1472566 I'd done}{\insrsid16260444 , it}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid8791983 encouraged}{\insrsid1472566 her. If I didn't at least give her the opportunity to try to get pregnant, it would be worse than an Olympic favorite, prepared to compete watching the event cancelled. No worse than that, far, far worse. It probably would make this bright, cheerful y oung woman suicidal.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I understood that, temporarily I had the ability to say no to Kristin, but she would bear a heavy price if }{\insrsid16260444 I }{\insrsid1472566 never gave her the opportunity. I marveled at the arrogance of that concept, but I knew that I was right. As much as it bothered my sense of ethics, I knew that I would need to - - - Then as if from nowhere}{\insrsid8791983 , }{\insrsid10813656 I felt a new concept develop. }{\insrsid16260444 While the}{\insrsid10813656 attraction between us was far more powerful than what I'd felt for my wife on our honeymoon, but it might be possible to}{\insrsid1472566 postpone }{\insrsid10813656 c onsummation for a}{\insrsid1472566 few years.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I asked, "How old are you Kristin?"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid9581961 Her smile was blinding. S}{\insrsid1472566 he knew she'd won. She knew I'd give her the opportunity to have my child and }{\insrsid14892095 I could see her tension drain}{\insrsid1472566 .}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid14892095 E}{\insrsid1472566 bullient}{\insrsid9581961 ,}{\insrsid1472566 she gushed, "I'm 17 but I'll be 18 in less than a month! Mom was }{\insrsid15742748 only fifteen}{\insrsid9581961 when she got pregnant with me. W}{\insrsid1472566 e De Mille girls produce good kids young. Tonight would be fine, a month}{\f1\cf14\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 doesn't matter!"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 She might not want to wait, but - - - I wondered just how old the bride was, if her bridesmaid was only seventeen. It might be another out.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Looking at her I promised, "I'll come back for you the day after your eighteenth birthday. If you aren't already pregnant or - - -"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I paused and tried to think, there was something else that could keep me away, but I }{\insrsid15742748 quite grasp}{\insrsid1472566 what it was. I left the sentence incomplete, it didn't matter the promise was made.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 She studied me intently, making sure that I wasn't trying to use a verbal slight of hand, then shocked me by asking, "Did you offer Edna a baby?"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I nodded, I hadn't known the bride's name}{\insrsid17619 , but }{\insrsid15742748 now,}{\insrsid1472566 Edna would know where to find me. I hurried to my car, and drove aimlessly for the next couple of hours trying to understand what was happening to me.}{\insrsid17619 }{\insrsid4077377 Doing my best self-analysis, I decided that I could sense when a woman wanted to have a baby, or was at least open to the idea.}{\insrsid13990310 I knew that when I }{\b\i\insrsid13990310 Flushed}{\insrsid13990310 I was broadcasting my desire to father that child. What I couldn't figure out is why any woman would respond to such an outrageous arrogance. }{\insrsid4077377 }{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Around midnight I thought I'd managed to regain a measure of sanity, and with a growing sense of horror I headed to Mary's house}{\insrsid478666 , still}{\insrsid1472566 determined to find some way to mitigate the evil I'd set in motion.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid478666 Despite my best intentions}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid478666 as}{\insrsid1472566 I rang the front bell, I felt }{\b\i\insrsid1472566 THE FLUSH}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid10714066 blossom}{\insrsid1472566 as Kristin }{\insrsid478666 opened}{\insrsid1472566 the door. Seeing her and not one of my two intended, I felt it ebb. Although I didn't understand }{\insrsid478666 how}{\insrsid1472566 , I was grateful to }{\insrsid478666 gain}{\insrsid1472566 some measure of control. }{ \insrsid10714066 Unfortunately }{\insrsid722505 as}{\insrsid1472566 soon as I'd }{\b\i\insrsid1472566 FLUSHED, }{\insrsid1472566 every }{\insrsid5137431 one of my }{\insrsid478666 plan}{\insrsid5137431 s}{\insrsid1472566 had been subsumed by }{ \insrsid10714066 my passion}{\insrsid722505 ; leaving me physically and emotionally }{\insrsid1472566 drained. }{\insrsid528902 Even as that mindlessness receded, I could only remember the barest outline of what I'd intended to do.}{\insrsid1472566 I } {\insrsid528902 remembered planning to send}{\insrsid1472566 Edna and her husband on their honeymoon, concentrating }{\insrsid15338012 my lust on}{\insrsid1472566 Mary. There had been more too it, but I couldn't remember. I did remember }{ \insrsid15338012 rationalizing}{\insrsid1472566 that since she was already a slut, I would use that to limit the damage at least a bit.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Entering the foyer, I saw all of them. Mary stood by herself, Edna }{\insrsid16318982 huddled}{\insrsid1472566 with her}{\insrsid16318982 arm locked through her}{\insrsid1472566 groom}{\insrsid16318982 's arm}{\insrsid1472566 . Kristin walked to her mother's side and looked like she }{\insrsid15955044 also }{\insrsid1472566 wanted to hold her mother's hand for comfort. As I closed the door behind me, I }{\b\i\insrsid1472566 FLUSHED}{\insrsid1472566 again. I have no }{ \insrsid15955044 memory}{\insrsid1472566 of moving }{\insrsid15955044 but suddenly}{\insrsid1472566 I had my arms around }{\insrsid5137431 Mary}{\insrsid1472566 . As I pulled her to me her scent repulsed me. It was the foulest odor I've encountered in my life. Much worse than the exploded stomachs and putrid odor of rotting co}{\insrsid15955044 rpses, I've encountered after }{\insrsid1472566 battle. I shoved her from me, a different kind of rage descending upon me.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 "You have sperm in you! When did you get it?"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I had no idea where that had c}{\insrsid471254 ome from, or why it caused such furious }{\insrsid5137431 revulsion}{\insrsid1472566 .}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 She was horror struck, her expression pleading for understanding.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 She was near tears as she said, "Please it was five nights ago, my husband --- I didn't know you then. I didn't know it would matter, I'm not pregnant."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I heard my voice growl, "Sperm can live for six days inside you. I will not }{\insrsid471254 be}{\insrsid1472566 polluted by another!"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 That sounded true, }{\insrsid10440285 incredibly stilted, and arrogant, but true. However,}{\insrsid1472566 it wasn't a piece of information I'd ever remembered reading, and I certainly wouldn't have bet a plugged nickel on its validity. }{\insrsid10229495 Some tiny portion of my rational brain filed away the datum that}{\insrsid1472566 any woman who had living sperm inside her was safe from }{\insrsid10229495 T}{\insrsid1472566 he }{\insrsid10229495 C}{\insrsid1472566 urse. Although as Mary proved, }{\insrsid10440285 that w}{\insrsid397962\charrsid10440285 oman}{\insrsid1472566 }{ \insrsid397962 wasn}{\insrsid1472566 't safe from }{\insrsid397962 her}{\insrsid1472566 attraction to me.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid9581961 As a waves of fatigue engulfed me, I learned something else about the curse. I didn't know what happened to me when I broadcast my desire, but it physically drained me. }{\insrsid1472566 I was almost as tired as I'd been }{ \insrsid10440285 that first time }{\insrsid1472566 in the hospital. My brain was so }{\insrsid16000558 leaden;}{\insrsid9336107 I}{\insrsid1472566 was near the hallucinations stage. I'm not trying to excuse what I did next, but }{\insrsid16000558 I'm }{\insrsid1472566 trying to explain. I crossed to Edna and smelled her. She smelled like honeysuckle and Jasmine, but I knew she wasn't wearing perfume. She was sweet and ready for me. I wasn't ready for her.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 "I'm going to have Kristin help me to the guest room. I need to rest}{\insrsid2914455 , take a nap}{\insrsid1472566 . When I'm ready, I'll }{\insrsid16000558 call for}{\insrsid1472566 Edna }{\insrsid16000558 to }{\insrsid1472566 join me," turning to the bride, I added,}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 "}{\insrsid795016 While I'm sleeping show }{\insrsid10514881 hubby you love him... nothing that could contaminate you. H}{\insrsid1472566 e can suckle you, }{ \insrsid10514881 kiss you, }{\insrsid1472566 but don't do anything that might let a single sperm come in contact with you--- from anyone!"}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I saw the stricken face of her husband, remembered my promise and said to him, "Use Mary when you want Edna. She's a slut}{\insrsid13115205 ;}{\insrsid1472566 it won't mat}{\insrsid13115205 ter. Cum in her, it'll take the pressure off, }{\insrsid7688143 she'll }{\insrsid1472566 do anything you want."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I turned to Mary and said, "You will take care of all of his sexual needs until h}{\insrsid13115205 e can make love to his wife. Make}{\insrsid1472566 him very ha}{\insrsid8486204 ppy. It's your audition for me. I}{\insrsid1472566 f he }{\insrsid8486204 isn't ecstatic, }{\insrsid1472566 I won't }{\insrsid8486204 be back for }{\insrsid1472566 you}{\insrsid8486204 ...}{\insrsid1472566 or }{\insrsid8486204 for }{\insrsid1472566 Kristin. I want you leaking from all three places. It's the least I can do."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 "Now," I said in my command voice, making sure I had everyone's full attention, "all of you go watch dirty movies, have sex, whatever until I send for Edna."}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 I didn't know what I was saying, I was babbling, I just wanted them to relax until I called for Edna. I wanted Edna and her groom to be able to enjoy each other to the extent they could. I never thought that Mary would do anything with him before I }{\insrsid7688143 woke up}{\insrsid1472566 , I assumed they would retire to one of the bedrooms}{\insrsid7688143 after Edna came to me}{\insrsid1472566 . It }{\insrsid7688143 also }{\insrsid1472566 never occurred to me that they were going to the TV in the den. Going to the den where Mary's husband was stuck in his chair. I wouldn't have done that to him. I }{\insrsid2361472 certainly }{\insrsid1472566 didn't intend to make Kristin or her father watch}{\insrsid2361472 Mary..}{\insrsid1472566 .}{\insrsid2361472 do what she did.}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid2819498 \par \par When I was a second lieutenant, my squad was cut off and in continuous contact with the enemy for thirty-six hours.}{\insrsid10250732 That's the only time I ever remember having more difficulty thinking.}{\insrsid2819498 }{\insrsid1472566 I never considered that the groom might not want to have sex on his }{\insrsid10250732 wedding night with someone else. }{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid4016348 I will never forgive myself for ordering him to make love to another in front of his bride. I certainly understand why she hates me now. I don't understand why she }{\insrsid2361472 still }{\insrsid4016348 came up }{\insrsid7018666 to me when I called for her. \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 As I}{\f1\cf5\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid1472566 lay on their guest bed I dreamed, and I begin to learn. The curse was worse than my most terrifying nightmare. }{\insrsid2361472 I was THE Alpha Male! I}{\insrsid9199427 wasn't even subject to challenge. }{\insrsid15032400 My children would be the pinnacle of human evolution. That fact was s}{\insrsid3096512 omehow communicated when I felt 'the flush.}{\insrsid7499387 ' }{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid15164787 Most wo men would be drawn to me at a sub-conscious biological level, desperate to have my child. Most important, they would love and raise my child as their own. S}{\insrsid1472566 ounds like some adolescent boy's wet dream doesn't it. It's a horrible curse!} {\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid11763340 The curse is that it is }{\b\i\insrsid11763340 ONLY }{\insrsid1472566 biological. The curse doesn't make the women like me, or desire me. They want my sperm, }{\insrsid11763340 some}{\insrsid1472566 are willing to literally crawl on bare }{\insrsid1330967 hands and }{\insrsid1472566 knees over broken glass to get it. }{\insrsid1330967 But, o}{\insrsid1472566 nce they've got it, and are pregnant, they aren't in the l east hesitant to let their true feelings erupt. The same is true of the men. They won't try to }{\insrsid1330967 hinder }{\insrsid1472566 me, }{\insrsid1330967 or try to kill me later. T}{\insrsid1472566 hey will }{\insrsid1330967 just }{ \insrsid1472566 consider me as fondly as they would someone who had used drugs on thei}{\insrsid1330967 r loved one to get her pregnant! That woman}{\insrsid11763340 will get pregnant. The only thing }{\insrsid1330967 '}{\insrsid11763340 magical}{ \insrsid1330967 ' effect of the curse}{\insrsid11763340 was that any fertile woman I slept with}{\insrsid9919435 , will}{\insrsid11763340 have my child. It }{\insrsid9919435 won't}{\insrsid11763340 matter if she were ovulating at the time or not. It wouldn't matter if she were on the pill or not. That was a }{\insrsid489276 universal }{\insrsid11763340 response to my unique DNA}{\insrsid489276 . It causes ovulation, almost like some sort of fertility drug.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid7485239 That same DNA causes other responses}{\insrsid489276 ; }{\insrsid1472566 all my children will hate me. I don't mean the normal }{\insrsid489276 child/teenager }{\insrsid1472566 friction, I mean we can't live in the same hou se, even newborns. This }{\insrsid489276 response}{\insrsid1472566 is transmitted through the placenta to the mother. So, even if the mother and I married for love she'll hate me while she's pregnant. Were I to marry, my wife and I could have }{ \insrsid7485239 a loving day}{\insrsid1472566 once every nine months, tops. }{\insrsid9919435 \par \par }{\insrsid803292 Then there's}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid803292 an}{\insrsid1472566 other little part of the problem. Should I encounter a woman who is trying, or even has just decided to have a baby, }{\insrsid803292 I will }{\insrsid7485239 sense}{ \insrsid803292 it and I will }{\insrsid8587307 respond like a sex starved sailor given the privilege of the harem. My only defense }{\insrsid6173869 to the urge }{\insrsid8587307 is if I }{\insrsid1472566 either have a previous engagement, or I've created a child in the last few days. B}{\insrsid6173869 ecause b}{\insrsid1472566 oth Mary and Edna had decided to become pregnant, }{\insrsid6173869 and }{\insrsid1472566 I hadn't had sex since my divorce, neither they or I had a chance.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 Last but certainly not least, should I get a }{\insrsid7485239 healthy non-}{\insrsid1472566 virgin pregnant, she will have a girl. All of my daughters will be barren,}{\insrsid8587307 and will hate me}{\insrsid1472566 . My sons are worse; }{\insrsid2765713 their DNA will induce a rage if they ever encounter me, and }{\insrsid1472566 they'll try to kill me. }{\insrsid2497116 I think it has to do that in order to produce}{\insrsid1472566 a son, }{\insrsid15933494 my sperm must pass through the woman's blood, for example an intact virgin.}{\insrsid1472566 }{\insrsid2497116 Female blood destroys the 'female' type sperm.}{\insrsid6055801 \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 It's all biological, geared to the survival of the child, and the benefit of the human race. }{\insrsid4594107 Each year hundreds of millions of children are born}{\insrsid1644729 . B}{\insrsid4594107 y any criteria you chose to }{ \insrsid1644729 use, my thirty or forty }{\insrsid2497116 children }{\insrsid1644729 will be the top thirty }{\insrsid24253 or}{\insrsid1644729 f}{\insrsid24253 ort}{\insrsid1644729 y born that year. }{\insrsid24253 That'}{\insrsid1472566 s good for the s}{\insrsid9255382 pecies. Y}{\insrsid2497116 et }{\insrsid9255382 there's no danger that a 'super species' will evolve }{\insrsid24253 because the}{\insrsid3280513 y're }{\insrsid9255382 sterile.}{\insrsid3280513 \par \par The }{\insrsid9255382 child's DNA level }{\insrsid3280513 distaste for me, }{\insrsid9255382 that is }{\insrsid3280513 transmitted by the fetus to }{\insrsid1472566 the mother helps rebuild the bond to her }{\insrsid10448280 real }{\insrsid1472566 mate. The child}{\insrsid10448280 , even as a newborn}{\insrsid1472566 will be a daddy's girl, or boy in the extreme.}{\insrsid10448280 Which also helps bond the family to give the child the }{\insrsid15817138 support it needs from a 'Daddy', that's only aided by}{\insrsid1472566 the child's extreme antipathy for me}{\insrsid3156014 . \par \par }{\insrsid1472566 It all makes perfect sense biologically, but it dooms me to a life with no companions, male or female. I'm driven to have children, to want the very best for them, to attempt to make sure that}{\insrsid15817138 they have everything they need. I yearn to be a 'Daddy'}{\insrsid1472566 yet I can have no part in raising them. }{\insrsid15817138 Could}{\insrsid1472566 there ever been a man more cursed?}{\insrsid15817138 \par \par }\pard \ql \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid9838912 {\insrsid15817138 When I awoke, I had two overwhelming needs, }{\insrsid11413995 the first was to procreate, the second was to find out if my dream was true... and if it was, some way to fix it.}{\insrsid9838912 \par \par }\pard\plain \s3\ql \li0\ri0\sb240\sa60\keepn\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\outlinelevel2\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid9838912 \b\f1\fs26\lang1033\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp1033\langfenp1033 {\insrsid9838912 \page }{\insrsid12800596 Mrs. Mary De}{ \insrsid3165342 }{\insrsid12800596 Mille:}{\insrsid6055801 \par }\pard\plain \ql \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0 \f35\fs24\lang1033\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp1033\langfenp1033 {\insrsid12800596 \par }{\insrsid3165342 It is extremely painful to remember what happen that night in }{\insrsid5771061 our}{\insrsid3165342 den. I've always thought of myself as a moral woman. I've had my lapses, I'm }{\insrsid421195 thirty-four and my daughter is almost eighteen. Still, despite all the problems}{\insrsid530551 ,}{\insrsid421195 my husband and I have been happily married for eighteen years. I'm not sure that our marriage will survive to our nineteenth }{ \insrsid9989957 anniversary. I desperately wanted another baby; I just never thought that I'd ever be an unwed mother... }{\insrsid9189718 \par }{\insrsid5771061 \par }{\insrsid530551 I h}{\insrsid8863414 ad known my husband all my life, but h}{\insrsid530551 e didn't }{\insrsid7083791 know I existed until I seduced him when I was sixteen}{\insrsid851996 and he was twenty-two}{\insrsid8863414 . We both lived in River Oaks}{\insrsid7083791 , one of the wealthier sections of Houston. He was the local golden boy. }{\insrsid12471521 He went to }{\insrsid8863414 the exclusive }{\insrsid12471521 The Kink}{\insrsid851996 aid }{\insrsid12471521 School and was a senior when I wa}{\insrsid8863414 s in seventh grade. He was all-}{\insrsid12471521 everything, and of course}{\insrsid8863414 ,}{\insrsid12471521 my fantasy. }{\insrsid8863414 After he graduated valedictorian, h}{\insrsid8275250 e played fo}{\insrsid8863414 otball at Rice. Several }{\insrsid3804038 polls selected him as an}{\insrsid8275250 all-America, but since he was in }{\insrsid5910964 ROTC,}{\insrsid8275250 he went into the Army instead of the NFL. }{\insrsid5771061 \par }{\insrsid5910964 \par He came back to Houston Christmas }{\insrsid3804038 looking like a modern day cavalier in}{\insrsid5910964 }{\insrsid3804038 hid dress mess but I managed to cat}{\insrsid6558792 c}{\insrsid3804038 h}{\insrsid5910964 his attention at one of the }{ \insrsid13126557 Christmas parties. }{\insrsid6558792 (I had what they are now calling a costume malfunction}{\insrsid10881229 , back then we called it flashing}{\insrsid6558792 .) }{\insrsid10881229 }{\insrsid13126557 I'd just turned sixteen, and was}{ \insrsid10881229 already }{\insrsid13126557 a junior at The Kinkaid.}{\insrsid8127531 (I'd }{\insrsid10881229 skipped fourth grade.}{\insrsid8127531 )}{\insrsid13126557 I told him I was a freshman at A&M and he never found out }{\insrsid10881229 any }{\insrsid2300927 different}{\insrsid13126557 until I }{\insrsid2300927 might be}{\insrsid13126557 pregnant}{\insrsid10881229 }{\insrsid2300927 three}{\insrsid10881229 weeks later}{\insrsid13126557 .}{\insrsid8127531 I know he didn't want to marry me, but I made it work. He was my sun and my moon, and I }{\insrsid2300927 by any standard,}{\insrsid12669665 we had a very happy marriage.}{\insrsid5910964 \par }{\insrsid12669665 \par The only problem was that since I'd had Kristin so very young, I had trouble getting pregnant when we decided to try again just before my thirtieth birthday. What followed were four years of frustration and tests. }{\insrsid12912782 Finally, I had micro-surgery to repair some problems with my plumbing, only to begin having wildly erratic menstrual cycles. The doctors recommend that I go on the pill for three months to see if I could get them regulated. When I met Col}{ \insrsid13444644 .}{\insrsid12912782 }{\insrsid13444644 Brown,}{\insrsid12912782 I was on my third month.}{\insrsid13444644 \par \par I've tried several times to explain my attraction to Col. Brown, and I can't. I love my husband, I would never do anything to hurt him, I'd never dreamed of being unfaithful, but }{\insrsid13064777 it }{\insrsid9974067 was like I was Cinderella and Col. Brown was the prince. Saying no simply wasn't an option.}{\insrsid12669665 \par }{\insrsid735730 \par I'd done everything I could to raise Kristin to understand the dangers of getting pregnant before she married, but when I came home from the hospital, I told her that }{\insrsid11076233 "She had the most wonderful opportunity." }{\insrsid13064777 S}{ \insrsid11076233 he was scandalized }{\insrsid6752082 by what I was saying, }{\insrsid11076233 but then she hadn't met him.}{\insrsid15686728 When I told Rodger, my husband, he thought I was playing an elaborat}{\insrsid13064777 e practical joke. He had attended several military }{\insrsid4157556 soir\'e9es where}{\insrsid13064777 }{\insrsid15686728 Col. Brown }{\insrsid4157556 was a guest of honor, and }{\insrsid15686728 knew his history.}{\insrsid4157556 He admired him imme nsely, although they'd never met personally. }{\insrsid6757 My husband isn't easily }{\insrsid5139280 impressed;}{\insrsid6757 he's built the family business to a size where he has personal meetings with Presidents, Princes and Potentates. Generally they end up marching to his drummer. When Col. Brown walked through our front door Rodger looked like he'd been pole axed. }{ \insrsid735730 \par }{\insrsid15686728 \par I wasn't surprised when Rodger }{\insrsid2426718 agreed to leave the room after Col. Brown arrived at our house. We Americans have the idea that all men are equal, and they should be as far as rights and the law }{\insrsid5139280 is}{\insrsid2426718 concerned, but Col. Brown has no equal. When I asked Rodger about it later he said, "I had always believed that if I couldn't win a fight, I could hurt the other guy enough that he'd back off. That whatever he won, would}{\insrsid5139280 n't}{ \insrsid2426718 be worth the cost }{\insrsid5139280 I'd force}{\insrsid16073300 him to }{\insrsid5139280 pay to }{\insrsid16073300 win. I}{\insrsid5139280 'd make sure the other guy knew fighting me would, at best be}{\insrsid16073300 a pyrrhic victory. When Col. Brown walked in, I knew I couldn't win, and my best shot wouldn't }{\insrsid5139280 faze}{\insrsid16073300 him. What was worse, }{\insrsid9597089 since I'd seen him in person sever al times I wasn't prepared for the force of his personality one-on-one. He was just overwhelming. I would have gone after any other many with knives, guns or brass knuckles, with him, }{\insrsid10040606 I was }{\insrsid12742140 almost }{ \insrsid10040606 ready to give support}{\insrsid12742140 him}{\insrsid10040606 . I was actually grateful that he wasn't going to make me }{\insrsid12742140 watch}{\insrsid10040606 what }{\insrsid12742140 willing to allow}{\insrsid10040606 ." \par }{\insrsid16073300 }{\insrsid15686728 \par }{\insrsid11936348 I was grateful }{\insrsid12742140 Col. Brown sent Rodger away too. }{\insrsid11936348 I was acting like a preteen around a rock star, and I didn't want my husband to see that. When Col. Brown left to get Kristin, I went upstairs to }{ \insrsid10188229 get ready. I still wasn't positive he was going to }{\insrsid12085331 be willing to }{\insrsid10188229 get me pregnant, but I wanted to be }{\insrsid3613844 prepared}{\insrsid10188229 . }{\insrsid3613844 First, I showered, and }{ \insrsid4920641 I took my time}{\insrsid9857265 washing. In fact,}{\insrsid4920641 }{\insrsid10884461 I was so careful washing my twat that it almost constituted masturbation. I didn't thi nk that Col. Brown would go down on me, but I'd been smelling myself ever since I'd met him, and I wanted to be fresh. }{\insrsid9857265 I then took a long soak in a bubble bath using scented oils. I shaved my legs and under my arms}{\insrsid12085331 . F}{\insrsid9857265 or the first time, I was tempted to shave my twat. Roger had asked me to do that once, but I had resisted. I had a horror of being in a car accident and having someone else see me that way, and yes my mother always insisted that I have clean underwear o n before I left the house.}{\insrsid1854416 I actually had the razor poised when I decided that I didn't want Rodger to }{\insrsid12085331 know}{\insrsid1854416 that I'd done that for someone else when I wouldn't do it for him.}{\insrsid10884461 \par \par }{\insrsid10188229 After my }{\insrsid9857265 bath}{\insrsid10188229 , I redid my makeup and hair. Then I had to decide what to wear. I have a few Victoria's Secrets outfits, but }{\insrsid15423503 I didn't have the }{\insrsid12085331 courage to wear them}{\insrsid15423503 . Besides, those were for my husband and I didn't want to give that}{\insrsid12085331 , }{\insrsid15423503 even}{\insrsid12085331 to}{\insrsid15423503 Col. Brown. I thought }{\insrsid7240275 about several dresses, but I}{\insrsid15423503 want}{\insrsid7240275 ed}{\insrsid15423503 to show}{\insrsid7240275 off}{\insrsid15423503 my figure and the only ones I had that did that were }{\insrsid3146883 not something you'd wear around the house.} {\insrsid10040606 \par }{\insrsid3146883 \par }{\insrsid12010908 Finally}{\insrsid10884461 ,}{\insrsid12010908 I decided on}{\insrsid8146615 a }{\insrsid12010908 jacket and trouser outfi}{\insrsid8146615 t by }{\insrsid6769180 Bernard Zins. }{\insrsid2171177 The trousers were loden green with full leg and a regular raise waist. They didn't have pockets }{\insrsid7240275 and}{\insrsid2171177 I thought they showed that I wasn't carrying any extra weight. I chose a}{\insrsid5251532 n almost black}{ \insrsid2171177 }{\insrsid5251532 Dana Buchman pullover blouse that }{\insrsid4466028 make it clear that I wasn't wearing a bra, and would allow easy access to my very average boobs. The }{\insrsid12010908 jacket was }{\insrsid7240275 a }{ \insrsid12010908 black and white tweed with a notched}{\insrsid13439810 collar and three buttons. The jacket}{\insrsid12010908 would let me cover what the blouse showed if Col. Brown was only interested in Kristen. }{\insrsid13439810 I didn't own a thong. In the past i}{\insrsid1991024 f I didn't want to show a panty line }{\insrsid13439810 I would normally wear pantyhose. Tonight was not a night for pantyhose}{\insrsid1991024 . Feeling a bit guilty}{\insrsid13439810 ,}{ \insrsid1991024 I borrowed one of Kristin's }{\insrsid13439810 thongs. W}{\insrsid1991024 hen I finished dressing I thought I looked as good as I could}{\insrsid13439810 for someone my age}{\insrsid1991024 . I added some }{\insrsid4920641 aquamarine and diamond earrings, a wide gold bracelet and almost added a necklace and broach before I remembered that it might get in the way.}{\insrsid12010908 }{\insrsid4466028 }{\insrsid15885952 I finished the package with}{\insrsid15862674 few drops of}{\insrsid16061525 Sabi Parfum to make me }{\insrsid15885952 irresistible}{\insrsid16061525 .}{\insrsid3146883 \par }{\insrsid12275844 \par My timing was almost }{\insrsid15885952 perfect;}{\insrsid12275844 I had ju}{\insrsid12861079 st gone into the guest bedroom to turn down the sheets when I heard Kristin arrive. I called her to help me and we lit some incense sticks and a few candles. I wasn't actually that big on incense or candles, but I had a horror that Col. Brown might make our baby in our marriage bed}{\insrsid15885952 and the incense and}{\insrsid11667597 candles would be a good excuse}{\insrsid12861079 .}{\insrsid3895556 I didn't want to share that bed with anyone else. I know that sounds irrational, but somehow I was able to separate getting pregnant from lovemaking}{\insrsid11667597 and from my marriage}{\insrsid3895556 . I was doing my best to seduce the man, but I knew that after I was pregnant, I'd only want my husband.}{\insrsid15862674 }{\insrsid12275844 \par }{\insrsid15862674 \par We'd just finished when Edna}{\insrsid16061525 and Johnny arrived. Edna looked radiant}{\insrsid11667597 ,}{\insrsid16061525 as all brides look, but }{\insrsid11667597 I think the idea of creating a new life with Col. Brown}{\insrsid16061525 gave her a special glow. Johnny didn't look happy, but that was certainly understandable. It was horrible timing, but }{\insrsid9731943 that was just the way things worked out sometimes.}{\insrsid9391136 I was trying not to be discouraged}{ \insrsid9786823 by her}{\insrsid9391136 . I had no doubt that Col. Brown could get two women pregnant in one night}{\insrsid14093761 , but would he want to? Kristin had already told me that he wasn't going to be with her tonight, but what about me? I would be honored to have Edna use our house, but }{\insrsid4340020 I didn't want to be overlooked. }{\insrsid15862674 \par }{\insrsid4340020 \par I knew about men's fantasy of having two women at the same time, and I was determined that if that was the only way I could get what I wanted I would be the third wheel. }{\insrsid14710230 I was trying to visualize what that would entail when the doorbell rang. Kristin rushed to open it and I stood there in the foyer }{\insrsid1850638 as he walked in.}{\insrsid4340020 \par }{\insrsid1850638 \par I know that many women have fantasies about working in a brothel, I never have. The idea of walking out with my "sisters" to stand in front of a customer hoping to be picked is }{\insrsid354679 nightmarish. Yet that is exactly how I felt as he entered the foyer and closed the door behind him. Kristin walked over and stood by me I knew she wanted to take my hand. I on the other hand, was trying not}{\insrsid9786823 to}{\insrsid354679 do a hip thrust while pushing out my breasts. I was}{\insrsid14758145 wishing I'd worn my wonder bra, or something more daring than the }{\insrsid999043 thousand-dollar}{\insrsid14758145 outfit I had on.}{\insrsid1850638 \par }{\insrsid14758145 \par Col. Brown looked at us and he shuddered with need. I was standing there with two other women and }{\insrsid999043 suddenly }{\insrsid14758145 I felt like the most desired woman in history. }{\insrsid10761465 His need for me hit me w ith a force I couldn't comprehend. Being wanted has always turned me on, but I've never felt this }{\insrsid999043 needed}{\insrsid10761465 in my life. It seemed a life or death matter, and I knew that while this man could have }{\insrsid13370623 any woman in the world, it was me that he needed, desired. I felt my twat swell with moisture and my nipples pushed against the silk of my blouse. I walked to him and }{\insrsid6255039 I turned to jelly as }{\insrsid13370623 I felt his arms encircle me. }{\insrsid13315545 }{\insrsid14758145 \par }{\insrsid13315545 \par Just as my nipples made contact with his shirt, he thrust me away and looked disgusted. He looked at me like you might look at a strange dog's poop on your sidewalk.}{\insrsid8274274 He yelled about having sperm in me and I wanted to deny it, but Rodger and I had made love on Tuesday night. I was horrible embarrassed to admit that, but mortified to discover that it meant he wasn't going to give me a child.}{\insrsid4281452 When he talked about six days, I }{\insrsid3762312 was determined to douche in the }{\insrsid4281452 wild hope that I might be 'clean' by tomorrow before he left.}{\insrsid13315545 \par }{\insrsid4281452 \par I was so focused on that that }{\insrsid3762312 I }{\insrsid4281452 almost missed what he said next. He called me a slut, something that I'd never been called}{\insrsid3762312 ,}{\insrsid4281452 even when I was pregnant at sixteen. Then he was telling me tha}{\insrsid10758827 t I had to audition with Johnny! I was so mortified that it wasn't until after he left that the other shoe dropped for me. I was going to have to }{\insrsid3762312 ' audition'}{\insrsid10758827 in the den. The den where Rodger was watching TV!}{\insrsid4281452 \par }{\insrsid16208782 \par The others began moving towards the den, but I stood there in shock. Realizing that I needed to talk to Rodger before they arrived I asked if they knew where we could find one of the dirty movi es we'd been instructed to watch. Edna said she had a DVD in her suitcase that she'd been given as a gag gift.}{\insrsid4335717 Johnny volunteered to go get it.}{\insrsid16208782 \par }{\insrsid4335717 \par I begged Kristin and Edna to give me a few minutes with Rodger }{\insrsid3762312 alone }{\insrsid11994078 before they joined us}{\insrsid4335717 . Then I }{\insrsid11994078 hustled t}{\insrsid4335717 o see if I could get my husband to go to t}{ \insrsid11994078 he library while we used the TV room}{\insrsid4335717 . \par \par }{\insrsid3698766 When I entered I saw him staring, eyes fixed on the Fox News Network. I was afraid that he might look diminished}{\insrsid11994078 after Col. Brown}{\insrsid3698766 , but he didn't. He was the same strong man I'd married. I came over and knelt }{\insrsid11994078 down }{\insrsid3698766 beside his chair and said, "Honey, do you think you could go into the library for a little while." }{\insrsid9845819 \par \par }{\insrsid3698766 I paused trying to think of a way to explain what was happening and he answered}{\insrsid9845819 in a whisper, "I've been ordered to stay here and be quiet, I won't leave unless he changes those orders. Surly there are enough rooms for you to use without coming in here. Is he going to give Kristin a baby too?"}{\insrsid4335717 \par }{\insrsid9845819 \par I felt an invisible hand clutch my heart, "No, }{\insrsid1513834 he's going to wait until she's eighteen." \par \par I paused and I felt him relax a bit. Then he said, "He's a good man, but I almost wish he wouldn't wait, I'd like to see both babies born around the same time. }{\insrsid1709966 I appreciate him not taking you in our bedroom, when he comes in, I'm sure he'll let me go to bed. I'll ask if I can take }{\insrsid4215499 my 18 year old }{\insrsid4215499\charrsid4215499 Glenfiddich Scotch}{\insrsid4215499 with me."}{\insrsid9845819 \par }{\insrsid4215499 \par He looked at me intently, his eyes burning holes into my }{\insrsid12798829 brain, I hadn't been this scared or upset since that morning I'd sat on the commode about to learn I was pregnant.}{\insrsid14301274 I wanted to cry at the pain I saw in his face, but his voice was even when he continued, "Mary, I'm going to get so drunk that I won't remember a thing that happened after I got home. I know I get amorous when I get drunk, so if I do anything t o you tonight, I want you to forgive me if I don't remember it."}{\insrsid4215499 \par }{\insrsid14301274 \par }{\insrsid14371200 I could feel the tears rolling down my cheek, I tried twi ce to form words but my throat wouldn't work. I couldn't meet his eyes any more and I looked away. "I'm not going to be leaving this room tonight either. I, uh, I'm not presentable right now for him. }{\insrsid6178941 I... uh..." I broke down crying and Rodger picked me with his incredible strength and set me gently onto his lap.}{\insrsid14301274 \par }{\insrsid6178941 \par Wrapping his arms around me he said gently, "Is it something we can fix? }{\insrsid12996550 Will he come back for you?" I nodded my head }{\insrsid5772772 still }{\insrsid12996550 unable to speak. Rodger voice showed relief, "}{\insrsid6178941 I've got to say I'm glad he's no}{\insrsid12996550 t going to be with you tonight. I'll make it a point to travel a lot in the next couple of months that'll make it a lot easier on me}{\insrsid3606657 too}{\insrsid12996550 . I don't want to know when, I'm not }{\insrsid3606657 it's going to happen}{\insrsid529772 , but it'll be easier if I can pretend it never happened."}{\insrsid6178941 \par }{\insrsid529772 \par My heart was breaking and my soft sobs turned to horrible }{\insrsid3606657 wracking }{\insrsid529772 boohoos, great gasping things that would have been melodramatic if my pain had been any less.}{\insrsid11888133 "Rodger," I managed at last gaining a small measure of control, "He's going to give Edna a baby. He feels terrible about doing that to Johnny on his wedding ni}{\insrsid11302277 ght, and so he's give Johnny me, in here!}{\insrsid11888133 He thinks I'm a slut!}{\insrsid11302277 " \par \par I felt every muscle in Rodger's body tighten, and I heard a growl of pain and fury deep in his chest. I felt his body }{\insrsid3606657 prepare}{\insrsid11302277 to bound from his easy chair and I }{\insrsid12020019 automatically }{\insrsid11302277 roll }{\insrsid12020019 ed}{\insrsid11302277 out of it so he could. }{\insrsid4522647 He began to hyperventilate}{\insrsid12020019 as he struggled to rise. I threw myself }{\insrsid4522647 to my knees beside his chair. I took his right hand in mine and bathed it in my tears. "Please don't Rodger, I don't want to}{\insrsid12730078 lose you." }{\insrsid12020019 }{\insrsid12730078 I managed to get out my chest heaving as I cried.}{ \insrsid12020019 I could stand for him to blame himself }{\insrsid7433393 for his inability to act.}{\insrsid12730078 \par \par I knew every fiber of his being wanted to challenge Col. Brown and we both knew that would be fruitless. It would only humiliate him more than what was already happing. It wasn't until much later than we realized that }{\insrsid11605023 had he challenged Col Brown would have cancelled his orders. . }{\insrsid529772 \par }{\insrsid5186096 \par I'd like to think that I might have come to my sense and }{\insrsid7433393 helped}{\insrsid5186096 Rodger, but at that moment Kristin, Edna and Johnny came into the room. }{\insrsid7433393 Carefully ignoring Rodger and me,}{\insrsid5186096 the newly weds sat on the couch between the two easy chairs in our home theater}{\insrsid7433393 room}{\insrsid5186096 . }{\insrsid2826068 I went to the bathroom and tried to repair my makeup while Kristin got everything set up to play the DVD.}{ \insrsid5186096 \par }{\insrsid2826068 \par My tears under control, but my makeup hopeless I went to my recliner }{\insrsid7433393 to}{\insrsid2826068 the left}{\insrsid7433393 of the couch}{\insrsid6358298 ,}{\insrsid2826068 carefully not looking at the three on the couch or Ro dger in his recliner on the }{\insrsid6358298 other}{\insrsid2826068 side.}{\insrsid2709096 The "movie" started and it was as bad as you }{\insrsid6358298 might}{\insrsid2709096 expect. It was triple X and thankfully the dialogue was skimpy at best. It mostly consisted of a couple trying to see just how many positions they could try out. As a honeymoon gag it was perfect, as something to watch in that situation it was horrible.}{\insrsid2826068 \par }{\insrsid2709096 \par }{\insrsid13454743 I couldn't help but see, out of the corner of my eye, that Edna and Johnny were getting into it. His hands were roaming}{\insrsid8089307 ,}{\insrsid13454743 }{\insrsid8089307 but carefully}{\insrsid13454743 {\*\bkmkstart reb} {\*\bkmkend reb} above the waist. She had opened her blouse and unhooked her bra. Even doing my best not to watch, it was far more erotic than what was on our wide screen.}{\insrsid2709096 \par }{\insrsid13459729 \par Even if I hadn't been able to see it, no one could miss the sounds as he began to suckle her. I heard him ask if she could cum from what he was doing and she shook her head. I couldn't hear what he whispered but she shook her head again. There was more discussion and I heard him say, "Please I want you to cum for me before you go to him." \par }{\insrsid14225406 \par The sounds of his suckling st arted again and Edna added new sounds of her own passion. I glanced over and saw that she was using her own hand to stimulate herself through her pants. I turned to watch, not because of any voyeuristic desire, but because I knew }{\insrsid3895648 it would be seconds before I was take her place. She shuddered and pushed Johnny away. I was almost certain she hadn't had an orgasm}{\insrsid11873340 , but she }{\insrsid927036 wanted}{\insrsid11873340 to get away from Johnny before he got too turned on. She couldn\rquote t take any chances that a premature release might contaminate her with his sperm. \par \par She shot me a look of pain}{\insrsid927036 ,}{\insrsid11873340 then a silent plea that I wasn't sure I understood. I knew she didn't want me to be with Johnny, but I think she wanted him to be so occupied that he wouldn't think about what she was doing upstairs.}{\insrsid1597196 I tried to convey in my smile that while I was going to do this, I had no desire for her husband. Aloud I said, "Edna, I think that perhaps you might be more comfortable waiting in my chair, why don't we switch places.}{\insrsid8599530 " \par \par I didn't look at Rodger, but I didn't have to to se}{\insrsid927036 e the tears on his cheeks. I had}{\insrsid8599530 never seen Rodger cry and it was like a knife twisting in}{\insrsid9138585 my}{\insrsid8599530 gut}{\insrsid9138585 s}{ \insrsid8599530 rolling my intestines into knots.}{\insrsid1449621 He was carefully centering his entire attention on the TV, but when I lowered my footrest to get out of my recliner}{\insrsid7143711 , I saw him squeeze his eyes shut.}{ \insrsid14225406 \par }{\insrsid12071697 \par Edna had been sitting in the middle of the couch next to Kristin. I couldn\rquote t do that and motioned for Johnny to move over letting me sit next to what was now Kristin's chair. He reached over, squeezed Kristin's han d and made a space for me to sit next to him. \par }{\insrsid9138585 \par I was only thirty-four, but Johnny had been }{\insrsid4074105 coming }{\insrsid9138585 over to our house since he was }{\insrsid4074105 in pre-school}{\insrsid9138585 . Edna and Kristin had been friends and soccer teammates forever. Edna and Johnny were }{\insrsid8543506 only }{\insrsid9138585 a year ahead of Kristin in school,}{\insrsid8543506 }{\insrsid3474651 and}{\insrsid1731059 }{\insrsid8543506 despite what}{ \insrsid1731059 I'd just seen, I couldn't think of him as anything other than the little kid I'd made jelly sandwiches. I couldn't believe that I was sitting down next to him to be a wife substitute.}{\insrsid9138585 \par }{\insrsid1731059 \par It wasn't unti}{\insrsid3474651 l that second that I remembered that}{\insrsid1731059 Col. Brown had said he wanted me "}{\insrsid16141600 leaking from all three places.}{\insrsid1731059 "}{\insrsid16141600 or he wouldn't be back for me or for Kristin. I do oral for Rodger all the time. }{\insrsid5324057 I've never let him come in my mouth, and I don't do deep throat. I tried once but I ended up thro}{\insrsid4328988 wing up. Still, }{\insrsid5324057 as long}{\insrsid854596 as he doesn't force}{\insrsid4328988 it too}{\insrsid854596 deep}{\insrsid4328988 ,}{\insrsid854596 I enjoy it. I l}{\insrsid4328988 ike the way it gets him excited. My girlfriends think it's odd that}{\insrsid16141600 I don't like }{\insrsid4074105 him}{\insrsid16141600 to go down on me. I'm }{\insrsid5324057 so}{\insrsid16141600 sensitive down there }{\insrsid5324057 that}{\insrsid16141600 }{\insrsid8605378 his tongue tickles me, }{\insrsid4074105 and I'm }{ \insrsid3752821 so }{\insrsid4074105 scared I might pee on }{\insrsid3752821 him; it makes me a nervous wreck}{\insrsid8605378 . }{\insrsid1731059 \par }{\insrsid8605378 \par Now, I was goi}{\insrsid854596 ng to have to let Johnny cum in my mouth}{\insrsid8605378 ,}{\insrsid4354363 and}{\insrsid8605378 someth}{\insrsid3752821 ing I've never done with Rodger---}{\insrsid8605378 anal}{\insrsid3752821 !}{\insrsid8605378 I }{ \insrsid3752821 did}{\insrsid8605378 let him try }{\insrsid11102060 once, but it hurt }{\insrsid4354363 me }{\insrsid11102060 so much}{\insrsid3752821 , even}{\insrsid11102060 before he got it in that he stopped without my asking. I was so grateful,}{ \insrsid4354363 }{\insrsid662996 his}{\insrsid4354363 concern for my feeling}{\insrsid662996 s is one of the things I love}{\insrsid4354363 about him. N}{\insrsid11102060 ow I was going to have to }{\insrsid4354363 accept that pain from Johnny}{ \insrsid662996 . What's more I was going to have to do it}{\insrsid11102060 with my husband in the same room. }{\insrsid662996 Somehow, }{\insrsid4354363 I }{\insrsid11102060 was going to have to find a way to keep from }{\insrsid4354363 showing that pain or it}{\insrsid11102060 would kill Rodger}{\insrsid662996 , or he'd kill Johnny!}{\insrsid8605378 \par }{\insrsid7156590 \par We sat on the couch for several minutes watching the DVD. It was set to repeat, but was so monotonous that I wasn't sure if it had yet. Johnny's hands were in his laps and mine were in mine. I was so }{\insrsid4074105 upset }{\insrsid7951181 just thinking }{\insrsid4074105 about}{\insrsid7156590 what I had to do}{\insrsid7951181 ,}{\insrsid7156590 that I was almost trembling. }{\insrsid7951181 Because I was}{\insrsid7156590 }{\insrsid4074105 distracted}{\insrsid7951181 ,}{\insrsid7156590 it took me several minutes to realized that Johnny was trying to edge away from me}{\insrsid7951181 , }{\insrsid7156590 our hips weren't touching}{\insrsid7951181 anymore}{\insrsid7156590 . \par }{\insrsid1247078 \par I'm almost}{\insrsid7951181 never an aggressor with Rodger. }{\insrsid1247078 I don't have to be. Frankly, I love }{\insrsid920381 the }{\insrsid1247078 feeling }{\insrsid5383116 of being }{\insrsid1247078 wanted and }{\insrsid5383116 I always respond to }{\insrsid920381 it}{\insrsid5383116 . I took a deep breath, and shifted,}{\insrsid920381 trying not to let Kristin see what I was doing.}{\insrsid5383116 There was}{\insrsid9469333 no}{\insrsid5383116 way I could make mad }{ \insrsid8128237 unrestrained sex, much less }{\insrsid9469333 wild if }{\insrsid8128237 unwanted adultery}{\insrsid9469333 ,}{\insrsid8128237 with my daughter sitting }{\insrsid9469333 on the same couch with}{\insrsid8128237 me. "Kristin, do you think that you could bring your father that special bottle of Scotch from the }{\insrsid6237230 bar? The one in the round tube, and while you're up would you bring me a light blanket? I'm afraid I'm a little cold. And, uh, you might want to bring yourself a cushion, I'm feeling a bit tired and I might stretch out here on the couch.}{ \insrsid7144875 "}{\insrsid1247078 \par }{\insrsid3088761 \par It was the thinnest fiction, but it was the best I could do. I'd never seen Rodger drink to get drunk, but I hopped it wouldn't take him long. I }{\insrsid12734665 decided }{\insrsid3088761 we'd wait until he passed out, }{\insrsid8739374 and Edna left. E}{\insrsid12734665 ven if}{\insrsid8734742 Kristin }{\insrsid12734665 was still in the same room}{\insrsid8739374 , }{\insrsid8734742 I could use the blanket to hid}{\insrsid8739374 e}{\insrsid8734742 what I was doing from her.}{ \insrsid3088761 \par }{\insrsid3493538 \par What I didn't expect was for Johnny to lean over a whisper him my ear, "Mrs. D, I hate what I'm going }{\insrsid9269557 to do. }{\insrsid3493538 I don't ever want another woman except Edna, but he told me }{\insrsid9269557 I have to use you when I want Edna, }{\insrsid8739374 that }{\insrsid9269557 I have to cum in you. This is making me sick at my stomach, especially in }{\insrsid8739374 to do it }{\insrsid9269557 fron}{\insrsid8739374 t of Mr. D and Edna}{ \insrsid9269557 but I don't have a choice.}{\insrsid8787871 " He made a sound that half a choke and half a sob, "}{\insrsid8739374 Him w}{\insrsid8787871 anting Edna makes me kind of proud in a }{\insrsid8739374 strange }{\insrsid8787871 way, and we wanted children right away. It's why we were getting married so young, }{\insrsid11239263 with our trust funds, it's not like we have to wait until I can earn a living}{\insrsid10289949 . I'm sorry as hell about our wedding night,}{ \insrsid11239263 and }{\insrsid10421713 I resent that he made me come here with her, but this... with you, }{\insrsid10289949 is sick, it's like doing it with }{\insrsid811564 my mom."}{\insrsid3493538 \par }{\insrsid811564 \par I understood exactly what he was saying, and would have }{\insrsid10421713 told him so,}{\insrsid811564 I wasn't holding my tongue between my teeth to avoid making a sound. As soon as he'd }{\insrsid2638041 moved to whisper in my ear}{\insrsid811564 , his hand had moved to cup my }{\insrsid2638041 right breast. }{\insrsid4939020 When he}{\insrsid7421632 finished talking, he}{\insrsid4939020 moved down to kiss my neck}{\insrsid7421632 . At the touch of his lips}{\insrsid4939020 I jumped so hard I almost bit }{\insrsid7421632 my}{\insrsid4939020 tongue off. I was as rigid as a board, and I felt like if I moved I'd shatter shooting splinters all over the room.}{\insrsid924129 I turned my head fractionally and I could see the muscles in Rodgers jaw clench and unclench. }{\insrsid811564 \par }{\insrsid924129 \par My right hand flew to cover my mouth, }{\insrsid14227715 like a little girl who accidentally said a bad word. Although }{\insrsid7421632 Rodger}{\insrsid14227715 was staring straight ahead}{\insrsid7421632 ,}{\insrsid14227715 I know he was watching. His lips began to move and I knew he was cursing under his breath. He'd been told to be quiet and he was following orders}{\insrsid16451886 , but he was scaring me. Johnny began to fon}{\insrsid7421632 dle my breast and my nipple. }{\insrsid14116636 }{\insrsid7421632 Because of}{\insrsid16451886 the coolness of the room}{\insrsid7421632 that nipple was already hard.}{\insrsid14116636 I couldn't bear the thought that Rodger might think I was responding to Johnny}{\insrsid16451886 .}{\insrsid10436162 Johnny was trying to be sexy, but while he wasn't hurting}{\insrsid3829957 me}{\insrsid10436162 , }{\insrsid3829957 it felt like the technician positioning me for my}{\insrsid10436162 last mammogram. }{\insrsid4926229 He kissed my neck, right below my ear, a place I've hated to be kissed since a boy}{\insrsid3829957 ,}{\insrsid4926229 whose name I've mercifully forgotten}{\insrsid3829957 ,}{\insrsid4926229 licked me there in the sixth grade. At that time I'd run screaming to the teacher for }{\insrsid5326348 a}{\insrsid4926229 tow}{\insrsid5326348 el to wipe off the germs. With Johnny, it made my skin crawl and I wanted to turn and bite his head off.}{\insrsid924129 \par }{\insrsid5326348 \par I took a deep mental breath. This wasn't going to }{\insrsid14242303 work}{\insrsid5326348 , I not only had to get very intimate, I had to do a good job. }{\insrsid5324622 Johnny was enough of a gentleman that he'd no doubt be very complimentary of my "performance" even if I acted like a dead log. }{\insrsid14242303 However, }{\insrsid5324622 I knew right down to my bones that he would be honest}{\insrsid9906879 ,}{ \insrsid5324622 to a fault}{\insrsid9906879 , when he answered}{\insrsid5324622 questions by Col. Brown, no matter what }{\insrsid14242303 its effect on Kristin and me}{\insrsid5324622 .}{\insrsid9906879 I'd never been good at faking }{ \insrsid14242303 passion;}{\insrsid9906879 Rodger was so good I didn't have to. He could still make me wet just by }{\insrsid14490872 locking }{\insrsid9906879 eyes and cocking an eyebrow wickedly.}{\insrsid5326348 \par }{\insrsid14490872 \par I suddenly had a horrible image of what my future would be like if I were to go through with all this only to have Col. Brown use my lack of enthusiasm as a reason not to give Kristin and me what we wanted.}{\insrsid15098696 The thought didn't do a thing for my passion but it did wonders for my }{\insrsid4653904 motivation}{\insrsid15098696 . Rodger could o nly forgive what I was doing if we won in the end. I glanced at him again, and he was the picture of a man absorbed in }{\insrsid7275061 a TV show --- except for those muscles clenching and un-clenching in his jaw. I used my right hand to adjust my jacket to }{\insrsid4653904 shield}{\insrsid7275061 what J ohnny was doing to my breast. It was the smallest of fig leaves, but it let me pretend that Rodger didn't see}{\insrsid4653904 .}{\insrsid7275061 I bit my lower lip and tried to }{\insrsid13381429 enjoy the mauling of my boob. \par \par It only took a second to realize that would never work. Johnny was giggling }{\insrsid4653904 my boob}{\insrsid13381429 like it molded }{\insrsid8339800 Jell-O}{\insrsid13381429 . I}{\insrsid8339800 pressed my jacket into his hand, forcing him to stop playing with me like the kid he was. His response was to pinch my nipple, something else that I hate. }{\insrsid6892278 They are so sensitive }{\insrsid8339800 I can barely stand to have Rodger lick them. I love the feeling when }{\insrsid3346146 he takes in a mouthful of me and that sort of hard contact, but pinching them is just painful, not sexy. I couldn't }{\insrsid6892278 contain}{\insrsid3346146 a small yelp and I saw Rodger whip his head around}{\insrsid6892278 , his eyes}{\insrsid3346146 bor}{\insrsid6892278 ing}{\insrsid3346146 holes into Johnny. He didn't say anything, he just stared }{\insrsid1707284 hard, his eyes narrowing, his }{ \insrsid6892278 lips thinning}{\insrsid1707284 . I didn't have to hear him the words 'That's my woman you're manhandling and if you hurt her you'll answer to me.' To get the message loud and clear. I felt Johnny tense and I heard him swallow hard.}{ \insrsid4422145 I had to grab his hand to keep him from moving it off my breast.}{\insrsid14490872 \par }{\insrsid4422145 \par When I did}{\insrsid16607460 ,}{\insrsid4422145 I saw Rodger nod curtly to Johnny}{\insrsid16607460 turn back}{\insrsid4422145 and resume his fascination with the second or third showing of the porn DVD.}{\insrsid6238785 Johnny evidently decided that I wasn't a toy and unceremoniously }{\insrsid16607460 and a bit defiantly }{\insrsid6238785 moved his hand from my breast to my legs. I had them crossed but he pushed his hand between them a few inches below my crotch.}{\insrsid4018683 }{ \insrsid7028531 The last thing I needed was for}{\insrsid4018683 Johnny}{\insrsid7028531 to take out his}{\insrsid4018683 anger at Rodger's rebuke on me. }{\insrsid7028531 As much as }{\insrsid4018683 I }{\insrsid7028531 was determined }{ \insrsid4018683 that we would never see Johnny or Edna after this night, but I }{\insrsid7028531 couldn't afford for }{\insrsid14445875 the two men to erupt into open warfare}{\insrsid4018683 . \par \par }{\insrsid9637720 As Johnny pushed harder }{\insrsid10421852 I u}{\insrsid9637720 ncrossed my legs and allowed his hand}{\insrsid10421852 to shoot up and cup my mound. He was gouging me, and it was very uncomfortable. }{\insrsid9637720 I felt my face turn scarlet }{\insrsid7286518 when Rodger's body language let me know he was watching that hand touch me where no one but Rodger had ever touched me. }{\insrsid10421852 I'm not sure what I would have done if Kristin hadn't }{ \insrsid7286518 finally gotten}{\insrsid10421852 back with Rodger's Scotch and a light blanket for me. She hadn't brought a cushion for herself}{\insrsid3949391 , }{\insrsid7286518 instead she}{\insrsid3949391 had a small pillow and second light blanket. She wrapped herself up, turned her back to us and }{\insrsid15357937 pretended }{\insrsid3949391 to be trying to go to sleep.}{\insrsid12151538 For the first time since Johnny had touched me, I looked over at Edna. She had tears streaming down her face and mouthed "sorry" when she saw me looking at her.}{\insrsid4422145 \par }{\insrsid12151538 \par Johnny had his back to her but something }{\insrsid15357937 reaction }{\insrsid12151538 from me }{\insrsid10698166 must have let him know}{\insrsid6643233 what Edna was doing. He}{\insrsid12151538 turned and looked at her. She }{\insrsid10698166 whispered, "Not like that Johnny, Mrs. D doesn't deserve that, don't make it harder on her. You understand what I need to do, I understand what you need to do}{\insrsid15357937 , and what she has to do for Kristin}{\insrsid10698166 . It's not her fault."}{\insrsid15357937 Johnny actually blushed}{\insrsid4670884 , the pressure on my twat stopped being hostilw}{\insrsid10698166 \par \par }{\insrsid13186137 Twisting so I had my back to my husband I covered us both in the blanket then I pulled him to me and gave him the best kiss I had. I let my tongue slip between his lips and }{\insrsid1795058 tenderly explored his mouth. When his tongue responded I did my best to caress it. Steeling my nerve, I moved my right hand down to his crotch and I felt his erection. He broke our kiss and gave me the funniest expression. It took me sever al seconds to understand.}{\insrsid4751181 I leaned into him, pressed my mouth to his ear and }{\insrsid4670884 whispered so that only he could hear}{\insrsid4751181 , "It's very nice, }{\insrsid12020319 I'm going to enjoy my time with this."}{ \insrsid4670884 I gave it a gentle squeeze.}{\insrsid12151538 \par }{\insrsid12020319 \par I felt him relax. }{\insrsid12218097 It struck me}{\insrsid12020319 that Col. Brown had said }{\insrsid12218097 I}{\insrsid12020319 was a slut. Johnny had no way of knowing that this was only the second penis I had ever taken into my hand. It was a little smaller than my husbands, but I had no idea if it was nice or not.}{\insrsid12396958 I whispered, "Johnny, I'm not a sl ut, I never have been, you'll be my second. I would never do this except for Col. Brown}{\insrsid12072744 , but it is going to happen so let's just make the best of it.}{\insrsid12473934 "}{\insrsid12020319 \par }{\insrsid12473934 \par I felt him relax a little more, and his }{\insrsid12218097 finger s}{\insrsid16529100 earched for my slit through my designer slacks}{\insrsid12473934 . }{\insrsid16529100 Now,}{\insrsid12473934 his touch was different... firm but gentle.}{ \insrsid14501423 I sighed very softly, I wasn't being turned on yet, but at least he'd stopped turning me off.}{\insrsid6818188 I sensed motion behind me and }{\insrsid16529100 twisted}{\insrsid6818188 just enough to see my husband take anot}{ \insrsid6176585 her long swig from his bottle. He wasn't chugging it, but it was heck of a way to tr}{\insrsid16604282 eat hundred dollar a bottle Scot}{\insrsid6176585 ch.}{\insrsid12473934 \par }{\insrsid6176585 \par Johnny snaked his other arm around behind me, pulling me too him}{\insrsid16604282 . }{\insrsid3374173 I felt it move under my blouse and cup the same breast he'd mauled earlier. This touch was }{\insrsid16529100 also }{\insrsid3374173 different, he was taking my measure as a woman. His hand was warm and his touch was sure. }{\insrsid70072 His eyes met mine and they let me know that he liked what I had}{\insrsid16529100 . T}{\insrsid70072 hat knowledge sent a small sexual shiver to the center of my sex.}{\insrsid14615566 We kissed again, and }{\insrsid10623129 reminded of a fire starting demonstration with flint with steel as a young girl scout.}{\insrsid14615566 }{\insrsid10623129 The leader hadn't created a single spark but a whole shower of hot embers}{\insrsid8724162 . Deep inside }{\insrsid14615566 I felt the first glow }{\insrsid11031047 growing;}{\insrsid8724162 this }{\insrsid11031047 young man, barely past the age of scouting }{\insrsid14615566 might get a}{\insrsid11031047 n in}{\insrsid14615566 decent }{\insrsid11031047 fire}{\insrsid14615566 going yet.}{\insrsid6176585\charrsid4215499 \par }}