{\rtf1\ansi\ansicpg1252\deff0\deflang2057{\fonttbl{\f0\fnil\fcharset0 Times New Roman;}{\f1\fswiss\fcharset0 Arial;}} {\*\generator Msftedit 5.41.15.1507;}\viewkind4\uc1\pard\nowidctlpar\sl240\slmult1\qj\lang1033\kerning28\f0\fs24\par Wake Up Call\par \par The phone\rquote s incessant ringing finally dragged me out of my slumber, I rolled over and fumbled the receiver to my ear,\par \ldblquote Hello,\rdblquote I yawned.\par \ldblquote Sarah?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Yes, who is this?\rdblquote \par I blearily looked at the alarm clock, ten thirty five.\par \ldblquote It\rquote s Mary.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Hi Mary.\rdblquote\par I was thinking \lquote Mary who?\rquote then recognised the voice, Mary Jones, my husband\rquote s secretary.\par \ldblquote What\rquote s wrong, has something happened to Mike?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote No, nothing like that, we need to talk, be at the Lotus Blossom restaurant at twelve.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Talk? What about?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote I can\rquote t explain now, twelve o\rquote clock, it\rquote s important.\rdblquote\par I heard the click as she broke the connection and was left holding the phone while I tried to get my mind working.\par I stumbled into the bathroom, used the toilet then stood at the sink cleaning my teeth to get rid of the aftertaste of last night\rquote s wine. My mind was still puzzling over what it might be that Mary needed to speak to me about. I had met her four or five times at Mike\rquote s office parties, she had been his secretary for about five years or so but she and I had hardly ever spoken. I always called Mike on his mobile rather than go through his office phone. I couldn\rquote t think of any reason she would need to call me like this. I showered quickly, dressed and headed downstairs for coffee and aspirin. By eleven thirty I was on my way to town, my headache was just about clear by now. I found the restaurant and parked, flipping down the sun visor I checked myself in the mirror, I looked rough, last night\rquote s party hadn\rquote t finished until two, I hadn\rquote t got to bed until nearly four. Getting in without waking Mike up wasn\rquote t easy, fortunately we had been sleeping in separate bedrooms for about six months. At first when he had a bad cold, somehow we just seemed to have kept it up since then, he claimed he was sleeping better and god knows I didn\rquote t miss his snoring. I got my sunglasses out of the glove box, they hid the worst of the bags under my eyes, I could claim to have a migraine if Mary asked about them.\par Walking into the restaurant I saw her sitting at a small table near the back of the restaurant, walking across I slipped into a seat opposite her. I could see her looking me over, taking in my less than perfect appearance.\par \ldblquote Thank you for coming,\rdblquote she said.\par A waiter came scurrying across and I took refuge in the menu for a moment. Once we had ordered and were alone again I asked,\par \ldblquote What did you want to talk to me about?\rdblquote\par She looked nervous for a moment then visibly forced herself to begin,\par \ldblquote Is everything alright between you and Mike?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Of course it is, why wouldn\rquote t it be?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote It\rquote s Mike, he\rquote s changed.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote What do you mean?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote It started about six months ago, he started coming into the office earlier and leaving later. He got much moodier too, a few times he really snapped at me about things and he\rquote s never done that, not once in the seven years I\rquote ve been his secretary.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Perhaps he\rquote s going through the change,\rdblquote I joked.\par She smiled slightly,\par \ldblquote No, it\rquote s something more than that.\rdblquote\par She was about to continue when we were interrupted by our food arriving, for a few minutes we were busy eating. I don\rquote t usually eat during the day and just picked at my food, my stomach was still bloated from last night\rquote s drinking and the taste of the Chinese food started an acid churning inside me. Mary pushed her plate to one side and sat back in her chair. I pushed my mostly untouched meal aside and lit a cigarette.\par \ldblquote Mike has that seminar next week,\rdblquote she began, \ldblquote the one he goes to every year.\rdblquote\par I nodded, it didn\rquote t seem a year since the last one, it was something his company did to get all the staff from different branches to meet up. It was partly training and stuff but mostly a social event, golf days and so on. I had been along with Mike a few times but not for the last couple of years.\par \ldblquote Is it that time already?\rdblquote I asked lightly.\par \ldblquote Yes, only this time he\rquote s asked me to go with him.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote He has? Why?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote He said he was fed up of being the only single man there and would enjoy my company. I said he should take his wife and he just gave a hollow laugh.\rdblquote\par I was staggered and asked the first question that popped into my mind,\par \ldblquote Are you and Mike having an affair?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote No. I\rquote d never get involved with a married man. I like Mike, working for him all these yeas has brought us quite close I suppose but we have never seen each other outside of work.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote So why did he ask you to go away with him?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote I think you need to ask him that. I know something is wrong between you two, I can tell, I just thought you should know so you can try and do something about it.\rdblquote\par I stubbed my cigarette out and called for the bill,\par \ldblquote I\rquote m sure you are making a mountain out of a molehill Mary, I\rquote ll talk to Mike this evening and see what the problem is.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote I think you should, he\rquote s too good a man to lose.\rdblquote\par I pondered her last remark as I drove home. I thought she was being overly dramatic, there was no way Mike could leave me, he loved me too much. I\rquote d talk to him tonight, see what was going on. I went into town and spent the afternoon shopping.\par When I pulled up at home Mike\rquote s car wasn\rquote t there, I glanced at the clock on the dashboard, odd I thought, six thirty and he\rquote s still not home. I was in the kitchen making coffee when I heard his car pull up.\par \ldblquote I\rquote m home,\rdblquote he shouted as he dropped his briefcase and hung his coat up.\par \ldblquote I\rquote m just making coffee, I\rquote ll bring it through.\rdblquote\par I heard him walk into the lounge and then the unmistakable sound of him falling onto the sofa. I carried the coffees through and sat down opposite him,\par \ldblquote Rough day?\rdblquote I asked.\par \ldblquote Just the usual, how about you?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote I had an odd day, your secretary called me this morning.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Mary called you, what for?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote She wanted to meet for lunch, she\rquote s worried about you. Why did you invite her to the seminar with you?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote I thought she would enjoy it, give her a chance to put faces to some of the people she deals with on the phone, plus I enjoy her company.\rdblquote \par \ldblquote She thought it was because there was something wrong between us.\rdblquote\par He laughed bitterly,\par \ldblquote She always has been good at putting two and two together.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote What do you mean?\rdblquote\par He thought for a moment then murmured to himself,\par \ldblquote I suppose now is as good a time as any.\rdblquote\par He stood up and went into the hallway then came back carrying his briefcase, he placed it on the table, opened it and handed me a large envelope.\par \ldblquote I was going to leave this for you when I went on the seminar but you might as well read it now.\rdblquote\par His tone of voice had turned cold and impersonal, I reached out with a trembling hand and took the envelope. Opening it I drew out a single sheet of paper folded in half. Unfolding it I began to read,\par \par \i Sarah,\par \tab There is no easy way for me to say this, I don\rquote t have the strength to do this face to face I\rquote m afraid so I am leaving this letter instead.\par \tab I have been offered and accepted a promotion to area manager which will give me a large pay rise but it will mean moving to the south coast. I know things have been difficult between us lately so I am offering you a choice. \par \tab You can stay here, we will have to sell the house, split the proceeds and get a divorce. I will continue to meet your expenses and keep your allowance as it is now for twelve months and subsequently as deemed fair in the divorce settlement.\par \tab Or you can come with me, we will sell up, move and try to make a fresh start.\par \tab I suppose really I am asking you to choose between me and Alan. Yes I know about him, I have done for months. I probably should be angrier but maybe I haven\rquote t been as good a husband as I might have been, there are always faults on both sides. You have been discreet I\rquote ll give you that much.\par \tab I will be away for four days and back on Friday, please think this over carefully, I will expect a decision from you then.\par \par Mike\par \par \i0 I read the letter twice then sat back stunned. Mike was sitting quietly, patiently waiting for me to say something.\par \ldblquote How did you find out?\rdblquote I asked quietly.\par He sighed,\par \ldblquote I said you had been discreet, and you were, you gave it away on the night of our anniversary.\rdblquote\par I thought back, on our anniversary we had gone out for dinner, just the two of us. As luck would have it Alan had been in the restaurant, not by arrangement just one of those little accidents in life. Alan and I were still in the early stages of our affair then, I remembered going to the ladies and calling him on my mobile while I was gone.\par \ldblquote When you called him on your mobile?\rdblquote Mike reminded me. \ldblquote I was sitting less than ten feet from him, I could hear his end of the conversation. I wasn\rquote t listening at first but he said my name and that caught my attention.\rdblquote\par It was all coming back to me, Alan had said something like \rquote what about Mike?\rquote\par \ldblquote After hearing my name I couldn\rquote t help listening,\rdblquote Mike continued. \ldblquote I heard him say \rquote two o\rquote clock, my office\rquote so I called in sick the next day and followed you.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote You followed me?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Yes, I\rquote m not very proud of myself for that, I kept telling myself I was being silly but I just had to. Anyway you probably know what I saw, I drove around for the rest of the day thinking, all the usual stuff, thinking about killing him, killing you, killing myself even. After that I was in denial for a bit, I almost convinced myself there was a simple explanation, that I was jumping to conclusions, I\rquote d only seen the two of you kissing after all.\rdblquote\par I remembered that day, Alan had met me in the car park outside his office, we\rquote d kissed then gone inside. \par \ldblquote It was about a week later you slipped up badly though, a Saturday night, we went to bed early and made love,\rdblquote he looked at me sadly, \ldblquote half way through you called me Alan, that\rquote s when I knew for sure.\rdblquote\par I looked at him in amazement,\par \ldblquote I did that seven months ago and you\rquote ve waited until now to tell me. Why?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote I hoped it was a short term thing, that it would just be a fling and then we would go back to normal. I moved out of our room though, I couldn\rquote t sleep with you while I knew you were still seeing him.\rdblquote\par Another piece of the puzzle dropped into place.\par \ldblquote So why this?\rdblquote I waved the letter, \ldblquote why now?\rdblquote\par He laughed bitterly again,\par \ldblquote I started avoiding you, going in to work early, staying late, even working Saturdays. Someone noticed the extra work and put me forward for promotion, I had the interview a week ago and they offered me the job yesterday.\rdblquote He sighed, \ldblquote after all these years I finally get the job I\rquote ve always wanted and it\rquote s all because you were having an affair and I couldn\rquote t trust myself to be alone with you any longer than I had to. Pretty ironic eh?\rdblquote\par I couldn\rquote t trust myself to reply so I reread the letter desperately trying to think. Then I noticed a couple of things,\par \ldblquote You wrote here that you haven\rquote t been as good a husband as you could have been, does that mean you\'85?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote No, never, I\rquote ve never even wanted to sleep with another woman, not since the day I met you.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote So what did you mean?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote I just kept thinking that it must be my fault, that if I had been a better husband, a better lover you wouldn\rquote t have had an affair, that somehow Alan was a better man than me.\rdblquote\par He was still speaking in a calm even tone, he always did, no matter what, he looked up and continued,\par \ldblquote That\rquote s one thing I never put in the letter, whatever decision you make, I need to know why, what I did wrong, how I failed you.\rdblquote\par For the first time in all the years I had known him Mike\rquote s voice faltered away from its even tone, that more than his words told me just how broken he was feeling. I could feel my own tears trickling down my cheeks. I stood up and crossed the room,\par \ldblquote Hold me please, I want to explain but I need you to hold me.\rdblquote\par He didn\rquote t reply, just held his arms wide. With a grateful sob I hurled myself into his lap feeling his strong arms enfold me. For a minute or two I just cried on his shoulder until I managed to get some self control back.\par \ldblquote You asked me why? I\rquote m not really sure there is just one simple reason, please just hear me out, I\rquote ve wanted to have this talk for so long but I\rquote ve always been too scared, now it\rquote s too late but you deserve to hear it.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Go on.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Four years ago we started trying for a baby, remember?\rdblquote\par He nodded.\par \ldblquote Last year on my twenty-eighth birthday I went to the doctors for some tests, I got the result a week or two later. It\rquote s my fault, I can\rquote t have children.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Why didn\rquote t you tell me darling, I\rquote m so sorry, I know how much you wanted them.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote I couldn\rquote t tell you, I was ashamed, I felt I\rquote d let you down, felt I\rquote d failed as a wife, failed as a woman. I wanted to tell you, so many times I almost did but somehow I just couldn\rquote t face the thought of seeing your disappointment.\rdblquote I smiled wryly, \ldblquote I did just what you did, I threw myself into my work, that\rquote s when I got the contract with Alan\rquote s firm. At first it was just business, I knew he was attracted to me but nothing happened. Then I got more and more depressed, the longer I avoided telling you the harder it got. Alan sensed something was wrong and one night he took me out to dinner to celebrate something or other, I don\rquote t even remember what. We both had too much to drink, he was charming, flirting with me all evening, making me feel good about myself for the first time in ages and we ended up in bed together. After that I really couldn\rquote t face you, I felt even more guilty. I started seeing Alan occasionally, it felt as though I could relax with him, I hadn\rquote t disappointed him, he didn\rquote t have any expectations of me. It was just easier, whenever I was with you I felt all that guilt pile up on me again.\rdblquote\par Tears were streaming down my face as I spoke, I sniffed then sat up straighter on his lap,\par \ldblquote The choices in your letter?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Yes.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote The first choice was what you thought I wanted wasn\rquote t it?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Yes.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Does that mean that the second choice is what you want?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Yes it was, I hoped that would be what you wanted too, I love you Sarah, I always have and I always will.\rdblquote\par \par --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------\par \par Epilogue - five years later.\par \par The door slammed shut behind me and I walked briskly along the sea front, turning into the park I looked around. I saw them over in the playground, Mike standing there pushing a swing and on the swing her long blonde hair flying as she swung back and forth our daughter Elena. Adopting had been Mike\rquote s idea, about six months after our move to the coast we had found her, an adorable little girl orphaned by the wars in central Europe. I could hear her shrieking with pleasure,\par \ldblquote Faster daddy, faster.\rdblquote\par I stood for a few moments just watching before walking over to them, \par \ldblquote Come on you two, time to get to the station, Aunt Mary will be arriving soon.\rdblquote\par We set off, Elena walking between us holding our hands.\par \ldblquote Mummy,\rdblquote she asked \ldblquote why do you call her Aunt Mary, she\rquote s not daddy\rquote s sister.\rdblquote\par I stopped and knelt down to look into her eyes,\par \ldblquote No, I call her Aunt Mary because a long time ago, before you came to live with us she did a very special thing for daddy and me.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote What was that?\rdblquote\par \ldblquote She made a phone call.\rdblquote\par \ldblquote Is that all? that\rquote s not very special.\rdblquote\par I stood up and looked across at Mike,\par \ldblquote This one was special, the most special phone call ever.\rdblquote\lang2057\kerning0\f1\fs20\par }