Dark Shadows

Once again it comes

                Surrounding

                Suffocating

The need presses

                Poking

                Prodding

It overwhelms

                Taunting

                Tormenting

Not this time

                Begs

                Pleads

Never again

                Refuses

                Declines

The calling

                Wanting

                Needing

Fight it

                Strong

                Firm

It glistens

                Beaconing

                Promising

Shakes head

                Can't

                Won't

Remember the relief

                Satiation

                Fulfillment

I said never again

                No

                Won't

I feel the pain

                Hurting

                Huge

It calls me

                Promising

                Relief

I have to resist

                Can't

                Refuse

But I think about it

                Consider

                Ponder

I do want it

                Need

                Desire

I have the choice

                Me

                Myself

It doesn't chose

                No

                Not

Feel its siren song

                Engulfing

                Wrapping

It's so strong

                Magnetic

                Strong

Don't weaken

                Can't

                Please

I pick it up

                Staring

                Drawn

Feel its weight

                Heavy

                Weighty

It gleams brightly

                Calling

                Welcoming

Please, not again!

                Don't

                Can't

I weaken

                Pulling

                Wanting

The first cut

                Relief

                Relax

That deep red river

                De-stress

                Calm