From: betty b 
Date: Thu Jan 4, 2001 12:56 pm
Subject: Re: [cum_on] Betty, please keep writing

Thanks for writing, Jeremy.  I am glad my account of that day last August was
what you wanted.

I still don't know if I will write any more stuff that people might find
offensive, but nobody could find what I have to write today offensive.  

My plan with the super didn't work at all.  He stopped me in the hallway and
asked me for the cheque and I got really nervous. I realIy was not mentally
prepared for it and I got all tongue-tied. I managed to get out that I would be
a couple of days late with the rent but instead of using it to blackmail me
into ... well, I don't want to say it in case that guy is reading this, but you
know, instead of demanding that, he just got mad and said that it was not
acceptible and he got me so upset that I ended up promising to get a cheque to
him yesterday.  When I went there I had some vague idea about going on my knees
and begging forgiveness but I thought he would just think I was nuts.  Anyway,
his wife answered the door so I just gave her the check and left.

I feel like such a loser!   I don't know exactly what I thought would happen
but I realized even as it was happening that I had been pretty stupid to think
he would just do exactly what I had been fantasizing about.  So now I feel like
total idiot and now that he is mad at me it would be even harder to do
something next month.  

I still want to try this, and I think if I plan it better and try to imagine
what his reactions might be, I might be able to get it to work.  If anyone has
any suggestions as to how I can get him to make me do what I want I would
really appreciate it.  

Otherwise, I will let you know how it goes if I try anything next month.  That
should also give that guy enough time to leave the mail group so he won't be
forced to read about it if I am successful.

Betty