From: Betty
Date: Fri Jul 6, 2001 12:59 pm
Subject: I guess this is it

Hi everyone

Well, I am going to do it; I am going to become my darling's personal sex
slave.  He is coming for the weekend to help me pack everything up, and then on
Sunday he is going to take me to his place.  I am really nervous.  But excited,
too.  Actually, the thought of being kept in a cage in his basement and only
taken out to be used is exciting me, now.  I don't know if I will like it when
it is real, but I guess I'll know soon enough.

He came over last night after work and I told him that I would do it and he
seemed happy, but then he just started talking about getting me ready for my
date.  I had thought we would talk about it more, but he said that I might as
well get started as his slave and ordered me to make him dinner.  It seems that
even sex slaves have to cook and clean, so maybe I am just a housewife again.

No, I guess not.  Because before he had finished eating - I didn't get to eat,
I just served him like a naked waitress - the buzzer rang and he told me to let
them up.  It was a couple, both probably in their late forties.  He was a
little guy with bad skin who looked like a biker or something and she was as
round as a beach ball.  I panicked when I saw a woman, but I didn't know what
to do.  Its weird, but I guess I am used to being naked in front of strange men
now, and having them know that I am a dirty slut, but having another woman
there was horrible.  She looked at me as if I the lowest form of life.  They
all talked about what they wanted to do, and the couple wanted me to "get them
both ready" and I suddenly realized what they wanted me to do!  I started
telling them "No", that I couldn't but my darling said that if I was going to
be a good little sex slave I would do whatever he told me.  But I still didn't
think I could do it.

Anyway, they decided I should start by getting the guy "ready" so I did it.  I
did not like doing it in front of the woman and felt humiliated.  I know, I am
supposed to like that, but I am figuring out that there are two kinds of
humiliation for me, the kind that turns me on and the kind that is just plain
humiliating, and this was the second kind.  It was awful.  Somehow, having a
woman watch me degrade myself, a fully clothed woman, just made it too
humiliating to bear.  I kept seeing myself through her eyes and what I saw was
pretty pathetic.  I don't know why what women think of me is so important, but
I guess it is.  It's like Wednesday when my boss made me blow him.  I did not
enjoy doing it because he was such a jerk, but it did not bother me.  What
bothered me was having all those women look at me like that.  Walking across
the office to his door and then walking out again with my face all messy was
one of the worst moments of my life.  Not as bad as my last day at the store,
but almost.  

Anyway, so I crawled under the kitchen table and started licking and sucking
the guy, feeling like their little fucktoy, and it made it even worse, or maybe
better, was that they all kept talking about me as if I wasn't there.  

When he said he had had enough, they tried to get me to lick her pussy, but I
couldn't.  It was just too disgusting and too humiliating.  She pulled her
skirt up and I was looking at it and I couldn't.  They kept trying to talk me
into it, but I just started crying.  Finally, my darling said that I could just
use my fingers and that seemed gross, but better than licking it, so I did it. 
It was really gross touching another woman's pussy, but at least I could do it.
 So I rubbed it and even put my finger inside her when she told me to.  That
was so gross!  They laughed at me because I guess may face showed how disgusted
I was, and she started saying mean things like calling me a little slut and a
pussy lover, and asking me how I could stand to touch it.  It all seemed to go
on forever.  She made me make her cum and then made me do it again.  Then,
finally, they told me to get her husband's cock ready again and then he got on
top of her as if he was going to fuck her but they made me actually guide it
in.  And then my darling told me to lick the guy's balls while he fucked his
wife but I couldn't get my head in there.  So they had me lie on my back and
she got on her hands and knees over me so her big black pussy was right over my
face.  The smell made me want to throw up.  Then the guy started fucking her
again and I had to lick his balls as they bounced around.  Then my darling told
me to lick the guy's cock as it went in and out, but it was all covered in her
pussy juice and I couldn't. 

Then she started licking my pussy and I just about went crazy!  That was the
first time anyone ever did that to me and whoa, did it feel good.  Maybe if my
husband had done that I would have liked sex more but all he ever wanted to do
was stick it in me and it never felt anything but uncomfortable or even
painful.  This felt like when I masturbate except a hundred times better. 
Pretty soon I was licking the guy's cock and her pussy and I didn't care what
else!  It was SO amazing!  

The guy came inside her and then pulled out and they told me to clean him up. 
It was covered in sperm and pussy juice and I cleaned it all up while she kept
me on the very edge of cumming so that I was trying to beg her except the guy
kept putting his limp cock in my mouth.

When he finally left she started asking me if I wanted to cum and I started
begging her.  It was humiliating, but that was the good kind.  But she said if
I wanted it I had to clean her up, too, and would I do that for her?  When I
agreed, she started trying to push the sperm out of her pussy.  It was pulsing
and making farting sounds, and then sperm started leaking out.  It looked so
disgusting, and I wanted it because it WAS so disgusting, so I started licking
her pussy, trying to get it as it came out.  I can't believe I was actually
licking another woman's vagina, but I did.  And it wasn't even all that bad,
once I had started.  It tasted gross, but I got used to it and even started
shoving my tongue inside her trying to get more sperm.  They were all laughing
at me for that, calling me a "cuntlicker" and stuff, but that just turned me on
more.

Then suddenly she got up and knelt over top of me and I thought she was going
to kiss me.  My darling told me to open my mouth, which I did, but I didn't
like the idea of kissing another woman.  I mean I know its stupid considering
what I had just been doing, but I didn't want to.  But then she open her mouth
and all this sperm came out and dripped into my mouth.  It took me a moment to
realize that it must have been my darling's sperm and then it seemed so
precious to me.  Maybe its just because he doesn't let me have it very often,
but I love eating his sperm.  It makes me feel... oh, I don't know,

No, actually, I do know.  I feel like I love him.  No, I think I love him all
the time.  When he lets me eat his sperm I feel as if he loves me!  And I
suddenly didn't care that she was a woman.  She had let me have his sperm and
that made me thankful to her and there was still more in her mouth so I pulled
her down and started licking it out of her mouth the same way I had from her
vagina.  I know that does not make me a lesbian, but it is very upsetting to
find that I could do those things and even enjoy them.

Anyway, this will probably be the last time I write for a while because..., oh
God, because I am going to be kept in a cage after Sunday and only let out to
be a sex slave and for housework.  I'm really scared.  But I am going to do it.

So I guess this is it.  I think Sickman will be checking this mail account, but
I won't be allowed to.  Maybe I will write again someday, if he lets me, but
until then thanks for reading, and thanks to all the people who have written
me.  

Wish me luck,

Betty